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# Statistics
Favourites: 18; Deviations: 7; Watchers: 2
Watching: 13; Pageviews: 2259; Comments Made: 126; Friends: 13
# Interests
Favorite games: That's kind of a big question.Favorite gaming platform: PC
Tools of the Trade: Cintiq, Paper, Pencil
# About me
Given enough time and patience, the Writer might find the will to write his own redemption into the Story.Current Residence: Chicago.
Operating System: Fedora
# Comments
Comments: 37
JackDostoevsky In reply to x-Goddess-x [2010-10-30 16:32:25 +0000 UTC]
Of course! I'm more than happy to support a fellow midwestern artist. :3
<3
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JackDostoevsky In reply to Melu-Bonilla [2010-09-16 22:56:16 +0000 UTC]
You are oh so very welcome, my dear.
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JackDostoevsky In reply to AARtistWannabe [2010-09-16 07:42:23 +0000 UTC]
Ah! For better or for worse, I suppose. I grew up in the suburbs, but a few years ago moved to the City proper. It's one of my favorite places in the world, though I do so very much love to travel.
Have you lived in the area long?
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AARtistWannabe In reply to JackDostoevsky [2010-09-16 07:45:10 +0000 UTC]
All my life.
I was born in Chicago, then we moved to Elk Grove Village in '75, then over the years we lived in Schaumburg, Hoffman Estates, and now we're in Naperville.
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JackDostoevsky In reply to AARtistWannabe [2010-09-16 07:48:02 +0000 UTC]
Wonderful! Another Chicago native. Though ... as I was born in the suburbs, I'm probably taking some liberties in saying that I'm a "native" of Chicago. Certainly not Chicago proper. But I've spent more than enough time in the city itself over the years.
Though I've lived in many different places! Iowa, Idaho, Colorado, Germany, Wisconsin... Germany was, by far, probably the most interesting, though I'm quite interested in moving back to Colorado. I might do that! It won't be for another year, though, as I've just re-signed the lease on my apartment here in the city. If I go to Colorado, though, I'll have a house instead of an apartment, which is a rather significant thing.
Have you then spent all of your time in the area? Or have you spent much time away from Chicago?
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AARtistWannabe In reply to JackDostoevsky [2010-09-16 07:55:37 +0000 UTC]
No, I don't go out or travel at all. I just started going to the city for photo shoots. I just now got familiar with the train schedule & fares.
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JackDostoevsky In reply to AARtistWannabe [2010-09-16 07:56:11 +0000 UTC]
Oh? Where have you gone to do shoots? Is it mostly studio shoots, or do you shoot out and around the city?
What's been keeping you from going to the city before?
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AARtistWannabe In reply to JackDostoevsky [2010-09-16 08:02:57 +0000 UTC]
I've been doing shoots with the Photographer who shot my most recent photos. We've been shooting in his studio.
I also became friends with an amateur photographer on Model Insider. He really wanted to shoot me, so I met him in downtown and he shot me while I walked around and posed at different locations. It wasn't a "professional photo shoot", it's merely him following me around & taking pictures of me. It was fun, though. Good practice.
I never went before because...no friends, no reason to go, was never used to traveling alone. Who knew it was so easy, lol.
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JackDostoevsky In reply to AARtistWannabe [2010-09-16 08:05:22 +0000 UTC]
Haha, such truth! I ride my bike all around the city; it keeps me in shape, saves me money. Sadly, my bike was just stolen today. I'm really pissed off about that. =\
Casual photography is the greatest! Ironically, even though I live in the city, most of my friends are in the suburbs, and none of them want to actually come and visit the city. So I'd love to invest in a new camera (I had an old film SLR, but it broke in recent years), but I'm sure that if I bought it I wouldn't have any use for it, as I've got no-one to shoot.
Have you enjoyed your time in the city, then? You should come more often! There are some great things to do here. I'm not sure if you're one to drink, but there are some great bars and clubs on the north side.
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AARtistWannabe In reply to JackDostoevsky [2010-09-16 08:08:57 +0000 UTC]
Actually, it was waaaayyy too hot when we shot there on Sunday. The heat kind of ruined my day, but I made the best of it. I'll come out there again.
Hopefully I'll get a job & more friends, and then will be able to afford those bars & clubs and have more people to go to them with.
