Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi In reply to devillord7 [2011-06-23 19:32:12 +0000 UTC]

I'm not very good at doing request, but what were you looking for and I'll see what I can do

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devillord7 In reply to Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi [2011-06-23 20:39:40 +0000 UTC]

Do you know about disgaea?

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Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi In reply to devillord7 [2011-06-29 03:01:32 +0000 UTC]

Do I know about Disgaea? Silly, have you looked at my gallery, its like my life away from my lack of life XD

tell me what you need and I'll take care of it for ya

anything for a fellow disgaea fan ;3

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devillord7 In reply to Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi [2011-06-29 03:03:02 +0000 UTC]

Thank you! I've been needing one of Mao with his hair...but there were none of him..

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Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi In reply to devillord7 [2011-06-29 05:22:42 +0000 UTC]

so, all you need is a base of Mao with his hair

alright, I'll do my best then

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devillord7 In reply to Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi [2011-06-29 05:30:23 +0000 UTC]

Thanks!

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Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi In reply to Only0x [2011-06-29 03:07:36 +0000 UTC]

oh man, I totally don't remember what you're talking about ^^()

I've been a bit mia

how have you been doing? I'm trying to get my sorry arse on skype a lil more regularly XD

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Only0x In reply to Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi [2011-06-29 04:40:11 +0000 UTC]

i've been busy as well so don't feel bad, what you been busy with?

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Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi In reply to Only0x [2011-06-29 05:18:28 +0000 UTC]

does depression count as something to be busy with?

cause other than that, life has been passing me by and I haven't been very productive

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Only0x In reply to Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi [2011-06-29 05:26:27 +0000 UTC]

what you been depressed about? you wanna talk about it?

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Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi In reply to Only0x [2011-06-29 06:37:51 +0000 UTC]

well, nothing in particular

there's financial issues, but I've been getting by its no big deal

but I'd get depressed randomly for absolutely no reason at all

it really sucks

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Only0x In reply to Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi [2011-06-29 13:49:14 +0000 UTC]

well u know if you ever wanna talk about it, i'm always here to talk, i'm one who is no stranger to depression and i know how low it can take you, hopefully you haven't gotten as down as i have gotten in the past, .... how are things looking for you right now? do you have skype by any chance?

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Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi In reply to Only0x [2011-07-02 07:01:16 +0000 UTC]

sure thing man

its something I've been struggling my whole life with, and in recent years, its gotten far worse

I'd wake up some mornings and feel so bad I wish I was dead, and for no reason at all

I'd just suddenly feel an overwhelming wave of depression and there's no reason behind it whatsoever, I'd just feel horribly depressed

it sucks balls

well, alright

yah, I'll try to get on more often

sorry

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Only0x In reply to Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi [2011-07-02 17:38:57 +0000 UTC]

i know the feeling, though my salvation has always been my writing and music (videogames have also helped me out a great deal as well...)

i'm pretty sure you can relate that your art is somewhat an escape from reality and somewhat brings u back to reality huh? how long have you had these feelings and where did they originally stem from????

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Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi In reply to Only0x [2011-07-02 21:26:55 +0000 UTC]

well, there's really no salvation for me

worldly things are always temporary, and even people come and go all too quickly

well, sometimes when I write and draw, I put in a bit of myself, how I'm feeling and whatnot into it

if I'm depressed, the story becomes tragic or the drawing is tragic

however, if I'm really depressed, I can't do anything at all except wallow in my own self pity

there's never a true escape from reality, that's just life

no idea where they stemmed from, I've always been like this for as long as I can remember

I'm not a touchy feely person, but I get really attached to others

probably too attached and to quickly

logically I know that people will come and go out of our lives, and I should really be used to be alone

course, I have more friends now than I've ever had before...so why do I still feel so bad I wish I was dead?

I don't need a reason to die, we're all born to die, it is our inescapable destiny.

What I need is a reason to live, cause I'm drawing blanks.

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Only0x In reply to Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi [2011-07-03 15:36:44 +0000 UTC]

wow, i have felt the exact same way and in some senses i still do. before my son was born i truly felt like i have no reason to live and now even with him here i sometimes thing that what if i can't hold up to his expectations to what a father is truly suppose to be for him, it would just be a waste and i would be better off dead you know.

yea, people do come and go and that is why i have chosen to keep myself to myself. i have a couple of people i consider friends and even them i don't completely trust, i've just been so use to being let down by empty promises and false truths that its hard for me to let anyone in anymore... especially women, i would hope that one day i could find a woman to love me the way i desire to be loved and let me love them in the same sense but eh, with the way the world is and the way my mind operates, i truly don't see that happening anytime soon....

though i know i'm at my best when i'm alone though so being to myself doesn't really bother me much, just sucks when you look around and see everyone having someone to love or to love them only for you to look around yourself and find no-one within your grasp.... smh

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Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi In reply to Only0x [2011-07-04 01:40:48 +0000 UTC]

Well when I think about dying, I think more along the lines of what's best for other people. I'm the kind of person who puts others first. I honestly believe that people would be better off without me, or at least, it wouldn't have any impact at all.

Well, I don't have any children of my own, but I feel that a parent should do the best they can for their kid and if nothing else, be there in their lives. Parents are the most important people in a child's life. I wish I could have children. I'd feel like I'd have someone who needs me.

