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We’ve been standing, embracing, in this open field for over an hour…
You looked at me through those blue green eyes,
cut half off by your dimming lids,
and persuaded the hair falling over my lips, behind my ear.
My eyes flicker open wide
with sudden awareness of your intention.
Anticipation flies about my gut.
The irresistibleness or your arms now wrapped around my waist
surpasses the little jolting pain it brings.
I try to get closer to you
through the movement of a slow clumsy step.
Instead you pull me into a deeper hold.
You always know how to make things right…
How to make them perfect…
I look up to you with wide, unknowing, frightened eyes.
Your smile takes hold on my soul
and convinces me everything will be just fine.
My arms slip from around your neck
to grip your strong shoulders that carried me here.
My gaze flickers down from your eyes.
I watch your lips intently. Waiting
to see when they’ll move.
They do not move. Simply twitching into
a slightly wider smile.
I look up again to you, feeling betrayed. My eyes
show my hurt for you to see openly yet your eyes are
closed.
Tingling sensations veil my face and
static replaces neutral thought.
I try to stop the tear that forms in the corner of my eye.
I fail. Just as I always do.
It falls between us and hits where I end
and you begin near our chests.
You sense this just as concretely as I feel a finger under my chin
bringing my face full into your sight.
I squeeze my eyes shut, pretending you can’t see the pain.
I wait for some sort of drastic reaction.
There isn’t one. Just your finger under my jaw, forcing
my face up to the light. My eyes open and I see you.
Just you. So beautiful. So destructively perfect.
Your eyes show no emotion, no pain, but your body does.
It starts to shake against mine. Without hesitation I feel your finger
wipe away moisture on my cheek. As if it were that simple after all,
you tilt your head oh so slightly, leaning in
with your black hair falling in front of your closed lids as you do,
and lips touch mine; your top between both mine quivering.
Your bottom lip there to support the top’s decision to press deeper
and then let up slowly, repeating the motion.
I lay against you in semi-shock for a moment then push my lips to yours
tenderly saying without words, “I’m here.”
This is our first. The beginning. My forever.
And so soon it is over. Too soon.
I lift off my toes to match your height as you draw away
but you are cruel and turn your lips away from mine with a fiends smile.
My lips touch your cheek instead, as you intended.
My cheeks flush. I look back down to our bodies touching…
I hear the softest of laughs rumble in your throat
and feel your hand softly on the back of my head, stroking my hair,
the other one on my neck, telling me it’s okay.

I break away from his touch and look up
fire in my mind flickering behind my eyes.
He sees it as mere candle light as I silently tell him I’ll get him back.
His smile that never left rings in my ears as he nods,
Telling me he can’t wait.
Like this conversation may have happened through true speech all along.
I try forcing his face back to mine through my sight.
It doesn’t work as I intended.
His nose is pointed in the other direction.
I rest my head against his chest again; eyes closed
until I realize he has turned his face back the way it should be.
I sneak my lips up quickly.

You knew this was coming and while I wasn’t aware of it
your arms twined around my waist again.
You pick me up inches above the ground and pull me to your lips again
this time not so tenderly.
I return this with the dying fury that my plan was predictable,
taking the dominant stance over your lips this time.
You’re mine.
I finish for this time and you set me down with realization.
It is my turn to smile deviously.
Your eyes stay shut and you don’t see.
You miss things sometimes. Things you would rather see; Things you should.
I sigh and you pull me closer again,
never letting me get too far ahead.
I wait for time to stop as it had before with my head on your chest,
listening to the music of the heart I will love forever and longer.

Description
We’ve been standing, embracing, in this open field for over an hour…
You looked at me through those blue green eyes,
cut half off by your dimming lids,
and persuaded the hair falling over my lips, behind my ear.
My eyes flicker open wide
with sudden awareness of your intention.
Anticipation flies about my gut.
The irresistibleness or your arms now wrapped around my waist
surpasses the little jolting pain it brings.
I try to get closer to you
through the movement of a slow clumsy step.
Instead you pull me into a deeper hold.
You always know how to make things right…
How to make them perfect…
I look up to you with wide, unknowing, frightened eyes.
Your smile takes hold on my soul
and convinces me everything will be just fine.
My arms slip from around your neck
to grip your strong shoulders that carried me here.
My gaze flickers down from your eyes.
I watch your lips intently. Waiting
to see when they’ll move.
They do not move. Simply twitching into
a slightly wider smile.
I look up again to you, feeling betrayed. My eyes
show my hurt for you to see openly yet your eyes are
closed.
Tingling sensations veil my face and
static replaces neutral thought.
I try to stop the tear that forms in the corner of my eye.
I fail. Just as I always do.
It falls between us and hits where I end
and you begin near our chests.
You sense this just as concretely as I feel a finger under my chin
bringing my face full into your sight.
I squeeze my eyes shut, pretending you can’t see the pain.
I wait for some sort of drastic reaction.
There isn’t one. Just your finger under my jaw, forcing
my face up to the light. My eyes open and I see you.
Just you. So beautiful. So destructively perfect.
Your eyes show no emotion, no pain, but your body does.
It starts to shake against mine. Without hesitation I feel your finger
wipe away moisture on my cheek. As if it were that simple after all,
you tilt your head oh so slightly, leaning in
with your black hair falling in front of your closed lids as you do,
and lips touch mine; your top between both mine quivering.
Your bottom lip there to support the top’s decision to press deeper
and then let up slowly, repeating the motion.
I lay against you in semi-shock for a moment then push my lips to yours
tenderly saying without words, “I’m here.”
This is our first. The beginning. My forever.
And so soon it is over. Too soon.
I lift off my toes to match your height as you draw away
but you are cruel and turn your lips away from mine with a fiends smile.
My lips touch your cheek instead, as you intended.
My cheeks flush. I look back down to our bodies touching…
I hear the softest of laughs rumble in your throat
and feel your hand softly on the back of my head, stroking my hair,
the other one on my neck, telling me it’s okay.

I break away from his touch and look up
fire in my mind flickering behind my eyes.
He sees it as mere candle light as I silently tell him I’ll get him back.
His smile that never left rings in my ears as he nods,
Telling me he can’t wait.
Like this conversation may have happened through true speech all along.
I try forcing his face back to mine through my sight.
It doesn’t work as I intended.
His nose is pointed in the other direction.
I rest my head against his chest again; eyes closed
until I realize he has turned his face back the way it should be.
I sneak my lips up quickly.

You knew this was coming and while I wasn’t aware of it
your arms twined around my waist again.
You pick me up inches above the ground and pull me to your lips again
this time not so tenderly.
I return this with the dying fury that my plan was predictable,
taking the dominant stance over your lips this time.
You’re mine.
I finish for this time and you set me down with realization.
It is my turn to smile deviously.
Your eyes stay shut and you don’t see.
You miss things sometimes. Things you would rather see; Things you should.
I sigh and you pull me closer again,
never letting me get too far ahead.
I wait for time to stop as it had before with my head on your chest,
listening to the music of the heart I will love forever and longer.