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Explanation:
As a songwriter, I'm constantly thinking up new riffs, new lyrics, etcetera. Every day, my mind produces hundreds of new ideas. So many go unused. However, I was suffering a serious overload on the lyrics front this past February. I had so much to get out, and I just couldn't handle putting it all into song. It was too complicated. So I came up with a plan: Project Poetry. I would take three days off from songwriting and become a poet, producing a small poetry collection each day.

My writings were bizarre... I had to squeeze everything out of myself, so a lot of the poems came out as simple, brief statements. Anything to clear my mind, to express anything I wasn't able to put in a song. They were highly personal as well.

The plan was just to clear myself out, but eventually I started taking it too seriously and got upset at how my poems were coming out. I knew they were different, and I felt like I was a failure as a poet. You can see this in some of the poetry itself.

Looking back, I'm happy about how it all came out. It's a deep look into myself at the time. The simple, "crappy" poems are absolutely lovely. They're so different from my lyrics, and so basic.

Anyway, here are the three collections, in their original order:

~PROJECT POETRY 1: MY INNER ME~

1 - BAD AT THIS
2 - IN THE HEAT OF A SECOND OF THOUGHT
3 - SOMETIMES
4 - TO FATHER AND FAMILY
5 - VICTORIA
6 - COLOURBLIND
7 - OH NO/DEFEAT/I'M TRASH
8 - WORDS I'LL NEVER SPEAK: THINGS I WANT TO - AND SHOULD - TELL HER BUT CAN'T GET MYSELF TO SAY
9 - OVERFLOW/NAKED/HIDE
10 - MY NEW MIND (AMERICAN GIRL)
11 - ALL THE CUTE GIRLS... METALHEADS
12 - GRAVITY
13 - 13.0
14 - I LONG
15 - AMEN
16 - IN THE END

~PROJECT POETRY 2: OBSESSION~

1 - FAILURE
2 - COBB
3 - DO IT
4 - EMILY, EMILY, EMILY
5 - CHIPMUNK
6 - GUESS
7 - I TRY TO FLY
8 - VISIONS IN A BAG
9 - THE DEFINITION OF ART

~PROJECT POETRY 3: A GOOD LIFE~

1 - HELLO WORLD
2 - SPOTLIGHT
3 - MYSTERY TO ME
4 - AUSTIN
5 - FEMME FATALE
6 - HOPE'S UP
7 - ESCAMILLA
8 - ALL OUT

~MY INNER ME~

BAD AT THIS

I'm sorry
I'm bad at this
I don't care to try
Any harder
This is how I like it
Just me not trying to be any better
Not trying to make you like it
You're not supposed to

You can hate it

But please
Love it
See through my eyes
Know this is good
Because it's bad

I pay attention
To nothing but me

IN THE HEAT OF A SECOND OF THOUGHT

I want to punch things
I want to go fucking crazy

SOMETIMES

I'm a musician
Writing songs
Without music

TO FATHER AND FAMILY

It's funny how I feel so far
Looking at how close we are

And my twisting emotions
Flow strong as the oceans
And light as the breeze

But my inner me sees

It's you in me
My inner me
It's you in me
My inner me

You've been jeering forever
And thus I can never
Approach you with things

And, oh, how it stings

You'll never be there
I could never share
I'm scared and it's you
See what you do

But you'll never see
All thanks to me
'Cause I won't let you see
My inner me
The you in me
My inner me

VICTORIA

Why
Do you do this to me?
You know you don't help
And never will
Why do you need to know?

COLOURBLIND

Ha, ha
No one understands
They laugh
They joke
They don't know the pain
They don't know they inflict

I wish I could see through normal eyes
Just once
Because
I know I see this beautiful world wrong
And that I'll never see it right
It hurts

OH NO/DEFEAT/I'M TRASH

Your boyfriend puts me to shame
But who am I to blame?
No girl wants a guy like me
I'm just way too damn crazy

But you want a guy like me
Someone who's so damn crazy
And I want a girl like you
Someone who is crazy too

But no one likes a guy like me
A guy so filled with jealousy

OVERFLOW/NAKED/HIDE

Look at my heart
Look at my mind
Spilled out on paper
For no one to find

But is there enough?
I'll never give up

MY NEW MIND (AMERICAN GIRL)

I want to see the world
With an American girl
An American girl who is so insane
As to dance in the street in the pouring rain
She doesn't take anything serious
Unless it is between us
She doesn't need to be hot
And preferably not
And I don't want no Emily, and I don't want no Beth
I just want a girl for me who's different from the rest
Dropping all my fetishes, there's nothing in the world
That I want more than an American girl

ALL THE CUTE GIRLS... METALHEADS

The only familiar music here is pop
And then sometimes there's classic rock
Everybody here listens to rap
Even if they aren't black
Otherwise country instead
And all the cute girls are metalheads

GRAVITY
You
Make
Me
Fall
Faster
And
More
Often
Than
Even
Gravity
Does
.
.
.

