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Published: 2017-06-17 01:34:52 +0000 UTC; Views: 132; Favourites: 5; Downloads: 0
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Quick way of apologizing for being lazy and not pulling my act together sooner to figure the new program out. Turns out, it's a bit easier than I thought and I was afraid of nothing. Though, I sure hope this isn't transparent again. Still trying to figure that out. XDRelated content
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Aww! So cute! What program are you using now?
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I've never heard of that. What's it like?
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Well, it's free and one of my fave artists uses it.
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! She's a really good artist! ^^
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She very much inspires me. ^^
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I hope to make it to somewhere around that level of art. XD
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I really bet you could twink!Β
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Not any time soon, that's for sure. XD
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How do you think I got to where I am now?
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I just thought you were amazing to begin with!
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If you say so XD I'm pretty sure I still have old paper drawings from years ago
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XD
My tablet hasn't been working for two days... it's really making me mad...
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I understand that pain...
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DC is going to try to reinstall the driver and hopefully that will work... I was wanting to draw something for our 1 year :/Β
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Aww... It's been one year now? Wow, time flies... >.> Well, Happy Anniversary to you both. I'm sorry your tablet was being a pain.Β
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Ours was in march.. If I remember correctly? Yes, winged clocks seem to faster though 0.0 thank you! Yes.. so is my computerΒ Β
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Now all I can imagine is cartoon clocks with wings. XD You're welcome! XD
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thats what I was going for
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I need a cartoon clock with wings... >.>
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Nah, I'm not there yet. XD
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Come to think of it... I'm not good at wings either. XD
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I really wish I could help
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Aw... It's fine. I can do it I just need to stop believing I can't. Because my stuff is pretty good despite some of the flaws. I'm just hanging on to the past and I need to let go.
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I know you can TB! what do you mean?
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Well, that's a long story. Hmm... Well, this mostly happens to me with writing. I sent this to my sib;
"I just, don't find writing to be all that relaxing, to be honest. And I wish I could say I do because everyone says I'm so good at it (which, in all honesty, I think I got worse due to the lack of practice so... I don't really think that anymore, but I used too so I'm not saying I'm not good) but I just can't enjoy it the way I used too... I just, can't take pleasure in my writing anymore because instead of writing a story it turns into this poetic speech of how we should treat people and I can't write what I want because not only does my family find it a bit depressing but so do I. Not to say I don't like writing because when I do finally get comfortable again it's suddenly fun but not fun enough that I can sit hours at the computer typing it and I never really did it that much back then but I definitely wrote A LOT more. And I just can't find anything of my own originality to write because I feel it's either too sappy, too depressing, inappropriate, or too common. And while drawing is relaxing to me, I feel the same way about it as I did about writing a while ago so it's highly likely I could just drift from drawing and maybe go back to writing with passion again. The thing is, I think I just can't enjoy my writing because I was so used to getting negative criticism for my writing that when I actually get helpful criticism I just felt like I did back then, like it wasn't good enough and it wasn't something I should be proud of. And reading your writing I get really jealous not because it's excellent (which it is) but because I can feel the passion you put into it and have for it and I just can't have that passion anymore because it was just snatched away with all the negativity and I'm having trouble getting it back. With drawing though, I never really had anything negative said about my art. I mean, the sad stuff was of course sad and now that I'm more grown up it didn't affect me but with writing the damage was already done and it's like a bad habit, you know? And I'm not trying to blame my family for my writing problem because really it's all my fault, they were just unlucky enough to be a part of it. I just... Whenever I write something I'm happy with it and as soon as I send it notice problems that might just stick out to my family that's always searching for the hidden negative I put into it and sometimes it's something as stupid as grammar and I just... I'm no longer happy with it. Except in the case where I can share what God wants me to write for Him, in which case, I'm pretty proud but not enough until mommy looks at it and actually says it's good and then I find myself wondering what the heck I did right this time? Do you get what I'm saying.
I know you aren't perfect with your writing by any means but the reason why I think your writing is so fabulous and why I can't love my writing like you love it is because yours shows the obvious passion you have for it with every word you read, while with me... Every word I read sounds forced, fixed, plastic, made to be something it shouldn't. It has no fun to me and even the jokes sound dry because it feels like... There's no passion. I mean, haven't you noticed that when you've read any of my recent stories?"
I don't mean to sound depressing but this is the problem I have. It's no ones fault but my own and I need to work on it.
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I get the feeling, I have that too.. The best thing you can do is take a break from it and try to find inspiration from something, but you can't force it either. I'm still only drawing because I just want to get these finished so I can go out and find my inspiration. Β
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Yes, but I have been doing that and it's been years. I need to find some way to let go. ^^
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I don't know what to do... maybe write what is bothering you/what you need to forget on a piece of paper and destroy it in some way..
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Aw... Thanks for the help. ^^
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I hope that does work though
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