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I want to share something with all of you. ^w^

Last week I read that the selection-procedure for ..hopefully...my new school starts on friday 13th of June. I made a phone-call because I was wondering it was already possible to make an appointment for an interview. And guess what?! It was possible...and on the of 13th of June I have my interview. Yaaay!! I’m so excited about it but also a little nervous. This is completely normal, because this will keep you focused on your goal and I know what I want and I truly hope that my interview will go well because if not, I seriously don’t know what to do else in the future.

For years I was thinking what I wanted to do with my life and many people told me I have to make a career out of my artworks and go to Art school, but that’s not what I wanted. To be honest, I was considering doing ‘Game Art and Design’ but when it almost came to an actual decision I panicked and decided not to follow Art classes. Art belongs to me and I need my creativity to be free if that doesn’t sound too weird.

Besides doing Art school there was something else I wanted which is completely different though. So I went searching for some information on the web and found the conditions of entry. My high school level wasn’t good enough...I needed one level higher. With this new information I restarted a search on the web and found a school close to my hometown which provides students to redo their final year on an higher level including guidance if necessary. This was perfect!!

In my last journals I explained that I had struggles with keeping a balanced life for years and that I made another decision: living on my own.

These two and now the interview for getting back to school are big changes for me and where maintaining balance is a new struggle at the moment. So much is happening and even though they are all positive, it’s still an overwhelming feeling that takes a lot of energy.

This doesn’t mean I won’t be inactive for some time again. No I’m still working on my Free Commission...and this means I missed the contest deadline but that’s fine with me. Making new artworks is what I like and there are so many new ideas waiting to be created...especially for my OC’s..but my energy is somewhat gone at the moment so things are getting really slow. And I’m so sorry for that, I wish I was able to stay strong for a longer period of time without getting so tired all the time and being able to submit new art for all of you...but I just can’t. Y_Y

I’m so sorry to all of you. I try my best...I really do.

Still...there are positive things happening right now and I know it takes a while to adjust and getting used to all the new ideas but sometimes it makes me sad that I cannot be as active as I was over here. Anyway...when I get home after my interview next week, I will make an update of this journal and hopefully they think I’m good enough for their school… so maybe I have some good news next time yaay! ^w^

With a big hug to all of you !