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Published: 2014-09-15 00:14:40 +0000 UTC; Views: 4910; Favourites: 184; Downloads: 0
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Kinda tried a more bold, cel-shade-like colouring style (it's my weak point >_<)was fun, sort of :/
lineart traditionally with fountain pen, colour in SAI and Ps
(whining, don't read)
on a personal sidenote I feel really, really bad emotionally T___T It has something to do with separation with a person I cared for, loneliness and general feelings about the meaning of life, love, happiness and life without love/happiness or its purpose. I hope getting my arm moving while doing drawings will help me focus on something and kick those nasty thoughts away. Re-focusing is the key to surviving seemingly hopeless situation. Given that I spend a fortune on anti-depressants it's really funny that I feel this way. I wonder how I would feel if I'd put them aside? Would there be any downgrade? Or difference at all? O_o. Maybe it's just placebo effect and I'm another prozac-popping fool, while it's actually sugar they're selling. Maybe extasy from a corner dealer would serve me better than those useless phatmacy-sold drugs? >_< (dunno, never did disco drugs, but apparently you feel 'awesome'). How are YOU guys feeling?
sailor moon(c) n. takeuchi
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Is Mina a teacher or something?
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That question was not for you! Sorry!
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At first I did not see the work "Cat" at the bottom and I laughed so hard
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Love her look here and love those background words, haha...
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so it worked!!XD
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dat phrasing
I feel ya on all of your feels. I've lost almost 100% of my friends from High School, all the friends I've made in adulthood either move away or end up being users in one way or another... I hate my job, my coworkers never help out with anything and act just like the High School cliques did (we have our corners, and we don't interact lol), and I could go on whining for hours.
Finding motorcycling and anime is what has saved my sanity, quite honestly. I even have a patch that says "Some need therapy, I have my motorcycle" haha!
I'd say don't lean towards illicit drugs for help, though. It starts a downhill slide that won't stop, and you'll wish it did. I can't offer any magical advice to suddenly make things better, but eventually life does look up in some way or another!
And even if it doesn't, there are people like me who can share in crappy experiences (I lost my dream job because I was hit by a drunk driver, I took what I could get and it sucked. Blasting music on headphones and riding 90+ on the freeway on my bike saved me from putting a gun to my head lol), and I'm always someone open to conversation. I know how much life sucks.
But sometimes you just have to kick life in the nuts and do something for yourself. My dream job was shattered, but I found out recently I could go to school and easily become a medical assistant/nurse. So I will, and it's better pay and hours than the job I wanted since I was 5! There's always an option out there, even if its not obvious.
Sorry, I accidentally a personal experience novel! But keep your head up. You do amazing artwork, so I think you're pretty damn awesome
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Sorry for late reply, I just got to reading this.
Man, it sucks we all feel so terrible, doesn't it? 
Honestly, I forgot to edit this comment section, I was feeling really shitty on the day I submitted it, but I'm relatively better now. I never even smoked weed and I'm a control freak, so chances of getting addicted to any dodgy substance are relatively slim, I think. But who knows 
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"... tobacco and pharmaceutical companies lobbying. They're making idiots out of us all, I think..." You hit the nail on the head! XD
Similar examples are things like polypropylene glycol and mono-sodium glutamate (MSG), both are not good for consumption, but were rated as 'food grade' and safe for distribution by the FDA.... PG is the 'less toxic' vehicle antifreeze! o_o Much better than Ethylene Glycol, but still....
And I agree completely. And I hate weed, I never wanted anything to do with it... And it really changed my friends. It started out 'just mellowing them out', and then it turned into everything they did in life. Also helps that I think I'm allergic to it, never tried it ever, but I had to move some around in an evidence lab... Felt like I was dying after handling the paraphernalia even!
Coffee and tea I don't think are bad, but there is such a thing as overindulging. I think addiction comes from the effect it has on the vascular system (minor constriction) which can help reduce headache symptoms and onsets, but I think it also becomes a 'comfort food' of sorts. Both are warm or cold, strongly flavorful, and usually symbolize a moment of relaxation or a break from whatever the day has.
Energy drinks, caffeine pills, and extreme caffeine candies are just stupid though.... It'd be too easy to overdose using those. For example, most cups of coffee contain around than 95mg of caffeine, and many energy pills/supplements contain up to 400-500mg of caffeine. The projected lethal dose is close to 10 grams, which would be insane to consume in the first place... But one couldn't get there with coffee or tea, our insides would fill to the brim before we got enough in us XD. Pills though.... That'd be too easy.
