Lightning-Thought In reply to flappability [2007-10-27 03:54:53 +0000 UTC]

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Lightning-Thought In reply to flappability [2007-10-28 03:00:54 +0000 UTC]

I have memorized The Quitter, The Men That Don't Fit In, and The Shooting of Dan McGrew. I'm working on Sam Magee, I have about half done. So yes, I remember it. And I had no idea that you were the one who made "Adamoo"! It's so intricate and well thought out I should have realized it was yours. It even has the eclectic and bright flowing colors that define not only your artistic style but (after having met you) you as a person.

But what you said about everyone being connected through our humanity...
I would have to disagree.
While universal fellowship and goodwill are cute concepts, they are nothing more than the ideals of our society. Every person not only defines themselves according to the dictates of their own desires, but are also defined by those around them. And these definitions are warranted. While everyone wants to belong to a group of people who care about them, to be accepted into a group the group must feel that the newcomer belongs. And as I saw in your eyes two nights ago, you know that some of us are far too different to be accepted by any group.

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flappability In reply to Lightning-Thought [2007-10-28 05:23:09 +0000 UTC]

ahaha you are so poetic, that's pretty nifty.
:] thank you for the compliment. Bright flowing colors. I dig. :]


and i definately understand where you are coming from. Universal fellowship, and goodwill are infact ideals, and like all ideals -- are nonexistant, but have a capacity that we can fill. i did mention that we are both united and divided by our humanity because life is just full of contradictions like that.
Though disjointment occurs through differences in race, culture, personality and all of those things, we are still connected simply becasue of the fact that we are human, of one race, of once species, with the same basic needs. The cheerleader, the icelandic immigrant sipping broiled puffin soup, the poor child born without legs, the nobel peace prize winner, the artist, the mathmatician, regardless of who we are, we are all human and that is what forever unites us. I do acknowledge that there will be differences that some will never be able to accept, and individual who will never be accepted into certain groups, but still i believe that there is far more that unites us than divides.

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Lightning-Thought In reply to flappability [2007-10-28 06:05:34 +0000 UTC]

Wow, you have no idea what it is like for me to finally find someone my own age who can talk on an intellectual level like this. And your views are so opposite to mine. You may dive into the cold waters of sorrow, but you always come back to the balmy heights of hope and beckon everyone else to follow you. I wish I could be as hopeful

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flappability In reply to Lightning-Thought [2007-10-30 00:37:06 +0000 UTC]

but that doesn't mean that i dont get apathetic and become a total cynic because i do, i just somehow always return to that general philosophy.

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flappability In reply to Lightning-Thought [2007-10-30 00:35:40 +0000 UTC]

awesome. we can have more philiosophical talk then.
i love philosophy.

And yes I was a cynic once, a really really horrible cynic, but then since the middle of last year things started going uphill for me so now I try to think positively because it is easier to live that way. I don't know it's complicated. Somedays I am horribly apathetic, and sometimes its the exact opposite. But overall I believe that humanity screwed itself over long ago, and all we are trying to do is to prolong our entire downfall. In the grand scheme of things, everything is meaningless. It infuriates me that there are so many ignorant people in society, and that there is and has always been uncountable global racial issues, and sometimes i plunge into that pool of sorrow and is unable to come out. However I find meaning in the simple things, generally the other people around me who care and creative expression. So my philosophy is to embrace existance, and do what you can with what you have been given, be one of the millions of bruises who fought for a change. Because honestly, if martin luther king, or all of those other protesters and civil rights leaders and speakers never stood up for what they believed in, then this world would be far far away from what emerging justice there is today. That prooves that a single person can make a tiny difference, and too many people do not see that.

and i think a lot of my general attitude towards life comes from how i have somewhat overcome my fear of death. Life could end at any second, but the whole idea of decaying into the earth and uniting yourself with nature, and leaving life, is a wonderfully beautiful thing to me. I would be glad to be a part of that endless cycle of birth and decay someday. so in that way, freedom does exist.

So basically if i worship anything, it would be nature.


and yeah that is my philosophy today. I know i am contradictory.


so what about you?



read my FALLOPIATIONS [link] - my dA journal entries concentrated on social commentary.