13.0

Plug me in
Set me off
Turn me on
Cut my chord

Recharge my battery
Drain my power
Rewire my circuits
Program my intelligence

Reset my settings
Check my status
Fulfill my objective
Shut me off

I LONG

To write something happy again
What a dream

AMEN

Thank God
For his blessings
And when it's bad
He'll come through
And it's bad
So I wait
For God
Thank God

IN THE END

I want to punch things
I want to go fucking crazy

I want love

~OBSESSION~

FAILURE

This one is my failure
Another one of those
I can't stand strong for long
Because I'm just a failure

It's me.

But I have my own eyes
And we live our own lives

Let me be me.

COBB

Walk slow
Talk slow
Think slow

No one's crazy
No one's for me

They're slow
Live slow

DO IT

You and me
Let's do it
Everything we want
Do it all
Like no one else
Go everywhere
Try everything
Things we never thought we would
You and me
Let's do it all

EMILY, EMILY, EMILY

Ouch
Obsession
Emily, Emily, Emily

No
Depression
Emily, Emily, Emily

Bad
Obsession
Emily, Emily, Emily

Full
Possession
Emily, Emily, Emily

Stop
Obsession
Emily, Emily, Emily

Use her to lose her
My obsessions

CHIPMUNK

Maybe I'm a sexy bitch
Maybe I'm a loser
Maybe I'm a faggot
Maybe I'm a dumbass
Maybe I'm a failure
Maybe I'm a midget
Maybe I'm a rebel
Maybe I'm a retard
Maybe I'm a badass
Maybe I'm a jack-off
Maybe I'm a legend
Maybe I'm a disappointment
I know I'm a weirdo

GUESS

Last patch of grass to freeze,
Easy as an island breeze,
And when you want to go
Home, the answer's "no."
Ponder what you'd thought that day,
And when, oh when, you want to say
"I love you," it's a "yes;"
Guess, I tell you, guess;
Everybody knows.
People just don't show;
Run me down and shove,
And when you want to love,
Do it, it's a "yes;"
Or, otherwise, just guess.

I TRY TO FLY

It's time to try to fly
I hope I do not die
If I do, please don't cry
It's time to try to fly

VISIONS IN A BAG

Lost inside your bag
A million staring faces
I want to friend them all
I want to blend the races

I know I may be mean
But in the end, I'm nice
And you may think I'm dumb
But I have wise advice

THE DEFINITION OF ART

Spill it out, it's art
Pouring from the heart
Put it back, it's dead
Poisoned by the head

~A GOOD LIFE~

HELLO WORLD

Hello world
Look in my eyes
See through me
And all my lies

Now see the darkness
See the pain
See the energy you drained

Watch me wither
Watch me crawl
Watch my back
It's on the wall

As I watch you
Through teary eyes
Hidden behind all my lies

SPOTLIGHT

Put me in a spotlight
Please
Gain me some attention

MYSTERY TO ME

I rant
Why did I cry?
I can't
Identify

Mystery to me
And anyone who sees

AUSTIN

Austin.
Austin.
Cannot visit.
So I must visit him.

But I can't.
I can't.
I can't.
I don't know what to do.

FEMME FATALE

Thanks a lot
You used to love me, now it's shot
Broke my heart
About six times from the start

Do us a favor
Put the bong down
Be yourself again
We want you back

You won't do
Anything we tell you to
You're on top
Now you'll never ever stop

Please come back
Drop the bong
Cut me slack
Sing this song

With me

HOPE'S UP

I'm gonna get some romance
I'm gonna have some fun
I'm gonna see the world and I'mma do it with someone

I'm gonna live a good life

I'm gonna try some new things
I'm gonna go above
I'm gonna see the world and I'mma do it with my love

I'm gonna live a good life

ESCAMILLA

Way too many heartbreaks
These last two tried to kill...
A million new attractions
A billion missing thrills

Ha, ha
Oh no
I'll be thinking of Christina tonight

Will time heal all wounds?
Or make me insane?
A billion times much greater
A million times the same

Ha, ha
Thank God
I'll be thinking of Christina tonight

ALL OUT

I'll see you
Next year
When things are better

Otherwise
I'm dead

Description
Explanation:
As a songwriter, I'm constantly thinking up new riffs, new lyrics, etcetera. Every day, my mind produces hundreds of new ideas. So many go unused. However, I was suffering a serious overload on the lyrics front this past February. I had so much to get out, and I just couldn't handle putting it all into song. It was too complicated. So I came up with a plan: Project Poetry. I would take three days off from songwriting and become a poet, producing a small poetry collection each day.

