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(Forgot I made this until recently, but completely embodies how I'm feeling right now)

11 months ago, I started an internship program that, in all honesty, I no longer have any clue as to why I'm still a part of it. From the pieces I've gathered (or rather I try to give a care about), it's just to have a better chance at getting a job, that's all. Although the experience has helped significantly, it's just been a hassle to balance it on top of the responsibilities I've been given by the number of counselors that have been thrown at for the past five years. Just one to two hour meetings to get me to learn something when in reality I can't think of anything else I need helped on. Like the internship, they've helped, but god I want them gone. All of them.

I have absolutely no more motivation in my system. The ideas and brainstorms I've had had been set on hold were because of these distractions. The past year has been just mindlessly gaming solo for the most part and writing down ideas and plot points to things I won't end up making. And the tumblr I have? Not touched in months even though it's very close to the end.

I can't say my absence was a total loss. A friend I know has greatly benefited from my ideas and plans to implement them in the near future so at least I'll be tagged for some outside creativity. And thanks to friends like him, I finally have a video editor to tinker with again. HHN will be back as always, but will I Gmod again? The solo images and comics are a yes, but don't know about animations 'cause I probably have to start learning from the very beginning.

As for the future ahead...no clue. I've put off the whole "What do you want to do with your life?" question so much that I think I'm about to reach the edge of that question and finally fall off with an official "I have absolutely no f*cking idea" and just stick with it.

I don't know what I'm typing anymore really, I'm very tired.

Description
(Forgot I made this until recently, but completely embodies how I'm feeling right now)

11 months ago, I started an internship program that, in all honesty, I no longer have any clue as to why I'm still a part of it. From the pieces I've gathered (or rather I try to give a care about), it's just to have a better chance at getting a job, that's all. Although the experience has helped significantly, it's just been a hassle to balance it on top of the responsibilities I've been given by the number of counselors that have been thrown at for the past five years. Just one to two hour meetings to get me to learn something when in reality I can't think of anything else I need helped on. Like the internship, they've helped, but god I want them gone. All of them.

I have absolutely no more motivation in my system. The ideas and brainstorms I've had had been set on hold were because of these distractions. The past year has been just mindlessly gaming solo for the most part and writing down ideas and plot points to things I won't end up making. And the tumblr I have? Not touched in months even though it's very close to the end.

I can't say my absence was a total loss. A friend I know has greatly benefited from my ideas and plans to implement them in the near future so at least I'll be tagged for some outside creativity. And thanks to friends like him, I finally have a video editor to tinker with again. HHN will be back as always, but will I Gmod again? The solo images and comics are a yes, but don't know about animations 'cause I probably have to start learning from the very beginning.

As for the future ahead...no clue. I've put off the whole "What do you want to do with your life?" question so much that I think I'm about to reach the edge of that question and finally fall off with an official "I have absolutely no f*cking idea" and just stick with it.

I don't know what I'm typing anymore really, I'm very tired.