dying-poet In reply to Cobyfrog [2013-01-13 21:01:19 +0000 UTC]

No problemo!

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dying-poet In reply to cryingpoet [2013-01-13 21:03:15 +0000 UTC]

Hidden by Owner

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cryingpoet In reply to dying-poet [2013-01-14 22:43:48 +0000 UTC]

Hidden by Owner

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dying-poet In reply to cryingpoet [2013-01-26 04:08:28 +0000 UTC]

Oh my fucking God. I am so sorry butterfly. The idiots at Best Buy don't know shit about anything! Apparently my computer was so fucked up that they had to send me a new one!

I love you butterfly....

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cryingpoet In reply to dying-poet [2013-01-28 00:14:15 +0000 UTC]

Oh my God Eric. I miss you like crazy.

And yes the people at Best Buy know nothing. They wanted me to replace my hard drive when my disk drive was broken..

I love you too, Eric.

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dying-poet In reply to cryingpoet [2013-02-15 02:25:30 +0000 UTC]

Oh my fucking god. I'm pretty sure there's an unlimited amount of sorry's I'm suppose to give you. I am truly sorry. I keep saying that, but I mean it. Long story. Here it goes...

I quit bar tending... even though it was a lot more fun than this shitty ass warehouse job. There was an opening for manager at the warehouse, so I put in some extra hours (my sleep hours) and tried to impress the assholes above me so I could get the damn job. It pays way more. So I finally got it.... Yippety fucking doo. I really wish I could be two people. Anyways....

It's Valentine's Day!

Kaitlin.
Will you be my Valentine?

I know it's probably way to fucking late... but, please?

I love you. I'm so sorry. About everything...
Sooooooooo......yeah....
Kay's not been answering Jason lately... but she is repeatedly spamming me with reminders to, "FUCKING TALK TO KAITLIN, YOU PIECE OF SHIT" or something like that... actual quote by-the-way.

I love you Kaitlin. More than anything, I love you.

Happy Valentine's Day!

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cryingpoet In reply to dying-poet [2013-02-18 22:28:10 +0000 UTC]

Oh my God, I'm so sorry. I had practice until 8 on Friday, Competition on Saturday, Concert on Sunday(Which was fucking amazing by the way), and I'm doing homework all day today. (Including writing my five page essay which I haven't even started on, xD)

The concert was the one with The Used, Crown the Empire, We Came As Romans, and some other band on the Take Action tour, in Dallas. I have a picture with Brandon Hoover, omg. He reminds me of you. c:

Congratulations about the job! And that's where you've been for about the past two weeks straight... I thought something happened to you. D:

I told freaking Kay on Thursday to tell you I said "Yes, of course I'll be your Valentine," but she didn't soooo..
And:
Yes, I'll be your Valentine even though it's late.

I love you too. And it's okay, I'm just worried as hell if you don't answer for a week or so.
Did she really say that? I had no idea.. She was probably tired of me being all mopey and sad and shit. xD

I love you, Eric. More than anyone could possibly imagine, and I love you too.

And Happy Late Valentine's Day to you too!

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dying-poet In reply to cryingpoet [2013-03-27 02:16:20 +0000 UTC]

So apparently Marcus noted you... He's not the best of liars. :/
I am sorry butterfly. And I know that you're probably worried about me. I hope you're not mad at me for being an ass and not responding to you. I just... I'm really sorry.

I'm glad you had fun at the concert. (Even though I'm a month late.)

I love you butterfly. :3

Uhm Kay apparently is pissed at Jason, me, and most likely everyone else.... I'll paste her comment.

"Do you know how heart-breakingly agonizing it is to sit at a desk and pray for a reply to pop up on the goddamn computer? Probably not. Since all you fucking do is go out and party, and not give a damn about me and Kaitlin. Do you know how fucking stressed she gets because of you two idiots? She'd defend Eric with every bone in her body, but I know how much it hurts for her to have to put up with his absences. And what the fuck is the point of having a "boyfriend" or "girlfriend" when you've never even talked faced to face? Hell you don't even know what I fucking look like. I'm done. I get that Eric has a job and that he's not able to get online everyday, but going a month without a single damn response? That's ridiculous. I'm sorry if I pissed you off, Jason, but I am definetly not sorry for telling the truth."

She hasn't replied since she sent that....Jason's mopey...and I'm just...sorry. I love you butterfly. Always have, always will.

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cryingpoet In reply to dying-poet [2013-04-23 22:57:03 +0000 UTC]

I am so, so, so, so, so, so, sorry..
My laptop was literally fried, and I just got it back.

