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Hey, it's been a long time, isn't it? The last time I actively drew more than six months ago. A lot of time has passed since then. A lot of attempts were made to pick up a tablet pen, but it was very difficult to draw. For the first time in my life I felt burnout in this, a real artblock. In previous years I rarely drew because of lack of enough time, and in recent months I simply couldn't even get to the sketch stage.

I express my great gratitude to you for the devoted expectation of my return ♥
During this time great changes have taken place. But among the most significant events, I attribute the gradual but successful fighting with the anxiety-depressive disorder diagnosed in winter and the change of biological direction.

If you remember this post where I talked about my mental and physical problems, this was that. This is a really hard duel and a terrible health disorder that I would not wish even on an enemy. I wish strength and good luck to those who were faced with this.
The meds prescribed to me before visiting a psychiatrist had not helped at all, I continued to have headaches, the situation with concentration, memory, coordination did not improve. By the end of autumn, I could barely find a reason to live. I felt really bad. A week before 2023, I managed to get to the doctor, I was prescribed antidepressants, which have helped me got back on my feet. It was not without effort that I got better. The mind has cleared up, there is no feeling of confusion. Memory is coming back to normal. The inability to walk in a straight line is a thing of the past. The desire to interact with people has returned. But the most important thing is that I began to accept myself, my changes, my versatility, and after a long time I looked into the depths of my soul.

The person who had been wandering through a foggy dark forest for three years followed the chirping of birds and came out into a sunlit field. At the beginning of this year, I decided to study ornithology, and it became what I want and can do. Since childhood I have liked birds, despite the fact that I haven't had the opportunity to get in close contact with them. I ran away from problems and anxiety more than once, picking up a camera and going in search of birds. The universe with my characters is closely connected with birds. These and many other facts confirm my sincere interest in these beautiful creatures.
Now I am on academic leave monitoring birds in the area where I live, which will be the subject of my graduate work. On one of my first expeditions in the fields I got emotional and my eyes filled with tears of happiness. I found a place in which I feel really comfortable.

It just so happened that I drew this work on the eve of June 1, the first day of summer like... nature has awakened, the birds have returned and I am with them.

Thanks to everyone who read to the end. I am sure that inspiration is already hovering near me, so see you soon, dear friends!

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CHARACTERS: Q

GENDER: female

SPECIES: kukuri (© Unikeko) but anthro

Q belongs to me

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WORK TYPE: Shaded art

PROGRAM: Paint Tool SAI 2 and Photoshop CS5

TABLET: Huion 420

ART © VQnava

!THIS WORK MAY NOT BE USED, EDITED, COPIED, PUBLISHED OR UPLOADED IN ANY WAYS WITHOUT MY WRITTEN PERMISSION!

Description
Hey, it's been a long time, isn't it? The last time I actively drew more than six months ago. A lot of time has passed since then. A lot of attempts were made to pick up a tablet pen, but it was very difficult to draw. For the first time in my life I felt burnout in this, a real artblock. In previous years I rarely drew because of lack of enough time, and in recent months I simply couldn't even get to the sketch stage.

I express my great gratitude to you for the devoted expectation of my return ♥
During this time great changes have taken place. But among the most significant events, I attribute the gradual but successful fighting with the anxiety-depressive disorder diagnosed in winter and the change of biological direction.

If you remember this post where I talked about my mental and physical problems, this was that. This is a really hard duel and a terrible health disorder that I would not wish even on an enemy. I wish strength and good luck to those who were faced with this.
The meds prescribed to me before visiting a psychiatrist had not helped at all, I continued to have headaches, the situation with concentration, memory, coordination did not improve. By the end of autumn, I could barely find a reason to live. I felt really bad. A week before 2023, I managed to get to the doctor, I was prescribed antidepressants, which have helped me got back on my feet. It was not without effort that I got better. The mind has cleared up, there is no feeling of confusion. Memory is coming back to normal. The inability to walk in a straight line is a thing of the past. The desire to interact with people has returned. But the most important thing is that I began to accept myself, my changes, my versatility, and after a long time I looked into the depths of my soul.

The person who had been wandering through a foggy dark forest for three years followed the chirping of birds and came out into a sunlit field. At the beginning of this year, I decided to study ornithology, and it became what I want and can do. Since childhood I have liked birds, despite the fact that I haven't had the opportunity to get in close contact with them. I ran away from problems and anxiety more than once, picking up a camera and going in search of birds. The universe with my characters is closely connected with birds. These and many other facts confirm my sincere interest in these beautiful creatures.
Now I am on academic leave monitoring birds in the area where I live, which will be the subject of my graduate work. On one of my first expeditions in the fields I got emotional and my eyes filled with tears of happiness. I found a place in which I feel really comfortable.

It just so happened that I drew this work on the eve of June 1, the first day of summer like... nature has awakened, the birds have returned and I am with them.

Thanks to everyone who read to the end. I am sure that inspiration is already hovering near me, so see you soon, dear friends!

___________________________________________________

CHARACTERS: Q

GENDER: female

SPECIES: kukuri (© Unikeko) but anthro

Q belongs to me

___________________________________________________

WORK TYPE: Shaded art

PROGRAM: Paint Tool SAI 2 and Photoshop CS5

TABLET: Huion 420

ART © VQnava

!THIS WORK MAY NOT BE USED, EDITED, COPIED, PUBLISHED OR UPLOADED IN ANY WAYS WITHOUT MY WRITTEN PERMISSION!