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Ok so first of all this letter was written like about half a month before my birth.

My mom and biological dad i guess were in a fight, or so i hear, i expect my mom had enough and decided to write this letter.
Then by the time I was four my dad killed himself, I guess this letter had part to do with it and other things obviously (cuz it was 4 yrs after this letter) so yeah...

I always used to beat myself up, saying that it was my fault, I wasn't worth living for, etc. Well after I read this letter I got to thinking... I can't be the reason.
1) b/c my dad I guess you could say, wasn't stable
--- I still love him so don't get me wrong!
2) My mom loved to feel as if she's loved by everyone, so she possibly just wanted to find others to have sex with b/c I have to say this but.... my mom is/was a whore
--- Still love her, just can't stand her!
3) I was only 4 yrs old, if I had anything to do with it, it can't be my fault, that's how children act and on top of that everyone says I look like him so he should be proud of that!

But yeah, I just wanted to make sure I kept this original scan on file so if it ends up just being thrown away I still have a scan of it and if need be, bring it up in court, show it to my mother and tell her this is one of the reasons I've been depressed etc U know basically dirt on my mom. NOT BLACKMAIL lol I'm not that kinda person, unless I need to be.

O and on the end page I covered up my mothers name for privacy reasons, I believe that my mom atleast deserves that much right?

Description
Ok so first of all this letter was written like about half a month before my birth.

My mom and biological dad i guess were in a fight, or so i hear, i expect my mom had enough and decided to write this letter.
Then by the time I was four my dad killed himself, I guess this letter had part to do with it and other things obviously (cuz it was 4 yrs after this letter) so yeah...

I always used to beat myself up, saying that it was my fault, I wasn't worth living for, etc. Well after I read this letter I got to thinking... I can't be the reason.
1) b/c my dad I guess you could say, wasn't stable
--- I still love him so don't get me wrong!
2) My mom loved to feel as if she's loved by everyone, so she possibly just wanted to find others to have sex with b/c I have to say this but.... my mom is/was a whore
--- Still love her, just can't stand her!
3) I was only 4 yrs old, if I had anything to do with it, it can't be my fault, that's how children act and on top of that everyone says I look like him so he should be proud of that!

But yeah, I just wanted to make sure I kept this original scan on file so if it ends up just being thrown away I still have a scan of it and if need be, bring it up in court, show it to my mother and tell her this is one of the reasons I've been depressed etc U know basically dirt on my mom. NOT BLACKMAIL lol I'm not that kinda person, unless I need to be.

O and on the end page I covered up my mothers name for privacy reasons, I believe that my mom atleast deserves that much right?