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why wont you stop misgendering me. i CLEARLY told you my pronouns, yet you're-you're still using she/her. i dont tell you sh!t about me b/c im afraid you're gonna judge me for what i like. ok, i stay in my room all day, that doesnt mean YOU get to say "you finally came out". I STAY IN MY ROOM ALL DAY BC I DONT HAVE ANYONE TO HANG OUT WITH ALL DAY EXCEPT FOR MY FRIENDS WHO, FYI, I DONT EVEN SEE THAT OFTEN ANYMORE BC THEY LEAVE OUR/THEIR COMPLEX TO HANG OUT WITH THEIR FRIENDS. IM AFRAID OF SO MANY SHIT BUT YOU DIDNT GET ME TO BE TESTED FOR SOMETHING?? OK FINE IM MENTALLY HEALTHY THEN!! NOTHING WRONG WITH MY BRAIN!

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i have thoughts about forcing myself to throw up, but i dont bc i know its dangerous + unhealthy.

i cant deal with these thoughts. i just want one FUCKING DAY WHERE MY BRAIN ISNT FULL OF THESE BAD THOUGHTS.

I WANT A DAY WHERE I CAN BE MYSELF AND NONE OF MY FAMILY IS MAD ABOUT IT. FUCK YOUR GOD DAMN RULES THAT I KNOW IS MEANT TO KEEP ME SAFE, BUT WHATS THE POINT OF THEM IF I CANT BE MYSELF??

I KEEP HAVING THESE THOUGHTS OF ENDING MYSELF, BUT I DONT DO IT. I DONT EVEN TRY TO.

(not directed to anyone online. some real life shit.)

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why wont you stop misgendering me. i CLEARLY told you my pronouns, yet you're-you're still using she/her. i dont tell you sh!t about me b/c im afraid you're gonna judge me for what i like. ok, i stay in my room all day, that doesnt mean YOU get to say "you finally came out". I STAY IN MY ROOM ALL DAY BC I DONT HAVE ANYONE TO HANG OUT WITH ALL DAY EXCEPT FOR MY FRIENDS WHO, FYI, I DONT EVEN SEE THAT OFTEN ANYMORE BC THEY LEAVE OUR/THEIR COMPLEX TO HANG OUT WITH THEIR FRIENDS. IM AFRAID OF SO MANY SHIT BUT YOU DIDNT GET ME TO BE TESTED FOR SOMETHING?? OK FINE IM MENTALLY HEALTHY THEN!! NOTHING WRONG WITH MY BRAIN!

.....

i have thoughts about forcing myself to throw up, but i dont bc i know its dangerous + unhealthy.

i cant deal with these thoughts. i just want one FUCKING DAY WHERE MY BRAIN ISNT FULL OF THESE BAD THOUGHTS.

I WANT A DAY WHERE I CAN BE MYSELF AND NONE OF MY FAMILY IS MAD ABOUT IT. FUCK YOUR GOD DAMN RULES THAT I KNOW IS MEANT TO KEEP ME SAFE, BUT WHATS THE POINT OF THEM IF I CANT BE MYSELF??

I KEEP HAVING THESE THOUGHTS OF ENDING MYSELF, BUT I DONT DO IT. I DONT EVEN TRY TO.

(not directed to anyone online. some real life shit.)