LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame In reply to Crashing-Hurricane [2017-02-10 02:24:17 +0000 UTC]

   About ready to begin stirring on her own, Freya smiled at her cheek being rubbed sweetly. Had she not spent over a year with her brothers waking her gently, she might have just opened her eyes and screamed. Instead, her pale arms stretched across the bed. That was when she noticed whoever was waking her was in bed with her and not standing on the side.
   Blue eyes opening slowly, she finally let out a squeak and scrambled to grab the wrinkled bedsheets to pull over her head when she caught a fuzzy glimpse of a face she thought she knew. "Rousseau?? What have we done?? How could we do this to Crystal??" Sure the whole thing was her fault seeing as she came over already a drunken mess, asking to get more wasted with one of her best friends, she felt and intense blush of shame break out all over her body. "I'm so sorry.." 

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Crashing-Hurricane In reply to LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame [2017-02-10 02:34:34 +0000 UTC]

   "This explains a lot," he laughed, peeling back the bed sheets she was using to hide her face, "You couldn't stop moaning that last night. I do go by Rousseau sometimes, but my twin brother staked his claim on that one first. I won't tell my brother about your secret crush though, because let's be honest.. I'm the sexier of us both." Once Jerome could uncover her eyes, at the least, he flashed her a friendly smile. "I promise I introduced myself to you first, but you were so eager to get my clothes off. And before you have another heart attack, this is my own room here in the hotel. Mmm, happy birthday to me!" 

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LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame In reply to Crashing-Hurricane [2017-02-10 20:09:14 +0000 UTC]

   "Oh God," she weakly muttered, letting the sheet drop to her chest as one hand rubbed her forehead, "I'm so stupid.." Closing her eyes tightly again, she reopened them only to discover she wasn't dreaming. She had actually gotten so angry and so drunk that her ex got married she slept with her friend's twin brother. Sure the extremely handsome man who looked almost like his twin was as nice as his brother was, she tried to make sure she didn't spoil his birthday with her drunken midnight decisions.
   "You're Jerome," she said in much clearer mind, "Rousseau's told me about you.. I just.. Shit.. I didn't know you were in town. Your brother and I usually drink the day between our birthdays, but.. I needed the company last night." Sitting up a little more so she could look around the room for her things, mainly her underwear, she bit down on lower lip. "How much did we drink, love? I've never had a hangover this bad in all my months of partying with Apollo.."

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Crashing-Hurricane In reply to LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame [2017-02-11 18:06:45 +0000 UTC]

   When Freya sat up, so did Jerome. He gave her a little bit of space, which she needed since she clearly had no recollection of the night before. 
   "Honestly, I have no idea how much you had to drink with my brother," he answered with a small laugh as he pushed long dark curls out of his face, "It had to have been a lot. I'm surprised! Amery never seemed the type to get shit faced but I'm so proud of him. Us two, though? We shared a bottle of wine between us.." Jerome licked his lips, tilting his head and flicking his eyebrows up, "..removing items of clothing. Can't you smell it on us? You know, Victor sends Amery and me a fabulous bottle every year, and I've never used my bottle as well as I did last night. It was so good, I can't believe you don't remember anything." Since Jerome already noticed how Freya was looking for her clothing, he pointed it out for her. "Most of it is by the chair we were using in that corner. But please, bella, stay. Use my shower, I can get you a clean change of clothes. You're close with Mrs. Eva, sì? If I asked her for a few things for you, she wouldn't mind right?"

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LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame In reply to Crashing-Hurricane [2017-02-13 20:27:10 +0000 UTC]

   Completely thrown off by his offer, Freya couldn't do anything in that moment but stare into his deep brown eyes. "I-i.. I don't know.. Possibly. She's made me things before."
   Seeing her underwear on the floor between the bed and the chair he pointed out made her sigh deeply with a bright red face. She wanted to believe she wouldn't have sex with a man and black out, but apparently that's exactly what the news of Parker getting married had done to her. Just thinking about it again made her sick and caused the room to spin again. The dizziness was also accompanied by the taste and smell of that famously smooth Magnovska wine special friends and coworkers got as presents. Eva would be proud it was that brand that brought the two together.
   "I suppose there's no harm in showering. Might sober me up a bit, help me remember some more and hopefully make the room stop spinning," Freya said lifting her fluffy head again. While she was ashamed and very self conscious about her body since her ex rejected her, she didn't want to make Jerome feel bad for what they had done together. From what she had heard from his brother and already experienced that morning, she knew he was a very sweet and didn't want to ruin his birthday by running off. If he wanted her to stay for a little while, she wasn't completely opposed to getting to know the man she had apparently slept with.
   "Thank you for the sweet wake up, love. We'll talk more when I get back?" Sitting up more to gently kiss Jerome's cheek, she gave him a crooked smile before slipping off the bed to go to the bathroom wrapped up in the sheet they were both in moments before. "And tell Eva not to get any fancy ideas! I just need something comfy to get me home in."

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Crashing-Hurricane In reply to LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame [2017-02-14 02:07:24 +0000 UTC]

   "I look forward to our conversation," Jerome said with a wide smile at her, "And you know, bella, you look incredible with that homemade sheet dress of yours. Vorrei mettere in un dipinto. Sei un capolavoro." When he spoke Italian, he used a far deeper voice than it naturally was; he was using a mixture of his abilities as well as his natural charm to compliment his lover. "I'll see you when you return, and I'll make sure I'm dressed too."
   He winked at her, ruffling up some of his dark curls as he stretched out a little seductively on the bed. While Freya covered herself up, Jerome had no shame in showing off his body. 

