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I’ve been going to a private school for the past three years. The day my older brother, father and I came here to sign me up I seen a pale, dark haired, nerdy guy with glasses outside of the office, he seemed lost, wearing a blue hoodie and carrying a yellow salamander backpack.
I immediately had the most massive crush possible on him. I didn't even have the guts to walk up to him and say hi though. So I just left, guessing I would probably never see him again. But guess what? Guess who I got roomed with. No, not him, but his stupid-ass, music-loving, “cool kid” best friend.
But the upside is; I get to hang out with him on a regular bases. And he’s roomed with one of my best friends, so I always have a reason just to go over there to see him, without seeming too strange.
Even though I’ve been around him almost everyday for the past three years I’ve never asked him out, the most I did was accidentally flirt with him, which I covered up very well.
But I’m probably never going to ask him out, he’s told everyone, multiple times, that he is not gay, not gay at all and that him having a celebrity crush on Nic Cage for a while has nothing to do with anything.
Dave tells me that he thinks he’s actually bi but just won’t admit it. I really don’t know. But I don’t want to risk it, I don’t need it to be awkward between us. And in addition I’ve never told anyone that I’m pansexual. Even though I think everyone already knows, but they just haven't said anything about it yet… I didn’t want to say anything, just in case. Until one day:
I was studying, like I normally do every evening after school. (If I get bad grades my older brother will give a fucking speech about how I should study more, but at the same time is trying not to hurt my feelings. But he will go on, and on, and on, and on. He never shuts up! It drives everyone mad!)
Dave was having dinner with John, and John’s roommate, Gamzee. Tavros couldn't go because Vriska is always with him, and she just starts fights between him and John for fun. One of our other friends, Sollux, was supposed to be there too.
Dave had become friends with him through me. Sollux is a complete computer genius and video game addict, with an unhealthy obsession with the paranormal. Which has been going on for the past few years, ever since his girlfriend died in that accident he’s sworn her ghost has been haunting him and he’s been trying to learn as much as he can about “her world” as he calls it. I think he’s gone off the deep end but I still help him when he needs it. What are friends for after all?

Dave came back around seven, acting as nonchalant as ever, he laid down on his bed and after a minute of silence between us he said, “John told everyone he’s bi today. Thought you might want to know.”
I stopped writing and stared at my paper for a minute, making sure I heard him right. And after finding something calm to say, while my mind was screaming at me to run next door and ask him out this second, I said, in a neutral tone, “Alright, that’s fucking great for him.”
“He’s back at his dorm now. So, if you want to go talk to him you should.” He replies.
“What the fuck would I want to talk to him about!?” I turn and shout at him.
His face stays straight, “Ya know, your gay-ass feelings about him maybe.”
“HOW THE FUCK WOULD YOU KNOW ABOUT THAT!? I mean. Fuck. FUCK YOU STRIDER!” I slam my book down and leave my room, slamming the door behind me. I don’t know what I was thinking. I have no idea why I blurted that out like that. I’m the stupidest person in the goddamn fucking world!
“Hey motherfucker, what you all up and grumping about.” My stupid-ass best friend is sitting on the floor with his back leaning on the door of his dorm, that high-ass smirk plastered on his face, as usual. Holding an open bottle of that moronic soda in his hands.
“NOTHING. What the FUCK are you doing out here?” I ask.
“Just waiting for Tavros to get here. He’s planning on up and teaching me that game with the cards he likes so motherfucking much.”
“I thought John and him didn't get along… Why would he be over here if John’s still here?” I ask, honestly confused by their logic in the situation.
“Oh shit. That’s right, I’m supposed to be meeting him over at his place!” He gets up, “I gonna go, motherfucker. See ya later.” He runs off down the hall. Just then the door opens and I see that stupid-ass bucktoothed face staring at me. “Hey Karkat,” He says with a smile, “I thought I heard you out here.”
“Yeah, and I was just about to leave.” I said, still pissed off with myself.
I start to walk off but stops me. “Hey, um, if you could wait a minute I wanted to tell you something, seeing you weren't at dinner tonight I couldn't tell you there… Um—”
“What, that you’re gay, ‘cause Strider already fucking told me.” I say, taking my anger out on him.
“I’m not gay! I’m bisexual!” He yells at me.
“Do I seem like I give a fuck?!” I yell back. “Maybe if you told me first then I’d know!”
“I couldn’t! Okay?! Sorry, let’s just calm down alright?”
I sigh, “Alright. Whatever. Sorry.” I stare at the floor.
“Okay, I just wanted to say something but now I think it’s not the time… So, go back to what you were going to do and I’ll—”
“What the fuck were you going to tell me?” I interrupt. “You know I wasn't going anywhere so fucking important that I can hear your stupid fucking stories.”
“Just, um, nevermind…” He says with a slight frown.
“JUST FUCKING TELL ME!” I yell at him.
