midnightdreamerst In reply to serisuria [2008-03-31 13:13:06 +0000 UTC]

yes these are my own works : ) I am glad you like : )

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midnightdreamerst In reply to saperlipop [2008-02-23 21:03:59 +0000 UTC]

it was my pleasure...very awesome stuff so you are welcome!

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midnightdreamerst In reply to AntonChanning [2008-02-18 19:53:14 +0000 UTC]

absolutely awesome writing....thank you for this little piece of wonder....

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AntonChanning In reply to midnightdreamerst [2008-02-23 19:28:24 +0000 UTC]

Yeah, I got bored just writing (and reading) the same old 'thanks for the watch' type comments and so lately I've been doing them in a more narrative style. Glad you like!

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midnightdreamerst In reply to AntonChanning [2008-02-23 21:01:22 +0000 UTC]

I love your writing, its very intense...shows that you are a most intense individual : )

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AntonChanning In reply to midnightdreamerst [2008-02-23 22:53:51 +0000 UTC]

Do you like intense individuals? Of course, how I come across in writing and how I come across in real life can often be contrasting. In writing and online, I project a very masculine persona, when in fact I am intersex and thinking of transitioning to female.

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midnightdreamerst In reply to AntonChanning [2008-02-24 20:01:53 +0000 UTC]

wow that is most interesting information....I wouldnt do that though my friend, you are too nice of a male and there arent many of those left....I love intensely, emotion and sensitive and sensual individuals most of all...

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AntonChanning In reply to midnightdreamerst [2008-02-26 22:30:08 +0000 UTC]

Its a hard decision, but one I have to make. As I have said, I am intersex. I grew an ovary during puberty. I have the hands, hips and rear of a woman. I will still be me if I change. I will just be physically closer to my inner self image. I am not psychologically suited to living my life as a man, or relating to people as a man, sexually or socially. Each day that goes by is a day that I regret not having changed already. I tried to live in denial of what I am once. It didn't work out. I may seem nice on the surface, but you hardly no me. I can be a right bitch. And I think that bitchiness comes from my frustration. At the end of the day I have Gender Dysphoria. There is no cure for that. I can either live with the frustration, or get a partial or complete sex change. I am fed up with the frustration and regret.

I don't expect my life to suddenly become all nice and rosy after the change. I am not naive. But at least I will be able to face the rest of my life being myself rather than what others want me to be. Still, I will be a man for a while yet, these things take time. First electrolysis, then hormones and counselling. That can be several years right there.

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midnightdreamerst In reply to AntonChanning [2008-02-26 22:41:11 +0000 UTC]

then I stand behind you, why waste life in regret....be who you are my friend, thank you for being so open and personal with me, if you need a friend, I am here

Just out of curiosity, are you planning on changing your name, and if so what is your true name?

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AntonChanning In reply to midnightdreamerst [2008-02-26 22:50:13 +0000 UTC]

I'll probably change it to Antonia when the time comes. And thanks for the offer of friendship. Much appreciated!

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midnightdreamerst In reply to AntonChanning [2008-02-28 03:48:58 +0000 UTC]

Antonia?

huh I was expecting something a little more original, but hey thats just me lol....I gave my kids different names like my 7 yr old son is named Neo...my 6 yr old son is Dethen and my 3 yr old daughter is Amethyst Moon....guess they are lucky they didnt come out with Sunbeam Moonchild for a name with havin a freak of a mother like me...poor little children....like this reality really matters anyway....and it doesnt matter if you are Anton or Antonia with or with out balls, you are still one cool individual hope that didnt come out offensive, ment with the best of intent...people put too much into this physical world around us, on a universal level, what does our human drama matter? Ok maybe I should try to be all philosophy after so much Black Velvet...

