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DeadmansCrescendo
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[2008-07-08 21:01:16 +0000 UTC]
"Senses Fail ♥"
(United States)
# Statistics
Favourites: 1556; Deviations: 68; Watchers: 273
Watching: 67; Pageviews: 42508; Comments Made: 1644; Friends: 67
# Interests
Favorite movies: A Clockwork Orange, Cirque du Freak: the Vampire's Assistant, Hercules, Mulholland Drive, Big FishFavorite TV shows: Supernatural, Danny Phantom, Bob's Burgers, American Dad!, Teen Wolf
Favorite bands / musical artists: Senses Fail, Say Anything, Artist Vs Poet, Parachute
Favorite books: Le Peau de Chagrin, John Dies at the End, the Sirens of Titan, Wuthering Heights, the Thin Executioner, the Picture of Dorian Gray
Favorite writers: Oscar Wilde, Darren Shan, Charles Baudelaire, Kurt Vonnegut
Favorite games: Portal franchise, Amnesia: the Dark Descent, Dragon Age
Favorite gaming platform: Steam
Tools of the Trade: Keyboard
# About me
19. Writer, photographer, dilettante. Obsessed with chemistry, psychology, and Homestuck. In love with the bands Senses Fail, Say Anything, Madina Lake, and My Chemical Romance. References to their music will come up a lot in my writing.
You can find me all over the Internet, but isn't that what makes the Internet fun?
I write as a cathartic exercise and for nothing more. I have a novel in the baby stages of life. I read a lot and have a love affair with Kurt Vonnegut, Jean-Paul Satre, and other such various sarcastic social-commenters.
# Comments
Comments: 392
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Hi, I'm doing some interviews about writers, Can I ask you some questions?
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High five. I like your straight story.
I'm kinda new to dA.
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Hello! This is BlazeJuliaNightfury! I can't get into my account that we're friends on so this is the only one I can be contacted by!
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I love how the coming out straight story turned out to be. I can see how this parallels on what lgbt children face with their christian heterosexual parents. It's brilliant, absolutely brilliant. I hear about the latter quite often these days. It's sad, parents caring more about how they want to raise the child and expecting them to carry on their traditions rather than loving the child for what the child has become. This coming from a straight female who was raised in a armenian christian household. I understand where so many of these children are coming from. My brother and I were raised under my mother's idealistic dogma, my father could care less, he wasn't Armenian but my mother was. My mother placed my brother and I in armenian saturday school and later on, sunday school. My brother hated it, he tried so hard to please my mother who gets angry when she does not get her way. I could see through his eyes every time he comes home from high school, trying to find himself in his portrait other than what he see's in his background. I the same way, All I know from my childhood is my background, and my health abnormalities, and getting through a really broken special education system. The words "Be yourself" easier said than done. Trying to break through to find the real you despite everything is hard, and everybody lashing out because you turned out different is cruel and unusual punishment. I really do see where this is coming from.
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I just read "I'm coming out: I'm straight". The name intrigued me.
The piece makes me think. I am not homosexual, nor will I ever be. I like boobs too much. however, after reading the story, I had to ask myself a few questions. How many times have I treated someone unfairly, or looked down on someone just because they are gay? How many times have I used my faith as an excuse to condemn gays around me? What if the coin was flipped? what if I was suddenly the one who was targeted because of the way I choose to live? what if my friends turned on me and cast me out for my sexuality? What if I was hated because everyone ELSE thought I was WRONG?
I shed a few tears over this. I may not support alternative lifestyles, but the very least I could do is treat you the way I'd want you to treat me. To all of you out there with an alternative lifestyle who are reading this, I am sorry. I am sorry for my hatred. It's been very wrong of me to suppose that I was superior on this basis alone. I am not. I never have been. perhaps, I was less than you because of the black seed in my heart. But knowing my shortcomings, my steps here on out will be on a path of change.
This story strikes a chord with me.
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I am coming out I am straight is so amazing, every girl I have had to live in a similar situation. When I told my girlfriend I was not Bisexual, she wanted to have a three way with guys, and said Straight people are weird, and have no fun. I love her to death, and her alone. It brought a smile to my face.
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"I'm coming out: I'm straight": What inspired that? Will you be doing a sequel? If everyone's homosexual, then how can more humans be made? It's so interesting!!! Please tell me that there'll be a sequel!!!
