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I'M NOT DEAD!

A very VERY long time ago my good friend Whirlspyro11 made a Spider Man persona. She said it was a popular thing people were doing these days, probably because Tom Holland is such a good spider man. I wanted to make one but I just can't personally relate to Peter as much as I used to. When I was a kid, the Tobey McGuire movies were my first superhero movies. I absolutely LOVED them and I may or may not have had a HUGE crush on Spider Man. The first movie I watched from that series was the third movie, I went to see it in the drive in with my dad if I remember correctly. I know that one's not a fan favorite and people talk bad about it a lot but I really loved it, if it weren't for that movie (a eh... Hue Jackman shirtless in the first X-men) I wouldn't have fallen in love with Super Heroes. Venom was my favorite Spider Man villain of all time. I watched the new Sony Venom movie a few months back and I thought it was amazing.

I don't know why the thought never crossed my mind before. I don't have to make a "spider man" persona, I can make Venom one. I've got some story behind it too. Whenever I have an anxiety attack at school, I get out a paper and start scribbling a comic about how I feel during that very moment. The comics are very dark, very sad, have super sensitive subjects in them and they've only been showed to two people in my life. One because he's my future husband and he should know these things about me. And the second because she was looking over my shoulder. "Anxiety" is portrayed as a character in these comics. She's shaped like me but I make her entirely out of scribbles because that's how I feel and my hands are always shaking anyway. Today I just got the idea to turn her into a Venom type symbiote when I remembered Eddie Brock telling people that he "had a parasite" and Venom getting so upset every time. That hit close to home when I watched that movie because one time someone very close to me had the nerve to tell someone else my anxiety was probably caused by parasites in my brain. I am not kidding though I wish I was, this person literally tried to blame my anxiety on parasitic creatures in my head instead of genetics or trauma which are real reasons for it. Anyways, that's mostly the reason I wanted a venom persona. The way only Eddie can hear him in his head and he can take over Eddie's body when things get rough. Kinda like when Anxiety takes over my body and I have mental break downs. Is mental break downs and crying in school a super power? Idk I haven't worked through everything yet.

Description
I'M NOT DEAD!

A very VERY long time ago my good friend Whirlspyro11 made a Spider Man persona. She said it was a popular thing people were doing these days, probably because Tom Holland is such a good spider man. I wanted to make one but I just can't personally relate to Peter as much as I used to. When I was a kid, the Tobey McGuire movies were my first superhero movies. I absolutely LOVED them and I may or may not have had a HUGE crush on Spider Man. The first movie I watched from that series was the third movie, I went to see it in the drive in with my dad if I remember correctly. I know that one's not a fan favorite and people talk bad about it a lot but I really loved it, if it weren't for that movie (a eh... Hue Jackman shirtless in the first X-men) I wouldn't have fallen in love with Super Heroes. Venom was my favorite Spider Man villain of all time. I watched the new Sony Venom movie a few months back and I thought it was amazing.

I don't know why the thought never crossed my mind before. I don't have to make a "spider man" persona, I can make Venom one. I've got some story behind it too. Whenever I have an anxiety attack at school, I get out a paper and start scribbling a comic about how I feel during that very moment. The comics are very dark, very sad, have super sensitive subjects in them and they've only been showed to two people in my life. One because he's my future husband and he should know these things about me. And the second because she was looking over my shoulder. "Anxiety" is portrayed as a character in these comics. She's shaped like me but I make her entirely out of scribbles because that's how I feel and my hands are always shaking anyway. Today I just got the idea to turn her into a Venom type symbiote when I remembered Eddie Brock telling people that he "had a parasite" and Venom getting so upset every time. That hit close to home when I watched that movie because one time someone very close to me had the nerve to tell someone else my anxiety was probably caused by parasites in my brain. I am not kidding though I wish I was, this person literally tried to blame my anxiety on parasitic creatures in my head instead of genetics or trauma which are real reasons for it. Anyways, that's mostly the reason I wanted a venom persona. The way only Eddie can hear him in his head and he can take over Eddie's body when things get rough. Kinda like when Anxiety takes over my body and I have mental break downs. Is mental break downs and crying in school a super power? Idk I haven't worked through everything yet.