I was never mad at you for not responding. Okay maybe a little. But it wasn't really "mad".
It just started getting to me, and it made me feel like you didn't care, even though I know that's not true.
To be completely honest, I feel like I'm slowly losing you. And it's killing me. More like: Eating me from the inside, out. It's taking over my whole body. It's getting bad..
Moreover, my mom was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis. It's starting to affect her, and she starts her medicine soon.
I feel like I'm just losing everyone.
And I don't want to lose you.
Because seriously you're the best thing that has ever happened to me, I couldn't imagine life without you.
As agonizing as it is waiting for your replies, it's worth it to me. You're worth it to me.
And I'm just as scared that you won't want me, as well..
I mean, you could have anyone.. and you chose me.
I'm seriously sitting here crying while I'm typing this, because of how much you mean to me. You are the one thing that keeps me attached to this earth, and stops me from just floating away. Metaphorically, of course..
Me and Kay have been drifting apart lately too..
I don't like it..
I feel like I owe her everything for even letting me talk to you that one day at lunch two years ago. Because if not, I would have never started talking to you.
I worry about you 24/7. You have no idea, how much it kills me waiting a week, or a month just to hear from you.. I'm not mad at you, I know you're busy with your job and such, but I'm just letting you know. I'm not trying to make you feel bad either. This is just what I feel.

Do you know that feeling when you hear something you weren't meant to hear? And your heart just drops out of your chest? That's what I feel when I don't talk to you..
I know I probably sound like this clingy girl that wants to talk to you every second of every day..
But I just love you..
I want you to know that.

I know you're probably mad at me for not responding sooner, and I'm so sorry..
And I know it's hypocritical, but I really hope you respond soon..
I'm like beating myself up over the fact that I couldn't respond to you sooner..

And honestly, you're seriously what I think of when I'm sad. It cheers me up knowing that you care about me.
And I love you Eric. With all my heart.

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dying-poet In reply to cryingpoet [2013-04-24 02:55:53 +0000 UTC]

I'm sorry to hear about your mom... and Kay...and everything else that's fucked up.

If you and Kay are drifting apart, then me and Jason are miles apart from each other. Well, technically he's miles apart from anyone. On his own little island... He hasn't been talking to any of us, even though I finally got a hold of Kay... I didn't know how pissed she really was. She's mad that Jason and I don't respond much, but she was also mad at someone else. She was talking about someone named Conner? She called him a dick and said he was an "egotistical douche-bag"? She seemed pretty unhappy about him, too.
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You keep me sane Kaitlin. I don't know how I could live a life without you in it. Everyday that goes by without talking to you makes me feel like a zombie.

I could never be mad at you butterfly.

I love you.

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cryingpoet In reply to dying-poet [2013-04-25 23:09:16 +0000 UTC]

Well on the bright side, I had tryouts for drill team last week, and I made Varsity again. So Varsity for my Senior Year in High School! YAY! c:

I could of told you how pissed she was, she's beyond pissed. She's raging. Hardcore. And yeah. Conner is a piece of work.. I think she thinks I like him or something. But I don't at all. She's really unhappy about it. Even when I say like a sentence to him and she's standing by me, she walks off.

I don't know what's going on. She still doesn't tell me anything that's going on in her life.

And I just wanted to say: You are the pinnacle of my happiness right now. You're what's keeping me alive. You're the reason I even try anymore.
I've honestly hit rock bottom again.. /:

I love you, Eric.
Always have, Always will.

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dying-poet In reply to cryingpoet [2013-04-26 02:59:47 +0000 UTC]

Well of course you made it. You're the best dancer in the world.

She didn't say you liked him. Quite the opposite actually. She said that he's a "blind fucking idiot" that doesn't understand the concept of someone not liking him. She sent me a giant ass message with what seemed like a thousand fuck's scattered throughout the sentences.

Maybe she will. Marcus hasn't completely opened up to everyone yet...

The good thing about rock bottom is that there's no where else to go. I should know, I've fucking lived there my whole life. You're my world butterfly. I wouldn't be able to get up out of bed every morning if it wasn't for you.

I love you too, Kaitlin.
And I always will.

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cryingpoet In reply to dying-poet [2013-04-27 03:28:15 +0000 UTC]

If DA says I'm idling at some point in the day, it's because I'm probably on here with my phone, just btw.

Awwwwwww. Best compliment ever.

Well shit. See, I don't even know what she's thinking anymore. I can't read her like I used to be able to, she's put up walls. And I can't get through to her anymore either. I don't know if she's going through a phase or something..

I turn 17 in 32 days. I'm kind of excited.. c:

Marcus hasn't completely opened up to everyone? Really..?

And I know you have.. I wish I could change that somehow. But I can't. /:

That's not creepy, it's cute!
You are my world, as well.
I love you, Eric, so much.
And I will always love you. c:

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dying-poet In reply to cryingpoet [2013-04-27 18:32:27 +0000 UTC]

Okay. That sounded stupid. Yes he's gay and yes he's told everyone, but that's not what I meant. Marcus hasn't told us much of anything, such as when he was little. All we know about Marcus comes from Fay...

She'll come around. Maybe it's just about her and Jason or something.

Finally get to watch R rated movies. Legally that is. xD

I love you Kaitlin. I wouldn't know what to do without you.

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cryingpoet In reply to dying-poet [2013-04-29 01:00:55 +0000 UTC]

Oh, I see.. I pictured him as an open book. That's weird..
Not just because he's gay either, just because of who he is.