My writings were bizarre... I had to squeeze everything out of myself, so a lot of the poems came out as simple, brief statements. Anything to clear my mind, to express anything I wasn't able to put in a song. They were highly personal as well.

The plan was just to clear myself out, but eventually I started taking it too seriously and got upset at how my poems were coming out. I knew they were different, and I felt like I was a failure as a poet. You can see this in some of the poetry itself.

Looking back, I'm happy about how it all came out. It's a deep look into myself at the time. The simple, "crappy" poems are absolutely lovely. They're so different from my lyrics, and so basic.

Anyway, here are the three collections, in their original order:

~PROJECT POETRY 1: MY INNER ME~

1 - BAD AT THIS
2 - IN THE HEAT OF A SECOND OF THOUGHT
3 - SOMETIMES
4 - TO FATHER AND FAMILY
5 - VICTORIA
6 - COLOURBLIND
7 - OH NO/DEFEAT/I'M TRASH
8 - WORDS I'LL NEVER SPEAK: THINGS I WANT TO - AND SHOULD - TELL HER BUT CAN'T GET MYSELF TO SAY
9 - OVERFLOW/NAKED/HIDE
10 - MY NEW MIND (AMERICAN GIRL)
11 - ALL THE CUTE GIRLS... METALHEADS
12 - GRAVITY
13 - 13.0
14 - I LONG
15 - AMEN
16 - IN THE END

~PROJECT POETRY 2: OBSESSION~

1 - FAILURE
2 - COBB
3 - DO IT
4 - EMILY, EMILY, EMILY
5 - CHIPMUNK
6 - GUESS
7 - I TRY TO FLY
8 - VISIONS IN A BAG
9 - THE DEFINITION OF ART

~PROJECT POETRY 3: A GOOD LIFE~

1 - HELLO WORLD
2 - SPOTLIGHT
3 - MYSTERY TO ME
4 - AUSTIN
5 - FEMME FATALE
6 - HOPE'S UP
7 - ESCAMILLA
8 - ALL OUT

~MY INNER ME~

BAD AT THIS

I'm sorry
I'm bad at this
I don't care to try
Any harder
This is how I like it
Just me not trying to be any better
Not trying to make you like it
You're not supposed to

You can hate it

But please
Love it
See through my eyes
Know this is good
Because it's bad

I pay attention
To nothing but me

IN THE HEAT OF A SECOND OF THOUGHT

I want to punch things
I want to go fucking crazy

SOMETIMES

I'm a musician
Writing songs
Without music

TO FATHER AND FAMILY

It's funny how I feel so far
Looking at how close we are

And my twisting emotions
Flow strong as the oceans
And light as the breeze

But my inner me sees

It's you in me
My inner me
It's you in me
My inner me

You've been jeering forever
And thus I can never
Approach you with things

And, oh, how it stings

You'll never be there
I could never share
I'm scared and it's you
See what you do

But you'll never see
All thanks to me
'Cause I won't let you see
My inner me
The you in me
My inner me

VICTORIA

Why
Do you do this to me?
You know you don't help
And never will
Why do you need to know?

COLOURBLIND

Ha, ha
No one understands
They laugh
They joke
They don't know the pain
They don't know they inflict

I wish I could see through normal eyes
Just once
Because
I know I see this beautiful world wrong
And that I'll never see it right
It hurts

OH NO/DEFEAT/I'M TRASH

Your boyfriend puts me to shame
But who am I to blame?
No girl wants a guy like me
I'm just way too damn crazy

But you want a guy like me
Someone who's so damn crazy
And I want a girl like you
Someone who is crazy too

But no one likes a guy like me
A guy so filled with jealousy

OVERFLOW/NAKED/HIDE

Look at my heart
Look at my mind
Spilled out on paper
For no one to find

But is there enough?
I'll never give up

MY NEW MIND (AMERICAN GIRL)

I want to see the world
With an American girl
An American girl who is so insane
As to dance in the street in the pouring rain
She doesn't take anything serious
Unless it is between us
She doesn't need to be hot
And preferably not
And I don't want no Emily, and I don't want no Beth
I just want a girl for me who's different from the rest
Dropping all my fetishes, there's nothing in the world
That I want more than an American girl

ALL THE CUTE GIRLS... METALHEADS

The only familiar music here is pop
And then sometimes there's classic rock
Everybody here listens to rap
Even if they aren't black
Otherwise country instead
And all the cute girls are metalheads

GRAVITY
You
Make
Me
Fall
Faster
And
More
Often
Than
Even
Gravity
Does
.
.
.