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I know you disabled comments but I wanted to post you a note. xx
"I'm coming out: I'm straight" is so interesting! I thought the detail about Satanism was important to the story too -- it really takes you out of the conception of 'faith' that people take so for granted, especially since it's a label change but not actually a conceptual one.
That's my comment! Nicely done!
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I saw your short story on the alternate reality of gays being normal and heteros being freaks, (not that being gay is freakish in this reality,) and I thought it was just the most awesome thing ever! you get that a lot, judging by the descriptions. You have viewed the world in a unique way that nobody has ever thought of. Thank you!
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Thank you for the lovely comment!! This brought a smile to my face. Thanks so much! <3
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A llama to you, my good sir!
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-browsing various slender things-
-reads one of your fics-
-visits your page-
-sees you like homestuck too-
let me love you
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oh hey sup slendy? how u doin?
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You have triggered my eyes, young one.
Always watching, Sincerely,
Slenderman.
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Oh heeey, I remember yooou. How're you doing?
Doesn't look like you've been on for a few weeks, but what the hell, just thought I'd say hola anyway.
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hi! Uhm, I feel so guilty, but I don't remember you! haahah! Refresh me? 
I am doing well! How are you doing??
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Hahaha, don't feel guilty, I was expecting as much - we're talking 3+ years ago as the last contact point. I used to have a different account where I posted poor comic strips and I was friends with Kazex[somethingsomething] and I think your old account was Art-Munkey? [If you are the same human I think you are. If not, enjoy the gift of mistaken identity!]
Oh you know, I'm alright. Floating around the bottom rungs of the ladder instead of being useful and such. I read your journal, you appear to be kicking several kinds of ass. What're you majoring in?
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Oh holy CRAP that's insane you knew Ayla and Amanda! Ayla's old name was KazexHane. Wow. Wow! How on earth do you remember me!! What is your name? Maybe I'll remember you by name?
Aww you're such a sweetie <3 My school doesn't have majors but my "plan" involves psychology and studying the establishment of identity. So I study psychology, sociology, French, and history primarily. My goal at the moment is to do a bit of premed along with this and go to medical school to become a psychiatrist. In the mean time I'll probably teach English and Science at the high school level.
And hey man, sometimes the most useful people are those "at the bottom rungs of the ladder." TELL ME ABOUT HOW YOUR LIFE HAS BEEN!
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Yeaaah! KazexHane, there we go. Well, I knew Ayla at least. Amanda I met once or twice when I was occasionally invited into a chat room, but I didn't "know her" per say. Hahaha, I got here by accident after jumping from page to page. Talk about a one in a million chance. I'm usually pretty good with names when I've seen a face. You probably don't remember, but I once drew a picture of you in a graveyard that was based on a photo Ayla took on one of your trips visiting her. So I basically spent an hour or two more or less looking at your face. You remember things like that, harrharr. Oh I don't think I ever told anyone my name, but it's Bek. Whatever happened to those girls anyway?
Oh-are-el-hwy? That's neat. A friend of mine also goes to a school with no majors. It's the Evergreen State college in SomethingPlace Washington. It sounds interesting but it's expensive as booty. Haha, you should combine English and Science class. Dig up the bodies of famous writers for dissections. "...And here you can see J.D. Salinger's kidneys - those are nouns everyone, write that down..."
Psh, yeah. I make that joke at work and they're like, "Hohoho, yes now restock the chips." I'm using William J. Sidis as my case for precedence, which technically isn't fair since he was a genius, buuut... O weil. My life is okay. Since I last talked to you I got hit by a car, wrote and directed a play, stage managed some crap and graduated to become a glorious server of deli sandwiches. [Your order in ten minutes or less, or we cower in the kitchen and bicker over who has to take it out.] TELL ME MORE ABOUT BEING THE CRESCENDO OF A MALE CORPSE.
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I am madly in love with you, girl! 
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You are absolutely the sweetest little thing!! Thank you!
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You're most welcome! You definitely deserve feedback like that! Which you've probably gotten since, "I'm Coming Out." 
Not to take up too much space on your computer screen or anything, but I just have to mention in TL;DR how, "PFFFT HOW DOES SHE DO IT?" I was after reading everything in your gallery. Do you know how difficult it is to actually find an emotion, catch it, keep it, and then write it with some seriously stark naked, raw clarity that'll make your story's voice actually sound like a heart beat?
