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-RANDOM WHINING ABOUT LIFE AHEAD SO FEEL FREE TO SKIP AND JUST LIKE/FAV-

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So... I haven't posted a single drawing since... forever. I just finished this. Took me MONTHS to get it done... I lack motivation and self-confidence so bad. I've been having a lot of downs lately, feels like life is continuously putting me down... I've been thinking a lot lately about what I want in my life and what I can do to make it happen. I haven't found anything yet. I don't feel like doing anything, even stuff I used to love doing.

I lost a dear friend, a friend I once considered as my brother. I tried my best to forget about him, but it's harder than I expected. It might even be impossible... I used to go spend weekends to his house before. I had to stop seeing him, even talking to him because he wouldn't stop arguing about how "vaccines are deadly", "government wanting to control everything" blabla... and other ridiculous stuff. I told him many times to stop, but he just kept arguing and telling me I was a sheep, stupid etc. He even told me I would die because I got vaccinated. Like... Can we just not talk about this stuff and just have fun? I helped him a lot to get out of ugly situations, I never asked him anything. All I wanted was his friendship, I couldn't even get it. It was a one way friendship, that's why I had to end this. Of course, I still miss him, we might never talk again. I miss those days where we would just play and laugh. Why are people so aggressive these days? And here I thought people would be together more with the pandemic... I guess I was wrong. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I'm always alone, I rarely see anyone except my dad and uncle who live with me. I don't have many friends, and the only ones I have live super far away or they work 60+ hours a week, mostly on weekends when I'm off work, so I don't get to see them very often. I miss those days, when I was younger, when my only life problems were to get my homeworks done before they were due. I used to have lots of free time to spend with my friends.

And then, just when I was beginning to feel better, a snow plow driver decided to wreck my van that was parked alongside the road last week. So now I can't go anywhere, I have to stay at home until my van is back on tracks, which will be... after the holidays. In THREE WHOLE WEEKS! Just because some stupid driver decided my van was on the way... Of course insurane is covering, but I'll still have to pay $500 deductibles to get my van repaired... Even if I'm not at fault... ¬.¬

I work a lot, because there's a lot of job to do and because I feel needed. I feel my work is appreciated. Maybe I'm overworking myself. Maybe I need vacation. From everything. Job, hobbies... But then, what would I do? Just sleep until I get over it? I even thought of stopping art and other personnal projects I've been working on since years.

I'm tired... sorry... TTwTT

Meanwhile, enjoy my last art.

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-RANDOM WHINING ABOUT LIFE AHEAD SO FEEL FREE TO SKIP AND JUST LIKE/FAV-

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So... I haven't posted a single drawing since... forever. I just finished this. Took me MONTHS to get it done... I lack motivation and self-confidence so bad. I've been having a lot of downs lately, feels like life is continuously putting me down... I've been thinking a lot lately about what I want in my life and what I can do to make it happen. I haven't found anything yet. I don't feel like doing anything, even stuff I used to love doing.

I lost a dear friend, a friend I once considered as my brother. I tried my best to forget about him, but it's harder than I expected. It might even be impossible... I used to go spend weekends to his house before. I had to stop seeing him, even talking to him because he wouldn't stop arguing about how "vaccines are deadly", "government wanting to control everything" blabla... and other ridiculous stuff. I told him many times to stop, but he just kept arguing and telling me I was a sheep, stupid etc. He even told me I would die because I got vaccinated. Like... Can we just not talk about this stuff and just have fun? I helped him a lot to get out of ugly situations, I never asked him anything. All I wanted was his friendship, I couldn't even get it. It was a one way friendship, that's why I had to end this. Of course, I still miss him, we might never talk again. I miss those days where we would just play and laugh. Why are people so aggressive these days? And here I thought people would be together more with the pandemic... I guess I was wrong. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I'm always alone, I rarely see anyone except my dad and uncle who live with me. I don't have many friends, and the only ones I have live super far away or they work 60+ hours a week, mostly on weekends when I'm off work, so I don't get to see them very often. I miss those days, when I was younger, when my only life problems were to get my homeworks done before they were due. I used to have lots of free time to spend with my friends.

And then, just when I was beginning to feel better, a snow plow driver decided to wreck my van that was parked alongside the road last week. So now I can't go anywhere, I have to stay at home until my van is back on tracks, which will be... after the holidays. In THREE WHOLE WEEKS! Just because some stupid driver decided my van was on the way... Of course insurane is covering, but I'll still have to pay $500 deductibles to get my van repaired... Even if I'm not at fault... ¬.¬

I work a lot, because there's a lot of job to do and because I feel needed. I feel my work is appreciated. Maybe I'm overworking myself. Maybe I need vacation. From everything. Job, hobbies... But then, what would I do? Just sleep until I get over it? I even thought of stopping art and other personnal projects I've been working on since years.

I'm tired... sorry... TTwTT

Meanwhile, enjoy my last art.