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LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame In reply to Crashing-Hurricane [2017-02-16 18:05:14 +0000 UTC]

   While she had a very basic knowledge of Italian, she could only understand and not respond back to her lover. Charmed, however, she quickly broke out in a fierce blush all over her body as she walked quickly to the bathroom and closed the door. Taking a moment to look in the mirror, she couldn't understand how Jerome or any person felt she was masterpiece worthy in the state she was in. Mascara a mess, running down her cheeks and blotchy as all hell, she grabbed a wash cloth to fix her face before anything else. Wiping off the makeup from the night before, she leaned into the sink to get closer and closer to the mirror. 
   Before jumping in the shower though, she just wanted to know what exactly the twin was attracted to. Opening the bed sheet slowly, she dropped it to her ankles and looked at her own naked body in the mirror with squinted eyes of scrutiny. Many things could be improved in her mind, but the one thing she loved over everything else was her tattoo that ran down her left arm. "Fear is the mind-killer," she reminded herself, "You're not broken. You cannot give up. You need to fight for the peace in your mind, Freya."
   Letting go of her fear of being rejected again, she turned away from her reflexion and stepped into the shower. Letting the hot water fall over her body and untangle the knots in her muscles, she tried her best to remember as much as she could from the night before.
   As soon as she got the message from Jerome, Eva was excited beyond all belief. She knew her friend would on day move on and find someone besides her ex, but she never pushed the issue. Eva knew it was only a matter of time before she found someone new to love and obsess over as much as she did Parker. Several options placed in a garment bag over her tiny arm, the other hand rapped on the door a few times. "Moreau delivery service," she said with a cheerful voice on the other side of the door.

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Crashing-Hurricane In reply to LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame [2017-02-17 18:54:19 +0000 UTC]

   Jerome answered the door with a smile, mostly dressed in new clothes. He at least put pants on, but decided to wear a jacket with his bare chest instead. He had groomed his hair too, only enough to make it look good before he stopped. Jerome liked the put-together-messy-great-sex look.
   "Salve!" he greeted happily, tucking a curl behind his ear, "Thank you for helping out Mrs. Eva, it would've been a shame to send that beautiful woman home with her clothes a mess. Makes me love you and Victor more for putting washers and dryers up here." Jerome took the clothes from Eva, leaning against the doorway, "Do you think she'd let me take her to your cafe for breakfast? Or do you think I should get room service? She's a little jumpy, I don't think she's used to a Rousseau."

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LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame In reply to Crashing-Hurricane [2017-02-21 07:05:21 +0000 UTC]

   "I'll send up her favorite things as soon as I get to my office," Eva immediately offered as she handed over the garment bags for both Freya and Jerome, "Your birthday present is in one of those bags, Sweetie. She's got some options too, but if I know her she'll pick that.. interesting sweater Dimitri knit. And with all the attention she'd been getting lately in the club scene, I just know she'd feel more comfortable here with you than downstairs. Just send me your order and I'll forward it along to Bex and have it come around soon." Knowing she needed to act fast in order to play match maker perfectly, she leaned in to kiss both of Jerome's cheeks before running back upstairs. "Tanti auguri a te mio caro amico," she said stepping back towards the elevators slowly in her high heels, "And set up test shots with Max or Freya if you want to model a little on the side, huh?! You look good in that jacket and I need a handsome Rousseau in fashion like my husband has one in hotels~ Good luck with her Jerome! Proud of you!"
   Unaware of the conversation ending at the door, Freya let the hot water soothe her into comfort. She was already warmer than the normal human thanks to her werewolf genes, so it took water hot enough it turned her pale white skin pink in seconds. Feeling better and better as the alcohol evaporated from her system, she even started to hum and sing while moving her long blonde hair around in the water. "Boy you draw me back innn.. I'm hungry for your baaad lovinnnn.. But will someone find me swiiiiingiiiiiing from the raaaaafteeeeers.. From hanging on your eveeerrry wooord.."

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Crashing-Hurricane In reply to LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame [2017-02-21 19:05:42 +0000 UTC]

   "Arrivederci! Grazie per il consiglio!" Jerome called back to her, seriously considering the modeling position as he stepped back inside. Other than performing at that popular bar he heard about in the area, modeling would be a great way to make extra cash. Jerome certainly wasn't short on it, but it'd be honest work. Closing the door behind him, he set the bags down on the bed and considered digging around in them when he heard Freya's voice. Hurrying up to the bathroom door, Jerome leaned in to listen to her incredible voice. Pressing his hand over his heart, he let out a soft sigh. Eventually stepping away from the door again, Jerome did as Eva said and put in his room service order. With nothing else left to do for now, he grabbed one of the bags and started pulling things out of it. He was definitely interested in the kind of gift Eva gave him. 

