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Chapter 40

Cassie looked around the room as realisation of what she was seeing hit her like a ton of bricks. All around the room was her things, every piece of clothing she owned torn or shredded to pieces, all her CD’s snapped, all her books torn, every little trinket and piece of jewellery thrown about the room. All of her things, some which meant a lot to her, and some that were irreplaceable lay mingled on the floor with broken, empty alcohol bottles and discarded food. Right amidst the destruction, slumped against the wall and clutching a bottle of Jack in one hand and a piece of paper in the other. Cassie felt tears spring to her eyes as she looked at shreds of photographs of her and her friends then looked to Bam again. He looked so desperately sad that she was unsure of what to do. Ville stood next to her and wrapped his arm around her waist protectively and opened his mouth making to have a go at Bam. Cassie raised her hand and cut him off.

“Bam, are you alright?” She said with her face full of concern as she took a step away from Ville and towards Bam. He looked up at her and a flash of hatred or disgust flashed through his eyes.
“Yes” He spat through clenched teeth as the hand holing the piece of paper crumpled it into a little ball and threw it at Ville then got to his feet. “No thanks to either of you fuckers”
“Just as well, because if you weren’t I’d feel bad for doing this” Cassie said. Anger had replaced the concern that had been in her voice as she stepped closer to Bam and pulled her fist back. Before Ville could stop her, or Bam could tell what was going to happen Cassie smacked Bam right in the face sending him falling back down on his ass. Clutching his face he shot Cassie a deadly look.
“What the fuck do you think you’re doing you fucking arse hole? What right do you have to destroy everything I own? Ugh, I have never been angrier at you!” Cassie screamed, this time Ville grabbed her in time before she hit Bam again, whispering to her to calm down.
“What right do I have? What fucking right? You broke my fucking heart you bitch!” Bam slurred with alcohol tinged breath. This time it was Ville’s turn to get angry. Storming over to Bam, he pulled him to his feet again and slammed him against the wall pulling his hand away from his face that was covering where Cassie had hit him.
“You know what Bam; you don’t get to talk to my girlfriend like that, not this one!” Ville hissed right in Bam’s face, slightly shocked at the blood pouring from his nose from Cassie’s punch. Cassie couldn’t help it, even in spite of the situation, her heart had fluttered when she heard Ville call her his girlfriend, and she felt a smile spread on her lips and disappear as quickly as it had come as she realised that Ville and Bam were likely to start a physical fight.

She hurried over and tried to pull Ville off of Bam to no avail, she didn’t think she had ever seen Ville this angry, but she didn’t want to stand by and watch as he and Bam beat each other up over her.
“Oh so now that you’re fucking her you’ll stand up for her, but when it was Danni you were with you were a complete cunt to her” Bam screamed at him.
“Oh shut up Bam, any time Danni was out of order I made sure she knew it, I just have more grace than to have a screaming match in front of everyone unlike Danni” Ville shouted at Bam as Cassie called to them to stop and to calm down
“Oh right, sure you did Ville. You just stick up for which ever whore will let you fuck her at that moment in time, Cassie’s just the same as all the other sluts you’ve had!”
“How dare you say that Bam, Cassie is nothing close to anyone I’ve ever been with before! I love her Bam, I’ve always loved her, you’ve known that as long as you’ve know me!” He screamed, now he was past angry, he was hurt. He knew well that Bam was simply trying to hurt him and he was certainly succeeding.

“Wait, Bam, you knew how Ville felt?” Cassie said quietly, looking Bam right in the eye for a second before he pulled his eyes away from her quivering gaze. He nodded once.
“How could you do this Bam? How could you let me cry on you shoulder, let me tell you I loved Ville, let me pour my heart out after that night?” Cassie said. She felt betrayed, she had thought that Bam was one of her best friends in the whole world, one person she could always turn to, could always trust to tell her the truth.
“Wait, Cassie….You have to understand….”Bam started, still unable to look at her.
“Bam, how could you sleep with me when you knew I was in love with Ville, and he was in love with me?” Cassie said. Her voice was starting to shake now and her eyes were beginning to fill with tears.
“I thought you were my friend Bam, but a friend wouldn’t have kept that from me, not when they saw how much I was hurting over Ville” Cassie said. She closed her eyes tight to stop the tears from coming as she covered her eyes with her hand. Ville came to her, finally letting go of the grip he still had on Bam. He wrapped his arms around her and whispered comforting words in her ears so that only she could hear him.