It's always about her and Jason, just like it's always about you & me.
I don't know, I just wish she was a little more open to me, because I tell her everything and she tells me nothing in return, so I feel bad just dumping everything on her. A person can only handle so much.. /:

I KNOW RIGHT!!! I still wish I was 18 though.. Eventually I will be, I suppose.

How's your Warehouse manager job going? c: And how is everyone else?
How are you in general, actually..?

I love you so so so so so much. And I wouldn't know what to do without you either.
You're amazing, okay?

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dying-poet In reply to cryingpoet [2013-05-16 19:07:11 +0000 UTC]

Why?

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cryingpoet In reply to dying-poet [2013-07-02 02:30:48 +0000 UTC]

...I just couldn't do it anymore.

We never talked.. I constantly worried about you.

Like, I have a therapist now.
I'm beyond messed up.

And you really probably hate me this time.
Because I'm stupid.
Sigh.
..Goodbye I guess....

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dying-poet In reply to HBeezy [2012-12-31 21:40:30 +0000 UTC]

no problem!

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dying-poet In reply to cryingpoet [2012-12-31 20:58:21 +0000 UTC]

Butterfly... now I feel horrible.
Are you on?

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cryingpoet In reply to dying-poet [2012-12-31 20:59:47 +0000 UTC]

Yes, I'm on.
And don't feel horrible! D:

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dying-poet In reply to cryingpoet [2012-12-31 21:02:15 +0000 UTC]

Yay! You're on!
The guys are reading the note...so it'll take them a minute to respond.

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cryingpoet In reply to dying-poet [2012-12-31 21:02:59 +0000 UTC]

I'll be here. c:

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dying-poet In reply to cryingpoet [2012-12-31 21:05:12 +0000 UTC]

Kay, butterfly.
I love you!

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cryingpoet In reply to dying-poet [2012-12-31 21:06:05 +0000 UTC]

I love you too!

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dying-poet In reply to MetaDIME [2012-12-31 05:11:46 +0000 UTC]

No problem bro!

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dying-poet In reply to valwolfpaw [2012-12-31 04:55:42 +0000 UTC]

No problem!

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dying-poet In reply to PeylohsaurusRex [2012-12-31 04:46:14 +0000 UTC]

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dying-poet In reply to MadGardens [2012-12-31 04:34:34 +0000 UTC]

No problem!

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dying-poet In reply to Gore-Blackrose [2012-12-30 01:55:36 +0000 UTC]

No problem

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dying-poet In reply to ZurithePersistent [2012-09-18 01:24:10 +0000 UTC]

uhm?

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ZurithePersistent In reply to dying-poet [2012-09-18 02:22:05 +0000 UTC]

ARE YOU EMO

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dying-poet In reply to ZurithePersistent [2012-10-08 20:57:28 +0000 UTC]

Why?

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ZurithePersistent In reply to dying-poet [2012-10-08 22:13:09 +0000 UTC]

deviantid pictures

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dying-poet In reply to ZurithePersistent [2012-10-10 23:41:54 +0000 UTC]

Yes

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dying-poet In reply to cryingpoet [2012-02-10 01:03:57 +0000 UTC]

I love you for eternity Kaitlin and Happy Anniversary.
I'm the asshole. I can't even get on my fucking computer to talk to my butterfly. >.>

Butterfly, you have beautiful soul and heart, and it's completely safe.

And I love you so much more.


Kay called Jason Demetri (his middle name xD) and he replies with "Oh please no." So she told him that he can either chooose between Demetri or Babycakes....He said he's fine with Demetri. xDD

I thought you needed a laugh butterfly....Kay said for me to get my ass on here. I'm sorry for being a major dick, with my stupid jobs and all. I am sorry.

And I love you Kaitlin.

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cryingpoet In reply to dying-poet [2012-02-10 01:09:32 +0000 UTC]

Well, this day was pretty much perfect; until I almost passed out at pratice again. c:
And no, you're not the asshole. My tablet is the asshole. D'8

Well, fuck. I'm speechless now... >.<

But I love you more.

Lmfao, Oh my god; I'm pretty sure that's the funniest thing I've ever heard in my life. xD I would have went with Babycakes though.. c:

And yes I did, Thank you. c:
No, you're not a dick. I understand all the shit you have to do.

And Finally, I love you Eric.

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dying-poet In reply to cryingpoet [2012-02-10 01:58:09 +0000 UTC]

Why'd you almost pass out?
And I'm still the asshole.

Nope, I love you more.

He said there was no way in hell he'd reply to Babycakes. xD
She called him Babycakes though, and he still answered.

I'm still a dick, but I'm glad your happy.

Annnd I love you Kaitlin.

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cryingpoet In reply to dying-poet [2012-02-10 02:21:02 +0000 UTC]

Well as it turns out; doing our 4 minute long dance of constant kicks, 5 times in a row; doesn't agree with my lungs too well.
No you're not the asshole. D:

But I love you more.

Oh Jason, and his big ball of fluff heart; that makes me laugh. xD

No you're not a dick. D:

I love you Eric. I'm too lazy to find a teddy bear icon. So you get a heart instead, c:

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