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this is really really embarrassing and personal for me to talk about but idk where else to ask

so
i have ocd, and one of the anxiety-type habits that stem from that is skin picking (dermatillomania) 

lots of people w/ this disorder pick at their face, and most resources for stopping/helping with skin picking pertain to the face
i don't really pick at my face, but rather i pick at my boobs (my boobs get the worst of it, i pick at my whole body but it isnt severe) and basically any hair on my body that isn't on my head

i've been doin this continuously for about 2 years and havent been able to stop and it's driving me insane
i don't want to ruin my body because of my obsessive habits 

idgaf about stretch marks but i do not want to scar my body because i cant help but pick at any tiny bumps on my skin aND to make it worse its all exacerbated by my urticaria so it's red, itchy and irritated every time i do

i feel like crying and hiding myself away, i cant wear even remotely low-ish tops without feeling conscious of people seeing and judging the scabs and scars and bleeding spots on my chest. it's so embarrassing and im so angry that i cant stop myself. i do it without even thinking. 

i guess im asking for suggestions and to just,,, know that i'm not alone because im sure there are a lot of insecure ppl struggling w/ this too. this is super uncomfortable for me because i never post vent-anything but i feel safe w/ you guys and i know i wont be judged 

Skin by *firstfear

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Comments: 103

LeSplobae [2017-08-29 20:27:59 +0000 UTC]

maybe try having some sort of clay to pick at instead?

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shadowdroid677 [2017-08-23 05:53:26 +0000 UTC]

Hey, I'll be honest about myself, I have Dermatillomania too, but I scratch my head in bursts for minutes on end. I just have this constant compulsion to get rid of of the dandruff on my head, and it gets to the point to where my scalp bleeds in some sections afterwards.

Now, the thing that personally helped me was forcing myself to cut it down to a certain number of times a day because I keep track of what I do during the day depending on if it's important to me (exercise, calories, weight, mileage on my car, etc.). So, instead of doing it constantly whenever I wanted to do, I forced myself to only do it 1-2 times a day, and that did help me lose that urge a little bit.

But, that is just me. My experience will be different from yours. You should probably try to find someone that's more experienced in helping people out with dermatillomania whenever you can. If you can't now, do so when you can or find something that can replace that habit. If you want, maybe you can force yourself to draw out the compulsion through artwork or complex sculpting? It may help someone as creative as you

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XClover-PatchX [2017-08-22 05:52:17 +0000 UTC]

i have something thats not the same to it but i dont know what it is
around my fingers are these little bits of skin that stick up
when i was little i bit them once then the skin stuck up
they never REALLY heal they just stick up more 
so now i always bite them and i never show my hands to anyone 
their always sore itching bleeding or scarred 
and i have this thing with nails
when they reach just above the skin area
i bite them
i dont even notice biting them
once i bit them in my sleep
its a habit


but i know you can get better
i belive in you :3
by the power of down under (Australia) you will be ok :3 

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breeozoa [2017-08-21 17:27:49 +0000 UTC]

I know several people irl with the same problem, and I myself have trichotillomania (I've had for almost a decade)... in fact, I have a small spot behind my left ear that has no hair ;.;
So yeah, I do understand where you are coming from, it can be very debilitating. And it's a pretty common problem, unfortunately ;_;
My best suggestion is to get a fidget toy, even several, and try to mess with those when you get the urge to pick at your skin. Keep them always with you, and take them out when you need to! Also, you can try to wear cotton gloves when you are at home (I wear them because of my palmar hyperhidrosis, some brands are very comfy!).
Hope this helps somehow, you aren't alone <3

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BelovedBeast [2017-08-21 05:31:25 +0000 UTC]

Try to find a gentle exfoliate for your body to help with rough patches and bumps, use proper moisturizer to hydrate skin. wear covering clothing giving you less access and let it heal. Find a buddy to keep you in check.

get peel off nail polish base coat, paint your nails and pick at the polish.

bubble wrap, shred paper by hand, unusual arts and crafts.