I was like, "how is she able to be so connected to her emotions and bring that many new veins to her stories each time? >: D " I have the blurriest relationship with my emotions whenever I write something, and being able to braid all that together --- "what you're feeling" and "what you're writing" --- is just...gah...it's like trying to perform a friggin heart transplant, and I'm just the failing surgeon.
Most of us lose our ability to do this with writing when childhood ends. And creative-writing courses can be the most, "Fuck no" experiences ever sometimes. The world of writing just became way too confusing for me when it came down to evening out how I felt and what it looked like on paper, so I divorced myself from original works and "settled" for the "incompetency" fanfiction allows, but after reading you up, a whole lot sparked.
"I'm Coming Out," is a nice show of world-reverse; it has a "What If?" message that ends with, "Now could you understand how "they" feel?" to me. It has good material, and people enjoy subject matter over pretty sentence structure. However, your strongest, most potent pieces -- for me, as a reader -- have to be, "Eight Ball" and "To Become Human." Plenty of fabric, just as a mere presentation. Those were so impossibly real in just imagery alone. Every emotion literally felt like a fact...like, this is how it is, this is what it was truly like---it was just all correct somehow, even though I don't know shit about drugs and slaughter.
So wtf?
How do you do that? >: D
Even if you've never directly experienced the events of To Become Human, sewing together that much fabric with understandable, get-to-the-point descriptions isn't easy! You have to put yourself there, and literally invent the feelings; that takes serious energy. Hell, it would take me an hour or more to wrap the damn pink clews of my brain around one sentence of it. 
...Let me also say I never gush like this.
And please excuse any typos in this TL;DR.
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ahhh oh my god I just saw this!! Oh my Goodness gracious I am sitting here like a blushing bride or some shit you are just the sweetest and cutest little thing in the entire world!!!
Uhm, I don't know, I usually just try to write to write, y'know?? Writing is just so important to me and it makes me so happy when my writing means something to other people as well. It's also really awesome that you actually went through and read some of my other pieces, I mean oh my gosh, that means so much to me!!!
You are just so sweet i am sitting here like in shock ahhh ;; squishu!!
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I shall now shun all people who talk like they know quantum mechanics but IN FACT DO NOT EVEN KNOW THE PRECISE DEFINITION OF A REIMANN MANIFOLD, AND IN FACT DO NOT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT PURE MATH, AND HENCE ARE LIARS AND PRETENTIOUS ****S
*shuns people*
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Yup. Sucks but it's true.
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Well, no. I don't get what you're trying to imply with that post on my page. I'm assuming what you're implying is that I'm a pretentious fuck because I enjoy studying quantum theory but I am not entangled in the finer points of the science (yet, if I might add, but regardless)?
Which I find to be rather pretentious of you; first to assume that I haven't done my research or my homework on the subject of quantum theory but for you to make the claim that all who enjoy quantum theory even on a philosophical level must understand even the most minute aspects of the science before they can claim they enjoy it.
No, you're right. I don't know much about pure math and in fact I'm pretty terrible at math. But that doesn't mean that I don't know my shit, or that I'm not interested, or that it's not something I want to study.
Like, Jesus Christ, way to be a conceited asshole yourself. :/
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Hey, did you just delete my reply?
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Hey, don't get me wrong man, I don't know much about quantum mechanics/chem either. However, because of this, I don't spend my time expounding on the coolness of quantum mechanics. What gets me mad is that popular so-called "scientific" writing (e.g., Stephen Hawking) gives us a misleading picture of science. It's not like these people are just taking a dip in the subject. That'd be fine with me. No, what they're doing is spreading lies about what the subject really is. It's like when someone watches "The Matrix" and says "I think, therefore I am" and thinks he's on to Descartes. In my opinion, QM is not to be taken lightly. I'm fine with armchair philosophizing, which works on a symbolic rather than scientific level. However, once you add sceince, you're in a tight spot, since now you're implicitly making assertions about the physical--rather than symbolic--world: assertions which can be proven wrong. It's dangerous ground. And when the symbolic and physical mix, then hell, you'd better wish you're well-versed in your science...
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1. I have better uses of my time than to meticulously delete comments I don't agree with. Even if I was sitting here bored to tears I doubt I'd delete a comment just because I disagree with it.