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Lightning-Thought In reply to flappability [2007-11-02 02:32:12 +0000 UTC]

My philosophy on life is also very complicated. I also go from cold crushing depths to bright balmy heights. And if I worshipped anything, it would be Wisdom. Not knowledge, knowledge is changeable and insubstantial. It is liable to change at a glance from science or self proclaimed power. But wisdom, the capability to see a problem and work it out, the power to find the balm to wounds and conundrums alike. You know that at least officially I am LDS (like claudia), but unnofficially I have serious doubts. Like how African American members of the church were not allowed to have the preisthood until the 70's. Or how the church owns several companies. And the number one doubt, Polygamy. I know that most people would say on principle that it is wrong, but that would just be because they have been taught to think that way by their leaders. The reason I can't stand a church that once practiced polygamy is that professing love for two women seems contradictory to me. I wait with a dizzying anticipation the day I can tell a special woman that I love her, that I want to spend the rest of eternity with her, and make every problem she might have go away. And like diamonds, gold, and money, those words are less valuable if there are more of them. I am a helpless romantic, and the thought of cheapening something so precious apalls me. And I also share a love of nature. I love all nature, but my father has imparted a love of a certain type of nature. Wilderness. The places where "The mountains are nameless, and the rivers run god knows where. Where there are lives that are erring and aimless, and deaths that just hang by a hair" (Robert Service-Spell of the Yukon). I love the harsh, unaplologetic, and untamed beauty of Idaho, Montana, The Rockies, and especially the Middle Fork of the Salmon River. It is sacred to me, a place where the noise that lives in daily "civilized" life and my head fade away into serenity. But the cruelty of it all is my health. As you saw at the Choir concert, I am not in the best of shape. That is due not only to my fear of being outside (the hallucinations don't come inside), but my poor health. Every day I go to class I have to hack up the unrelenting evil that pervades my being. And when I take a day off for being sick, it takes something monstrous. Because if I stayed home each time I grew sick, I would only be at school 3 days a month. And something monstrous always comes, like clockwork. As soon as I am back on my feet I am knocked right back down into the dull suffocating hell of infirmity. If there was a single one of my many problems that defined me, this would be it. More than the PDD NOS, the depression, the anxiety disorder, the hallucinations, the OCD, and the self hate. And I have reached the reality that there is no hope you do not fashion yourself, and that nothing worthwhile is easy.

Your fear of death, I think I have some words that may help. This is not about religion but serenity and peace. Have you ever seen the movie "The Fountain"? I think that movie (aside from exciting you as an artist) has a message that will help you find peace. And I sincerely hope that you do find peace.

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flappability In reply to Lightning-Thought [2007-11-11 08:16:28 +0000 UTC]

thank you for your words.
i wish the best for you too.


hopeless romantics.. ahaha, one of my friends - mariel in particular was goign to start Hopeless Romantic Society in Sammamish ... but we both come up with lame excuses.. hahaha. Even if it would label us as losers forever, we thought it would be appropriate! a shelter for all hopeless romantic students alike! love poetry slams. sappy love movies.. yeahh...

maybe.. one day. xD


at one point i decided that i will not take life too seriously or i will never get out alive.

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Lightning-Thought In reply to flappability [2007-11-12 00:53:51 +0000 UTC]

"Only foolish people claim to take themselves with serious aim" Robert Service (who else?)

Yeah, a hopeless romantic society would probaly fail because those who are hopeless romantics are probably embarassed about it. I find the way our society constantly values romance (whether in a movie, book, or song) yet people are still embarassed about being romantic. Of course, romance is also overrated. While I think my life would not be complete without a romantic dinner, walk in the park, or other things like that, I also realize that stability, responsibility, and companionship within a relationship are also paramount. Far too often these things are swept aside in favor of bright fleeting encounters that do not heal, sustain, or create anything lasting. I just hope (perhaps unrealistically) that I can find both romance and responsiblity in a relationship.

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flappability In reply to Lightning-Thought [2007-11-12 03:18:45 +0000 UTC]

you describe the reality of relationships very well.

though some people may be embarassed about being romantic, at the same time I have witnessed people who are incredibly chill and not ever embarassed. romance has become an accustomed part of their life.

i think the embarassment mostly comes with the selfconciousness of youth, and its something that people eventually grow out of.

and what you say about romance and responsibility is definately spot on. I am kind of going out with a guy right now, and it is quite an awkward situation as we are both new to this, but currently the aspect of communication is almost absent. communication is the basis of all relationships, alongside with romance and responsibility. what is rare is to find one with all three.

anyways, good luck in your love-limbed adventure. if you find the person with the right personality, all three aspects will exist.

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Lightning-Thought In reply to flappability [2007-11-13 02:25:16 +0000 UTC]

I'm not sure if you know this or not, but you just basically described the "triangular theory of love." It states that there are three elements of each relationship, intimacy (communication and the sharing of souls), passion, and commitment. Granted anything (especially anything as complex and wonderful as love) can't be completely explained by charts and theories, but there is still some value in it.

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flappability In reply to Lightning-Thought [2007-11-23 21:01:18 +0000 UTC]

well now i know.

and yeah, of course love cannot be explained in charts and theories, i whole heartedly agree with you.

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