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ILoveBlueMoreThanYou In reply to Narumi-Naru [2018-06-11 01:11:50 +0000 UTC]

haha, si!! pero ya no subo nada aqui asi que el perfil si que lo tengo un poco muerto  

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ILoveBlueMoreThanYou In reply to Hippo13 [2016-06-17 19:13:39 +0000 UTC]

Hey no prob, awesome piece!!

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ILoveBlueMoreThanYou In reply to Jasperinity [2016-06-13 19:56:28 +0000 UTC]

Thank you!!

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ILoveBlueMoreThanYou In reply to MostWanted06 [2016-06-12 22:26:28 +0000 UTC]

Haha, gracias!

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ILoveBlueMoreThanYou In reply to Allfan12895 [2016-06-12 22:24:13 +0000 UTC]

Graaaacias!!  

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Allfan12895 In reply to ILoveBlueMoreThanYou [2016-06-19 12:51:12 +0000 UTC]

De nada jajajaja ^w^        

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ILoveBlueMoreThanYou In reply to Lintu47 [2016-06-12 02:14:28 +0000 UTC]

Hey, thanks a lot!!

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ILoveBlueMoreThanYou In reply to TheJessePlug [2016-04-05 15:55:57 +0000 UTC]

wow hey! how you doin? (and welcome!)

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TheJessePlug In reply to ILoveBlueMoreThanYou [2016-04-05 16:41:49 +0000 UTC]

I'm doing alright; not as good as usual, but I'll probably get over it... So, how are you? (Love your art by the way)  

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ILoveBlueMoreThanYou In reply to TheJessePlug [2016-04-06 14:24:20 +0000 UTC]

ah yeah... whatever it is, as always just give it time! I'm doing really well actually (just don't ask me about school lol), I'm feeling way more motivated to draw lately, and I've had a looong break so it was about time. Except the motivation could definitely have come at a better moment, it's nearing the end of my final school year and I've got a bunch of stuff to get ready for!!

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TheJessePlug In reply to ILoveBlueMoreThanYou [2016-04-06 21:31:40 +0000 UTC]

I know that feel; for me, inspiration and motivation usually come at the wrong time as well, and when I can use it I've lost it... Now that I barely have anything to do (both in school and in my free time) I'm lacking the motivation and inspiration to draw. Sadly my mind becomes an empty canvas when I don't have any inspiration, which leads to boredom, loneliness and even depression; pretty much what I'm dealing with right now. When I have some inspiration and motivation in a busy period I usually make some small sketches during my breaks (since I don't have alot to do during breaks) so that I can improve 'em later and maybe even combine them to create something bigger. Too bad I used to have way too much inspiration and I can't do much with my old drawings since I have improved alot in the meanwhile by studying other people's art, hehe. Anyways, I know it's hard to keep priorities and hobbies apart (always had trouble with it myself), but I believe you'll make it  

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ILoveBlueMoreThanYou In reply to TheJessePlug [2016-04-09 14:46:11 +0000 UTC]

Man, I can relate to pretty much everything you said, if not all of it. Especially the "I used to have too much inspiration" thing, and that you can't do much with it now because you've improved. I think about that all the time. And it really is hard to be in the situation you're in currently because you just feel bad about yourself! Of course people will tell you "draw whatever comes to mind" or something like that but it really is easier said than done. For now I might have a couple of things you could try though: either ask someone to request you something to draw (that way you don't have to think about what to draw) or do sketches of real life things in your surroundings (I never did that before until about a week ago, turns out it's pretty relaxing). As for motivation, if you really want to keep drawing, you'll have to kinda force it. I had to, and it was the worst, but I found that once I was doing it I felt okay about myself again because I was producing something. Inspiration will come soon enough, but this way you will at least draw something, and not make the mistake I made of not drawing anything at all for like a year (and basically losing 1 year of potential improvement). Pretty sure this is something every artist goes through. And man it sucks. But hey, hang in there!!

And ah, priorities and hobbies... I'm struggling with my grades atm because of the lack of that balance, not proud of it!

