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venomousvenom In reply to mysticcreature [2014-01-03 00:56:13 +0000 UTC]

Thank you~!
I've been ill again and unable to sleep so I thought I'd doodle...and somehow this is coming about and it is going to kill me.
Photoshop is a bitch to work with - I remember now why I stopped using it!
But to be fair, I couldn't have done the background without it OTL.

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mysticcreature In reply to venomousvenom [2014-01-03 01:44:50 +0000 UTC]

I still think it looks great.  You're a hell of a lot better than I am.  I can't do that at all.

Hopefully you feel better soon and can get some sleep.

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venomousvenom In reply to mysticcreature [2014-01-03 03:18:52 +0000 UTC]

It's looking a lot better now (the part I'm on now) so I'm getting more comfortable with it.

I won't say digital art is easy but once you kinda learn a few cheats it makes the whole ordeal a lot simpler.

I mean I couldn't even draw a circle when I first got my tablet and the only way I've learned how to use it is through trial and error and a few tutorials which I've looked through.

The fact that my tablet doesn't have a screen makes it even harder since I don't actually look at it at all, I have to watch my laptop and coordinate my hand from there.

Lack of sleep I can handle, constantly being sick; not so much.

I ended up with the wonderful age old 'are you pregnant' from my mother, who just kinda laughed when I shrugged it off with a 'YOU CALLING ME FAT NOW?'

(and I can assure there's absolutely NO CHANCE of pregnancy with me. I've got a wonderful little plastic tube in my arm to stop that, cause fuck having kids this early.)

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mysticcreature In reply to venomousvenom [2014-01-03 03:41:34 +0000 UTC]

You've got it better than I do.  I just can't figure it all out.

As for pregnancy, probably not going to happen.  I have ovarian cysts which fuck with hormones.  Generally speaking, the disease I have has a very low chance of impregnation.  I'd be lucky to have any kids really.  Not to mention, as said before, I need a partner to make that happen anyway.  Even then, not likely to happen.

Oh well.  Adoption or in-vitro might help.

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venomousvenom In reply to mysticcreature [2014-01-03 04:02:09 +0000 UTC]

It's not too bad really - it's like anything really it takes practice.

Ouch, that's really got to suck.
And I don't say that lightly.

I'm almost the opposite in that sense. I've been pregnant once and I can easily say it was the most terrifying thing to find out. Especially since I'd only just turned 18. I've always had strong views on abortion and it's not something I like but sometimes it's necessary and in my case it really was. I couldn't raise a kid and I'd never want to put them into the social work system we have in the UK. And if I'd gone through the full term I know I wouldn't have been able to give the child over but similarly I wouldn't be able to cope. I'm unemployed and was at that point in education and then only a few months later I took a stroke which undoubtedly would have affected them. Weird thing is I was on the pill. And even on the one day I took it a few hours late I went and got the morning after pill. Just to be certain and even then that didn't seem to stop it from happening.

It's not something I like and it's a horrible experience but I can say that it was the best choice. I'm quite adamant on the way children should be provided for and I'd never have been able to give them what they wanted or needed.

But you've still got a chance In-vitro has gotten more promising results recently and I'm sure you'll find someone.
Trust me - it doesn't have to be all 'relationships' from a young age. They're troublesome and a lot of the times end in a mess and if they don't they become more of a 'habit' than a relationship.

So don't rush it~!

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mysticcreature In reply to venomousvenom [2014-01-03 05:55:37 +0000 UTC]

I understand your logic.  I can't say as I won't argue with what you did and how it had to happen.

I sympathize with you as well.  It's a terrible thing to have happen to anyone and it should never have to be made a decision, but there are times when there's just nothing else you can do.

As for taking time...

YOU BET I AM!

I have no intention of hurrying that process up.  Slow and steady is how I go.  When it happens, it'll happen, hopefully, at a time when I'm better able to handle it.

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venomousvenom In reply to mysticcreature [2014-01-03 06:12:29 +0000 UTC]

It's over and done with and there's no point me getting upset over it.

I already went through all that but it does kind of help when I'm talking to a few younger girls I know who're being...'reckless' to say the least.
A few horror stories and the exact truth of what they'd have to go through if they end up in that situation has scared enough of them into at least using protection or going on some form of contraception.

I'm all for having fun but when it concerns your health and others then it's best to be cautious.

I thought I was taking my time and now I've been in the same relationship for 3 years! (Jesus Christ!)

There's no point in having to deal with other peoples problems and shit if you've got enough of your own.
TRUST ME - I have to deal with twice the drama and some of it is so petty and ridiculous that I just shut off.
(Its not that I'm being rude it's just the same stuff being repeated over and over again and every time I try to help I always get a 'nah' or he does fuck all about it then complains nothing changes.)

Brick wall I tell ya'.

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