Draw using pointillism

Every time you start to pick go for a walk, do 10 push ups, stomp till you are tired, put money in a jar etc

DETERMINATION!!! YOU CAN DO IT!!!!

I used to pick a lot, but I found decorating my nails really helped, and having my fiance and my cat yell at me really helps. (yes my cat yells at me and swats me)

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shadowdroid677 In reply to BelovedBeast [2017-08-23 05:54:43 +0000 UTC]

^^^^this!

This is the perfect advice

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BelovedBeast In reply to shadowdroid677 [2017-08-23 06:29:28 +0000 UTC]

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Yammsicho [2017-08-21 04:18:22 +0000 UTC]

Maybe try picking at something squishy like stress balls? I'm not really sure how to help so sorry if im not of much use

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hammi-art [2017-08-21 04:06:15 +0000 UTC]

lately for me it's been the same with my forehead. Good thing is, I don't stick out cause I'm still in highschool, so everyone has red marks on their face from acne. But it doesn't change that I'm self concious of it. I think I might have a mild form of dermatillomania as well because I've been picking at skin since I was in 4th grade. It started with my feet, as they got callused from supporting my weight (I'm a 175lb teen oml I'm so fat), so I began to pick the skin and even clip it off with nail clippers. It got to  a point that it hurt any time I would take a step and I'd walk of the back of my heels to avoid touching the floor and causing extrutiating (can't spell) pain. Then it moved to my upper arms, where I have several bumps. I've also been picking the skin off my lips since I was a toddler and I still do to date. Most recently, my forehead has begun to break out. I pick at every bumb till it's bright red. It hurts like hell, but I can't help it. I wouldn't wish this curse on anybody, and I always hate to see similar cases of it. I have no advice to give accept stay strong and try to stop. Ily, yeagar

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XClover-PatchX In reply to hammi-art [2017-08-22 05:53:20 +0000 UTC]

i tend to bite the skin of my lips
i dont even need red lipstick
their already covered in blood xD

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babyberrybunny [2017-08-21 03:33:36 +0000 UTC]

am I the only one who peels the skin off their lips???
like if my lips are chapped I'll pick at it and it will bleed 

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Froststreak02 In reply to babyberrybunny [2018-01-08 04:00:30 +0000 UTC]

Same

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XClover-PatchX In reply to babyberrybunny [2017-08-22 05:53:39 +0000 UTC]

lol saaaaame 

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Xxdevil-darlingxX [2017-08-21 03:13:53 +0000 UTC]

what i do is trim my nails real short and when i can, wear thick gloves. if ur feeling like u need to pick (i dont get the feeling it just happens but everyone is different) put elmers glue on ur hands or somewhere that itll distract u and put on bandaids!!!

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Xxdevil-darlingxX [2017-08-21 03:11:35 +0000 UTC]

Oh man i feel u, i have the same thing and i aim for my face n chest the most and its been going on since 6th grade ;n;

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kairudo-lynn [2017-08-21 02:43:17 +0000 UTC]

I'm not an expert, so I don't know if this will help, but I can try! I have a kinda similar issue, I suck on my skin or continuously scratch it until I bleed or get hickeys, and I've found  having something to mess with in my hands works. Try just keeping your hands busy; drawing, cooking, or maybe even a balloon filled with sand to fumble around. One thing I do if I'm in public; always have a rubber band around your wrist and and if you catch yourself wanting to/picking your skin, pull back the rubber band back and let go. Not enough for it to leave a mark or anything, but just enough to make it sting a little for a split-second. It'll give you a similar feeling of peeling a scab but it won't scar. I hope this helped in some way! <33

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ani0278 [2017-08-21 02:35:12 +0000 UTC]

I know I don't have the same thing. But I do have social anxiety, OCD, and depression. But my OCD is just germs and stuff. Please don't think you are alone with anything there are a lot of people out there to help. I can help if you to. 😊 I will be happy to help.