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TheJessePlug In reply to ILoveBlueMoreThanYou [2016-04-09 20:30:47 +0000 UTC]

Thanks for the advice; I've never been that good at drawing real life stuff but I guess I'll give it a try... After all, there's a first time for everything and I'll never get good at it if I don't try it. I'm actually slowly getting back into sketching and drawing because I've been studying other people's work (including game art), so progress is being made. And as for keeping priorities and hobbies balanced, I can relate to that since I've made the same mistake two times already, causing me to get low grades and do a year over (2 years ago and this year), so even though I wish I could help you with that, I guess I'm not the right person to give you any advice on how to keep it balanced; at least I can wish you good luck and believe in you! 

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ILoveBlueMoreThanYou In reply to TheJessePlug [2016-04-12 21:58:35 +0000 UTC]

That's a super effective way to make progress, yeah! (studying people's art I mean) The only downside, at least for me, is that I might find myself comparing myself to the people whose art I look at and end up getting bummed out and having even less motivation to do anything. But honestly, it can go both ways: some art really inspires me to do something and other just makes me feel bad about myself in a way.

Man, that really sucks that you had to do a year over. I have a friend who went through the same thing 2 years ago now as well, and that's exactly what I'm trying to avoid. There's just 1 month left for me and I'm done with school for good. It's such a weird feeling. It's basically everything I've ever dreamed of because I hate school so much, but right now I'm feeling stressed out more than excited lol. And thanks, really means a lot. I really do have to be very careful this last month, my grades are not that great and if I'm not careful it can end up with me doing the year over, which would tear me apart. What school year are you currently in?

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TheJessePlug In reply to ILoveBlueMoreThanYou [2016-04-13 08:56:48 +0000 UTC]

I'm currently doing the 4th year of middle school over (Higher General Secundairy Education) and I need to find something else since they think that I'm not going to make it; 2 years ago I also had to do my 2nd year over since we were still kinda looking if there was any kind of medicine that could help me concentrate but that didn't go well, so I failed. The 3rd year went alright, but it kinda went downhill after that.

I actually realized not too long ago that I haven't been doing well ever since my grandfather who I had a very good bond with passed away due to lung cancer, so I guess that gave me a huge emotional scar. After all, we were going to visit him because he wasn't doing well but we were 30 minutes too late, so I had to sit in a room with his corpse for about 3 hours; I couldn't take my eyes off him, not even for a second. It might seem kinda silly, but I didn't cry since I didn't want to cry while he was just lying there, even though I was aware of the fact that he had passed. I realized afterwards that I apparently have been living my life while the only goal that I had set for myself was to make him proud by showing him how I would grow up to be a good man, but because I hadn't seen him in a while I couldn't show him, so since I missed my opportunity I feel like I failed. Even though it still makes me cry up to this day I'm not afraid to show my emotions. I was afraid to show them for a while since I have been bullied during my first year, but it has made me stronger in some ways. After all, it kinda feels like my grandpa was the only one who understood and supported me and I am very thankful for the emotional support he has given me. 

Anyways, back to the subject (sorry about that, I felt like I needed to talk to someone about it to lighten the burden); if you finish school, do you already know what you want to do or are you just going to take it easy for a year? My brother finished last year and now he's just sitting at home while boring himself to death since he didn't have any idea what to do after school, so I was kinda curious...

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ILoveBlueMoreThanYou In reply to TheJessePlug [2016-04-17 22:42:24 +0000 UTC]

First of all, I apologize for the late reply. I find it important to take some time to write a nice reply to continue a conversation as opposed to me just writing basically whatever, so I often like to set aside a while to properly reply. I know, it's weird, but that's how by mind works lol.

Second, that is one of the most heartbreaking yet inspiring stories I've heard from someone I've personally talked to. I can't believe you went through that, I am so sorry. As much as I would like to relate, I've never lost someone who I've had a really strong bond with, so I have no idea what it feels like. Actually, it happened once and it was someone I liked a lot but wasn't necessarily that close to, and I remember not even knowing what to feel. So I can't even begin to imagine how it must have been like for you. It's inspiring at the same time because now you've obviously grown since then, realized things you might not have thought of before and as you said, you're not afraid of showing your emotions, which is something I am so fucking glad of because it's so important. Still though, I guess something like this is something you're never fully over. All you can do is accept it; and cry, talk about it or whatever else if you have to. Most of all, despite all of this, stay strong!!

