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god i did not have a good fucking year gamers

had a mental breakdown at the start of the year and quit my job. i owe a huge amount to missvintagelps for ab'ing my drift ych and giving me the courage to quit. i really wasn't doing well in that job at all and i feel way better just freelancing and being in charge of myself. despite everything that was definitely the highlight
the quarantine kept me away from one of my closest friends for like six months? and then shortly after coming back to canada they ghosted me for the entirety of my birthday month, filling me w anxiety and dread and loneliness every single day of the month, before finally announcing to me that they were bored of me lol, and blocked me, in whats easily one of the most stunning displays of vanity i've ever witnessed in my life, and i haven't been able to sleep normally since. as my daughter said, "the trash takes itself out", but that doesn't help how miserable i have been every single day since
"oh boy howdy what a great time to actually join university clubs and make new friends" i thought as the quarantine closed campuses for my last year at university, ensuring that i fucking die alone.
online courses do not work with my adhd, everything felt like pulling teeth and i was constantly missing assignments because i just can't keep on top of it, kept having to message profs for extensions. so exhausted and stressed out the entire fucking time. couldnt get myself to do anything. i have five courses this upcoming semester and im literally going to die.
definitely took on way too many things in december and got super overwhelmed and stressed out. theme of the year. miserable little teya grinding down his last cylinder. happy 2020
idt 2021 is gonna be any better considering every single day so far has been me doing damage control with something or other. not to actually talk about my life on main or anything or vent in public. i usually dont but like ugh. i dont care anymore lol

anyways i owe my life to my daughters, my wives, and purr, who have all been absolutely amazing to my dumb ass. i wanna thank rabu for always being so amazingly helpful. i also really wanna extend my thanks to anyone who commissioned or bought something from me this year, and thanks so much for your patience. idk what happened to my commission turnaround times im just so constantly exhausted. i owe u all my life

enough personal shit lets talk art
this was rly the year of shading hahaha. i teased yuki about it but god me too. beginning of the year i was tryna relearn soft shading and later on i got involved in my new cell shading style. ive literally had the same cel shade technique since like, 2014? god i just checked it was 2013. my current style like, requires a better knowledge of lighting and colour theory than i currently have. im really brute forcing it atm. "go back and learn the fundamentals you lazy bitch" is on my to-do list as soon as i stop being busy.
i think i did more illustrations this year. i also drew a shitload of barry LMAO. the fact that yuki comms only show up once on this summary is a win. i remember being so proud of my january piece back at the start of the year and now im like g o d look at his facial proportions. CRINGE. at least the vibes and colouring r p good. like not like, good? but passable. it succeeds as a vibe. i really wanna know what was going on in april. oh i think fuckin, animal crossing came out and i burned out hard and i just played ac all fuckin day LMAO we all been there. yea can we talk abt how great acnh was this year im actually still playing it-
this year i also invented lieblingstiere from the lore i had for my sonas, and theyve been popular amongst my immediate friendgroup haha. idt they'll ever be anything that reaches past ppl who know me directly but i really enjoy them and i love seeing all the liebs people have made and i thank anyone who's bought them! making cheap accessible lil open species designs was really fun. i really do enjoy offering v cheap options for ppl who cant afford fancy things. that being said im so burnt out on that pileofjunk base i probably wont do more haha

yeah this year is year of anatomy. im gonna fuckjing. im gonna look at bodies. and fail 5 university courses. god get the vaccine out i miss working in the mall. not even close to the worst year of my life but god am i glad its over. see yall in 2021

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god i did not have a good fucking year gamers

had a mental breakdown at the start of the year and quit my job. i owe a huge amount to missvintagelps for ab'ing my drift ych and giving me the courage to quit. i really wasn't doing well in that job at all and i feel way better just freelancing and being in charge of myself. despite everything that was definitely the highlight
the quarantine kept me away from one of my closest friends for like six months? and then shortly after coming back to canada they ghosted me for the entirety of my birthday month, filling me w anxiety and dread and loneliness every single day of the month, before finally announcing to me that they were bored of me lol, and blocked me, in whats easily one of the most stunning displays of vanity i've ever witnessed in my life, and i haven't been able to sleep normally since. as my daughter said, "the trash takes itself out", but that doesn't help how miserable i have been every single day since
"oh boy howdy what a great time to actually join university clubs and make new friends" i thought as the quarantine closed campuses for my last year at university, ensuring that i fucking die alone.
online courses do not work with my adhd, everything felt like pulling teeth and i was constantly missing assignments because i just can't keep on top of it, kept having to message profs for extensions. so exhausted and stressed out the entire fucking time. couldnt get myself to do anything. i have five courses this upcoming semester and im literally going to die.
definitely took on way too many things in december and got super overwhelmed and stressed out. theme of the year. miserable little teya grinding down his last cylinder. happy 2020
idt 2021 is gonna be any better considering every single day so far has been me doing damage control with something or other. not to actually talk about my life on main or anything or vent in public. i usually dont but like ugh. i dont care anymore lol

anyways i owe my life to my daughters, my wives, and purr, who have all been absolutely amazing to my dumb ass. i wanna thank rabu for always being so amazingly helpful. i also really wanna extend my thanks to anyone who commissioned or bought something from me this year, and thanks so much for your patience. idk what happened to my commission turnaround times im just so constantly exhausted. i owe u all my life

enough personal shit lets talk art
this was rly the year of shading hahaha. i teased yuki about it but god me too. beginning of the year i was tryna relearn soft shading and later on i got involved in my new cell shading style. ive literally had the same cel shade technique since like, 2014? god i just checked it was 2013. my current style like, requires a better knowledge of lighting and colour theory than i currently have. im really brute forcing it atm. "go back and learn the fundamentals you lazy bitch" is on my to-do list as soon as i stop being busy.
i think i did more illustrations this year. i also drew a shitload of barry LMAO. the fact that yuki comms only show up once on this summary is a win. i remember being so proud of my january piece back at the start of the year and now im like g o d look at his facial proportions. CRINGE. at least the vibes and colouring r p good. like not like, good? but passable. it succeeds as a vibe. i really wanna know what was going on in april. oh i think fuckin, animal crossing came out and i burned out hard and i just played ac all fuckin day LMAO we all been there. yea can we talk abt how great acnh was this year im actually still playing it-
this year i also invented lieblingstiere from the lore i had for my sonas, and theyve been popular amongst my immediate friendgroup haha. idt they'll ever be anything that reaches past ppl who know me directly but i really enjoy them and i love seeing all the liebs people have made and i thank anyone who's bought them! making cheap accessible lil open species designs was really fun. i really do enjoy offering v cheap options for ppl who cant afford fancy things. that being said im so burnt out on that pileofjunk base i probably wont do more haha

yeah this year is year of anatomy. im gonna fuckjing. im gonna look at bodies. and fail 5 university courses. god get the vaccine out i miss working in the mall. not even close to the worst year of my life but god am i glad its over. see yall in 2021