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EternalCosmos7 [2017-08-20 22:14:27 +0000 UTC]

I may not have the same thing, but I have something similar. I have these weird little bumps on my arms from malnutrition and the fact I live off fizzie drinks. They're not acnes, but I pick and pick and pick at them. My arms are so bruised and speckled with red brown and pink spots. I never want to wear sleeveless shirts or shirts without sleeves. But I do anyways because I dont gove a fuck anymore. Sure people ask me "what are those weird bumps on your arms!?" "Whats wrong with your arms?" Etc. but I honestly dont even care anymore. I wear sleevless shirts all the time now, trying to brush off the fact my arms look like zombies. :^D so from all these comments, hopefully you can feel a bit better. Because we all love you darkie 

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princelypuppy [2017-08-20 20:57:43 +0000 UTC]

HEY so i have ocd and had the same problem. i picked at my scalp to the point where there were scabs all through my head and neck and it was really bad. i tried occupying my hands with other things but it didnt help. i started on the medication n. acetylcysteine and within less than two weeks picking has gone away almost completely. it is over the counter and pretty cheap so if you dont have a lot of money/a psychiatrist its ok. i would highly recommend it and i hope it helps!!

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kasscabelx [2017-08-20 18:47:11 +0000 UTC]

this might sound really weird but when im like,, extremely anxious, i put toothpaste in different spots on my face (thats where i pick the skin) and let it dry. It feels like peeling skin and calms me a lot. And it actually helps my face to recover because toothpaste is supossed to be good for acne and stuff ;o

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Mykie-doll [2017-08-20 18:43:50 +0000 UTC]

Try aloe vera, its good for healing (: coconut oil should help your skin too if you apply it nightly

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XClover-PatchX In reply to Mykie-doll [2017-08-22 05:54:46 +0000 UTC]

i drink aloe vera 
is that weird
i dont think its weird

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Mykie-doll In reply to XClover-PatchX [2017-09-06 18:46:23 +0000 UTC]

Its not weird its really good for you aha

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XClover-PatchX In reply to Mykie-doll [2017-09-11 08:25:31 +0000 UTC]

ikr?

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Meow-Productions [2017-08-20 18:35:48 +0000 UTC]

I don't have what you're talking about, but I've been struggling with my trichotillomania for over five years. It's similar in that I get the physical, outward change problem as well.
Online guides can help a little, but the best thing to do is find an accountability partner and focus less on the scarring itself and work in increments, like: okay, I only picked at (this many) this time. Next week let's try for only (this many smaller) pickings. 
I find wearing gloves or other things to be pointless because I'll just take them off anyways because I'm not used to them and hate my hands being confined; even my glasses don't stop my hands from pulling out lashes and eyebrow hairs. If gloves or other stoppage devices work for you, though, then try em! They can be very helpful, as well as negative-response self-therapies like slapping a rubber band on your wrist every time you cave in. (Personally, again, this doesn't work for me because it becomes "too much effort").
My best help has been accountability partners and the slow decrease in increments of hairs pulled. You'll break sometimes, but when that happens you can't beat yourself down about it: you can't help it, after all. You just gotta pick yourself back up again and say "I was ding good for a while! I can do it again!" And then count the times between each large outbreak and try and make those times longer. I now only have a major picking problem on average every three months. It's a slow process, but things'll get better with time, patience, and resilience!!
I hope this helped a little <3
All the love, and I'll be praying for your journey to controlling your dermatillomania! <3
~Fluffkin

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lola2204 [2017-08-20 16:04:08 +0000 UTC]

I think I have a similar problem.. I myself am considered overly skinny and at first I took it as a joke, so I played along by calling my self a toothpick or a walking skeleton.. And if your wondering no I do eat daily, and I get daily nourishment. But as of recent people have been telling things like " Go eat a burger lol " and I just kinda laugh it off because I don't want to get into a fight.. It also it doesn't help that I have hairy arms.. and I'm kinda scared of people judging me for it because not even the boys at my schools have as much arm hair as i do.. 