I'm taking a year off (or like, half off) because I wanna have some time to gather my thoughts on where (and exactly what) I'm going to continue studying. Plus having to worry about applying to a uni while doing all the stuff I'm doing right now would be a nightmare. So January next year I'm going to Denmark for 6 months to an animation uni, where they offer a course on still life drawing and stuff like that. I'm really excited of course for a bunch of reasons, I can't wait! Have you thought of anything at all yet?

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TheJessePlug In reply to ILoveBlueMoreThanYou [2016-04-18 12:23:51 +0000 UTC]

I really appreciate the kind words; thanks so much! I guess I needed that as they have brought a smile upon my face. They also make me blush a little as well to be honest, hehe. I'll just have to draw it all off. I've been thinking about making web comics for a while, so I'm planning to start doing that soon, and besides that I sketch alot, so I'll manage. In any case, I feel alot of relief now that I've been able to talk to someone about it since it's been bothering me for so long and my friends were all too busy, so I haven't had a proper conversation with anyone else in a while.

I don't really know what I'm going to do next year since I can't study to become a game artist anymore since I've been turned down for that and don't really know if I have any other talents (and if I actually want to do something with them). My parents keep telling me to just pick a school just to fill the time; I keep rejecting that idea because I'm afraid that it will cause me to become even more demotivated. I need to find something real soon though since I already needed to have a new school before April 1st. So yeah, I'm panicking a little bit but at least one of my friends wants to help me with that, so I guess it will be alright.

Nice to hear that you'll be going to an animation uni in Denmark; sounds like fun! I'm actually a little jealous right now, hehe. Especially because I really want to study abroad as well in the future because I want to leave my country (I can't really find myself in the culture and it's all just a little bit too noisy for me to handle). Also, you don't have to apologize for the late reply; I don't think it's weird at all to take some time to write a reply just the way you want it to be. I have that as well, so it's nothing to be ashamed of, really. I always need to proofcheck my sentences since I'm afraid that if I make a typo it might not sound as serious as I intend it to be. Besides, I already really appreciate that you took so much time yo reply; it's actually making me shy a little bit shy! It was great to hear from you again!

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ILoveBlueMoreThanYou In reply to TheJessePlug [2016-04-25 23:03:38 +0000 UTC]

Hey, I'm really glad! And I'm glad I was able to kinda help you even a little.

Haha, yeah, it'll definitely be fun! Super looking forward to it. Although my Danish is a little rusty because I haven't used it since I went to primary school there so I'm a tiny bit worried. But eh, classes are in English, I'll manage! And man, I feel ya. I had no idea what I was gonna do until I improvised it last second, which is, as I mentioned before, partially why I'm taking this year off: I didn't have time to apply for anything even if I had wanted to. But, how come you've been turned down? Personally, I'd suggest doing something really basic inside what you enjoy doing. What I mean by that is, for example, say you know you like cooking but you don't know whether you prefer to make desserts or meals or whatever; if you take a course on just cooking in general it might help you find out what exactly you want to do, or if you even want to have anything at all to do with cooking, you know? Because that's kinda what I'm doing with this classical drawing course. One important thing to keep in mind though, never stop doing stuff! Take risks! Consider taking opportunities you wouldn't have otherwise, it'll only end up with an experience, good or bad, you will have learned something from it. I think one usually looks back regretting things they didn't do rather than things they did do. But hey, whatever you decide to do, I know everything will work out for ya <3

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TheJessePlug In reply to ILoveBlueMoreThanYou [2016-05-11 20:23:27 +0000 UTC]

Hi, sorry for the really late reply; I kept wanting to reply every day but I was a too busy with trying to focus on finding a new school and coming up with some art ideas (which is pretty hard when you always want to be original but almost everything has been done once by someone else, hehe). Anyways, I was turned down because I was a little bit too honest (I basically told 'em that I didn't have a very good experience with teamwork so far since my project partners were usually the people that nobody else wanted to team up with since they were considered the lazy bunch who let the others do all the work). I find it kina hard to find something that I enjoy doing since there sadly isn't alot. I do enjoy cooking, but taking courses isn't exactly my kind of thing since I find it hard to socialize and communicate with people I don't know; I'm not very talkative in real life either, and people even consider me dead on the inside because of that (which is kinda painful). Another thing that kinda keeps me from doing anything is the pain in my entire body that I've had since I was a child. Up to this day doctors don't know what causes it and it has even gotten to the point where it makes me vomit and hallucinate daily. It has also caused me to be depressed for many years and the feeling of loneliness only makes things worse. Luckily your advice and your sweet words are very encouraging, so I really wanted to thank you for that! Also, good luck with your exams; I believe in you! <3