I do totally agree though, it is good that you are smart... Never take what a company offers for granted. o_o
And back on the original note, no worries about the late reply! I know how it goes! And I am glad you are feeling/doing better though!
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Wow, you are well-informed yourself, I see!
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Well thank you! To be honest, I spend too much time looking up random subjects, and even more time at work bored and thinking of solutions/reasons for things... And looking up MORE stuff as a result XD I've legitimately lost sleep before because I had to figure out how I could dig a trench and build a shelter on it.... Because it was interesting lol
What can I say, I'm crazy But I'm also told madness is the flip-side of genius, so maybe its a good sign?
I'll stop taking up comment space here lol, ever wanna talk about anything send a message! I'm always up for discussions
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Very cool outfit and striking eyes 
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Thank you so much!
Also, I feel MUCH, MUCH better today ^_^ I think I'm even going to edit that description out (since I forgot about it), because there's no need to depress other people down unnecessarily XD. I had a call with the person I'm missing on Skype, and it magically made things better ^__^ Also, I don't want to be too gross, but I got my period so I think it was all down to a terrible, terrible mood-swinging and pressuring PMS. Lolz, sorry for grossness.
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This comment was right above the one I posted...
Just wanted to say "Hey, crazy cat people are friggin' awesome!"
Also "That's the weird stuff about my stupid borderline personality, always on extremes of two sides", I hear ya. I feel the same way XD
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My pleasure sweetie, and I am very glad to hear it ^_^
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I love the bright colors! It makes her stand out more!
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My grandmother has been on them since they first came out. For some people, they truly need them, but for others it's a crutch. My grandmother is one of those people, as is my mother (who self medicates with alcohol). Meanwhile I am someone who stresses and worries over every little thing, mostly because I find modern life and it's mundane routines convoluted.
I deal with this by using crystal therapy. I know it sounds dumb, but it works for me. Just for the heck of it, try dumping all your negative emotion into a quartz. It beats poisoning your body with drugs. OH! And some tastey tea works great too. ~.~ I hope everything works out.
Oh and the outfit Minako is wearing is cute.
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It sounds good and positive ^_^. I know some people who try to get closer to Buddhism, meditation, crystals and eastern relaxation techniques. I somehow feel they are less harmful than drugs, as well. It's just about energy and thought flow, I guess. Some don't even believe you can pass on/exchange energy, nor in karma. I'm one of the skeptics myself, always have been a realist and science geek, doubted the supernatural and didn't believe you could do anything with thoughts, concentration and anything that is not material. So I picked chemistry and substances, I figured that if they don't do brain surgeries that 'fix' you emotionally yet (though lobotomy and complete thought or consciousness deprivation seemed like a bliss, sometimes 
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Well, the funny thing is that I'm also someone who is rational and a science geek. The thing is is that it's been proven crystal stores energy and is even used in some laser devices to concentrate it. The crystal skulls, for example (if you believe in all that) is a fine example.
The crystal I have I was given and I felt attached to it. I have had it for about 15 years. I know that it's effects are likely a placebo, but baring that in mind it still works for me.
The negative energy in your body is supposed to dump into the quartz. It doesn't come out unless someone else touches it. My husband accidentally touched it one day when he was cleaning--he got angry, moody and almost violent without any reason why. I asked him why he was acting like that and then I found out he moved my crystal. I never warned him about it though... I usually put it away. He is a very very soft and gentle man, so seeing him possibly absorb a tiny fraction of my hate, anger, frustration and sadness scared me. I told him never to touch it again.
Tea is marvelous for its various effects. I even have tea for "getting into the mood". Again, the effectiveness of these things do require a bit of belief. Heck, did you know that according to scientific research ALL aphrodisiacs are innefective? The belief that clams or celery can get you randy is what makes them effective.
I watched this one show that discussed social science before the age of modernity. One thing that struck me was how powerful words were and that everything you said had to be carefully planned. Conversation was such that all words were meaningful and true. Lies were more than just a person being dishonest, it was breaking a bond between humans. Also, humans are creatures that crave the chaotic nature of the universe.
It is in this way that we learn and grow. Today we are stagnated and too busy with our routines, comfort and eagerness to maintain the status quo that we have become lazy, stupid and arrogant.
