ayyamana In reply to h2g2guy [2012-10-23 20:56:36 +0000 UTC]

For I know you.

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h2g2guy In reply to ayyamana [2012-10-27 22:35:24 +0000 UTC]

Mysterious...

Are you the guy from ZZ9? (I'd use your name, but I'm not sure if the person in question would like me giving his name out to random people online if I'm wrong.)

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ayyamana In reply to h2g2guy [2012-10-31 18:31:45 +0000 UTC]

ZZ9?
Never heard of such a thing.

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h2g2guy In reply to ayyamana [2012-11-02 00:44:58 +0000 UTC]

Hmm...

Are you the John from my GSD III group, then? Come to think of it, this is probably the more likely scenario than the last one xD

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ayyamana In reply to h2g2guy [2012-11-03 23:47:40 +0000 UTC]

No, it would take some Profound Thought to find out who I am.

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h2g2guy In reply to ayyamana [2012-11-23 21:22:48 +0000 UTC]

Ok, I've racked my brain on and off for nearly three weeks now, with no further clues. You must have really meant it when you said 'Profound Thought' (in addition to the hint I think you were trying to give...) xD

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ayyamana In reply to dragrider1 [2012-01-29 16:39:50 +0000 UTC]

Meh.

And don't you lol at me!

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dragrider1 In reply to ayyamana [2012-01-29 18:42:55 +0000 UTC]

lolol

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ayyamana In reply to SandraMJ [2010-07-14 20:58:14 +0000 UTC]

I just remembered you from the sporum as I looked at my unused deviantART.

I found it kinda funny that you replied almost instantly.

Let's see...

Computer is barely working, and iPhone is out of commission...

What a drag.

And what's with your avatar?

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SandraMJ In reply to ayyamana [2010-07-14 21:02:19 +0000 UTC]

Welp, I don't know who you are from the sporum, so I guess a gentle "hi" works as well ^.^"

I'm like, half of the day in dA, just check it out with this message.

My avatar is Elvar, from my webcomic Rankor Chronicles, showing one of the most epic expressions I've drawn for him. You can follow my sig to check it, or simply have a look at my dA gallery, since it's there as well

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ayyamana In reply to SandraMJ [2010-07-19 21:15:58 +0000 UTC]

I am Da_StrongWill of the Sporum, and I remember the Rankor Chronicles. I told you my comments about them.

Sorry it took so long to reply, life is too big for internet nowadays...

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ayyamana In reply to ayyamana [2010-07-27 01:52:58 +0000 UTC]

I wish I could too.

So far it sucks. Too much work.

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SandraMJ In reply to ayyamana [2010-07-19 21:18:54 +0000 UTC]

Hey Will! Nice to hear from you

For your interest, RC is not what it used to be anymore. The proof is that now people like it, generally.

Yeah, it's better living life rather than using internet. But, oh well.

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ayyamana In reply to SandraMJ [2010-07-20 22:04:19 +0000 UTC]

No? You actually update it now?

And also, living life sucks. Too much chaos in it. I am anxious everyday nowadays...

I'd much rather go to the Sporum, but I know I can't commit to anything, so I am just...

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SandraMJ In reply to ayyamana [2010-07-20 22:07:37 +0000 UTC]

Uuuuh I've been adding a new page every Sunday since August last year.

If you want to check it, follow my sig.

You should go back to the sporum. For the sake of laughing at grammar-less scum :U

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ayyamana In reply to SandraMJ [2010-07-21 00:30:05 +0000 UTC]

I hear from Osaka that you came back like a month ago. It's too bad I can't contact her...

I could, but my computer hates the Internet, so I can do very little on it. My iPhone was sent to be repaired, I hope it gets back soon.

I would go back to the sporum, but again, I have to make a commitment to RP, and I just can't do that right now...

Maybe when I get my phone back.

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SandraMJ In reply to ayyamana [2010-07-21 06:36:29 +0000 UTC]

Okay, then, I'm glad to have talked with you, and I hope you will be able to come back

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ayyamana In reply to SandraMJ [2010-07-23 03:04:07 +0000 UTC]

IResQ just got my phone, it should be operational, and in my hands by the end of next week. I hope they give me my box back.

Well, since I now have basically no one on the internet to talk to,

How ya doin'?

