Zandrr In reply to PetalAesthetic [2019-06-09 21:04:15 +0000 UTC]

are you still alive? qvq the account is deactivated D: 

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Kitoppi In reply to PetalAesthetic [2018-01-30 05:36:11 +0000 UTC]

LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE u

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GoodBoii In reply to PetalAesthetic [2018-01-29 02:07:28 +0000 UTC]

cRONch

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PetalAesthetic In reply to GoodBoii [2018-01-29 02:24:04 +0000 UTC]

cWANCh

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lambkiss In reply to PetalAesthetic [2018-01-28 04:19:57 +0000 UTC]

wtf I will send u a pizza

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lambkiss In reply to PetalAesthetic [2018-01-24 19:26:55 +0000 UTC]

🤫

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lambkiss In reply to PetalAesthetic [2018-01-18 06:00:16 +0000 UTC]

F

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PetalAesthetic In reply to lambkiss [2018-01-18 15:59:16 +0000 UTC]

i luv u

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lambkiss In reply to PetalAesthetic [2018-01-21 06:46:54 +0000 UTC]

👁👅👁

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PetalAesthetic In reply to lambkiss [2018-01-21 06:52:59 +0000 UTC]

n O

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lambkiss In reply to PetalAesthetic [2018-01-21 06:54:45 +0000 UTC]

Y E S 

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pawawool In reply to PetalAesthetic [2018-01-18 02:28:12 +0000 UTC]

Thank you so very much for the watch! ;o; <3

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Kitoppi In reply to PetalAesthetic [2018-01-16 07:12:23 +0000 UTC]

GEEBEE

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AeternusCaelae In reply to PetalAesthetic [2018-01-13 18:34:41 +0000 UTC]

ur a furry

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PetalAesthetic In reply to AeternusCaelae [2018-01-13 21:15:12 +0000 UTC]

ultra penis

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AeternusCaelae In reply to PetalAesthetic [2018-01-15 23:17:50 +0000 UTC]

furry thot

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Kitoppi In reply to PetalAesthetic [2017-12-27 23:56:01 +0000 UTC]

I watched you from the DDLG da group!! //wet emoji

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PetalAesthetic In reply to Kitoppi [2017-12-27 23:56:21 +0000 UTC]

stop harassing me idek what that is

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Kitoppi In reply to PetalAesthetic [2017-12-27 23:56:36 +0000 UTC]

it means daddy dom little girl oh my god

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PetalAesthetic In reply to Kitoppi [2017-12-28 00:06:38 +0000 UTC]

o h I thought you were
oh
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oh
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Kitoppi In reply to PetalAesthetic [2017-12-27 21:29:42 +0000 UTC]

ur profile is fuckng HOT

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PetalAesthetic In reply to Kitoppi [2017-12-27 23:35:04 +0000 UTC]

So is your face

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BlackLuxtra In reply to PetalAesthetic [2017-12-27 03:38:09 +0000 UTC]

I watched you from 

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GregoBravista In reply to PetalAesthetic [2017-12-26 23:15:59 +0000 UTC]

Hi, can you give me points?
I know this message can be super annoying, but I am willing to exchange points for favs / comments. (If you want of course). Since I fervently believe that something is not received if something is not given. If you have any suggestions, let me know.
Of course, I apologize if this message has bothered you.
I apologize and retire.
Have a nice day.

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loneytoonz In reply to PetalAesthetic [2017-12-26 18:52:14 +0000 UTC]

i know its a long shot but i'd love a simple art trade if you were up for it

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PetalAesthetic In reply to loneytoonz [2017-12-26 18:58:56 +0000 UTC]

aa they're closed right now, but I'll let u know when they open c: !

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loneytoonz In reply to PetalAesthetic [2017-12-26 19:00:54 +0000 UTC]

thanks so much!

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R4INBOWB4T In reply to PetalAesthetic [2017-12-25 05:38:10 +0000 UTC]

bitch

you a hoe

a good one doh

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Grim-Insanity In reply to PetalAesthetic [2017-12-24 00:20:20 +0000 UTC]

Thanks for the watch :3

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PetalAesthetic In reply to Grim-Insanity [2017-12-24 00:34:19 +0000 UTC]

you're welcome ^^

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R4INBOWB4T In reply to PetalAesthetic [2017-09-25 01:17:20 +0000 UTC]

you must not be able to see how much you meant.
how much you are hurting us.
cause this fucking hurts Gal...

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PetalAesthetic In reply to R4INBOWB4T [2017-09-25 01:49:45 +0000 UTC]

I left because I want to stop hurting people, not because I want to hurt people more. 

Everyone called me toxic, and I don't want to be considered toxic. I don't want to be near people who thinking I'm going to hurt them, or argue with all the time. 

I went to my therapist about it and she said I needed to disassociate with the people who thought of me that way, or were relatively close to those who thought of me that way. I don't know what you thought. But I know lun thought I was toxic, and Alyssa thought I was manipulative. Lun wanted to leave, but couldn't do it, so I did it instead because I didn't want us to constantly be at war with each other. I'd rather move on in life than constantly be stuck in the past, in pain, and causing pain. Lun and I were always, always at war. We'd be okay for some time and then fight again and I didn't want to be stuck in that loop, or put her in that loop, or drag other people into that loop.