He grabs my face and kisses me quickly then lets go and runs back to his room, slamming the door behind him. I just stand there staring blankly off into space. I snap myself out of it and run over to his door, banging on it as hard at I can. “JOHN! OPEN THE DOOR!”
“John is not here right now… Leave a message after the salamander sound… Glub.” He says from the other side of the door.
“EGBERT! OPEN THE FUCKING DOOR!!” I rattle the doorknob, it's locked.
He doesn't even reply.
I stand there with my hands on the door in silence, thinking of something to say that doesn't sound fucking retarded.
A hand lands on my shoulder and pulls me away from the door. Dave walks in front of me. “Yo, John, mind opening the door for a minute?”
“Yes, I would mind. Is Karkat still there?” He asks, he sounds so worried.
“No, he’s not. But seriously, I left my phone in your dorm, I need to get in there.” He says, completely calm.
“Daaave, how did you even do that? Where is it?” I hear shuffling.
“Just let me in and I’ll get it.” He says, looking down at me. “What even happened with you and Karkles anyway?” Dave asks. I stare at the floor, hoping John won’t answer.
“I did something really stupid and probably ruined any chance with him…” He said, I heard the door click.
“Nah, I’m sure you didn’t. Don’t worry. He feels the same.” He says while backing up, pushing me forward as the door opens.
“Dave, he doesn— WHA—”
I fall through the door before John can close it in my face. Or before he can do anything else I grab his arm. “I DO FEEL THE FUCKING SAME! I JUST NEVER KNEW YOU DID! I’VE HAD A FUCKING CRUSH ON YOU SINCE THE FIRST TIME I SEEN YOU! BACK ON THE DAY I WAS SIGNING UP FOR THIS SCHOOL!” I shout my feelings at him as I stand up. “I THOUGHT YOU WERE THE MOST ADORABLE, FUCKING, THING I HAD EVER FUCKING SEEN! AND DON’T THINK FOR A SECOND *ANYTHING* WILL CHANGE THAT.”
He stood there staring at me. Dave standing there, smirking like his happy little plan just unraveled in front of his fucking eyes.
“HEY FUCKASS!” I yell at John.
He blinks “Huh…”
“YOU AND I ARE GOING TO GO OUT ON A NICE FUCKING DATE, I’LL PLAN THE GODDAMN THING. YOU JUST FUCKING SHOW UP. ALRIGHT? OKAY.” I leave his room and go back to mine. I sigh and fall into my chair and wait for my heart to calm.

Description
I’ve been going to a private school for the past three years. The day my older brother, father and I came here to sign me up I seen a pale, dark haired, nerdy guy with glasses outside of the office, he seemed lost, wearing a blue hoodie and carrying a yellow salamander backpack.
I immediately had the most massive crush possible on him. I didn't even have the guts to walk up to him and say hi though. So I just left, guessing I would probably never see him again. But guess what? Guess who I got roomed with. No, not him, but his stupid-ass, music-loving, “cool kid” best friend.
But the upside is; I get to hang out with him on a regular bases. And he’s roomed with one of my best friends, so I always have a reason just to go over there to see him, without seeming too strange.
Even though I’ve been around him almost everyday for the past three years I’ve never asked him out, the most I did was accidentally flirt with him, which I covered up very well.
But I’m probably never going to ask him out, he’s told everyone, multiple times, that he is not gay, not gay at all and that him having a celebrity crush on Nic Cage for a while has nothing to do with anything.
Dave tells me that he thinks he’s actually bi but just won’t admit it. I really don’t know. But I don’t want to risk it, I don’t need it to be awkward between us. And in addition I’ve never told anyone that I’m pansexual. Even though I think everyone already knows, but they just haven't said anything about it yet… I didn’t want to say anything, just in case. Until one day:
I was studying, like I normally do every evening after school. (If I get bad grades my older brother will give a fucking speech about how I should study more, but at the same time is trying not to hurt my feelings. But he will go on, and on, and on, and on. He never shuts up! It drives everyone mad!)
Dave was having dinner with John, and John’s roommate, Gamzee. Tavros couldn't go because Vriska is always with him, and she just starts fights between him and John for fun. One of our other friends, Sollux, was supposed to be there too.
Dave had become friends with him through me. Sollux is a complete computer genius and video game addict, with an unhealthy obsession with the paranormal. Which has been going on for the past few years, ever since his girlfriend died in that accident he’s sworn her ghost has been haunting him and he’s been trying to learn as much as he can about “her world” as he calls it. I think he’s gone off the deep end but I still help him when he needs it. What are friends for after all?

Dave came back around seven, acting as nonchalant as ever, he laid down on his bed and after a minute of silence between us he said, “John told everyone he’s bi today. Thought you might want to know.”
I stopped writing and stared at my paper for a minute, making sure I heard him right. And after finding something calm to say, while my mind was screaming at me to run next door and ask him out this second, I said, in a neutral tone, “Alright, that’s fucking great for him.”