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LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame In reply to Crashing-Hurricane [2017-02-22 03:12:49 +0000 UTC]

   Trying not to stay in too long and use up all the hot water, Freya stepped out once she felt better and wrapped her body in a plush white towel that the hotel offered every room. Going back to the mirror that was now completely fogged up from her shower, she used one hand to wipe a wide circle clear so she could check herself out again. For some reason, completely unknown to herself, she felt sexier and more confident than when she first looked at her figure in the mirror. Maybe it was the way her makeup from the night before was now neatly smudged or the way her wet ringlets reset after being a frizzy mess of bedhead, or perhaps it was Jerome's silver tongue that made her feel that way. Either way, she decided to make the best of her situation and walk out of the bathroom with her towel wrapped around her body and tucked in by one arm pit instead of grabbing the robe on the back of the door.
   After tossing her wet hair from side to side to style it a little more, she puckered her lips and exited the bathroom slowly. "Did Eva come with clothes," Freya asked sweetly, looking up at Jerome through her wet hair before trying to tuck some of it behind an ear. "S'all right if she didn't yet," she said staying near the door so she didn't leave a trail of little droplets behind her, "I don't mind hanging around like this until then. You've obviously already seen me naked from last night, so I see no need in being modest around each other now."

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Crashing-Hurricane In reply to LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame [2017-02-22 04:39:28 +0000 UTC]

   Once again distracted by Freya, he turned away from the bags with a big smile. His eyes looking her up and down, he bit down on his lip as he approached her slowly. Jerome's eyes were dark with desire as some of his own curls fell into his face. "È donna sexy.." Jerome murmured, grabbing her hips as he pulled her in for a surprise kiss. "I almost wish she hadn't brought them up already, so I could worship you in this form." Raising a singular eyebrow, Jerome turned Freya so he could press her up against the door frame and kiss her damp neck. "What do you say, bella? Maybe we can get to know each other again before you get back into your clothes? Wouldn't that be fun?" Jerome squeezed her hips, pulling gently at the plush towel wrapped around her body. 

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LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame In reply to Crashing-Hurricane [2017-02-22 08:51:48 +0000 UTC]

   As if all the Italian and passion filled surprise kisses were not enough to do her in, Freya knew she was fucked the moment he kissed her neck while pressing her between his hips and the door frame. Pushing her butt out to tease Jerome back and encourage the behavior even more, she let out a deep breath rather quickly as she leaned into him more. As her towel fell before she planned it to, leaving her naked once more, she let out the tiniest of surprised squeaks.
   "It is your birthday after all, Love. Who am I to deny you a bit more fun on your day," she breathed out, taking one of his hands and putting it right on her chest to pull her body into his more. "I'll let you play with me if you promise it will be a fair game between the two of us.." She didn't want Jerome to ever take his hands off her body, deciding he could make love to her now that she was sober and would remember the way he made her feel. Besides it feeling good to have a man's adoring hands on her again, she couldn't even compare it to how her ex held her. Never during the one time were they together could she remember trembling with anticipation as she was for the moment her new love would pick her up and throw her back onto the bed they shared the night before. 

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LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame In reply to The-Reverse-Drug [2016-03-01 05:35:27 +0000 UTC]

   Buried in half open boxes and packing supplies thrown all around her new home, she almost dismissed the sound coming from her transmitter. Then she stopped dead in the middle of her process when she realized exactly what sound came from her transmitter. It was Parker's laugh. A small sound bit she had recorded at the beginning of their relationship, but had long since forgotten it was used as his personal notification tone. It had been that long since her boyfriend tried to contact her. She had almost completely forgotten his unique and amazing laugh. Her heart skipping more than a few beats, she stood up slowly and crossed the room to pick up her transmitter. Upon seeing it really was a message from the man she loved with all her heart, her eyes filled with tears before she could even begin reading what the message said. "It's a-about time.. you.. you great big sod," she said to herself and only herself in the empty family home she had bought with every intention of filling it with Parker and kids in the future. With shaking hands, she carefully sent him back a message. -'It's alright, Darling. I'm nothing if not patient with all things considered in our busy lives. Still haven't gotten around to driving lessons though.. I'll see if Eva or one of me workmates can drive me out. If not I'll use a service or just simply run to you as fast as I can. See you soon, Love.'-
   After making sure her message was sent, she immediately ran to the master bedroom and began pulling clothes from boxes. The only time she stopped searching for the perfect outfit was to send all of her nearby friends an urgent message and let them know she needed a ride. While she was getting ready, Eva was already throwing her hair into a messy bun and running to her Fiat to race to her rescue.

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The-Reverse-Drug In reply to LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame [2016-03-28 23:52:30 +0000 UTC]

   Parker read Freya's message with another sigh, guessing that she was hopeful for the both of them when that was farther from the truth. Instead of looking at his transmitter, he tossed it behind him and heard it land somewhere in the backseat and bounced off into the floorboards. After a while, Parker had stopped using his transmitter as frequently as he used to. He received messages from his girlfriend, as well as friends, that he didn't always like to see. His brother was especially insistent, for G had been the one to encourage the both of them to stay together. Parker had simply grown distant from everyone, so he didn't care to have his transmitter around all that often. While he had the silence of the afternoon, he considered what he would say and how he would phrase it all. It wasn't going to be easy, but it had to be done. 