If you want to believe my actions were done selfishly, that's fine. If you want to think my goal is to hurt others, thats okay, too. I can't change your opinion, or if you hate me. All I can do is provide an explanation and be on my way. Just know I'm sorry, whether you think I am or not

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R4INBOWB4T In reply to PetalAesthetic [2017-09-25 01:57:11 +0000 UTC]

I didn't think you were toxic. I thought of you as one of my closest friends. I got so happy whenever we talked. I loved talking to you. I felt comfortable and cared about around you. I looked up to you half the time Gal. You said you were leaving and I had to choke back tears. 
You left and I instantly missed our talks. I miss the person I always had to talk to, about anything and everything. 
I still miss them. I miss you...

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PetalAesthetic In reply to R4INBOWB4T [2017-09-25 02:09:56 +0000 UTC]

I'm really sorry, honestly. I miss you too, and have, but was too terrified that you hated me to do anything (which is why I blocked you because I was worried). I have to listen to my therapist this time, at least for awhile. I can unblock you and all but I can't ignore what she tells me because last time that happened I hurt someone severely, and I don't want to anymore. I'm awful and manipulative and toxic and dramatic, like people say I am, and it's just better if I surround myself with different people because it can construct a different vibe, I guess (that's what the therapist said anyways). Maybe someday I wont be looked at the same way anymore, but I can't risk it because I never want anyone to feel as bad as I've made people feel.

Sorry for slow replies, my laptop just stopped working so im on my phone and type like a disabled giraffe

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R4INBOWB4T In reply to PetalAesthetic [2017-09-25 02:23:54 +0000 UTC]

Honestly, you never hurt me until I found out you came back and said nothing. Simply because you said you would say when you came back.
I thought I did something to make you just leave. I thought that you got tired of me or something. 
And then when you acted like you didn't know me I really felt like it was my fault and I just wanted to cry because I missed you so much.
And then I saw you and Vitya got close and I just didn't know what to do. I felt helpless and I didn't want to say anything about it to anyone in fear of sounding pathetic. 
The last thing that I could do is hate you Gal.

it's fine, don't worry about it

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PetalAesthetic In reply to R4INBOWB4T [2017-09-25 02:46:43 +0000 UTC]

No it, it wasnt ever you or anyone else. Originally she just msged me on DA but once she found my new account she acted out because of it and I didn't want her to think I was doing it to abandon her. It was supposed to be a secret but obviously that wasn't how it worked out. I missed all of you, I just didn't know if I could handle all of you,, for awhile I only had two friends. But now I understand the consequences of trying to do something that will only benefit one person, and now I can say truthfully that I'm not hiding my association with someone, or behind a mask. The only friendship I was active in that I kept was with ink-bite/peachpurr, because our moms know each other and I visit her. I'm not associated with people I've hurt, or people who are close friends with people I hurt, because it'd just be a source for future problems. I'm listening to my therapist and surrounding myself with new vibes ;v;

But I promise. It was never your fault. We never did anything besides chat sometimes and you were never a source of my issues directly. I just need to be with other people for awhile ;-; . I want more than anything to change, and I know a complete difference is really impossible, but I'd rather try to be a better person than always drag others down into a dark hole ;^;

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R4INBOWB4T In reply to PetalAesthetic [2017-09-25 02:56:22 +0000 UTC]

I can get that you don't want to drag people down, I get that
but you are hurting some of us more by leaving and pushing us out then you were when you were here and we were in your life
I say we but I think it's just me...
but hey..
just trying to make a point i guess...

if leaving me behind can make you better mentally and emotionally, I'll go
I don't want to make things worse for you

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PetalAesthetic In reply to R4INBOWB4T [2017-10-03 04:46:23 +0000 UTC]

Hh I don’t even know why im here you probably don’t even want me to talk to you anymore and I’m sorry to bother you so much but I really just need to be honest with myself and you I guess

It’s true that my therapist wanted to create some distance, but the main reason I haven’t come back yet is I’m afraid, really afraid, and I don’t know what to do.. I don’t want everyone to consider me toxic and manipulative still or think I’m worse than I used to be and I’m afraid my friends don’t even want to be considered my friends anymore. I miss everyone so much but I’m just too terrified to do anything about it. I’m afraid of the consequences of me leaving (and other things) and I really don’t want to come back to being bashed and that’s why I haven’t returned yet I’m sorry I’m really sorry,,,

I don’t mean to be a little wimp and things but I really wanted to clarify it for some reason because I’m honestly at a loss because I don’t know how much longer I can go not talking to everyone but I don’t even know if people want to talk to me anymore in the first place,,

It really hasn't mad me better emotionally to lose my friends, or not anymore. I'm really anxious all the time and i'm so concerned about how people will react, especially people I was close to like you and now idk what to do and i'm sorry, ghg hg 

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R4INBOWB4T In reply to PetalAesthetic [2017-10-03 18:22:58 +0000 UTC]

I've said it before and I'll say it again, I love talking to you. I would never not want to Gal.

I am gonna try to talk from a non-biased stand point.
You need to do what will be best for you
I can promise you, if you come back, everyone that was here for you on this account will still be here. None of us went anywhere. All of us still love and care about you.

going back to being biased
if someone thinks you are toxic, they are a fucking ass. You are amazing in every way. You are one of the greatest people I have ever met! 

sorry for the short response I'm supposed to be doing school work ^^'

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