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FUCK is just the perfect word
it explains everything
it explains me!!!
i'm so fucked up
i'm waiting for someone to push me a bit more and i swear i'll FUCKING snap

HATRED now that's another word that describes me, that's what has filled me, it's what is making me,

PAIN, yea fuck it....i'm getting used to it... and going to begin to like it....watch me

~i just want to cut it all away
just want to cut and make it go away
as a whole
once and for all >_< ~

DEATH something we all face eventually, but i wish it was sooner

STEVE the only thing keeping me from doing all these things bottled up inside my head, the only release i have from this fucking world, and i can't even tell him all

FAMILY just some fucked up shit they made up so you stay with specific people even if they hurt you more than anyone probably will in your life
family has its own deviation it's that fucked up...

FRIENDS try to help, but i'm not putting them down w/ my shit, they are the only ones that actually care,,or pretend to

ME i have no self definition,,, i just find myself lost in this world, waiting for nothing....having but one person by me,,,and not even...my boyfriend, is by me but not completely, i don't let it happen

i'll rather leave this world first, before anyone else leaves

escape

FUCK i want to write it down but i can't...

I want to release but i can't...why?...because it's basically just saying it aloud, or writing it for me,,,,doesn't solve anything...makes it a BIT better........SHIT

fuck it

i don't fucking care.......jussttttt keeeeeppp on goingggg!!!!.....................

i want to cut but i love you so much >_<

*rolling into a lil ball,,,and there's accidently a raiser in my hands.....what to do?*