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ILoveBlueMoreThanYou In reply to TheJessePlug [2016-06-10 16:16:23 +0000 UTC]

(In the middle of finals here, taking a break to reply... though after a month...) Yeah being too honest can, despite good intentions, come back to bite you in the ass. I learned that recently as well. I'm sorry man. And yeah I understand you. I've been like that as well. But I mean, if you keep doing things that interest you and you keep moving in an environment where there are people with your same interests, you'll eventually (with time) build a small circle of people who accept you and understand you with those interests, and whom you are comfortable around (like what happened with me) and, knowing they are real friends you'll potentially never have to worry again. And who knows, talking with those friends might also help you talk more comfortably with other people. Speaking from experience here, hehe. Anyway, I don't even know if I'm in any position to give you any advice but I'd just really like to help.

And shit, what? How? I don't even know what to say... How can something like that be something that doctors can't put a finger on? You are really strong for putting up with that, mentally and physically. Because, you seem to be hangin in there, right?

(Also I don't know if you'd be willing to study in the U.S, but I recently found a really good school with a lot of super welcoming people called SCAD. It has a ton of degrees related to art and design. If all goes well, fingers crossed, I'll be staring there soon. Look it up if you want!)

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TheJessePlug In reply to ILoveBlueMoreThanYou [2016-06-12 19:16:21 +0000 UTC]

(I don't mind a late reply at all; after all, nobody forces you to reply, so I already really appreciate it!) Since I didn't find any schools near my city that particularly caught my eye apart from the one where I was rejected my parents recently pressured me into signing up for an intake at a school where I'll have to study graphic design. I'm not looking forward to it at all since a teacher there told me that it's mostly going to be designing things like websites and posters and that kind of stuff, which isn't what I want to do at all. I'm also kinda panicking right now since I just got two exercises that I need to do for the intake; one exercise is describing a painting from the renaissance and a painting from impressionism using objective words (like color, shape, structure, line, etc.), which is basically what has almost made me fail art class several times (luckily my artwork got me better grades and saved me just in time). The other exercise is making a mood board about an iced smoothie or a mobile phone from a specific brand (and as I'm writing this I don't even know what a mood board is yet, so I'm off to a great start); luckily my dad told me that my brother can help me with that since he apparently even made mood boards for my dad's workplace and my dad works at a national bank, so I don't worry too much about the second exercise. I've been so busy looking for a school that I haven't spoken to my friends in weeks, which kinda makes me feel like I've gone from their friend to just some guy on their friends list, so you won't believe just how happy I am with your reply!

Concerning my physical condition, I really appreciate the fact that you care! The pain is still increasing and since last December the pain has been so bad that it makes me vomit on a daily base. They're now researching if it has to do with my nerves, so I got an MRI scan last week. It actually kinda surprised me that I've never been relaxed as I was in that scanner, especially since my brain can't handle loud noises at all. The vomiting has already reached the point where I now sometimes even have to vomit blood since it might be burning a hole in my stomach. Sadly the pain has also caused me to hallucinate and the hallucinations are getting more aggressive and realistic, so I hope I'll still be able to tell what's real apart from what's fake. I am strong enough to take it on, though, so you don't have to worry about that!

Also, SCAD actually seems great and now that you mentioned it I remember hearing great things about it from other artists, so thank you for mentioning it! I was getting worried since I didn't know what I want to do in the future, but I now have something that I want to work towards! I don't know the requirements though, since the Dutch school system is really complicated and different from any other school system and I will have to do alot of work in order to actually go to America as well, so it will take a while, but hey, I'm almost 18 so I have alot of time left! I do however want to leave this country as soon as possible though, since it's starting to have a depressing effect on me... Anyways, the program that really caught my eye was sequential art; it's actually kinda funny since I wanted to become a comic artist as a kid and then left that behind about 7 years ago because it lost my interest, but now I want to become a comic book artist again! It's also one of the not so many choices that I made as a kid that I don't regret after all, hehe

Anyways, I hope your finals are going well for you! Also, of course, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I hope you're having an amazing day!  

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ILoveBlueMoreThanYou In reply to TheJessePlug [2016-07-20 12:33:27 +0000 UTC]

Hey! So yeah, had some vacation in the middle, went to Sweden and stuff.

