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I started drawing this artwork in November 2023, just when I was experiencing bullying in the team of students of my department. This was almost the main reason for the general image of me as an unapproachable, indignant entity trying to defend my borders when the majority is against it, and those who are close to me do not show their affection or do it timidly and do not show it to the offenders. Painting the picture was supposed to help show how powerful I felt despite all the obstacles and pain I was experiencing due to external circumstances, and even more so to make it clear that I would not allow anyone to offend me on my way to success, let alone stop me. But as time went on, my states changed, I rethought my ideas and concept of work, and found that the initial impulse to write the paper was no longer as relevant as it had been in the beginning. It was as if I didn't feel the reinforcement of this state, and I didn't really understand how to communicate something that was no longer so relevant. I realized that my resilience is not concentrated in my previous image and state, but is present in different moments, including those where I experience suffering, and I cannot show my resilience and indignation as I want. Whether I want it or not, my whole conscious life is a struggle for the fragile moments when I really enjoy it. And if I have survived until now, what if not that makes me resilient and dangerous for the next obstacles on my way.

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Description
I started drawing this artwork in November 2023, just when I was experiencing bullying in the team of students of my department. This was almost the main reason for the general image of me as an unapproachable, indignant entity trying to defend my borders when the majority is against it, and those who are close to me do not show their affection or do it timidly and do not show it to the offenders. Painting the picture was supposed to help show how powerful I felt despite all the obstacles and pain I was experiencing due to external circumstances, and even more so to make it clear that I would not allow anyone to offend me on my way to success, let alone stop me. But as time went on, my states changed, I rethought my ideas and concept of work, and found that the initial impulse to write the paper was no longer as relevant as it had been in the beginning. It was as if I didn't feel the reinforcement of this state, and I didn't really understand how to communicate something that was no longer so relevant. I realized that my resilience is not concentrated in my previous image and state, but is present in different moments, including those where I experience suffering, and I cannot show my resilience and indignation as I want. Whether I want it or not, my whole conscious life is a struggle for the fragile moments when I really enjoy it. And if I have survived until now, what if not that makes me resilient and dangerous for the next obstacles on my way.

Translated with DeepL.com (free version)