phia343 In reply to savingy [2012-12-07 01:39:36 +0000 UTC]

HOLY SHIT ZOE FUCK I THOUGHT YOU DROPPED OFF THE FACE OF THE EARTHYOU REMEMBER HOW YOU TOLD ME ABOUT HOMESTUCK? WELL I COSPLAY JOHN NOW.

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phia343 In reply to Rinkulover4ever50592 [2012-08-08 23:21:13 +0000 UTC]

No prob!

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phia343 In reply to ohBiteme000 [2012-08-03 04:05:52 +0000 UTC]

I'll add you back to the facebook account that I use. I was avoiding talking to you for a bit because it made me think of her and at that point, whenever I thought of her I almost always ended up cutting.

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phia343 In reply to lolipoploid [2012-08-03 04:04:04 +0000 UTC]

I WAS trying to take a break from dA but I cracked.

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lolipoploid In reply to phia343 [2012-08-03 06:43:25 +0000 UTC]

o.. oh yeaaaaa

im sorry ;3;

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phia343 In reply to lolipoploid [2012-08-08 23:18:34 +0000 UTC]

It's alright, loli.

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lolipoploid In reply to phia343 [2012-08-09 01:33:00 +0000 UTC]

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phia343 In reply to lolipoploid [2012-08-10 17:52:03 +0000 UTC]

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lolipoploid In reply to phia343 [2012-08-10 22:57:51 +0000 UTC]

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phia343 In reply to Soda-Lupus [2012-08-03 04:04:00 +0000 UTC]

Thank you so much! Sorry I couldn't thank you sooner!

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Soda-Lupus In reply to phia343 [2012-08-04 19:31:43 +0000 UTC]

You're welcome! But what happened?

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phia343 In reply to Soda-Lupus [2012-08-08 23:16:03 +0000 UTC]

Ah, well I kinda stopped getting on dA because it made me think of someone I really didn't want to think about or I'd burst out sobbing.

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Soda-Lupus In reply to phia343 [2012-08-10 02:11:21 +0000 UTC]

I'm sorry to hear that.

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phia343 In reply to Soda-Lupus [2012-08-10 17:51:12 +0000 UTC]

Eh, it's okay. I mean, I'm not over it, but I don't sob as much anymore.

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Soda-Lupus In reply to phia343 [2012-08-17 04:51:28 +0000 UTC]

I'm just glad to know that you are all right. ^_^

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phia343 In reply to Noir-Lupus [2012-08-03 04:03:58 +0000 UTC]

Thank you so much! Sorry I couldn't thank you sooner!

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Noir-Lupus In reply to phia343 [2012-08-03 14:33:45 +0000 UTC]

S'all good! I was worried about you though!

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phia343 In reply to Noir-Lupus [2012-08-08 23:17:48 +0000 UTC]

Ah, your sister said the same thing! I'm fine, Itachi! I'm still pretty upset, but it's okay, 'cause I don't break out sobbing anymore.

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Noir-Lupus In reply to phia343 [2012-08-10 02:57:47 +0000 UTC]

Oh, thank goodness? ^_^ Glad you're doing mostly alright.

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phia343 In reply to Noir-Lupus [2012-08-10 17:50:44 +0000 UTC]

Yup. I'm alive, I guess, heartbroken or not, that's really all that matters right now.

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Noir-Lupus In reply to phia343 [2012-08-11 15:16:54 +0000 UTC]

I'm glad your more or less feeling better. ^_^

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phia343 In reply to HushUyulala [2012-08-03 04:00:32 +0000 UTC]

Thank you so much! Sorry I couldn't thank you sooner!

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phia343 In reply to feels-with-fingers [2012-08-03 04:00:30 +0000 UTC]

Thank you so much! Sorry I couldn't thank you sooner!

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phia343 In reply to Geinkotsu [2012-08-03 04:00:57 +0000 UTC]

Thank you so much! Sorry I couldn't thank you sooner!It was really nice of you to think of me, gein!

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Geinkotsu In reply to phia343 [2012-08-03 05:11:49 +0000 UTC]

No no! It's okay, don't apologize~ And daw. Well, I know it's too late for a birthday present, but maybe I can still draw you something owo <3

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phia343 In reply to Geinkotsu [2012-08-08 23:19:23 +0000 UTC]

Haha, if you want, you can I guess.