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AntonChanning In reply to midnightdreamerst [2008-02-28 17:32:43 +0000 UTC]

Well, I could get original I suppose. I guess I kind of like my name though. Anton Channing is a good name. Its the name I published my book under. Maybe Antonia won't be the name I go with. Its one thing being a TV out in a club where everyone knows me as Anton, and then saying I'm Antoinette or Antonia, but it might be quite another to actually be a TS and have to go to work with that name. I guess I've got a few years to think about it. I'm definitely keeping the 'Channing' part though...

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midnightdreamerst In reply to AntonChanning [2008-02-28 22:27:03 +0000 UTC]

I love the name Anton is really cool, reminds me of when I went through my satanist faze and always loved Anton LeVays humor, we actually were gunna name our second boy Anton, but then I stumbled upon the name Dethen...so you published a book, what is it and what is it about?

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AntonChanning In reply to midnightdreamerst [2008-02-29 23:13:15 +0000 UTC]

Its called 'Kaos Hieroglyphica: Alchemy for the New Aeon'. Its about alchemy and chaos magic in a nut shell. I've since moved on from chaos magic since then and will be devoting my next work to alchemy and sorcery. I am also writing fiction.

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midnightdreamerst In reply to AntonChanning [2008-03-01 19:35:05 +0000 UTC]

oh now that is awesome...I have a few books on alchemy and on chaos magic...I personally have stepped away from ritual magic and what I am into now doesnt have a really easy category but I would say its like quantum/universal laws theory if that makes any sense....but this is where my path has led me, I have yet to find that one theory that answers my questions and I feel seeking out some of the comprehendable answers, for as above so below....I would love to get a copy of your book, sounds most interesting.....

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AntonChanning In reply to midnightdreamerst [2008-03-01 20:20:26 +0000 UTC]

Best bet is get on Amazon, or if you live in the uk direct from the publisher. Unfortunately I haven't been able to persuade the publisher to release it on paperback yet, so its only available as a hardback, which pushes the price up somewhat. Also, because its UK book and the pound is strong against the dollar right now, making it even more expensive for US customers such as yourself.

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midnightdreamerst In reply to katstar1990 [2008-01-22 15:30:31 +0000 UTC]

I will try Kat

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katstar1990 In reply to midnightdreamerst [2008-01-25 02:38:13 +0000 UTC]

Try to send it to me please.

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midnightdreamerst In reply to katstar1990 [2008-01-25 12:25:47 +0000 UTC]

I am working on it

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katstar1990 In reply to midnightdreamerst [2008-01-26 00:13:28 +0000 UTC]

Thank you very much xoxoxoxo.

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midnightdreamerst In reply to iiewaa [2007-05-06 15:48:58 +0000 UTC]

First you upload a pic as a deviant ID, then you go to you user page display and choose it and then it will be on your page
Thanks for stoppin bye

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midnightdreamerst In reply to Emberblue [2007-05-03 01:02:36 +0000 UTC]

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katstar1990 In reply to midnightdreamerst [2007-11-06 02:26:45 +0000 UTC]

I LOVE YOUR NEW
DOG.WHAT KIND IS
IT?

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midnightdreamerst In reply to katstar1990 [2007-11-07 19:11:10 +0000 UTC]

hey kat!!!
He is half Shar Pei and half black lab he is really smart and really sweet I miss you!!!

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midnightdreamerst In reply to imharrytuttle [2007-04-25 17:24:32 +0000 UTC]

thanx...not a lot happenin...
thanx for stoppin by!

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midnightdreamerst In reply to crhino [2007-04-16 02:01:57 +0000 UTC]

love your signature btw

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crhino In reply to midnightdreamerst [2007-04-16 15:05:14 +0000 UTC]

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midnightdreamerst In reply to megmac1109 [2007-04-14 04:28:15 +0000 UTC]

hey thanx!

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midnightdreamerst In reply to Bitter-Alkaloid [2007-04-12 16:10:33 +0000 UTC]

Thank you so much Bitter...I enjoy your company here

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