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We are all fine on the outside.

My ability and my will to create seems to be fading... I don't know when it started, what I know is that I'm fighting it for a long time, pretending the things are good, but they are not.
I struggle on every creation, I take days, weeks, maybe months to finish one paint. Like this one above. I took 2 months to finish it... and there is nothing to do with the refinement, it's just lack of motivation.
What sadden me most is that I used to draw and paint a lot, but now...
And I can't let it go. Even after loose the pleasure and sometimes the meaning, art still my ultimate savior. When things get really bad I produce some art, put it out (not good as imagine, but very close to it) and got satisfied.
That is my life for now... I come and go from the art, never finding a path, just wandering, looking for something I don't know, tired of fighting.

Description
We are all fine on the outside.

My ability and my will to create seems to be fading... I don't know when it started, what I know is that I'm fighting it for a long time, pretending the things are good, but they are not.
I struggle on every creation, I take days, weeks, maybe months to finish one paint. Like this one above. I took 2 months to finish it... and there is nothing to do with the refinement, it's just lack of motivation.
What sadden me most is that I used to draw and paint a lot, but now...
And I can't let it go. Even after loose the pleasure and sometimes the meaning, art still my ultimate savior. When things get really bad I produce some art, put it out (not good as imagine, but very close to it) and got satisfied.
That is my life for now... I come and go from the art, never finding a path, just wandering, looking for something I don't know, tired of fighting.