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phia343 In reply to chibi95 [2012-08-03 04:03:51 +0000 UTC]

Thank you!

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phia343 In reply to Soda-Lupus [2012-08-03 04:03:43 +0000 UTC]

Thank you so much, it's amazing!

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Soda-Lupus In reply to phia343 [2012-08-04 19:32:04 +0000 UTC]

I'm really glad you like it. ^_^

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phia343 In reply to RaiuKito [2012-06-02 13:48:51 +0000 UTC]

No problem!

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phia343 In reply to Lia-chu [2012-05-30 22:56:22 +0000 UTC]

Oh, so this is about me? Not about you forcing yourself to be with me? Not about you not needing to put yourself through our relationship? Not about how you can't get your act together? Not about you not being able to be happy without neglecting to take your medication? Not about Nikki?

So you think my life would be better if you left me? Wow, you must be blind. That couldn't be further from the truth. I don't think you can see the facts that are right in front of your face, so let me break it down for you, love. I don't think I can be happy without you. You're like a drug, and I'm addicted to you, you make all the pain go away, every minute I spend with you I can't manage to be anything but happy and so, so lucky that someone like you could ever love someone like me. Everybody loves you, Indy. You could replace me easily.

I'm positive my life hasn't been any worse since you've become a part of it, if anything, it's been better. You give me something to look forward to, something to live for. If you were aiming to hurt me, you hit spot on because hearing that you think I could ever hate you hurts much more than hearing you kissed another girl.

You know, I got so upset that my mom and I got in a fight which resulted in my phone breaking. I called Elliot and he came over and comforted me while I cried for a few hours non-stop, asking him how you could ever think it would be a good idea to leave me in the state I'm in. I told him I'd never get over you because I was sure I'd never love anyone as much as I love you. He said maybe you were my soul mate, but maybe I wasn't yours. I told him I wanted to die, he made me promise I would never kill anyone, including myself. I told him I didn't even know if I could keep that promise.

If you think leaving me is a good idea, why don't you come back over here one last time to admire what a mess I am? I haven't gone a single day since I read your message without crying for at least an two hours straight. You know what I did? I was so fucking upset, I decided it would be a good idea to dye my hair. I was about to chop it all off afterwards before my sister walked into the bathroom and found me. I poured myself a nice tall glass of clorox bleach today, but was told to pour it down the drain before I had the chance to drink it. Isabel promised she wouldn't tell if I didn't try it again. It's okay, I realized killing myself now wasn't the best idea anyhow.

Don't feel like I'm forcing you to be with me, because if you don't want me I could never ask you to do such a thing, I want you to be able to be free to do what you want. I'm just saying that breaking up with me could never have helped under the current circumstances, but if you think it's best for yourself, then I'll leave you the hell alone, I'll cut you out of my life and wish you the best of luck out there, hoping you'll find someone who can give you what you need. I love you, and because of that, I want you to be happy, and if I have to let you go to do that, I will.

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Lia-chu In reply to phia343 [2012-05-30 23:19:00 +0000 UTC]

I can't help but feel so sad when I see how unhappy you are with me, it's undeniable that you are. Friday, you wouldn't even look at me. What am I supposed to do? You don't deserve this.

But I believe %100 that you're my soul mate, and just the suggestion of it being possible for you to not exist in this world makes me cry, which is what I'm doing right here, right now, in this emergency room.

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phia343 In reply to Lia-chu [2012-05-30 23:38:58 +0000 UTC]

Oh, god, is that what that was about? What happened on Friday? Shit, I was just upset because I was texting Sean and when I asked him if he really would rather spend his time with the Boltons than with me, he said maybe he would, because I'm not the same person I was last year, I'm a freak now, apparently.
Let's think about this for a second; if I can't be happy with the person I truly believe I want to be with for the rest of my life if possible, who can I be happy with? I'm so happy with you, so happy that you love me that I can't describe how much it hurts for me not to be able to have that. I want you, India, I want to be with you, I want to hear you laugh, I want to see you smile, I want all of you to myself, I love you so much.
Please don't cry.

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Lia-chu In reply to phia343 [2012-05-31 01:46:44 +0000 UTC]

Hey.. are you free tonight?

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