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SandraMJ In reply to ayyamana [2010-07-23 05:42:13 +0000 UTC]

Pretty well, thanks. A bit bored during the vacations, but oh well.

What about you?

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ayyamana In reply to SandraMJ [2010-07-23 16:33:51 +0000 UTC]

Last summer I can relax, so I'm doing pretty good

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SandraMJ In reply to ayyamana [2010-07-23 16:35:36 +0000 UTC]

How's that?

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ayyamana In reply to SandraMJ [2010-07-25 21:56:43 +0000 UTC]

See, as this is the last summer I can truly relax before all of these tough tests and programs begin taking effect, I'm trying to get the best out of it.

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SandraMJ In reply to ayyamana [2010-07-25 22:05:48 +0000 UTC]

Aaah tough things. I hope you enjoy the summer a lot.

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ayyamana In reply to SandraMJ [2010-07-27 01:53:17 +0000 UTC]

I wish I could too.

So far it sucks. Too much work.

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SandraMJ In reply to ayyamana [2010-07-27 05:46:43 +0000 UTC]

Dang, I hope it gets better.

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ayyamana In reply to SandraMJ [2010-07-28 02:00:15 +0000 UTC]

Thanks.

It seems the cruddier it gets, the more light I see.

I drew the prettiest picture I've ever drawn in my life.
It's an illustration for one of my poems.

It's a picture of a mountain. IT'S SO AWESOME ^^

I'd show you, but I don't have a scanner. Or, at least not a working one

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SandraMJ In reply to ayyamana [2010-07-28 05:56:24 +0000 UTC]

Don't forget to show me as soon as you get one ^_^

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ayyamana In reply to SandraMJ [2010-07-30 03:07:03 +0000 UTC]

See, I've decided to keep a notebook of my poems, and I'm illustrating them because they're my best poems.

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SandraMJ In reply to ayyamana [2010-07-30 06:49:05 +0000 UTC]

That's a really good idea, Will. I usually do the opposite, drawings inspires me to write, and writing... Well, writing is writing, heh.

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ayyamana In reply to SandraMJ [2010-08-10 04:07:26 +0000 UTC]

Oh, well, if you want to see the drawing, I put it up on devArt. It's my newest submission...

Sorry to not talk to you for this whole time, but things are really getting out of hand...

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SandraMJ In reply to ayyamana [2010-08-10 06:29:20 +0000 UTC]

Don't worry, I'm used to distant in time conversations. So why do you say things getting out of hand?

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ayyamana In reply to SandraMJ [2010-08-11 03:38:47 +0000 UTC]

Life.

I'm getting more religious, getting the house into order, becoming a second man of the house, it's just too much.


In short, I'm becoming a better person, and that is hard.


I'm exhausted, and all my free time goes away to leisure, which, in my case, is thinking.

I figured out who I am and how I tick almost perfectly, and I am getting close to being able to predict my actions in time with almost 100% accuracy. If I can do that, I can alter my response to a more favorable one.

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SandraMJ In reply to ayyamana [2010-08-11 06:14:03 +0000 UTC]

I see.

You, my friend, are my complete opposite.

I have never liked phrases as "the man of the house" because of the fact I've grown in a family where my mother is my father's boss, but instead, my father talks to everyone like thinking he's superior to them, and I've grown to hating him. I would be a world better at managing the house than him, but of course, I don't get an edge of word wise, and I'm usually responded with a "DON'T ANSWER ME!".

Everyday I'm more and more skeptic, but my parents are making me go under confirmation, which I totally reject.

My life is not based in what I do, but in what others do. I've developed the ability to predict what others will do in answer to my acts, based in their usual behaviour. Therefore, I can know what they will answer after my acts, and that way I can lead a situation one way or another.

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ayyamana In reply to SandraMJ [2010-08-15 01:48:04 +0000 UTC]

Perhaps we are not as different as you think. This girl keeps scolding me for finding patterns in people's behavior, setting up stereotypes for combinations of dress, manner, ethnicity, sex, company, voice, etc. She kept hating me for the methods my mind works.