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JackDostoevsky In reply to AARtistWannabe [2010-09-16 08:10:54 +0000 UTC]
Certainly! Of course, it's certainly a bit early in this friendship to offer someone to guide you about the city, but I shall tentatively offer such a service anyway!
What kind of job would you be looking for? What is it that you do? If you don't mind my asking.
(Oh, and PS: Feel free to send me a note, instead of constantly talking back and forth between comments. ;] )
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JackDostoevsky In reply to DEx3TER [2010-09-16 05:49:05 +0000 UTC]
It's my sincerest pleasure! Between your drawings, your paintings, and your photography, you present a most delightful mix of art that I'm anxious to see more of!
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AshLeeLoverin [2010-09-16 01:02:12 +0000 UTC]
I would just like to take a moment to say that it's been a sincere pleasure meeting you. And, I really like the style of your work. It's always wonderful to meet another intelligent individual, especially one who can relate to and understand myself. Things like this brighten each day of mine, and I thank you for that.
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JackDostoevsky In reply to AshLeeLoverin [2010-09-16 01:10:15 +0000 UTC]
It was my pleasure, my dear. As I already alluded to, there seems to be much more to you -- to your photographer, to your wigs, to you yourself -- than a few pictures posted to your art portfolio.
I've tasked myself with finding out more and more, as time passes, as you create more and more art that exposes the true You -- the You that transcends the wigs and masks that you cloth yourself in -- the one that exposes the soul and true feeling.
Well met, my dear, and I shall will fate to drive our new friendship to be sincere and fulfilling.
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AshLeeLoverin In reply to JackDostoevsky [2010-09-16 03:02:40 +0000 UTC]
All of that makes me smile, I had a feeling that we'd get on very well, and I do believe that I won't be disappointed. I wasn't expecting to meet anyone genuine though, at least not nearly so soon. But I'm a sucker for a (good) surprise, so all is well.
I look forward to watching you unlock and uncover who and what exactly I might be, through my art and words. And in turn, I'll be seeing what I can discover about you.
My face is partially covered in a variety of colors of paints. I had created quite an unusual mask of color, but the real reasoning was behind my wanting to see what kind of picture I could get from the colors running off as I showered. I've picked most of the paint off though, while waiting. As I was about to get in, I recalled my battery was dying. Thus, I'm letting it charge a tad now while I wait. I'll slash some new paint on my face when I'm ready.
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JackDostoevsky In reply to AshLeeLoverin [2010-09-16 04:15:20 +0000 UTC]
Good. I look forward to it.
This is, admittedly, not my first account here. But it was time to begin again -- sometimes starting anew and leaving what was past, in the past, and move on from there. In that time, though, I'd met a number of intriguing individuals. Sadly, they were few and far between, but I think that such rarity increases the enjoyment of the conversations and friendships that are enjoyed and created.
That being said, I'm Jack, of course. It's an absolute pleasure.
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AshLeeLoverin In reply to JackDostoevsky [2010-09-17 09:07:44 +0000 UTC]
My first instinct is to apologize for not getting back to you sooner, since it's obvious that I've been on a few times since now and then. But, I can't say that it won't happen again or get worse. I struggle with being torn between two passions. The primal and raw nature that I've grown to lust over, and the societal and technological world that I have become entwined in. The scale often tips heavily to one side, and I disappear from the other for a while. Seems at the moment that I am somewhere between both and neither. I am working to stay on top of everything though. One or two days gone is nothing compared to the month at a time that I used to fade away.
I agree with that completely, I use it in a lot of my life. Merely picking up where things are and moving from there forward, instead of dragging everything behind you in a dirty and worn sack. I suppose it's become a part of my lifestyle though, being one who used to move at least once or twice a year. I always began anew, perfected recreating myself. And ultimately, learned to let go of what I don't need and shouldn't have. Proud to say that I have indeed found some things worth keeping though.
And I am AshLee, of course. You're currently the only Jack I am acquainted with.
Interesting thing with your comment on my picture and mentioning of masochism being different than self harm. Because, that's one thing I struggle with. 'What to call' 'what I do.' Because, I "harm" myself in a small variety of ways, but, that isn't it. I don't "hurt" myself, yet that's what people would blatantly see it as. Nothing I do, is in the spirit of harm.
Awful to hear about your bike theft though, I can only imagine. And I don't like the image of it, at all. Are you going to get another, or see if yours turns up?