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LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame In reply to The-Reverse-Drug [2016-04-08 02:23:09 +0000 UTC]

   In as much of a rush as she could be, Freya hurried downstairs and met Eva right outside the lobby. She did send Parker a message letting him know she was on her way, but it didn't matter if he saw it. The random parking lot where he had decided to pull over was far enough for him to be expecting a wait.
   While they drove to Parker the two girls talked, but Eva was trying desperately to keep from encouraging Freya or getting her too excited. To her fashionista eyes, her friend looked adorable and flawless in her outfit and natural makeup. "That's him, right?" she asked as they spotted him up ahead just leaning on his red sports car. 
   Stunned practically speechless, Freya just looked at her hands in her lap and tried not to get too nervous. "I'd know those tattoos anywhere," Freya commented without remarking on how much bigger her boy friend seemed to have gotten, "He's just been working out is all. Nothing wrong with that." Just to thank her friend, she leaned over and quickly kissed Eva's cheek. "Go on and go, leave me here alone. I know he'd never hurt me."
   The protective mercenary in her wanted to just pull down the street and watch, but Eva had to trust her friend to know the man she loved. "He better not," was all she managed to tell her friend before the fiat door closed and left her alone in the car. 
   After waiting for Eva to drive off Freya finally turned and gave Parker a nervous, but happy, smile. It took a lot of restraint, but she could tell just from her boy friend's eyes, body language and aura that this was not an occasion to run and jump into his chest and arms like she normally would have; before the near 5 months of silence on his end. "Ello, darling, "she said trying her hardest not to seem as nervous as she actually was, "I've missed you.."

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The-Reverse-Drug In reply to LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame [2016-04-08 21:16:39 +0000 UTC]

   "Yeah.." Parker replied while rubbing the back of his neck, glancing over at her a little shamefully, "I know, sorry. I hope that doesn't sound disingenuous or anything, I really mean my apology. The way I've been acting is obviously fucked up and I know I've been avoiding everyone. Nobody deserves that kind treatment but especially not you Freya. I know why I've been doing it to and shit.." Dropping his hand, Parker sighed quietly as he still struggled for words. "I think it's time to say goodbye. You're on your own, but.. Guess you've been on your own for a while. Turning back is what I hate the most, it doesn't matter anyway. I'm sorry, my heart's to blame." Parker stood straight, taking a few steps away but turning to look at Freya with a frown. He felt as though he might have been far too abrupt and he still worried about her. "Do you think you'll be okay..? I know your ride left a minute ago.."

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LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame In reply to The-Reverse-Drug [2016-04-09 00:48:46 +0000 UTC]

   Seeing it all happen so quickly before her eyes was just like witnessing a building collapse on weekday with no notice or reason. Everything just crumbled right in front of her eyes and there was nothing she could do, but begin to cry giant angry tears. "You.. You asshole! You.. I've been.. defending you!! ALL THIS TIME PARKER?!" Feeling a rush of emotion, Freya dropped her purse where she stood on the sidewalk and charged forward. It didn't matter how much Parker had been working out or how big and intimidating he looked, Freya was unafraid of the display; She was a Moth afterall. Placing both hands on his chest and making physical contact for the first time in months, she pushed the rock hard figure as hard as she could without using any magic at all. Her intention was not to hurt Parker or get into a physical altercation, it was just the only way she knew how to get her point across to him. Her mother used a newspaper, all Freya had was her tiny trembling fist. "No! I will not be okay Parker Warren! You've ruined me! All this fucking time and they were all right!" Fist still hitting his chest, growing softer as she went on due to her body succumbing to the inevitable depression and letting go of the rage, they stopped only to grasp at his tight shirt. "You went straight for the knife this time," she said desperately as her entire body trembled with a burning desire, "I put on my best dress, I wanted to impress.. I put a little make-up on.. Put a bow in my hair, wore pretty underwear.. Hoping you might take it off.." Knowing that sex alone would not be enough to lure him back again, she shook her head of bright blonde curls. Deciding to just be honest and tell the man she still loved everything she had wished to in his absence, Freya just looked up at him with her big sad blue eyes for a painful moment before speaking again. "Everyone told me I was stupid, but I did it anyway.. I quit my job at the hotel and blew all our savings on a house.. For us.. I know working as much as I used to was a problem, but it's not a problem anymore Parker.. I was hoping by just giving you time and not sending you letters and texts that you'd come around and I could tell you that eventually.. I wanted you to move back in with me, because.. I'm so damn tired of being on my own.. You had me cooking dinners for your brother, looking at wedding magazines and dreaming of having you children. You looked me straight in the eye last April and turned the gas on high when you came back.. Held the flame alight! You wonder why I'm scared of fire? You wonder why you make girls cry?" Losing her composure, and fully aware of it, she let go of Parker's shirt and took a few steps back into the street. "You shot me up.. You filled my cup, sailed my boat; You were my last hope.. You took my very last hope away, Parker.. At least you will always be loved by someone good.. And you have been so loved.. despite everything I know that what I feel is love for you.." Seeing it as a last ditch effort for the future she so badly wanted and worked for, Freya dried her eyes and tried her best to calm down before offering him one last chance to not throw them away. "If you were the hero, I'd take a bullet for you.. So take me in your arms, take me for all I have.. Cause I'd give my life for one of your belly laughs.. A fucking bullet right in me 'eart, Parker! How many would you take? 'Cos for you I'd take one million, babe.."

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The-Reverse-Drug In reply to LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame [2016-08-25 04:24:28 +0000 UTC]

   Parker was actually a little surprised that Freya lashed out the way she did, but he accepted it nonetheless. He turned more towards her, watching her with his own sad eyes. He thought about holding her, or grabbing her. Something to get her to stop, to get her to relax. That was long gone though and the more she spoke, the more petrified he became. Breaking it off was clearly the best move, because he couldn't stand the idea of a house with her. He was scared of a family with her, of settling down. Of settling. Parker knew he was unhappy, whatever the reason behind it may be. "I feel like I already knew all this," Parker admitted, taking a step back, "Deep down I knew this was going to happen. I knew I was taking in a nice girl and hurting her. I've never had a relationship work and I don't know why I thought I could make this one work. You shouldn't love me Freya. And hopefully, you'll learn to forget that love. I hope you never love me another day of your life. Because I wouldn't take a bullet for you and I know it."

