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zeus-thighs — these words aren't nearly enough
Published: 2012-07-15 06:49:29 +0000 UTC; Views: 61; Favourites: 1; Downloads: 3
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i don't know how to get these words to cooperate.
i am so goddamn sad and i don't want to loose you, mi amor.
i don't know what i'm going to do without you. the thought makes me want to sink to my knees and it's all i can do to keep from breaking down into tears.
you are leaving.
i cannot explain the sheer amount of feeling those words can evoke in me.
no amount of music can soothe this pain.
no amount of words can come close to explaining it.
i feel like i'm drowning.
my lungs are feeling with all of the tears i can't shed.
my heart has ceased to work, its will gone.
my mind is making me remember your face, your scent, your laugh.
everything.
i want to drown out the pain.
it's why i'm drinking now. i'm trying to make myself numb because if i don't the temptation to cut nearly has me salivating.
i don't know what i'm going to do without her. i can't remember what i did before she came into my life.
i don't remember what i did to pass the time when my thoughts weren't constantly of her.
i don't know. i don't fucking know. she's not even gone yet but it feels as if a hole has been torn into my body.
i want to hold onto her and show her how much i love her.
i want to hold her in my arms. just hold her.
i want to feel safe with me, because i feel so safe with her.
i don't know what i'm going to do.
i just don't know.