Man 8th grade sucks ass >:'I

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Meow-Productions In reply to lola2204 [2017-08-20 18:39:47 +0000 UTC]

I've had the same problem, but don't look at yourself through their eyes <3 you are perfect just the way you are, and beautiful just the way you are. It doesn't matter if you're naturally underweight and have hairy arms. I look at it as a way that you know who your real friends are: my friends don't care about my appearance and we've stuck together for several years. Those that judge you aren't worth your time <3 because obviously they can't see the beauty that is you
Things'll get better <3 it may take a while, but just stick it out and you'll find those that really care about you. Use your differences from others to find out who you can really trust, and embrace yourself. For you are beautiful just the way you are <3
~Fluffkin

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lola2204 In reply to Meow-Productions [2017-08-20 20:23:06 +0000 UTC]

Tysm!! I really needed to hear those words, I feel alot better now. <3
   

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Meow-Productions In reply to lola2204 [2017-08-20 20:46:56 +0000 UTC]

You're more than welcome! <3  
~Fluffkin

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NikiLoher [2017-08-20 16:02:06 +0000 UTC]

You're not alone. I do something similar. It's not fun to have. But you're gonna be okay. Stay strong. I know that's easier said than done but believe in yourself as we believe in you.

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Iiquids [2017-08-20 15:59:46 +0000 UTC]

honestly it really helps to have something u can fiddle with or distract your mind with absentmindedly, as weird as it sounds- fidget spinners, fidget cubes or those tangle toys can really help to keep your fingers occupied can really help restrain you from picking or tearing at the scabs, sort of like disciplining yourself. one thing that i tried was having a hair bobble on my wrist and just occasionally plucking at it when i got the urge, but it sort of became destructive. keeping your hands occupied is a better way to go around it. 

for scars or areas where there are marks left, i definitely recommend using bio-oil or a similar alternative as it helps clear the skin of anything that might be left in the area- just make sure to test it first to make sure you're not allergic, but i have sensitive skin, and it works fine with me! it's really good at fading scars.

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KawaiiWoofy [2017-08-20 14:24:24 +0000 UTC]

I bite my nails and so they are really ugly but lately ive been fiddling with a tiny bit of blue tack in my hands when I draw or read/watch anything (there the main times when I start biting my nails without realizing) but blue tack it good because its like clay but it doesn't leave a weird feeling on your hands afterwards and helps keep my hands busy, sorry idk if this is much help or not but you never know I hope everything gets better soon <3

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White-seed [2017-08-20 13:18:25 +0000 UTC]

I've got zits, scars, and the remnants of zits all over my upper body. And I still wear T-shirts regardless of it. In my personal opinion, I think you just need to forget about people judging you entirely. That isn't to say I don't understand where you're coming from, when you say you feel uncomfortable, just try to forget that people are around you when that's the case and don't even care about what they think. Isn't that the same thought process you had when you made Darkie? (That is how you spell it right? Sorry, I'm new here)

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cathy-dreemur [2017-08-20 13:09:11 +0000 UTC]

eh i have it a bit too... i bite the skin off my hands... try covering ur self up for say i use gloves... a lot when i have an urge to bite my hands

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PeaheadIsAPro [2017-08-20 12:26:31 +0000 UTC]

i'd really recommend finding a doctor or therapist who could help, they would know what to do <3

you are really brave, i hope you know that. have a lovely day : )

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felousefarnayne [2017-08-20 11:51:30 +0000 UTC]

The first and foremost I can't help but advise on this is to try and see someone about it, preferably a profession who can help you through this. The other thing I can only think of recommending to do is to try and see if you can reprogram your brain by replacing this habit with another one thats less severe.... Sadly these are the only two things I can think of from the top of my head, if I think of anything else I'll be sure to drop by here and let you know. Hope you will be alright

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SupremeKhi [2017-08-20 11:38:37 +0000 UTC]

I feel like I have the same problem

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Mizu-witch [2017-08-20 11:35:24 +0000 UTC]

Hmn.. I had a similar problem, but it was more like.. I was creating scars on purpose, because I'm healing fast and all my scars dissapeared soon or later, so I wasn't scare of having them until I die, or going to the dermatolog to fix it. It bekame addicting. The same thing was with biting my nails. I heard that one of the best things you can do to yourself without going to the psychologist (but please go to the doctor, never try to cure anything by yourself, this can be too dangerous!) is to try be addicted to other harmless thing. For example: I stopped hurting myself until I addictet myself to playing tap games on my phone and I stopped biting my nails after I start eating a lot of crunchy food, like sunflower seeds~
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sorry for bad english ;;