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LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame In reply to The-Reverse-Drug [2015-04-21 22:31:56 +0000 UTC]

It had been a long day for Freya and Nance was the first to see the writing on the wall. Now that she was living at the hotel too, she saw Freya more often and that was both good and bad. Nance loved the morning shift and being in the kitchen when Eva set out the menu, but their boss had yet to return from France; her first worry. He second was that she could swear she had seen Freya in the lobby 24/7 for the past few days. It was clear she wasn't eating, sleeping or going upstairs anymore. Not only that, but she could tell there was a huge chunk of her friend's hair missing on the left side of her head. At the end of her shift, she walked out of the cafe and saw Freya leaning against the wall behind the front desk just looking up at the chandelier. Not a light in her eyes.. Worried, Nance quickly found the new hotel manager and convinced him to let her take Freya upstairs so she could be bathed, fed and looked after for the night. She never really said a word, but Nance didn't need an explanation. She could tell by the empty apartment what had happened and why her friend was avoiding going up there.
While Freya sat at the bottom of her shower and just let the hot water run over her, Nance did her best to tidy up, ordered a light dinner to be brought up and tried to pick through the luggage that was never unpacked for clean pajamas to lay on the sink. In time the bed would finally be made and Freya could just walk out of her shower and go right to it. Nance left behind a note on what was Parker's pillow saying she was only three floors down and laid her room key next to it. However, as soon as Nance was back in her room she immediately called Eva in France and told her that she needed to come home. She really didn't want to panic her boss, so she left out major details; she just explained that she was worried about their friend being alone for too much longer.
The short time alone didn't help Freya at all, but she did as Nance asked and dressed. After looking at herself in the mirror and running her fingers through the short hairs on her shaved left side for a while, she decided it was time to be 'pretty' again put on a little mascara before noticing the old bottle of Better Living pills in her cabinet. 'Maybe the solution was here all along,' she thought as she took the bottle in her hands and went to pick off the plates of food on the table. It all tasted bland and nothing was worth nibbling on twice, so she decided to just go lay in bed with her transmitter and the bottle of pills. The little note and room key made Freya smile slightly, but she put them on the bed side table to cuddle up with the pillowcase that was still slightly stained red from his hair dye. Just as she started listening to old transmissions, Eva began calling.. Freya would deny the call and go back to Parker's voice over and over again until she finally decided she had it. She was going to shut her transmitter off, but that's when it made the sound she had been waiting for.. Her eyes watered and her heart began to beat out of her chest from just those four words. The pills were the first thing she let go of as she scrambled out of bed, but the transmitter with those four words.. his four words was glued in her hand. It had been several days since her last sleep and every time she denied Eva's call she needed to go back to it just to make sure she didn't hallucinate it from lack of sleep. She was thankful Nance set out the light pink satin top and matching little shorts her mother gave her in England. They were new and couldn't be from a memory that she was thinking of as she paced the slowly moving elevator barefoot. One more ignored call.. One more floor.. Check to make sure she was awake.. Waiting.. Agony.. 
Finally the elevator doors opened and she was free to run through the lobby and out the front doors where she froze. "Parker.." He did look different, even to her. His physical appearance was not off to her in the least, he was still the man she loved.. but there was something about his aura that was off to her. Still it didn't matter, she needed to touch him and make sure he was real this time. Her hand let go of her transmitter as another call from Eva was coming in so it could rest over her heart. The other reached out for him, scared to close the distant just to find out she fell asleep upstairs and was dreaming again.

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The-Reverse-Drug In reply to LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame [2015-04-22 01:23:25 +0000 UTC]

Her voice caught his attention and he stood straight with his eyes softening. It had been such a long time since he had seen her, and she looked stunning still.. Even more with the way her hair was. "Freya.." Parker answered back, nervous about doing anything at all. There was a piece of him that wanted to take her into his arms and hold her close, smell her scent and feel her soft skin; however, there was another piece of him that still hurt and still feared for her rejection of what he had done. There were still so many little things that bothered him, so many little things that whispered and taunted him enough to make him hesitant. 

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LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame In reply to The-Reverse-Drug [2015-04-22 01:40:01 +0000 UTC]

She couldn't hold back anymore and just stand there with the vision of Parker in front of her. As if it was second nature, she broke into a run again and jumped into his arms like she use to when he would come home from work. In her mind, he was as good as home and she was not going to let him leave again. It didn't matter that it was past midnight and out front of her place of work, Freya missed him and she didn't care if anyone saw her with her arms and legs wrapped around the man she still loved. As she held on to him for dear life and felt his warm chest against hers, she started to cry again. "Please hold me.. Hold me and never let go.. I was stupid and I'm so sorry Parker. Please! Please, forgive me!"

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The-Reverse-Drug In reply to LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame [2015-04-22 02:33:02 +0000 UTC]

Parker's heart was struck at her words as he tightly wrapped his arms around her body, unable to deny her in any way. He held her close, taking in heavy breaths as he himself tried not to cry. "Okay Freya, okay.." He eventually managed, swallowing hard, "I'm sorry.. I am, I know I hurt you too and I didn't mean that.." Parker brought a hand to the back of her head, gently scratching it as he got familiar with its sweet soft feeling he had longed to know again. He lifted his head, kissing her forehead sweetly like he always did. 