You see, my mind is like a "filing cabinet", where I have all of these files on people. Then I check and modify these files as time progresses. Unfortunately your file is quite empty as I don't know you that well. People on the internet are weird, as from my personal experience, people set up these images of themselves which they present to the interwebs. In fact, I myself am such a person, mostly because I don't have to think on my feet. I am much more logical and assessing online than I am in person, mostly because I rarely let my emotions hang around, and I have time to edit.

I guess this is a result of me being obsessed with the way things work, developing a habit of finding patterns and analyzing them. That's not to say that I'm organized, in fact, I'm probably the most disorganized person in my whole school.

Before I bore you with my terribly long post (as I imagine it must be), I want to get to my point, as I have a nasty habit of getting off-topic. My point is, I do think (or, rather, hope) that we are of the same mindset (Though probably I'm just projecting myself onto you). It would be such a relief to know I'm not the only one.

As for religion, I am not being forced. A line of thought and logic, combined with certain situations I placed myself in, as well as was placed, have led me to believe in God. Before these, I sort of did think God existed (mostly because of my education), but I never truly felt so.

I came to God through my own blunders. I began to believe myself the best person in the world, and began challenging this imaginary figure called "God". Guess who lost?

Well, since then I am trying to become much more religious, though I won't lie, I have been tempted. I am a horrible person as compared to my goal, and I am trying my best to improve myself.


My relations with my parents are sort of improving due to the above. I am trying my best to "Respect Thy Parents" or whatever the commandment was, but I am split. My dad, being the understanding one, understands, and I become grateful and I respect him for that. Becoming religious is actually a family thing now, my dad started it. My mom however, is the sickly person, lying in bed, promising to do everything and not letting me wash the dishes. In fact, I had to wash a kitchenful yesterday (and yes, the whole kitchen was ful of the dirty dishes, now picking up mold) and that didn't go so well. You see, she kept me from doing the dishes for a week and a half with promises of starting to do it "Today".

I ended up having to do the lot...

Well, sorry 'bout the long post, I had to keep rereading your comment to actually understand what it means...

(More dishes...)

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SandraMJ In reply to ayyamana [2010-08-15 06:26:42 +0000 UTC]

You're right, we're not so different. We both base our lives on observation and experiments. It's just that those leaded us different ways.

My observation and critic spirit leaded me to untrust any single word that any religion says. Instead, I do believe there's something greater out there. An alien, dark mattery, or whatever it might be. Long ago, I discovered that despite religions were created to make a "better world", they have only leaded to radicalism, segregation and war.

Living in Spain as I do, I've grown used to hearing stereotypes about me from others, most of which are wrong, and finding differing opinions within the people I know as well. This makes it difficult to think of patterns when considering all the people I know. I barely can get patterns out of my own family, as we are all so different, so I act like you. Each person is like a folder for me. When talking to that person, I examine my previous experiences and add new ones based in different situations. When someone is talking with me about whatever topic, provided I know that person, I'll know what reaction will he/she have if I differ, if I agree, if I decide to give an opinion, etc.

For instance, let's suppose that a friend from real life and I are talking about religion. I know that person, and I'm aware how he'll laugh at me when I say "God might as well be an alien". According to this, I decide I want to bring up some arguments before going to the point, consequently getting a better reaction.

Now another friend. Same age, nationality, height... His twin brother. We're good friends as well. But I know that as much as anyone'd like to find a pattern, they're like day and night. If I say to him "God might be an alien" he won't laugh, but he'll state something trying to show he isn't, which will lead to a better conversation than his brother would. This way I chose who to talk about what, too.

My family is, for short, "typical Spanish" in which all the stereotypes you have heard about Spanish people are right. My parents are catholic, despite not ever going to church nor praying, but when someone's ill they say phrases like "Why is God punishing us?" They enjoy bullfights, paella, and that stuff. And they're pretty sexist, traditional and homophobe.

Then you have me and my brother. Somehow, I turned out hating every of the characteristic facts mentioned above, and that since the first moment I have reason leaded to a bad relationship with my parents. But my brother had it worse. He's never liked soccer, hanged out with girls instead of boys, and talked and acted in a pretty femenine way. He's been called a Spanish insult word for "gay" all his life, and that hurt him a lot. He IS homosexual, as he recognised a pair of years ago, and since then my parents haven't dealed with him the same way. At least my father.

Well, I think that's all I can answer for right now. Breakfast time, then.

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