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Solitude is a double-edged sword. For one, it allow us to learn how to live with ourselves, to get to know us better, to appreciate the time we have alone. Being alone provides me a sense of peace and self-sufficiency, making me feel like I have time to do everything and nothing in specific. However, solitude can - well - be lonely. The constant overthinking, the fear of dying alone, hopeless and helpless, consumes us. There are darker times when I just feel like I can't connect with anyone, and I fear I never will. We are never truly alone - we live in a society, even if only online for some - but emotional solitude can still be lurking around.

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Well, I've decided to do two paintings a bit more reflexive and personal. Even though I know I'm integrated in society and in different places, the constant difficulty in socializing and creating deep bonds because I fear being left out makes it easier for me to choose a path of "loneliness". Honestly, this started years ago because I didn't really feel like I fitted in and now I just don't know how to deal with people XD I mean, I know how to deal with them, but I always feel alienated. The only time I feel more at home is when I'm online, because even though we don't know each other, it's easier to still connect in a better way and open up. I always thought something was wrong with me, but has time passes by, I've realized I was wrong. Part of the reason I wanted to create the upcoming SOAW game is because I wanted explored these feelings and this idea (so yeah, it's actually sort of why this painting looks samurai-ish if that's even the write name xD).

I'm not feeling down nor anything btw, I have been meditating and (over)thinking and it's good to paint what I feel because it's easier to show than to put in word, simply (though I ended up doing that anyway xD).

Painted with gouaches and colored pencils.

More of my landscapes

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If you like my work, consider buying me a Ko-fi
Or become a Patreon for only 2€ monthly

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: www.facebook.com/kikkakibaz/

: www.instagram.com/kikkakibaz/ and www.instagram.com/arte_restart…

: www.youtube.com/channel/UCxspN…

Booksie: www.booksie.com/518768-l.-i.-e… (L.I.E.); www.booksie.com/612736-eler (ELER)

!! Disclaimer !!
I do not allow my art to be reposted anywhere unless I give permission for that!
I do not allow my art to be used in AI.
I do not sell my art as NFT's

Sharing my art in posts/journals is allowed as long as you credit me.

Description

Solitude is a double-edged sword. For one, it allow us to learn how to live with ourselves, to get to know us better, to appreciate the time we have alone. Being alone provides me a sense of peace and self-sufficiency, making me feel like I have time to do everything and nothing in specific. However, solitude can - well - be lonely. The constant overthinking, the fear of dying alone, hopeless and helpless, consumes us. There are darker times when I just feel like I can't connect with anyone, and I fear I never will. We are never truly alone - we live in a society, even if only online for some - but emotional solitude can still be lurking around.

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Well, I've decided to do two paintings a bit more reflexive and personal. Even though I know I'm integrated in society and in different places, the constant difficulty in socializing and creating deep bonds because I fear being left out makes it easier for me to choose a path of "loneliness". Honestly, this started years ago because I didn't really feel like I fitted in and now I just don't know how to deal with people XD I mean, I know how to deal with them, but I always feel alienated. The only time I feel more at home is when I'm online, because even though we don't know each other, it's easier to still connect in a better way and open up. I always thought something was wrong with me, but has time passes by, I've realized I was wrong. Part of the reason I wanted to create the upcoming SOAW game is because I wanted explored these feelings and this idea (so yeah, it's actually sort of why this painting looks samurai-ish if that's even the write name xD).

I'm not feeling down nor anything btw, I have been meditating and (over)thinking and it's good to paint what I feel because it's easier to show than to put in word, simply (though I ended up doing that anyway xD).

Painted with gouaches and colored pencils.

More of my landscapes

- COMMISSIONS INFO -

- OPEN ADOPTS -

Online Store
www.zazzle.com/store/kikkakiba…

If you like my work, consider buying me a Ko-fi
Or become a Patreon for only 2€ monthly

Follow me on other social media!

: www.facebook.com/kikkakibaz/

: www.instagram.com/kikkakibaz/ and www.instagram.com/arte_restart…

: www.youtube.com/channel/UCxspN…

Booksie: www.booksie.com/518768-l.-i.-e… (L.I.E.); www.booksie.com/612736-eler (ELER)

!! Disclaimer !!
I do not allow my art to be reposted anywhere unless I give permission for that!
I do not allow my art to be used in AI.
I do not sell my art as NFT's

Sharing my art in posts/journals is allowed as long as you credit me.