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LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame In reply to The-Reverse-Drug [2015-04-22 02:57:07 +0000 UTC]

Her tears of sadness quickly turned into tears of relief and then to joy when she could feel his arms around her and hear his voice in her ear. The most precious gift of all was feeling warm lips against her forehead. She felt so stupid and humiliated now that she knew she was moments away from taking pills that wouldn't have let her feel all of the happiness after feeling so much pain. "It doesn't matter.. None of it does. You're home now.. I can feel you and smell you again.. My heart can beat again." Even with the night breeze still being a little chilly, she found herself oddly warm and comfortable where she was. "I love you Parker.. I never stopped, I promise."

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The-Reverse-Drug In reply to LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame [2015-04-22 03:22:50 +0000 UTC]

"I love you too.." He said, his voice sincere and gentle, "I couldn't have stopped even if I tried.." Parker couldn't feel the things he had been feeling earlier, the doubtful side of it all-- not while he had her so close. He just sat against his car, getting used to it all again. Just knowing the way he had made her feel, even a little bit, tore him up. He felt guilty, but still he couldn't let go. "Freya.." He eventually began, "I've done somethin'.. It was stupid, but all I could do was think about how I needed to be stronger for you.."

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LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame In reply to The-Reverse-Drug [2015-04-22 03:58:51 +0000 UTC]

Finally a little bit of reality hit her again and she realized that she had things to tell her beloved as well, "We both did very stupid things without each other." She didn't want to let him go or be let go, but she knew they had a lot of talking to do. "It's best we don't do it out here," she said softly into his ear as he finally released her arms and legs from around him. "We don't have to go up to the room if you want. We can talk in my office if you'd like that better.. or go for a ride. Just.. not here with the valets listening?"

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The-Reverse-Drug In reply to LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame [2015-04-22 04:19:25 +0000 UTC]

"Hey!" He called to one of the valets, "Can you park this in my spot?" He asked as he tossed the keys to the guy. Parker grabbed her hand, heading for the doors, "It's okay if we go to the room. I spent a lot of time thinking there anyways." He wondered what she had done while he was gone, if it was even close to how stupid he had acted. When they were waiting for the elevator, he looked at her again in the light of the chandelier. He thought about saying something, but kept quiet. 

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LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame In reply to The-Reverse-Drug [2015-04-22 05:13:13 +0000 UTC]

She didn't know why she was so nervous holding his hand again, but there was still so much to talk about. Freya knew Parker never wanted her to trigger her werewolf curse, but she feared telling him that she took up another family quality while separated. Going up in the elevator was just as long and agonizing as going down was. There was so much to say to each other and even now in the little marble box she couldn't think of where to start. The only thing she really worried about was Parker seeing the empty art studio and missing piano when they finally got back to their room together and she closed the door behind them. 

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The-Reverse-Drug In reply to LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame [2015-04-22 05:19:28 +0000 UTC]

Parker still really didn't say anything, and he didn't really say anything about the room either. He let go of her hand, strolling in more while rubbing his tattooed hands together in thought. "Freya.. You know how you're a dormant wolf..? Well, I am.. was, a dormant.. mutant, I guess you could say. And," he turned, looking at her in nervousness, "I triggered some of my abilities.." Parker was amazed he was even able to get that much out, but he wasn't sure if he could admit the second half of that story. 

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LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame In reply to The-Reverse-Drug [2015-04-22 20:49:34 +0000 UTC]

"An augment?" Her mind was reeling and thinking of everything from what he had to do to trigger his abilities to what some of Kai's old dusty books would say to help him if he wanted it. "Reese told me you did something, but I didn't press him for what." She took his hand again, slowly leading him over to the table that still had plates of food Nance set out. For a moment she thought of going out on the balcony, but that was the last place she had seen Parker and didn't want to go there again for another last. "Parker.. What happened after I left? I can tell you're.. different. Not a bad different even, just.. new."

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The-Reverse-Drug In reply to LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame [2015-04-23 00:16:46 +0000 UTC]

He sat in silence for a while, trying to think of the right way to explain himself and coming up with nothing. So he just went ahead and spoke the truth. "I went to the guy who runs F.E.A.R., and go figure-- that guy is fuckin' nuts. I told him I wanted to be stronger for you and he said he could make that happen.. So he did somethin' fucked up to me, and I'm not sure what exactly to this day but.." Parker took one of his hands, lifting it up and playing with a flame in his hand, "I can do this now."

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LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame In reply to The-Reverse-Drug [2015-04-23 00:57:27 +0000 UTC]

Freya gasped lightly as she looked at the dancing flame in his hand. That's the moment she decided for sure that she was dreaming. Parker wasn't really there in front of her with fire coming from no where. Of course this was a dream, why else did it start in bed and be going as it was. Not to mention the days before she had spent guzzling caffeine to avoid sleep and this very situation. This was her mind playing tricks on her, she was sure of it. Freya felt that if she couldn't have her love back in real life that she was at least going to enjoy the dream while it lasted. Ignore the fire, ignore the pain. "It's okay, Parker," she said with a teary eyed smile and cracking voice, "As long as you're okay and here now. That's all that matters to me. I've wanted to see you since the moment I came home."

