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And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive them that trespass against us.

I have been angry, so so angry for a long time. I've held grudges for almost as long as I've been alive. They have distracted me from day to day life. If I want to get healthy, my head and heart have to be healthy too. It's time to let go of all that.

It is okay to be upset with people who have wronged you. It's okay to feel mad about the things that happened, but hating people and holding grudges doesn't make it better. It doesn't make you better or wiser. It just makes you keep hurting. I understand that now. I won't forget the lessons I've learned, but I won't be dwelling on them any longer.

To my birth mother who made a simple but grave mistake that cost her life, I forgive you. To my grandparents who warped me from a young age and made me scared of God, I forgive you. To Daddy who says things without thinking and made me consider self harm multiple times, I forgive you. To friends turned enemies in the past who stole precious time from me, I forgive you. Both of you. To my mother's side of the family who disrespect my personal life choices, I forgive you. To my sister who is fighting drug addiction, I forgive you. To the woman who kicked my brother out of his own house, I forgive you. I'm glad you didn't die in that fire. To the teachers who discouraged me and even insulted me and people I love, I forgive you. To my cousin, the reason I write or sing at all who attempted suicide and abandoned her husband and children, I forgive you. To anyone who has ever annoyed me or lied to me or let me down, no matter how small or petty (and trust me, I held onto some petty things), I forgive you.

I forgive you.

I only hope that in return, anyone reading this will forgive me for anything I might have done to hurt them.

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And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive them that trespass against us.

I have been angry, so so angry for a long time. I've held grudges for almost as long as I've been alive. They have distracted me from day to day life. If I want to get healthy, my head and heart have to be healthy too. It's time to let go of all that.

It is okay to be upset with people who have wronged you. It's okay to feel mad about the things that happened, but hating people and holding grudges doesn't make it better. It doesn't make you better or wiser. It just makes you keep hurting. I understand that now. I won't forget the lessons I've learned, but I won't be dwelling on them any longer.

To my birth mother who made a simple but grave mistake that cost her life, I forgive you. To my grandparents who warped me from a young age and made me scared of God, I forgive you. To Daddy who says things without thinking and made me consider self harm multiple times, I forgive you. To friends turned enemies in the past who stole precious time from me, I forgive you. Both of you. To my mother's side of the family who disrespect my personal life choices, I forgive you. To my sister who is fighting drug addiction, I forgive you. To the woman who kicked my brother out of his own house, I forgive you. I'm glad you didn't die in that fire. To the teachers who discouraged me and even insulted me and people I love, I forgive you. To my cousin, the reason I write or sing at all who attempted suicide and abandoned her husband and children, I forgive you. To anyone who has ever annoyed me or lied to me or let me down, no matter how small or petty (and trust me, I held onto some petty things), I forgive you.

I forgive you.

I only hope that in return, anyone reading this will forgive me for anything I might have done to hurt them.