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Most of the people who know me or have seen my art know who this character is. Her name is Dawn. She was the very first TF2 OC I created in SFM. As well as my sona before I created Music Mann as a better alternative.

Some of you hopefully remember when I said I wasn't going to use her anymore. Why is this? Well, after everything I experienced in the past… from people who have used her for the totally wrong reasons that I willingly allowed to happen, she only gives me horrible trauma. I'd rather not explain everything because it will only put me in a bad place. But those who already know should be able to understand.

I used to put so much thought and passion into her character. Sure, she is just another typical femscout oc but I wanted her to be different. To be memorable and for people to know who she is just by looking at her. I've changed her design so many times to see if I can somehow accomplish that. It still feels like I haven't gotten to that point. She is just another femscout certain people simped for. I felt like that's the only reason people liked her back when she was my sona.

Now, I'm not saying that's what everybody thought. And I know there are people who just can't keep their dirty thoughts to themselves online but it still hurts. I never intended her to be seen that way. She is just a cool, independent and childish redhead. Which is something I cared about and loved. But after a while, I put all those ideas, stories and care to waste because I was influenced by people I had no business engaging with. Just seen as another femscout used for fan service.

I slowly started to hate my own creation. Mostly because she was just another bland femscout OC in my view. (I'm sorry. I DESPISE femscout.) I did not like how she was seen by others. I didn't even like how people thought I looked like her in real life. (I do not) because It made me feel so much worse about myself and my looks. It wasn't a character made by me anymore. She was someone I wanted to be. I was desperate enough to find someone who can make a completely remodeled version of her because I hated her design so much despite changing it hundreds of times. It was an unhealthy mindset. It got so bad that I decided to get rid of her completely. The things that have happened to her in the past are now drilled into my mind. I thought getting rid of her was the best thing to do. At least for a while. But I still missed her. I wished I could start over...thought it was too late. Until my buddy, David showed me otherwise.

There are plenty other once called friends who have helped me make dawn feel like her own character. But David has and still helps me out with so many designs and models for Dawn. He always has a new design idea for her. It inspires me a whole lot. He puts so much effort into his work as well. And honestly, I know he likes Dawn so much more than I do. And I am incredibly grateful for that. That shows me how much he cares about her. Even after everything she's been through, he still sees her as a cute redhead with an actual personality. As he told me, I just needed a break from her.

And thanks to him and his love for Dawn, he pushed me to give her another chance. So, I will. Music Mann will still be my sona/OC. I love him too much for me to go back to Dawn again. So, she will just be my OC. Like it was in the beginning. There are still those thoughts in the back of my mind that bums me out about her. But I will try my best to make sure that it doesn't come to that point again. I will work on her story, her personality…everything that makes her special again. And those thirsty assholes who only see her for pleasure can screw off!

David, once again… thank you for showing me that I can give her another chance to be a unique character again. (no pun intended) Thank you for encouraging me to never give up on anything no matter how low I get. Thank you for helping me with the crazy designs for all the characters I've worked on! You are such an amazing individual! Never stop being you, Coffee Man!

And those who want to make artwork of her are welcomed to do so again! Thank you to those who have before. It means so much to me! Apologies for being rude about this before. I literally thought I'd never use Dawn again.

She is constantly getting updated by David and me. We always have done sort of new hairstyle or retexture for her...Hopefully we can get a model for friends to use again. If I ever feel comfortable about it at least.....

That's all I have to say. She's back! Yay!

Description
Most of the people who know me or have seen my art know who this character is. Her name is Dawn. She was the very first TF2 OC I created in SFM. As well as my sona before I created Music Mann as a better alternative.

Some of you hopefully remember when I said I wasn't going to use her anymore. Why is this? Well, after everything I experienced in the past… from people who have used her for the totally wrong reasons that I willingly allowed to happen, she only gives me horrible trauma. I'd rather not explain everything because it will only put me in a bad place. But those who already know should be able to understand.

I used to put so much thought and passion into her character. Sure, she is just another typical femscout oc but I wanted her to be different. To be memorable and for people to know who she is just by looking at her. I've changed her design so many times to see if I can somehow accomplish that. It still feels like I haven't gotten to that point. She is just another femscout certain people simped for. I felt like that's the only reason people liked her back when she was my sona.

Now, I'm not saying that's what everybody thought. And I know there are people who just can't keep their dirty thoughts to themselves online but it still hurts. I never intended her to be seen that way. She is just a cool, independent and childish redhead. Which is something I cared about and loved. But after a while, I put all those ideas, stories and care to waste because I was influenced by people I had no business engaging with. Just seen as another femscout used for fan service.

I slowly started to hate my own creation. Mostly because she was just another bland femscout OC in my view. (I'm sorry. I DESPISE femscout.) I did not like how she was seen by others. I didn't even like how people thought I looked like her in real life. (I do not) because It made me feel so much worse about myself and my looks. It wasn't a character made by me anymore. She was someone I wanted to be. I was desperate enough to find someone who can make a completely remodeled version of her because I hated her design so much despite changing it hundreds of times. It was an unhealthy mindset. It got so bad that I decided to get rid of her completely. The things that have happened to her in the past are now drilled into my mind. I thought getting rid of her was the best thing to do. At least for a while. But I still missed her. I wished I could start over...thought it was too late. Until my buddy, David showed me otherwise.

There are plenty other once called friends who have helped me make dawn feel like her own character. But David has and still helps me out with so many designs and models for Dawn. He always has a new design idea for her. It inspires me a whole lot. He puts so much effort into his work as well. And honestly, I know he likes Dawn so much more than I do. And I am incredibly grateful for that. That shows me how much he cares about her. Even after everything she's been through, he still sees her as a cute redhead with an actual personality. As he told me, I just needed a break from her.

And thanks to him and his love for Dawn, he pushed me to give her another chance. So, I will. Music Mann will still be my sona/OC. I love him too much for me to go back to Dawn again. So, she will just be my OC. Like it was in the beginning. There are still those thoughts in the back of my mind that bums me out about her. But I will try my best to make sure that it doesn't come to that point again. I will work on her story, her personality…everything that makes her special again. And those thirsty assholes who only see her for pleasure can screw off!

David, once again… thank you for showing me that I can give her another chance to be a unique character again. (no pun intended) Thank you for encouraging me to never give up on anything no matter how low I get. Thank you for helping me with the crazy designs for all the characters I've worked on! You are such an amazing individual! Never stop being you, Coffee Man!

And those who want to make artwork of her are welcomed to do so again! Thank you to those who have before. It means so much to me! Apologies for being rude about this before. I literally thought I'd never use Dawn again.

She is constantly getting updated by David and me. We always have done sort of new hairstyle or retexture for her...Hopefully we can get a model for friends to use again. If I ever feel comfortable about it at least.....

That's all I have to say. She's back! Yay!