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The-Reverse-Drug In reply to LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame [2015-04-23 01:26:29 +0000 UTC]

Parker was stunned, needlessly to say. Her reaction was far from anything he would have imagined and he sat in shock. Closing his hand and killing the flame, he stared at her in slight concern. "I'm.. I'm really glad you're okay with that.. I was so afraid you were going to reject me. I wanted to be stronger for you, but then I thought about the way you would think of me afterwards and it killed me. I'm still sorry, I'm sorry for it all. I wrote Stay Away because I feared the shit I had done to myself, and I didn't want you to see that but.. It was a warning to that fucker Casimir. Turns out the things down in that division don't like my fire so.. I've got that goin' for me." Parker gestured towards her, taking a deep breath, "What was it that you did, without me?"

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LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame In reply to The-Reverse-Drug [2015-04-23 03:26:08 +0000 UTC]

Positively delirious and focused only on avoiding any topic that could make the dream end or turn sour, she reached up and just ran her finger tips through her shaved side. "Well I cut my hair.. and sold the piano. I've not been working downstairs as much.. Feels better to be at the art cafe that opened up downtown." She struggled to tell him about what happened in London.. About her training with Kai that she had been doing once a week, but if he had fire abilities in this dream there was no way he could look down on her kind. "I've also decided to pick up where me Aunt left off and practice magic. I have a friend that came home with me and he is teaching me." She gave him a small smile with a very slow sleepy blink; craving to feel his touch again, "So it'll be okay, right? You'll stay for the night at least? I don't want to be alone again.."

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The-Reverse-Drug In reply to LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame [2015-04-23 03:47:27 +0000 UTC]

"Sure I'll stay for a night.." He said, noticing how tired Freya actually looked. "How much sleep have you had beautiful?" Parker asked, leaning forward and looking her over more. He pang struck his heart and again he was feeling guilty. He must have drove her to sleepless nights too. "I don't anything you've done, I support you figuring out your powers more.. But I really think you should get some sleep right now." Parker stood, taking her hands and coaxing her to follow him, "I think you could really use it."

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LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame In reply to The-Reverse-Drug [2015-04-23 05:05:28 +0000 UTC]

"You called me beautiful again.. Hmmm.." Her little smile was still there until she realized he was trying to take her back to the bed, "No! I'm not ready! I don't want to wake up alone.. I've only just got you back, Parker. Please, don't make me fall asleep just yet. I always wake up when I crawl into bed." She almost pulled her hands back, but instead she just tightened her grip, holding on to him for dear life again. "I'm not ready to wake up alone again.. Please.."

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The-Reverse-Drug In reply to LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame [2015-04-23 05:12:34 +0000 UTC]

Parker looked at her in confusion, wondering if she thought this was all a dream instead. That got him wondering about what she really thought about his change. "What..? I'm not gonna leave you, I couldn't do that. I'll just sleep in my t-shirt and boxers, no big deal.." He glanced down at his chest, realizing he might actually have to use it to convince her, "Or I'll just take my shirt off, like always. You can run your fingers over my tattoos until you fall asleep and I promise they'll still be there for you to trace in the morning." 

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LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame In reply to The-Reverse-Drug [2015-04-23 23:15:16 +0000 UTC]

She looked away, almost in a slight panic as she knew this was a fight she was going to lose. As she stood up, still holding on to his tattooed hands tightly, her body protested in exhaustion. Everything hurt at this point and she was in fear of going around the little half wall that separated the table and their pillows. Without a doubt, the second she laid down she was going to either cry or fall asleep. "I'll keep my glass full until morning light.." Eventually she was able to nod as she sniffled back tears, finally letting go of his hands to go over to his side of the bed. She crawled in under the covers, looking back at him once with tears in her eyes. Out of habit at this point, she turned his pillow stained with red dye around to pull into her chest until her dream Parker offered her something else..

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The-Reverse-Drug In reply to LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame [2015-04-24 01:44:51 +0000 UTC]

He watched her with deeply sad brown eyes, taking his leather jacket off first. At this point he was convinced that she thought this was all a dream. Parker quickly removed his nice pointed shoes, then his pants and then his shirt. For a second there, it all felt like things were back to normal. He slipped into the bed, pulling her close, "Freya I'm here." Parker cuddled her against his chest, kissing the back of her shoulder to help comfort her. 

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LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame In reply to The-Reverse-Drug [2015-04-24 04:24:40 +0000 UTC]

"I'm just holding on for tonight," was the last thing she was able to murmur before sleep finally took her with her eyes fixed on the old bottle of Better Living pills just as a warm tattooed arm pulled her in. Freya really did need the rest and dreamed even more of Parker once her eyes were shut, but he never left these scenes and flashes of memories. He never walked out or became silent.. He laughed when she saw her in her dress and they get married; cried when he was handed their first born child. It all seemed so real to her, like a hopeful premonition of the way she thought her life was going to be one day with him. But that was a dream and the sun was starting to come up..
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When the sunlight finally started to shine in the room a few hours later and one beam found its way right into her eyes, she slowly started to open them and notice how warm she was under the blankets. It must have been the reason she was so relaxed and not as tense that morning she thought to herself. Just to get the sun out of her eyes, she rolled over finally and tucked herself into Parker's chest. It took her a few seconds to realize her cheek was pressed up against warm, tattooed skin and a real beating heart. Freya gasped again, sitting up quickly and putting both hands on his chest, "PARKER?! You were here! You really did come home last night!" It didn't matter if he was just startled awake by her excited screaming, she instantly fell back into his chest and began kissing the brightly colored owl just to make sure he was real and she was actually awake. That's when she started remembering what they were talking about in her dream and she stopped giggling and kissing as she started to wonder how much of the night before was real and not..