“For fucks sake Cass, why can’t you see past him? He’s no better than me. He fucked you and left you, didn’t even care how you felt.” Bam shouted at Cassie. She didn’t say anything, she just took a deep breath as she lent against Ville’s body. She finally took one step away from Ville, and from the expression on her face it was clear that she was very hurt by Bam’s actions.
“I can’t do this right now Bam, sorry. Is there any of my shit that you didn’t destroy?” she said. Her voice was barely above a whisper as she slowly began to piece through the bits and pieces of her clothes and make up, trying to find something that was still in one piece.
“No, Cassandra, you don’t get to ignore me. Tell me why you can forgive what he did? How is what I did worse than what he did?” Bam said. Cassie didn’t even answer him. Her silence was mostly because she had nothing to say to him. She knew that what had happened with Ville was just as hurtful as Bam not telling her about Ville’s feelings, but for some reason it hurt more that Bam had lied to her than Ville had used her. She could only reason that it was because she expected more of Bam, as she had only ever looked to him as a friend, until recently, but she had been in love with Ville for the longest time, and sleeping with him, for a brief few moments when it had happened, had been everything she wanted. All she knew was that she wasn’t hurt by sleeping with Ville anymore, but she was by Bam.

“Fucking look at me Cassie!” Bam said. His voice was shaking now. He couldn’t take the hurt look in her eyes, especially knowing it was because of him that right now she was sitting on the floor, in amongst all her belongings that he had destroyed out of spite. He looked at her face which was turned to the ground avoiding his eyes.
“What do you want from me Bam Do you want me to give Ville up? Want me to come back and be with you after all this?” Cassie said, finally looking him right in the eyes. She saw his tear up just as she knew her own were. She knew that Ville stood right next to her but she was oblivious to him. She picked up the first thing that came to her hand and realised it was the dress Danni had thrown a drink over.
“I….I…Yes, Cassie. That’s what I want. I want you to hate him! I want you to love me, but I know it’ll never happen. And I hate you for that, there is that what you wanted to fucking hear?”
“Yes, Bam. If it’s true, then that’s what I wanted to hear!” She shouted, getting to her feet with tears falling from her eyes now. Ville tried to take her hand to guide her away from Bam as she was starting to walk towards him, throwing random small things that she picked up that used to be part of her things.
“If you need to hate me, fine, hate me” She said, more calmly as she ran out of things to throw. She stopped walking as she had backed Bam against a wall. Bam opened his mouth to speak.
“Don’t Bam; don’t say anything else to me. You hate me, I get it. You hate Ville? I’m sure he gets it to. There’s nothing left to say. So now Ville and I are going now, he has a show in a few hours, but I’m sure you don’t care about that. Goodbye” She said and walked out of the room without so much as a glance towards Bam. Ville followed close behind her.

Ville let the door slam behind him and pulled Cassie into his arms. She cried softly into his chest. She was far more upset by her confrontation with Bam than she would ever have let him see. She didn’t want Bam to hate her, or Ville. All she could do was let Ville hold her and guide her back to the room so she could calm down. Once inside the room Ville sat Cassie on the edge of the bed and knelt in front of her, holding her hands in his. Delicately he kissed both of her hands.
“Are you alright Sweetheart?” He asked, concerned.
“I’ll be fine, Ville, honestly, I’m just so angry” She said. Her whole body was shaking, Ville assumed, from anger.
“Well, can I get you a drink or anything, and then we’ll head out and get you some clothes and what not?” He said smiling at her as she nodded her head and smiled back. He began to walk towards the mini bar to get her a drink when her soft voice stopped him in his tracks.
“Ville, thanks for everything.” She said, smiling at him again.
“You have nothing to thank me for, love, Bam was right. I treated you horribly, and I don’t deserve your love. But, I should thank you, seen as you’ve taken it into your heart to be with me despite everything.” He came back to her and wrapped her in his arms.
“I love you, Ville, more than anything” She said, simply as he kissed her on the top of the head.
“I love you too Cassie. I’m not going to let Bam keep doing this to you, it’s not fair.” He said. Cassie got to her feet and told Ville she was fine to go out now; after all they were running very tight on time now. Ville cave her a t-shirt and a pair of jeans that just about fit her and they were off out to get Cassie the basics that she needed.

