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Kykel
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[2008-02-22 06:16:11 +0000 UTC]
"Writer At Heart!"
(United States)
# Statistics
Favourites: 937; Deviations: 119; Watchers: 32
Watching: 81; Pageviews: 19272; Comments Made: 7051; Friends: 81
# Interests
Favorite visual artist: MonetFavorite movies: Tron: Legacy
Favorite bands / musical artists: Apocalyptica, Linkin Park, Fireflight, or Jimmie Hendrix
Favorite writers: Dan Brown or Christopher Paolini or Terry Goodkind
Favorite games: Final Fantasy 7
Favorite gaming platform: RTS
Tools of the Trade: Imagination, for no law binds me.
Other Interests: Music and computers, art and literature. Philosophy, video games, writing, reading and drawing.
# About me
There is nothing normal about me. My entire life I've searched for something that I know not what it is. Call it purpose. Call it religion. God. Peace. It makes no difference to me. The fact is that I've never been ok. There has and always will be a little piece of me that's broken inside. But that isn't even the point. I like that, want it even. Being ok hurts worse than being broken because I can at least understand pain. It drives and inspires me. It gives birth to ideas and concepts of reality that nothing else ever could. My life needs something to drive me. I do not serve myself well in happiness.I learned long ago that I'm a dreamer but when you get what you want, you lose sight of what it meant. You have to keep reaching for something unattainable to get somewhere in life. Chase the clouds, the stars even. They'll only keep you on their tail. You'll never catch them. I hate being happy. Happiness breeds content acceptance. I fear it. It is instability to me. Change is immutable. Change is everything. Change is life. That which sits still does so because it is dead. I want to always want more, to never be happy with myself.
I do not know if I believe in purpose anymore. But I think that is the very point of it all. The idea that we are utterly alone, a fluke... It's lonely and it's scary. It is a secret that would end the world. But there is so much out there that makes me truly wonder. I have for so long found doubt in myself. But that is who I am. I find inspiration and I find drive in my doubts. It is those fears that fuel me. THEY are what give me my strength. Ask yourself, if you learned that there is nothing else out there, that we truly are alone what would you do? What is the purpose of it all? You live for no other reason than to live.
There are sides of me that nobody understands. And there are sides that only a few people do. I do not open up to most because I do not want to be understood. It is my way of being alone. It is all I have sacred to me. The only thing that makes me who I am, unique. I am different from everyone because of this and this alone.
I think everyone has a set of critical beliefs deep down that they don't share lightly. Even among those closest to us do we often feel strangers before these concepts. They are part of us. They define us and make each and every one of us unique. They are all we have sacred to ourselves. I do not know if I believe in peace. I do not know if I even believe in purpose anymore. The frailty of the base that holds all I once and all I do believe in does not surprise me. I believe in life and I believe in change. Change is immutable. Change is everything. Change is life. But change is also loss. It is sacrifice. It is the only universal truth I believe in. In the end, we know nothing.
Sometimes, intelligence is a burden.
# Comments
Comments: 482
Happy Birthday, Kykel.Β I've begun to write some really old stories from when I was in 7th Grade last year during the Fall, and am continuing to write a lot more as well as getting lots of new ideas.Β Exciting to see where all of this Creativity will end up in a series of novels and graphic novels. 
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Happy Birthday, Kykel.Β I've always enjoyed reading your stories.Β 
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hey man, how and where have you been? still writing?Β
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Believe it or not, yes. But, life has become busy these days. I find that nostalgia seems to be the only thing left that brings me back to this wonderful little hidden gem.
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Dude, preaching to the choir. my writing has changed... i have new ideas for what i want to do. where i want my stories to go. but life is a bitch and setting up a lot of roadblocks on my own story of life. it sucks. :/
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Thanks again for the fav and your nice comment!
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You are welcome. Thank you for sharing your beauty with us. The beauty in your mind and your soul. Your words are nothing but gateways.
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Thank you so much for your kind words.
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This isn't one of your options for your poll but I like the sound of "The Fated Love Series"
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Thx for the suggestion. Maybe I'll add that one on.
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Hey! 
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Thx. I've been around so little recently I didn't realize people even knew I still existed. Thank you.
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Thanks for the 
You are always welcome
Check out my full art galleries [link] and [link]
Gave a Llama to you
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And you're welcome for the fav. It was well deserved. This is an excellent piece.
And thanks for the llama. However, I would check out your gallery but I'm sorry to say that I don't have the time. I haven't even went through the 1400 deviations in my own inbox yet that have been piling up for months.
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So it is your birthday... I do not have anything big fancy of fantastic to say about it just happy birthday to you
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Lol. Thank you anyway. I request no presents anyway.
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Happy birthday!!! 
deviantART muro drawing
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AWWWWWWWWWWWW...... 
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mmmyea, maybe the thought does count, but i had wanted to do something more than just that. but alright, no apologies
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You actually worked on making something for me. That means more to me than anything.
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really? means even more than an actual hug delivered home?
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Well, you can't give me a hug right now so I was implying the present tense.
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ouh i was implying say i could catch a plane, drive to ur base and give u a hug then leave
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Hmmmm.... Seems really expensive and time costly just to give me a hug.... Maybe you should just owe me and IOU hug.
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I don't do IOU's
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We shall rain check then. You can give me a hug some other time when it's a little more cost affordable.
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hahaha, u should go into business management
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Too true. I could always join a traveling company later.
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meh! you would keep telling customers not to fly
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Thanks for all the comments and faves, they're all greatly appreciated:3
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You're most certainly welcome.
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FISSSSHHHHYYYYYY! I WUV the fishy!
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Myke you better know that i love you because i just printed out your book fated love and i am going to read all 14 chapters i had left
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Lol. Okay, but... keep in mind that there are 17 chapters.
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ok i know this Myke but you also know that i enjoy a good book
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True. Fated Love isn't that great though. It needs a lot of work.
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