“He’s back at his dorm now. So, if you want to go talk to him you should.” He replies.
“What the fuck would I want to talk to him about!?” I turn and shout at him.
His face stays straight, “Ya know, your gay-ass feelings about him maybe.”
“HOW THE FUCK WOULD YOU KNOW ABOUT THAT!? I mean. Fuck. FUCK YOU STRIDER!” I slam my book down and leave my room, slamming the door behind me. I don’t know what I was thinking. I have no idea why I blurted that out like that. I’m the stupidest person in the goddamn fucking world!
“Hey motherfucker, what you all up and grumping about.” My stupid-ass best friend is sitting on the floor with his back leaning on the door of his dorm, that high-ass smirk plastered on his face, as usual. Holding an open bottle of that moronic soda in his hands.
“NOTHING. What the FUCK are you doing out here?” I ask.
“Just waiting for Tavros to get here. He’s planning on up and teaching me that game with the cards he likes so motherfucking much.”
“I thought John and him didn't get along… Why would he be over here if John’s still here?” I ask, honestly confused by their logic in the situation.
“Oh shit. That’s right, I’m supposed to be meeting him over at his place!” He gets up, “I gonna go, motherfucker. See ya later.” He runs off down the hall. Just then the door opens and I see that stupid-ass bucktoothed face staring at me. “Hey Karkat,” He says with a smile, “I thought I heard you out here.”
“Yeah, and I was just about to leave.” I said, still pissed off with myself.
I start to walk off but stops me. “Hey, um, if you could wait a minute I wanted to tell you something, seeing you weren't at dinner tonight I couldn't tell you there… Um—”
“What, that you’re gay, ‘cause Strider already fucking told me.” I say, taking my anger out on him.
“I’m not gay! I’m bisexual!” He yells at me.
“Do I seem like I give a fuck?!” I yell back. “Maybe if you told me first then I’d know!”
“I couldn’t! Okay?! Sorry, let’s just calm down alright?”
I sigh, “Alright. Whatever. Sorry.” I stare at the floor.
“Okay, I just wanted to say something but now I think it’s not the time… So, go back to what you were going to do and I’ll—”
“What the fuck were you going to tell me?” I interrupt. “You know I wasn't going anywhere so fucking important that I can hear your stupid fucking stories.”
“Just, um, nevermind…” He says with a slight frown.
“JUST FUCKING TELL ME!” I yell at him.
He grabs my face and kisses me quickly then lets go and runs back to his room, slamming the door behind him. I just stand there staring blankly off into space. I snap myself out of it and run over to his door, banging on it as hard at I can. “JOHN! OPEN THE DOOR!”
“John is not here right now… Leave a message after the salamander sound… Glub.” He says from the other side of the door.
“EGBERT! OPEN THE FUCKING DOOR!!” I rattle the doorknob, it's locked.
He doesn't even reply.
I stand there with my hands on the door in silence, thinking of something to say that doesn't sound fucking retarded.
A hand lands on my shoulder and pulls me away from the door. Dave walks in front of me. “Yo, John, mind opening the door for a minute?”
“Yes, I would mind. Is Karkat still there?” He asks, he sounds so worried.
“No, he’s not. But seriously, I left my phone in your dorm, I need to get in there.” He says, completely calm.
“Daaave, how did you even do that? Where is it?” I hear shuffling.
“Just let me in and I’ll get it.” He says, looking down at me. “What even happened with you and Karkles anyway?” Dave asks. I stare at the floor, hoping John won’t answer.
“I did something really stupid and probably ruined any chance with him…” He said, I heard the door click.
“Nah, I’m sure you didn’t. Don’t worry. He feels the same.” He says while backing up, pushing me forward as the door opens.
“Dave, he doesn— WHA—”
I fall through the door before John can close it in my face. Or before he can do anything else I grab his arm. “I DO FEEL THE FUCKING SAME! I JUST NEVER KNEW YOU DID! I’VE HAD A FUCKING CRUSH ON YOU SINCE THE FIRST TIME I SEEN YOU! BACK ON THE DAY I WAS SIGNING UP FOR THIS SCHOOL!” I shout my feelings at him as I stand up. “I THOUGHT YOU WERE THE MOST ADORABLE, FUCKING, THING I HAD EVER FUCKING SEEN! AND DON’T THINK FOR A SECOND *ANYTHING* WILL CHANGE THAT.”
He stood there staring at me. Dave standing there, smirking like his happy little plan just unraveled in front of his fucking eyes.
“HEY FUCKASS!” I yell at John.
He blinks “Huh…”
“YOU AND I ARE GOING TO GO OUT ON A NICE FUCKING DATE, I’LL PLAN THE GODDAMN THING. YOU JUST FUCKING SHOW UP. ALRIGHT? OKAY.” I leave his room and go back to mine. I sigh and fall into my chair and wait for my heart to calm.