That's why it is important to do something unconventional sometimes. I think that's why a lot of people are so depressed. Not everyone, just a lot of them. That's just my opinion anyway.
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Wow, thanks so much for this post, you make a lot of sense and seem to be a really cool person I would most likely understand and vice versa
The crystal thing sounds amazing and magical, but heck- if there are materials with different properties, magnets, radio wave barriers, electrostatic chargers and so on, I don't see why quartz can't be an energy-storage. The only thing that is a bit dodgy to me is the thing that it "knows" when to take the energy away and when to pass it on (also, how come it accumulates negative energy and not just drains you out of energy as in, vitality for the day and so on). It could be a thing not yet in out understanding, from scientific point of view (as in, we all have some chip-like quality related to mood/energy, and that crystal is able to scan us, and only take bad stuff away and not give it back
And placebo effect, definitely.
When it comes to aphrodisiac, there's no doubt that psychology plays a great role in human's sexual life. So the idea that something is an aphrodisiac could be enough to make people think about sex and turn them on. And just a small percentage of erectile dysfuncions has a solely physical origin, really. Many problems in various aspects of life come down to the mind, mood and so on. And they can cause so many somatic symptoms later, that get misiagnosed as physical, while mind and spirit is at the root.
When you obtain a crystal from a store, do you think it needs any special rituals to be 'cleansed' or something? (of all the energy traits from people who have touched it before you?) DO you hold it for a specific period of time ? After so much antidepressants, it definatelly won't hurt to get me a crystal and try it
Thanks again for advice and hope you'll have as little stress and fatigue/anxiety as possible in the future! 
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Sorry for yacking you up!
Scientifically, quartz is like a tuning fork, in that it can alter a frequency in order to make it more accurate. It’s currently used in radio transmitters, computers, watches, radio receives and other things. It’s been theorized to also be a method of containing data. So if, let’s say, you subscribe to the idea that your living energy is your soul and that energy contains your data (i.e.-your “self"), then the crystal “tunes” it to make it accurate, or cleaner. What it *might* absorb is "cache." But how do you clear your cache? I don’t know, I don’t care (unless it's Windows or Android OS, then I know and care a LOT). Probably some crazy midnight ritual involving nudity, smelly incense and Snazaroo body paint.
I don’t recommend buying it online—grow one yourself or be on the lookout for one. You’ll know it when you see it. As for clearing someone else’s “cache”, I’d say the thing only absorbs it if there intent for it to be used in such a manner. Most people don’t use them for that purpose… most put in into their rock collection with some geodes and ebony, then call it a day. As for whether or not it "knows" what to absorb and leak out... well, your guess is as good as mine. Below is my little crystal-chan. Ugly, 8 oz fucker...
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Ohhhh, it's huuuuge! O__o And it all makes sense, I guess
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>_> Oh yeah, I know how that is... *Snerk.* And de nada. <3
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I'm feeling alright and I'm glad you're distraction yourself with drawing to keep away other thoughts especially ones that connect to the feelings of being depressed, some of the medications do have side-effects but it also varies on how the person handles them (it could have a different affect on someone else compared to you for example) but I hope you feel better soon and get out of the slump.
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Thank you so much for the kind words ! ^^ :hugggle: I've been in kind of a downer for the last two days, mostly slept and had nasty thoughts, but then I thought it will lead nowwhere and the more I lie, the more pathetic will feel >_<. And productivity or any non-destructive activity or work can actually put mind off things ^__^. I guess in times like this, AA people reach out for drinks
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Awww :hugs back: you're welcome hopefully those thoughts will go away and yes productivity is a good thing to keep yourself and your mind busy probably not the best time to drink if you're already feeling down though D8
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Been suffering from depression and self harm due to the fact I don't have a job or education. Normally, I'll rant on my journal but it have only access to my iPad.
Did some window shopping to cheer me up and got to tried a Pumpkin Spice tea.
Some anti depressants have a side effect of causing people to feel more suicidal. It's always a gamble with them. Sometimes, drugs can make it worse. Also grapefruit too. Just don't take them on an empty stomach.
You are not alone and your watchers do care about how you're doing. Hopefully they'll see more of your creativity when you get off of this slump.
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Thanks
Do you have any irl friiends?
Hope you will get a job soon!
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Thank you and I hope for the best too. I don't have much IRL friends since I express myself online a lot. Also, I have a trip to see my fiancée for a month soon.
We all have our inner demons to face, but it's easy to tackle them one day at a time than all at once.
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