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Chapter 40

Cassie looked around the room as realisation of what she was seeing hit her like a ton of bricks. All around the room was her things, every piece of clothing she owned torn or shredded to pieces, all her CD’s snapped, all her books torn, every little trinket and piece of jewellery thrown about the room. All of her things, some which meant a lot to her, and some that were irreplaceable lay mingled on the floor with broken, empty alcohol bottles and discarded food. Right amidst the destruction, slumped against the wall and clutching a bottle of Jack in one hand and a piece of paper in the other. Cassie felt tears spring to her eyes as she looked at shreds of photographs of her and her friends then looked to Bam again. He looked so desperately sad that she was unsure of what to do. Ville stood next to her and wrapped his arm around her waist protectively and opened his mouth making to have a go at Bam. Cassie raised her hand and cut him off.

“Bam, are you alright?” She said with her face full of concern as she took a step away from Ville and towards Bam. He looked up at her and a flash of hatred or disgust flashed through his eyes.
“Yes” He spat through clenched teeth as the hand holing the piece of paper crumpled it into a little ball and threw it at Ville then got to his feet. “No thanks to either of you fuckers”
“Just as well, because if you weren’t I’d feel bad for doing this” Cassie said. Anger had replaced the concern that had been in her voice as she stepped closer to Bam and pulled her fist back. Before Ville could stop her, or Bam could tell what was going to happen Cassie smacked Bam right in the face sending him falling back down on his ass. Clutching his face he shot Cassie a deadly look.
“What the fuck do you think you’re doing you fucking arse hole? What right do you have to destroy everything I own? Ugh, I have never been angrier at you!” Cassie screamed, this time Ville grabbed her in time before she hit Bam again, whispering to her to calm down.
“What right do I have? What fucking right? You broke my fucking heart you bitch!” Bam slurred with alcohol tinged breath. This time it was Ville’s turn to get angry. Storming over to Bam, he pulled him to his feet again and slammed him against the wall pulling his hand away from his face that was covering where Cassie had hit him.
“You know what Bam; you don’t get to talk to my girlfriend like that, not this one!” Ville hissed right in Bam’s face, slightly shocked at the blood pouring from his nose from Cassie’s punch. Cassie couldn’t help it, even in spite of the situation, her heart had fluttered when she heard Ville call her his girlfriend, and she felt a smile spread on her lips and disappear as quickly as it had come as she realised that Ville and Bam were likely to start a physical fight.

She hurried over and tried to pull Ville off of Bam to no avail, she didn’t think she had ever seen Ville this angry, but she didn’t want to stand by and watch as he and Bam beat each other up over her.
“Oh so now that you’re fucking her you’ll stand up for her, but when it was Danni you were with you were a complete cunt to her” Bam screamed at him.
“Oh shut up Bam, any time Danni was out of order I made sure she knew it, I just have more grace than to have a screaming match in front of everyone unlike Danni” Ville shouted at Bam as Cassie called to them to stop and to calm down
“Oh right, sure you did Ville. You just stick up for which ever whore will let you fuck her at that moment in time, Cassie’s just the same as all the other sluts you’ve had!”
“How dare you say that Bam, Cassie is nothing close to anyone I’ve ever been with before! I love her Bam, I’ve always loved her, you’ve known that as long as you’ve know me!” He screamed, now he was past angry, he was hurt. He knew well that Bam was simply trying to hurt him and he was certainly succeeding.

“Wait, Bam, you knew how Ville felt?” Cassie said quietly, looking Bam right in the eye for a second before he pulled his eyes away from her quivering gaze. He nodded once.
“How could you do this Bam? How could you let me cry on you shoulder, let me tell you I loved Ville, let me pour my heart out after that night?” Cassie said. She felt betrayed, she had thought that Bam was one of her best friends in the whole world, one person she could always turn to, could always trust to tell her the truth.
“Wait, Cassie….You have to understand….”Bam started, still unable to look at her.
“Bam, how could you sleep with me when you knew I was in love with Ville, and he was in love with me?” Cassie said. Her voice was starting to shake now and her eyes were beginning to fill with tears.
“I thought you were my friend Bam, but a friend wouldn’t have kept that from me, not when they saw how much I was hurting over Ville” Cassie said. She closed her eyes tight to stop the tears from coming as she covered her eyes with her hand. Ville came to her, finally letting go of the grip he still had on Bam. He wrapped his arms around her and whispered comforting words in her ears so that only she could hear him.