So how'd it go? Did you do it already? Any news on a school? Also, how are you feeling? What you're going through is pretty insane and I've never heard of anything like it. I really really wish for you to some day get over it somehow. But I like how casual you're being about it, at least to me. You don't let it bring you down and that's very admirable.

And about SCAD, yes the sequential art thing also caught my eye but I HAVE heard some bad things about the school in general and it's really making me think twice about even applying. The people who like it REALLY like it and the people who don't REALLY don't. So it's risky. The requirements are simple: to fill out the application and the money. Money part being a big problem as it's pretty expensive. And that's exactly why I really have to think about it, I wouldn't wanna waste that much + potentially some years of my life. So hey, read some reviews of people who have gone to the school and draw your own conclusions. I'll keep looking for schools and definitely recommend some if I find any cool ones! And yes, going to the U.S is a process I haven't even had a look at haha. Hopefully if it's to study there it makes it a tad easier but there's so much to keep in mind it's insane.

Finals went well thank you and SUPER BELATED THANK YOU!!

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TheJessePlug In reply to ILoveBlueMoreThanYou [2016-07-23 16:42:28 +0000 UTC]

I'm so glad to hear that your finals went well! Also, I hope you had a great time in Sweden! I've never been to Sweden myself, but I've heard alot of great things about it!

So I went to the intake, or maybe I should say intakes, because I had to do 2 intakes for it. The first intake was a group intake, where we had to do another exercise and we were told what we could expect. The second intake, which was the interview with a teacher, was one week after the first one. I was really nervous for the second part because I found out at the group intake that I had forgotten the homework for the group intake at home, so I had to hand it in at the second intake. Since I had studied art at my previous school I though that the first exercise, the one where I had to describe art, was actually going to be describing every single detail of the paintings using all kinds of like 'chiaroscuro', but when I handed the exercises in at the interview I was told that I just had to describe exactly what I saw in the painting. I got lucky, because the teacher appeared to be a Dutch teacher and he was impressed by my grammar, spelling and my use of words. He also complimented me on quickly correcting myself whenever I said something wrong and then explaining in further detail how I made the mistake, because it made him understand me better. After the interview he told me that he was going to write a positive report so that I could start near the end of August, so I was pretty proud of myself. I also saw an old friend of mine at the group intake, so I hope he got accepted or else I'm going to be alone again this year (or maybe even all 3 years) since I'm too shy to start a conversation with anyone I don't know.

As to how I'm feeling, I feel happy because I got accepted, but I also feel sad and broken because I found out a month ago that my crush already has a boyfriend, just when I wanted to ask her out. Ever since then I've been feeling incomplete and alone; I got back in contact with Thomas and two friends from school though, so I got a little bit of distraction. However, it did hurt alot. I have only left the house for the intakes, several appointments with different doctors and handing in my books at school. I've been feeling too nervous to leave the house since I feel like I don't know what love feels like anymore and I'm too afraid that I'll fall in love with a complete stranger, which would only make things worse. If only love wasn't this complicated 

Sorry about all this useless and probably overdramatic stuff; I just felt the need to tell someone and I though you would be the best person to tell it to since I trust you. Anyawys, I've been to several doctors and they also don't seem to know what is causing all the pain and the vomiting. I never realized how bad it all sounds until the latest appointment, where it took the doctor about 10 minutes to go through a list with all of the complaints. Luckily I hadn't lost any weight, because at every appointment before it I had lost 2,5kg. They've also tested my blood several times now and I have to take more pills against stomach aches, but without any results so far. I'm starting to worry a little bit that nobody will ever find out what is going on with me.

Also, I haven't really read any reviews yet on SCAD. I already assumed that it would be expensive, but my parents told me that money wouldn't be a problem and that they will support me, even if I want to go somewhere else (I really don't deserve them). I have more than 3 years though to decide what I want to do after this,  so I still have alot of time to decide where I want to go! I would indeed really appreciate it if you could recommend any cool ones!

Anyways, sorry about the long message; I hope to hear from you again! Stay awesome!

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ILoveBlueMoreThanYou In reply to TheJessePlug [2016-09-10 09:13:46 +0000 UTC]

Alright so the past months have been a bit weird for me, I was in France working as an au pair and though it was nice, I eventually had to leave due to some complications, haha.