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tazunajoe [2017-08-20 10:41:59 +0000 UTC]

hi!! i do not have this condition but my mom specializes in hypno/psychotherapy, which helps delve deep into the unconscious mind and fix a possible underlying problem in your head. its helped many people with severe cases of ocd and its helped me with insomnia. if you really wanted to i could probably help get you a skype session with her - or i could try to pass you some techniques that you can use to go into trance and rewire your brain since im also learning in the field :^)
as for more immediate solutions it might be good to put on gloves when you have an urge to pick? or pick at something that isnt skin whenever you feel the urge.
if you were interested in actually seeing a hypnotherapist about this in person (which i suggest and i think it might really help you) once my mom wakes up i can ask if she can refer you to anyone in your immediate area ;3; so just let me know! 

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yeagar In reply to tazunajoe [2017-08-21 17:01:22 +0000 UTC]

you know what??? i just had lunch with my moms hypnotist yesterday. it never occurred to me i could ask her to hypnotize me into not picking. thank you so much!

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White-seed In reply to yeagar [2017-08-31 04:43:50 +0000 UTC]

Forgive me for asking, but why does your mom have a hypnotist???

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yeagar In reply to White-seed [2017-08-31 04:58:45 +0000 UTC]

my mom use to smoke cigarettes a lot, and this lady hypnotized her into not wanting to! and it just so happens that they both now live in the same place

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White-seed In reply to yeagar [2017-08-31 05:12:12 +0000 UTC]

Hm, I see.

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tazunajoe In reply to yeagar [2017-08-21 23:14:03 +0000 UTC]

wow!!! its so cool that youre already in contact with one, hypnotists are the best kinds of people!! id highly suggest booking an appointment, since shes your moms she might be able to give you a discount! and the tips they give usually last a lifetime, so its def worth it. best of luck to you !!

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Kimesakii [2017-08-20 10:25:59 +0000 UTC]

I have dermatillomania too...
I do the same with my arms and legs and face sometimes...
My bodie is full of scars because of that..
I feel ashamed of myself for that but i just can't stop... 
People ask why do i have so many scars and i usualy make a stupid exuse like "My cats scrached me". There was already one time that my swimming teacher though i was being abused by my parents, even tho it was me who did all those scars...

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Chicky-Anime [2017-08-20 09:57:24 +0000 UTC]

I have dermatillomania to. I constantly pick at my hands and right next to my eyes, mainly my hands. I'm always getting asked why my hands bleed so often but i don't answer. I don't even have finger nails.

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fuguaii [2017-08-20 07:34:13 +0000 UTC]

it really does suck ass what you are going trough 
i don't  have ocd bu i have some things i relate to with the symptoms and it bugs the hell out of me
and i sometimes just rip the skin around my nails and i fucking eat it,,,
it is gross sorry,,
and it sometimes even starts to bleed from how a damn maniac i am
hope your problem goes away soon ;;

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Luna727 [2017-08-20 06:51:43 +0000 UTC]

I do it with my legs :/ even with short nails. An idea I had was to bandage ur whole hand. Well that was for my nail biting addiction but I see how it can help with picking at ur body 

don't worry I do simmalar stuff and no need to be ashamed :0

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AReallyBoredArtist [2017-08-20 06:43:53 +0000 UTC]

I do the same with my arms

I cut my nails really really short so I can't pick at anything

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SomeRandomMoron [2017-08-20 06:19:24 +0000 UTC]

I constantly find myself picking at my face, hands, knees and forearms. I also obsessively bite my nails but one way I've found to distract myself is to always have something to fidget with or chew on. The best thing I find works for me is pens, as I can click them constantly as well as chew on them. Even art felts/pens with caps works too. I don't know if this would work for other people but it works for me. 

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