“For fucks sake Cass, why can’t you see past him? He’s no better than me. He fucked you and left you, didn’t even care how you felt.” Bam shouted at Cassie. She didn’t say anything, she just took a deep breath as she lent against Ville’s body. She finally took one step away from Ville, and from the expression on her face it was clear that she was very hurt by Bam’s actions.
“I can’t do this right now Bam, sorry. Is there any of my shit that you didn’t destroy?” she said. Her voice was barely above a whisper as she slowly began to piece through the bits and pieces of her clothes and make up, trying to find something that was still in one piece.
“No, Cassandra, you don’t get to ignore me. Tell me why you can forgive what he did? How is what I did worse than what he did?” Bam said. Cassie didn’t even answer him. Her silence was mostly because she had nothing to say to him. She knew that what had happened with Ville was just as hurtful as Bam not telling her about Ville’s feelings, but for some reason it hurt more that Bam had lied to her than Ville had used her. She could only reason that it was because she expected more of Bam, as she had only ever looked to him as a friend, until recently, but she had been in love with Ville for the longest time, and sleeping with him, for a brief few moments when it had happened, had been everything she wanted. All she knew was that she wasn’t hurt by sleeping with Ville anymore, but she was by Bam.

“Fucking look at me Cassie!” Bam said. His voice was shaking now. He couldn’t take the hurt look in her eyes, especially knowing it was because of him that right now she was sitting on the floor, in amongst all her belongings that he had destroyed out of spite. He looked at her face which was turned to the ground avoiding his eyes.
“What do you want from me Bam Do you want me to give Ville up? Want me to come back and be with you after all this?” Cassie said, finally looking him right in the eyes. She saw his tear up just as she knew her own were. She knew that Ville stood right next to her but she was oblivious to him. She picked up the first thing that came to her hand and realised it was the dress Danni had thrown a drink over.
“I….I…Yes, Cassie. That’s what I want. I want you to hate him! I want you to love me, but I know it’ll never happen. And I hate you for that, there is that what you wanted to fucking hear?”
“Yes, Bam. If it’s true, then that’s what I wanted to hear!” She shouted, getting to her feet with tears falling from her eyes now. Ville tried to take her hand to guide her away from Bam as she was starting to walk towards him, throwing random small things that she picked up that used to be part of her things.
“If you need to hate me, fine, hate me” She said, more calmly as she ran out of things to throw. She stopped walking as she had backed Bam against a wall. Bam opened his mouth to speak.
“Don’t Bam; don’t say anything else to me. You hate me, I get it. You hate Ville? I’m sure he gets it to. There’s nothing left to say. So now Ville and I are going now, he has a show in a few hours, but I’m sure you don’t care about that. Goodbye” She said and walked out of the room without so much as a glance towards Bam. Ville followed close behind her.

Ville let the door slam behind him and pulled Cassie into his arms. She cried softly into his chest. She was far more upset by her confrontation with Bam than she would ever have let him see. She didn’t want Bam to hate her, or Ville. All she could do was let Ville hold her and guide her back to the room so she could calm down. Once inside the room Ville sat Cassie on the edge of the bed and knelt in front of her, holding her hands in his. Delicately he kissed both of her hands.
“Are you alright Sweetheart?” He asked, concerned.
“I’ll be fine, Ville, honestly, I’m just so angry” She said. Her whole body was shaking, Ville assumed, from anger.
“Well, can I get you a drink or anything, and then we’ll head out and get you some clothes and what not?” He said smiling at her as she nodded her head and smiled back. He began to walk towards the mini bar to get her a drink when her soft voice stopped him in his tracks.
“Ville, thanks for everything.” She said, smiling at him again.
“You have nothing to thank me for, love, Bam was right. I treated you horribly, and I don’t deserve your love. But, I should thank you, seen as you’ve taken it into your heart to be with me despite everything.” He came back to her and wrapped her in his arms.
“I love you, Ville, more than anything” She said, simply as he kissed her on the top of the head.
“I love you too Cassie. I’m not going to let Bam keep doing this to you, it’s not fair.” He said. Cassie got to her feet and told Ville she was fine to go out now; after all they were running very tight on time now. Ville cave her a t-shirt and a pair of jeans that just about fit her and they were off out to get Cassie the basics that she needed.