2. So wishing to study it, having ideas about how the (theoretical) science can be applied, and occasionally using it as a literary device somehow counts as me "spending my time expounding on the coolness of quantum theory"? Alright. Clearly your logic isn't flawed at all.
Take your hate and contempt somewhere else, it isn't wanted or appreciated here. It's one thing to take something that is quantitative/qualitatively true about myself (I.e., that I don't know all that much about quantum physics, for example) and then apply this truth about myself to an argument (i.e., which means that I shouldn't consider myself an appreciator of quantum theory), but it's an entirely different thing to take two concepts that aren't exactly related to each other and force them together to make an argument about the fact that I'm somehow less than you. Jesus christ.
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I never said you were less than I. But, now that you mention it, you're the one who's taking two concepts (viz., quantum chemistry [or what you think is QC] and philosophy) that aren't exactly related to each other and forcing them together.
I express no hate. The question is, do you?
Peace.
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Hey I wanna get in on this pseudo-intellectual "philosophizing" !!
How about some Compatibilism:
"Free will exists...
....in my pants!!!"
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Ahaha!!!!! That made me giggle. Thanks for this!
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As for Muslims, lets be honest, their countries are not free, they are not openminded and actually totally opposite to those free people who clame that we must (for fuck knows why) tolerate them. They are people with Medieval mentality. They have no conception of human rights, they despise and surpress women and of course never heard about religious freedom. Not even talking about terrorism and bad habit of behaving like they are masters when they immigrate to white country.
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It depends on what point of view you take, m'dear! I believe the basic tenants of Islam are beautiful and those who practice the religion at its core are beautiful as well. It is the people who have taken the religion and twisted it into something grotesque that have made it what it is today (much like Christianity, might I add). While I certainly agree that Islamic nations do a bang-up job of suppressing their people, it is not indicative of the religion but rather of the people who practice the religion. No religion is truly free from those who use it as an excuse to be terrible people.
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Yeah, those basic tenants especially nice to women. Fucking Middle age.
Besides did you know that Islam put restriction on art, such as drawing people? No deviantart for you.
So to say do you even remember how Middle East became Muslim?
Their glorious Muhhamad simply invaded this land with his fanatics and forced people into Islam killing everyfucking one who was against. Thats the basic tenants for you. And that was land where Christianity born!
Crusaders got it right and freed at lst part of those land for awhile, too bad they failed eventually, but now we have rare to make it right. Because while the rest of the world progressed both technologically and morally, Muslim stuck in the past and again forcing world back there.
And there no freedom for you.
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That's true, there are a lot of things Muslim women aren't allowed to do, Islam restricts drawing people, the prophet Muhammad, peace be upon him, have fought many battles in order to spread Islam. Saying that might sound bad but have you read anything about those "facts"? Islam values women and consider them as the most precious member in all societies, Islam doesn't see women as something for sale or display which is why women are treasured and respected in all muslim countries, and you'd find way many more explanations and elaborations on that if you search the internet. As for prohibiting drawing people, it's because one of the names of Allah is The giver of form, shape and colour so when you draw a human, animal or any living thing you're creating a picture of a living, like an Equal to Allah, and on the day of judgment you'll be asked to make it perfect and invest it with a spirit like Allah does, which is not possible. And about The prophet invading Middle East, he didn't invade it, he was raised their and spread the word as peacefully as you could ever imagine and even more, he never raised a sword on any creature even if they weren't muslims, those who opposed Islam there were the ones to start wars and violence, only then Muslims had to fight back. More of the point, Islam isn't against Christianity nor Judaism, Islam's basically all of the religions together modified and completed, that's why those who know true pure christianity and Judaism KNOW that Islam is true, the purest and final righteous religion. And Muslims aren't only Arabs, Muslims are of all nationalities, so you can't generalize their progress in Technology or Economy cuz they're basically everywhere and in every country.
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I think Islam's got more to it than many non-muslims understand. In a way, we're to blame for the misconception and misunderstanding we lead the world to. *Sorry for interfering*
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no, definitely not interfering! and I agree. Islam is a beautiful religion and I feel terribly for those in my country who refuse to look past the atrocities committed in the name of Islam and look towards the beauty of the religion as a whole.
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Mhmm, mutual. Our morals might seem odd to the naked eye but for those who seek deeper knowledge about Islam they find true beauty and justice within every small detail. May Allah guide us all to the path of righteousness and heaven in the hereafter.
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