I'm really glad to hear it went well and you got in! So, did you start yet? And did your friend? Are they nice people there? I hope it's going well. And about the crush, I know exactly how you feel... I hope I didn't "remind" you of it just now by mentioning it but in any case I hope you're feeling better about it now. And that you're feeling better physically as well!

For me right now it's a bit of a weird one. I have to get my driver's licence soon and after that I might be going to Seattle to visit a friend who invited me there pretty much out of the blue. I'm taking a year off  so after that I'm not even sure what to do. I'm not even sure what to do next September! Let's hope I'll have it figured out by then.

Again, excuse my habit of not immediately responding, but please know there's no reason in particular for it and that it's definitely not anything personal. It's simply just a bad habit of mine.

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TheJessePlug In reply to ILoveBlueMoreThanYou [2016-09-10 17:14:08 +0000 UTC]

You don't have to excuse yourself every time; I already appreciate the fact that you're responding, haha! But an au pair in France, huh? That sounds nice! Sorry to hear that you had to leave due to complications :/

As for the college I'm in now, the introduction week was last week though I missed the first few days due to "being sick" (I was actually going back home from Gran Canaria on the first day but I got a little bit drunk because I had my first alcohol ever, not too proud of it, had to tell my mom I can't become an alcoholic because I'll be spending all my money on Steam games to calm her down ) but the people here are actually alright; I'm a little bit shy though, so I just walk around with my friend and another one of his friends. We don't really know if we want to carry on here though, because it seems to be focussing on becoming a graphic designer and starting your own company as a graphic designer (just got first project and we need to know how to start a company and do all the financial and administrative stuff in 10 weeks). I'm not stressing that much as I normally would though and I don't really care about that crush anymore, because I just got a girlfriend! Sadly she lives in Canada so she's far away, she isn't online alot and she doesn't speak English very well so she's a little bit afraid to use her mic, but hey, that's one of the things I find cute about her! My friends are doubting her existence though. :/

I hope you'll get your driver's license and if you're going to Seattle to visit a friend, good luck and have fun! Also, enjoy your year off; everyone deserves a break!

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ILoveBlueMoreThanYou In reply to TheJessePlug [2016-09-17 23:17:48 +0000 UTC]

Aw yeah, glad you're at least sort of enjoying the place! Although yeah, that is a tough decision, knowing whether to carry on or not... it is of course very comfortable to stay but if it isn't exactly oriented right it wouldn't be a good idea. So yeah, really gotta think about that one.

And hey, 'grats on the girlfriend! Really happy for you both! 

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TheJessePlug In reply to ILoveBlueMoreThanYou [2016-09-18 05:11:20 +0000 UTC]

I don't know for sure if I'll actually stay with graphic design, because the year just started and I've already sunk into a terrible depression because of the deadlines; when you miss a deadline you're not allowed to enter the classroom anymore until you've finished your work and if you haven't done your work a few times you can get kicked out (and of course there is no other way to work on it over there unless you have a laptop which I don't have yet and my pc is starting to act weird).  Sadly I also wouldn't know where else to go since I already got rejected for game artist and the longer I stay in my country, the more depressed I become and the more agressive my hallucinations become. I really wish I could talk to my girlfriend right now but she hasn't been online in 3 days now and I haven't heard anything from her so I'm really scared right now since I'm way too afraid of losing her. Meanwhile my mom treats me like I'm an idiot for loving my girlfriend and wanting to visit her because she lives so far away and "I barely know her" (even though I also want to visit her so that me and my girlfriend can get to know each other better). Maybe I'm just worrying too much about everything and I need to take a break, but sadly with all the deadlines breaks are almost impossible. Sorry for almost always being all negative, but that's sadly just me being myself

Also, thanks! It means alot to me!

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ILoveBlueMoreThanYou In reply to CelineDGD [2015-12-29 13:06:31 +0000 UTC]

Wow, this is pretty great. I think it's awesome you take your time to go around telling people this because some really need to hear it, myself included. So hey, thanks a lot and keep at it! Hope you're having a rad day and that you have a great new year!

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CelineDGD In reply to ILoveBlueMoreThanYou [2015-12-29 18:32:25 +0000 UTC]

<3
Aw, totally. <3
You're very welcome lovely, it's always a pleasure. :3
Aw thank you very much, same to you. <3

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