blizpix In reply to jellogurl766 [2004-09-09 04:34:20 +0000 UTC]

A penny saved is a devalued penny because of inflation. Its like a 3/4 penny.

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ArmorFelix2001 In reply to ArmorFelix2001 [2004-01-08 18:57:25 +0000 UTC]

I think it was in prophecy or something, my brother watches them, over and over.

I think eyelid would work better, the eye is kind of uncomfortable.

ha, ha, deviantart must be the best dating simulator ever... (if my pookie see this, no i'm not being bad, just look at the attention I get showered with! Me thinks girls are very mentally affectionate, okay me crawl back into hell pit now)

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ArmorFelix2001 In reply to ArmorFelix2001 [2004-01-30 19:28:10 +0000 UTC]

Ooo, who's the author? I must put them on my kidnap list! yeah, it is good to meet weird people, especially the normal kind of weird. You know, there's scary weird, and weird people that are normal to you. yeah, they must ask because they don't have anything going on in their heads, lol.

btw, any story behind your handle and avatar? That's a very noble female. (I think its female)

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blizpix In reply to ArmorFelix2001 [2004-02-02 01:09:07 +0000 UTC]

Handle...handle, handle...What do you mean by handle? Is that another name for an avatar? If it is, its mainly I love the character Konoko from Oni (Means devil in Japanese). Everyone has inner demons, and she demonstrates that, though a bit more literally. It reminds me to not necessarily be afraid of the 'bad thoughts' in my head. When I say bad, I mean the sort of things I can understand about death and about the universe, and whenever I do, I get sick. Like nauseated. With my anti-depressents, though, my mind dumbs down, gets diluted and easily distracted. Its like novacaine, the thoughts aren't as intense and I can distract myself with other thoughts. I don't do as well in school though, because of it, I mean, I'm literally dumber on these drugs. Woo! Bet ya didn't wanna know all that crap, huh? Just my warning to you not to take antidepressents, or at least not certain ones.

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ArmorFelix2001 In reply to blizpix [2004-02-04 01:30:00 +0000 UTC]

Like a nickname. Learned that term from Wing Commander. Ah yes, I remember Oni, well seeing previews of the game anyhow. yes, now I see the hairstyle, I didn't notice before.

Ah, yes, I know what you are saying, thoughts that are not the norm. Death and the universe, I get that alot of visitors in my mind like that. Though mainly zombies. I wonder about the nature of people. What are they to me? Are they just walking piles of protoplasm, or do they have to potential to be very extraordinary things. The universe is a big place to have in one human brain

Shit, I'm diluted and easily distracted normally. I know what you mean, depression is kind of like getting stuck on one annoying thing. One gets so worried about survival that nothing else matters. Something like that. Maybe its different for different people.
yeah, I'm pretty anti drug myself, I have the theory that they can do more harm than good in the mental health field. I think society makes people ill, and drugs are like one of those lousy patches they use to try to fix things.

Woo! hey, its okay. there's only a very small percentage of things that really bother me, if you hit them, you'll know it. that isn't one of them. I read a lot on depression and am sympathic. Hell, I suffer from it. Kind of funny being too poor for treatment too. I kind of figure I'll either be a super success or a homeless bum on the street. Even a bum can do art

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blizpix In reply to ArmorFelix2001 [2004-02-04 15:43:43 +0000 UTC]

lol...Actually, my mom's a psychiatrist, MD. I knew that there were side effects, so I took the risk. I think drugs are a patch, yes, but they can help some people more than others. As for the cost of drugs, blame pharmacies. I think that stuff about Canadian medicine is the biggest load of shit. The FDA just doesn't want to lose their high profits.

By the way, I do have similar thoughts on the universe. I think its amazing that particles can come together in certain patterns and be aware of themselves. But for this same thought, I don't think humans have souls, and when we die, that's it. That's what I'm so afraid of, to stop thinking or existing, ever again, for eternity. I had those exact thoughts when I was 11 and I cried and had panic attacks every night. It subsided a little by emersing myself in schoolwork and in fantasy more than I had before, starting with Harry Potter, then Sabriel and other books. It came roaring back when I was 13, and this time I became a total slacker, habitual liar, and I played sick all the time. That's how I got put on antidepressents, more than 2 years ago. Zoloft was my first, that's when I gained 30 lbs in 6 months. Thank God I've lost some. Anyhoo, that's my Babble for today.

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ArmorFelix2001 In reply to blizpix [2004-02-04 18:03:48 +0000 UTC]

Yeah, I've taken quite a bit of chemistry, I pick up some wisdom from the professors. They talk about these compounds that were dirt cheap until people figured out a drug application. Some of these chemicals cost only pennies to make. They say the ridiculously high prices are to cover research costs. bah. I really hate the system, believe when a person gets old and too screwed up its better just to plan a way out neat and clean. Funny that death is best way to beat extortion.

yeah, I'm of the same line of thought. Though I have thought of it from many angles. What's amazing about life is the potentials. Each person is like an experiment in a way. yeah, that matter about death, exactly as you put it is a big fear in my mind, keeps me awake at night. Its still like a big question. We doesn't even know if there is an eternity or the nature of time. We don't know what its like to be a nonliving, say a rock. or like a microwave. but when you think about it, it doesn't hurt the microwave to be shut off. Even a bug doesn't care a whole lot when its squashed. Maybe the bigger our brains the more emotional we get, we get lost and confused, and forget that the whole reason we are is to survive in the best way possible.

I think I had that fear of death for a long time though, I played sick a bit in school, my main problem there though was the other people. Same road, just a little different. I never opened up my mind to a shrink, and never took those damn antidepressants they prescribed. My mental state is something I must always be the one to work on. Though I believe this society is responsible for most of it. How happy can people be when they are forced to submit to some many whims of others? From cradle to grave, its about fighting all the programming society can do to a person.

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blizpix In reply to ArmorFelix2001 [2004-01-25 03:03:43 +0000 UTC]

lol...hell pit? Reminds me of the Keys to the Kingdom. Cute little book, full of yummy gore. It is nice to meet people who are just as weird as I am though. I get sick of people at school asking me what the hell's going on in my head.

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blizpix In reply to ArmorFelix2001 [2004-01-06 12:38:25 +0000 UTC]

*Salutes him* Right away! lol...kiss your eyelids, or your actual eyes? I know what you mean though, when I think about it, I feel all tingly.

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blizpix In reply to Shadowmagegrl [2004-01-01 00:16:15 +0000 UTC]

Congrats! Go Sasha! I'd give you a million dollars if I had it! I never really imagined having that many page views. I hope you can come to my house sometime, I know you're busy, but I'd really like it.

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Shadowmagegrl In reply to blizpix [2004-01-01 15:01:29 +0000 UTC]

Yeah, me too- and it will happen eventually

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blizpix In reply to aubergine [2003-12-22 16:51:06 +0000 UTC]

Hee hee! Consider it done! *starts packing rocks into her snowballs*

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