13.0

Plug me in
Set me off
Turn me on
Cut my chord

Recharge my battery
Drain my power
Rewire my circuits
Program my intelligence

Reset my settings
Check my status
Fulfill my objective
Shut me off

I LONG

To write something happy again
What a dream

AMEN

Thank God
For his blessings
And when it's bad
He'll come through
And it's bad
So I wait
For God
Thank God

IN THE END

I want to punch things
I want to go fucking crazy

I want love

~OBSESSION~

FAILURE

This one is my failure
Another one of those
I can't stand strong for long
Because I'm just a failure

It's me.

But I have my own eyes
And we live our own lives

Let me be me.

COBB

Walk slow
Talk slow
Think slow

No one's crazy
No one's for me

They're slow
Live slow

DO IT

You and me
Let's do it
Everything we want
Do it all
Like no one else
Go everywhere
Try everything
Things we never thought we would
You and me
Let's do it all

EMILY, EMILY, EMILY

Ouch
Obsession
Emily, Emily, Emily

No
Depression
Emily, Emily, Emily

Bad
Obsession
Emily, Emily, Emily

Full
Possession
Emily, Emily, Emily

Stop
Obsession
Emily, Emily, Emily

Use her to lose her
My obsessions

CHIPMUNK

Maybe I'm a sexy bitch
Maybe I'm a loser
Maybe I'm a faggot
Maybe I'm a dumbass
Maybe I'm a failure
Maybe I'm a midget
Maybe I'm a rebel
Maybe I'm a retard
Maybe I'm a badass
Maybe I'm a jack-off
Maybe I'm a legend
Maybe I'm a disappointment
I know I'm a weirdo

GUESS

Last patch of grass to freeze,
Easy as an island breeze,
And when you want to go
Home, the answer's "no."
Ponder what you'd thought that day,
And when, oh when, you want to say
"I love you," it's a "yes;"
Guess, I tell you, guess;
Everybody knows.
People just don't show;
Run me down and shove,
And when you want to love,
Do it, it's a "yes;"
Or, otherwise, just guess.

I TRY TO FLY

It's time to try to fly
I hope I do not die
If I do, please don't cry
It's time to try to fly

VISIONS IN A BAG

Lost inside your bag
A million staring faces
I want to friend them all
I want to blend the races

I know I may be mean
But in the end, I'm nice
And you may think I'm dumb
But I have wise advice

THE DEFINITION OF ART

Spill it out, it's art
Pouring from the heart
Put it back, it's dead
Poisoned by the head

~A GOOD LIFE~

HELLO WORLD

Hello world
Look in my eyes
See through me
And all my lies

Now see the darkness
See the pain
See the energy you drained

Watch me wither
Watch me crawl
Watch my back
It's on the wall

As I watch you
Through teary eyes
Hidden behind all my lies

SPOTLIGHT

Put me in a spotlight
Please
Gain me some attention

MYSTERY TO ME

I rant
Why did I cry?
I can't
Identify

Mystery to me
And anyone who sees

AUSTIN

Austin.
Austin.
Cannot visit.
So I must visit him.

But I can't.
I can't.
I can't.
I don't know what to do.

FEMME FATALE

Thanks a lot
You used to love me, now it's shot
Broke my heart
About six times from the start

Do us a favor
Put the bong down
Be yourself again
We want you back

You won't do
Anything we tell you to
You're on top
Now you'll never ever stop

Please come back
Drop the bong
Cut me slack
Sing this song

With me

HOPE'S UP

I'm gonna get some romance
I'm gonna have some fun
I'm gonna see the world and I'mma do it with someone

I'm gonna live a good life

I'm gonna try some new things
I'm gonna go above
I'm gonna see the world and I'mma do it with my love

I'm gonna live a good life

ESCAMILLA

Way too many heartbreaks
These last two tried to kill...
A million new attractions
A billion missing thrills

Ha, ha
Oh no
I'll be thinking of Christina tonight

Will time heal all wounds?
Or make me insane?
A billion times much greater
A million times the same

Ha, ha
Thank God
I'll be thinking of Christina tonight

ALL OUT

I'll see you
Next year
When things are better

Otherwise
I'm dead