As you may notice.. I can come up with a good number of things to say. Possibly why people who know me have coined the term "AshLee-sized."
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JackDostoevsky In reply to AshLeeLoverin [2010-09-17 15:25:50 +0000 UTC]
I've always felt myself very intrigued by the very concept of sadomasichism -- both sides of it, not even simply the masochistic side. I think there's a certain synergy that occurs when two people -- one who enjoys being hurt and one who enjoys hurting -- come together and are able to thrive off the energy that is produced between the two of them.
But that's not something that's easily explained, as you made mention, to those who don't feel the same way.
I think that the best way to really find some things "worth keeping" is to find the worth inside yourself, or to find those constants that don't change through all the travels. I've had the fortune (or, depending on your perspective, the lack of opportunity) to more or less stay rooted to the same place my entire life. I've lived in many different places, but only temporarily, and I've always ended up back here.
And I do not at all mind the long posts! Sometimes I do the same thing; I will write and write and write, probably about less than I actually think I do. But, if you do not find yourself on this forum as often as you'd like, there are other means of communication; simply note me and perhaps we could exchange some of those.
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AshLeeLoverin In reply to JackDostoevsky [2010-09-18 00:43:29 +0000 UTC]
Wonderfully put. Really. The things I do are most often and generally kept to myself, since even those who do understand or appreciate my reasoning and cause, are often still unnerved by it. It's actually an emotionally tying thing when you can share what you do with someone, when it's something either secret or sacred. As, I often treat my "rituals" as.
No, it really isn't. Which seems like it would have made me into somewhat of a mysterious or secretive person, having so many aspects of my life considered taboo by a general audience. And yet, I hardly see myself as anyone withdrawn or reserved. I suppose it's because there is far much about me, both things to keep quiet and things to share openly, for either to influence everything of my image. No one has heard everything I have to share, which can come quite in handy.
Similar for me, in a way. Though I do move often, I come back to this town every other year at least. I've been rooted here for the past two years though.. can't say it's been a good thing, I've become such a homebody. Really hard to leave this house. But the best things of my life have somehow taken place in the past couple years, so it's nothing to cry over. What has been your favorite place that you have lived, and where would you live if you could anywhere?
I am sure that I will at some point, but not having other means also gives me that initiative to continue coming back and maintaining the one means that we do have. I don't tend to leave abruptly though, so it would be gradual and I would do what was needed.
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JackDostoevsky In reply to AshLeeLoverin [2010-09-18 01:34:05 +0000 UTC]
Haha, fair enough! About the communication, that is -- I can't so much find fault with that.
We all have bits of ourselves that we share selectively with others. For me, it tends to be my sexuality -- I'm semi-openly bisexual, for instance, but it's not something that I share with everyone. I share it with you because I don't feel that it will effect our burdgeoning friendship in any way. With some of my older friends, though, I'm more hesitant to disclose such information.
Which is odd, in a way. Such a thing is, from a certain point of view, very personal. Yet from another point of view, it's something that can be disconnected from myself, as a person, and in certain scenarios it doesn't effect the view that someone has of me. While I'm not sure if it makes total sense, I hope it gets my point across.
My favorite place? Well, now, that's a tough question. There are so many places that, at the time I was there, I didn't care for, yet now hold a certain appeal. Like Idaho, for instance. While I was there it felt like the asshole of the country, but in retrospect I can't help but imagine it would be a lovely place to live. I think I want to end up in the mountains, away from people. But not too far. Far enough.
What about you?
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AARtistWannabe [2010-09-15 07:28:58 +0000 UTC]
Thank you for reading my blog, and the supportive feedback.
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JackDostoevsky In reply to AARtistWannabe [2010-09-15 07:43:28 +0000 UTC]
You are quite welcome, darling. From one midwestern artist to another.
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JackDostoevsky In reply to TheGreatBrandino [2010-09-15 07:43:44 +0000 UTC]
Most definitely! Fantastic. :3
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JackDostoevsky In reply to vampirebatsahh [2010-09-15 05:12:08 +0000 UTC]
You are welcome! Gorgeous sky.
And thank you quite. :]
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vampirebatsahh In reply to JackDostoevsky [2010-09-15 05:17:36 +0000 UTC]
thank you. The clouds have been quite beautiful lately. :3
And my pleasure :3
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