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The-Reverse-Drug In reply to LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame [2015-04-24 06:22:39 +0000 UTC]

Parker woke up with a start, but it wasn't entirely unwelcome. He was just surprised and groggy when her words got through to him. "Oh, uh, yeah.." he yawned, sitting up slightly with slightly squinted eyes, "You looked really sad and I couldn't leave ya like that. Plus.." Parker shrugged slightly, pushing thick, messy black hair out of his face, "I missed holdin' ya like that. Probably haven't slept that good since our fight." He was starting to see clearly and he sat up even more, "How are you feelin' beautiful?" 

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LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame In reply to The-Reverse-Drug [2015-04-24 07:44:22 +0000 UTC]

"Better, I promise. I thought I was dreaming last night is all.." She sat up with him and turned her head to kiss right over his heart once more, holding her lips there for a moment just because she could. "I'm sorry I worried you, Park. It had been a while since I wanted to come up here.. Nance finally made me before you told me to go downstairs." That's when she remembered the pills and looked over to spot them still on the edge; she'd make sure to flush them first thing out of bed. She kept close to him, taking his hand with the rose tattoo to hold in both of hers and trace the lines. "So.. everything last night was real? The fire too?"

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The-Reverse-Drug In reply to LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame [2015-04-24 07:52:03 +0000 UTC]

"Yeah, the fire too," he admitted, watching her carefully, "I was thinkin' you were acting funny last night and I was afraid when you realized it was real that you wouldn't be okay with it.." Parker lifted one of his stylized eyebrows, anxious to know her answer, "So, are you..? No matter what happens, I'm not sorry for the things I've done.. They made me the person I am now.. I'm just sorry I hurt you, I mean that." While he was at it, he lean in to kiss her forehead. It was a comfort for him this time.

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LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame In reply to The-Reverse-Drug [2015-04-24 21:21:24 +0000 UTC]

Freya closed her eyes again, savoring the feeling of his lips and knowing it was real. She cracked realizing it really was all her fault as she put a hand behind his neck to keep his lips there a second more. "No, Love.. I'm sorry I pushed you away and sent you to that place. I didn't need you to be.. more.. or better.. I just needed you." She pulled away from his lips and sat up more, getting right next to him so she could put one leg behind him and the other in his lap to snuggle under his arm. "I was afraid as well, you know. I really am starting to practice magic and that has its own risks. Mainly that I might hurt someone inadvertently, but I couldn't live with hurting you again. I know I did.. I shouldn't have asked you to stay behind. I underestimated you and that was the biggest mistake of my life, Parker. I never meant to push you away and I never meant to push you to do what you did, but there is no going back now. ..is there?" She looked up at him with big sad blue eyes, holding on to them for dear life, "You've always accepted me, the curse on my family name and all of my many faults. I would never return that acceptance, love and understanding by rejecting you. I love you- All of you! I'm willing to make this work.. I want this to work. I don't ever want to be alone again.."

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The-Reverse-Drug In reply to LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame [2015-04-25 01:33:31 +0000 UTC]

Parker took a deep breath, nodding slowly at her words, "I don't ever wanna be alone either.. We can get through this. I've gotten through worse and I know you're the best thing that's ever happened to me. I.." Something crossed his mind and he thought it over with conviction, "Freya, a while back I did somethin'.. And I still stand by it. I don't.. Have it with me right now but.. Will you marry me? I bought you a ring, but then it just never seemed right and then things started to go wrong.. I never let go of it though. I still believe in us. I had to."

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LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame In reply to The-Reverse-Drug [2015-04-25 04:52:39 +0000 UTC]

A flood of emotions washed over her and while her first reaction was to be ecstatic, her mind kept going between the only two answers she could give him. However, there was a third option and that was her silence as she thought it over. A few months ago she would have said yes to him before he could have even finished the sentence, but it seemed odd at this moment. She did know one thing though without any doubt, Freya loved him and that never changed. "I think I will marry you one day.. I've always wanted to since we first started talking about it and having little ones. I even told Reese when I saw him that it was what I still wanted.." The idea of calling her relatives, especially her brother, and telling them she was engaged almost made her feel dizzy. "So much has happened in the past six weeks, Parker. I don't know.." Her heart started beating hard again, scared for another fight or even being left alone now that she sort of rejected the idea. "I'm just scared is all.. I was alone twelve hours ago and considering taking pills to make it all go away and feel better.. Just please.. Don't give up on us, Parker.. Please.. I love you, I promise.." The more she kept talk the more frantic and panicked she felt. The last thing she wanted to do hurt him again, but she couldn't lie to herself and keep her fears in as well. "Please.. I do want to marry you, I just don't feel worthy enough to be called your wife any time soon. Not after what I did to you.."

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The-Reverse-Drug In reply to LikeAMoth-ToTheFlame [2015-04-25 05:42:11 +0000 UTC]

"Heyheyhey," he said in a calming voice, kissing her forehead and wrapping an arm tightly around her for a small hug, "Don't worry about it Freya. I just needed to make sure you still considered it too. As long as you still want what I want.. 'Cuz one day I swear, I'll do this right. I'll get on my knee and I'll show you that ring. And then I'll get to see you wear it and know it's all okay." Parker looked at her again, running some of his tattooed fingers through her hair, "I'm not hurtin' anymore 'cuz I love you and I know you'd never want to hurt me."

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