I'm kinda pathetic really. I like being alone and hate it at the same time. I'm not really used to having my own space since I grew up always having to share a room, but although I feel like I should be used to being alone, I'm not.

I feel like no one will ever, ever, ever, ever, ever really truly give a shit about me. Course, that's fine so long as I have people I can care for and love.

But I keep feeling like eventually, its going to just be me. No one to care about me, and no one to care for.

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Only0x In reply to Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi [2011-07-04 02:53:23 +0000 UTC]

yo, u should really go read the poems i have on my blog, i think you would definitely relate to most if not all of them. i know your pain and know that there is light at the end of the tunnel, you just have to find the strength within you to say FUCK IT and just have YOU as the reason for living. i mean, besides my son, i have found that i am the only person who can make me happy you know. i don't rely on the attention or emotions of others to keep me happy anymore. when i did that in the past, all it let to was sleepless night ans painful mornings that had me reminiscing of all the torture and agony people put me through with all there bullshit. make no mistake though, i am no saint and i have had my hands dipped within the pot of fuckery a few times and smacked a couple people with it. why? idk, i was young dumb and ignorant. but now, these days, unless i'm on stage performing my spoken word pieces or with my son, i stay to myself. i have even contemplated about turning off my phone to help seal myself away from people as i hate getting calls from people i don't wanna hear from yet feel bad if i don't answer and at least see whats up with them, smh.... but know, you are not alone. we are rare breeds that have been tainted and scorned by society and now feel we have no place in this world... but we do. i have found my place, and if i can help you find yours, let me know, i'm here for you, straight up....

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Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi In reply to Heartsetter [2010-11-12 01:00:24 +0000 UTC]

you're welcome

I haven't been able to read it all yet since I"m a bit busy

I'll be sure to comment on it when I finish reading it and tell you how much I love it ;3

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Heartsetter In reply to Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi [2010-11-12 23:21:39 +0000 UTC]

well, if you knew me, you;d know why. Most people think i'm weird

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Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi In reply to Heartsetter [2010-11-13 03:40:47 +0000 UTC]

ha ha ha, if you knew me, then you'd know I'm also weird XD

that's the most used adjective applied to me by other people...not just myself

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Heartsetter In reply to Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi [2010-11-13 13:08:15 +0000 UTC]

no, i can go on for hours on topics i love, like gaming or history

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Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi In reply to Heartsetter [2010-11-13 21:38:08 +0000 UTC]

I can easily go off on a tagent and I sometimes will keep yapping even when no one is listening anymore

I've gotten better about shutting up when no one's listening, but I still have a habit of talking to myself a lot XD

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Heartsetter In reply to Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi [2010-11-14 01:09:03 +0000 UTC]

Are you a bit socially challenged? Like, trouble making friends?

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Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi In reply to Heartsetter [2010-11-17 00:39:57 +0000 UTC]

well that's a bit blunt XD

I'm the door mat of friends...I let people walk all over me

I'm a friendly person, but I'm a bit too nice

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Heartsetter In reply to Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi [2010-11-17 20:33:38 +0000 UTC]

me, I'm a little weird. but so are my friends.

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Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi In reply to Createss [2010-09-24 02:21:35 +0000 UTC]

You're welcome. AWT is my FAVE game...and since I'm planning on playing through it again as well as draw art inspired by the game, I'm faving everything AWT (that's good of course)

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Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi In reply to Migerumaru [2010-09-24 02:21:45 +0000 UTC]

You're welcome

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Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi In reply to Pikaspirit [2010-09-24 02:22:05 +0000 UTC]

Anytime (sorry for not commenting...I've been SUPER lazy on DA XD)

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Pikaspirit In reply to Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi [2010-09-24 05:04:13 +0000 UTC]

it's okay~ X3

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Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi In reply to Pikaspirit [2010-09-24 19:22:15 +0000 UTC]

thank you for understanding

I really LOVE A Witch's Tale and I just got the strategy guide in (though I had the game since it came out)

I expected more purdy pics though xD

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Pikaspirit In reply to Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi [2010-09-25 08:58:40 +0000 UTC]

No problem X3 yeah,I want to see more fan arts about this game too

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Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi In reply to Pikaspirit [2010-09-26 00:22:48 +0000 UTC]

I need to lineart and color some sketches in my scraps

I've got two pics of concept art for what I think the former Princesses of Rem Boreas looked like 1000 years ago

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Pikaspirit In reply to Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi [2010-09-26 07:54:59 +0000 UTC]

former princess of Rem Boreas?

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Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi In reply to Pikaspirit [2010-09-26 20:24:18 +0000 UTC]

un, in the back story, one of the twin princesses of Rem Boreas had to be sacrificed to an evil god in order to create the kingdom of Rem Sacchras so Alice could complete her spell and seal away the Eld Witch forever

so I did some sketches of what the sacrificed princess and her sister looked like

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Pikaspirit In reply to Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi [2010-09-27 07:34:32 +0000 UTC]

Ooh...I see ^w^

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Akaitsuki-no-Tenshi In reply to Yokai174 [2010-09-16 05:14:51 +0000 UTC]

No need, so don't be hard on yourself

no more apologizing, or I'll start thinking you don't mean it

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