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Hi guuuuuuys... I'm gonna do something I haven't done for quite a while: Talk about my private life. xD

--- You still have the chance to leave this page, you do not have to read this boring crap. Go friend, goooooo! ---

Anyway - ....

I don't know why, when I started uploading on dA (approximately 3 years ago) I had conversations with my watchers all the time, but when I fell into my depression I stopped doing that. And people simply stopped commenting on my stuff, which just made me even more sad, felt like nobody cared.

Well, I can say that I feel much better now. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and social anxiety in February, and I was supposed to go to a clinic during summer break, however; I decided not to go. I had the choice between going to England, to see my boyfriend's parents, or to go to a clinic, to have therapy and take medication for 8 weeks straight. I chose to visit my boyfriend'a parents for two weeks. And I don't regret it at all. They were just wonderful. Super nice, and really funny. They reminded me a lot of my own family, and I was really sad when I had to go back to my boring life in boring ol' Germany.

But - I got to take my boyfriend back home with me again! With been living together since June now, and I'm just so happy he is here with me. It still feels so unreal. I am always afraid that he has to go back to England, that he has to leave me here. But it seems like we're gonna stay together from now on. We plan on moving to England next year, and apply to some universities over there for 2018. Of course it's going to be difficult, and I have no idea what it's going to be like, but I really want to give it a try. I've never really been happy in Germany. I don't really have any friends here, only a few. Three to be exact. And I find it hard to stay in touch with them. In fact, I haven't spoken to any of them for a good three months now.

I've made friends with people on twitter, and most of them live in England. Another reason why I want to move there. Shaun and me would be less lonely. In fact, we'd probably go out and socialise more. Like...normal...human beings you know. xD

But yeah. All in all I can say that I'm feeling much better now. I don't have any suicidal thoughts at the moment, nor do I feel like I'm a complete loser and waste of space. Which is nice.

And I think I figured out what I want to do later. Thinking about going into storyboarding and character design. Maybe. We'll see I guess.

Now... let me explain that picture for ya'. XD

I got a MacBook Pro for my birthday last week. And...since I haven't had a computer since....I dunno, 6 years? I'm now treating it like a baby. I'm basically being very overprotective. XD

And I may or may not call it "my baby"...

Pleasedon'tjudgeme

Well... That was it. Anyway - How are you guys doing?

Description
Hi guuuuuuys... I'm gonna do something I haven't done for quite a while: Talk about my private life. xD

--- You still have the chance to leave this page, you do not have to read this boring crap. Go friend, goooooo! ---

Anyway - ....

I don't know why, when I started uploading on dA (approximately 3 years ago) I had conversations with my watchers all the time, but when I fell into my depression I stopped doing that. And people simply stopped commenting on my stuff, which just made me even more sad, felt like nobody cared.

Well, I can say that I feel much better now. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and social anxiety in February, and I was supposed to go to a clinic during summer break, however; I decided not to go. I had the choice between going to England, to see my boyfriend's parents, or to go to a clinic, to have therapy and take medication for 8 weeks straight. I chose to visit my boyfriend'a parents for two weeks. And I don't regret it at all. They were just wonderful. Super nice, and really funny. They reminded me a lot of my own family, and I was really sad when I had to go back to my boring life in boring ol' Germany.

But - I got to take my boyfriend back home with me again! With been living together since June now, and I'm just so happy he is here with me. It still feels so unreal. I am always afraid that he has to go back to England, that he has to leave me here. But it seems like we're gonna stay together from now on. We plan on moving to England next year, and apply to some universities over there for 2018. Of course it's going to be difficult, and I have no idea what it's going to be like, but I really want to give it a try. I've never really been happy in Germany. I don't really have any friends here, only a few. Three to be exact. And I find it hard to stay in touch with them. In fact, I haven't spoken to any of them for a good three months now.

I've made friends with people on twitter, and most of them live in England. Another reason why I want to move there. Shaun and me would be less lonely. In fact, we'd probably go out and socialise more. Like...normal...human beings you know. xD

But yeah. All in all I can say that I'm feeling much better now. I don't have any suicidal thoughts at the moment, nor do I feel like I'm a complete loser and waste of space. Which is nice.

And I think I figured out what I want to do later. Thinking about going into storyboarding and character design. Maybe. We'll see I guess.

Now... let me explain that picture for ya'. XD

I got a MacBook Pro for my birthday last week. And...since I haven't had a computer since....I dunno, 6 years? I'm now treating it like a baby. I'm basically being very overprotective. XD

And I may or may not call it "my baby"...

Pleasedon'tjudgeme

Well... That was it. Anyway - How are you guys doing?