siantjudas In reply to Green-Eyed-Dragoness [2017-04-02 10:53:24 +0000 UTC]

Wow I dont even remember my own one
I guess thank you

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siantjudas In reply to Volancian [2017-01-02 09:24:33 +0000 UTC]

What exactly did I help you with?

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Volancian In reply to siantjudas [2017-01-02 09:25:27 +0000 UTC]

On the forum of course! Your advice inspired me to never seek advice from idiots on the internet again and opened my eyes to just how useless some people are! Happy new years~

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siantjudas In reply to Volancian [2017-01-02 09:26:40 +0000 UTC]

You could have just looked in the mirror.

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Volancian In reply to siantjudas [2017-01-02 09:28:19 +0000 UTC]

How can one get advice from the mirror?
Let me give you some advice, before you come up with a come back that has only been used a billion times beforehand, at least check that it is context.
Oh and I did look in the mirror, and I saw a great person who doesn't waste their life away in front of a screen drunk off their ass.

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siantjudas In reply to Volancian [2017-01-02 09:36:47 +0000 UTC]

Well actually you can, if you look in the mirror and talk to yourself, scientifically you can actually improve yourself. But that's a serious topic for a non serious reply.

Let me give you some advice now. Look, I don't know you, or care who you are. But obviously whatever I said bothered you enough that you decided you needed to personally be vaguely "ironic" as a mechanism to make yourself feel better. And you're welcome to it. I'm sure you need it, but if you're going to call someone out for wasting time, it really doesn't work if you're calling out a drunk who is going to forget this scope of  time anyway, because in that case the only one wasting their time is you isn't it? Hopefully you feel better about whatever I hurt your feelings about, I really do, but honestly grow some skin.

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Volancian In reply to siantjudas [2017-01-02 09:41:38 +0000 UTC]

Talking in the mirror can also lead to other things like hallucinations...

I don't care who you are either honestly. And the reason I came here was because I accidentally closed the forum, and I try to tie up loose ends so i am replying to everyone who commented on it, and that includes you. So actually, you lurking around on forums all day is a much bigger waste of time than me thanking you for your tremendous help and support, hun. As if you care about anyone other than yourself and your useless, selfish ambitions. Oh I looked on my arm, I do have skin thank you for taking the time to care about that <3 Covered in beautiful bruises and scars thanks to those I live with, but hey I don't give a shit unlike you, who seems to have to make some god damned argument over anything. 

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siantjudas In reply to Volancian [2017-01-02 09:44:25 +0000 UTC]

Uh, if you talk in the mirror and hallucinate, I would see a doctor.

And now we start to see where your issues are coming from. Look, if your skin is covered in scars and bruises and need to talk about it, then all you need to do is say so, rather than acting out like child first. I am more than willing the listen and help you with your issues, you don't need to be an ass about it.

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Volancian In reply to siantjudas [2017-01-02 09:46:49 +0000 UTC]

Why bother if you don't live near one?

I don't have to talk about anything. I'm happy just arguing with somebody I don't know, it gives me practice for when i have to stand up for myself. And hey I wasn't trying to be an ass, I would say I was trying to give you a taste of your own medicine. I mean, if somebody wants to make a smart ass comment on my forum then I may as well thank them for it. Your comment actually made my day interesting, I genuinely thank you for that.

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siantjudas In reply to Volancian [2017-01-02 09:56:50 +0000 UTC]

So at what point do you step back and accept most of this current exchange as being related mostly to your own issues? What steps have you taken you taken to improve your live then? We all self medicate, or find ways to deal, as you expressed your love of arguing which is very common. I do that too.

But you also sound very young and not totally aware of the why you are doing what you are doing. Which is what separates you from me. I have spent enough time looking at the hows and whys. I mean lets look at this, your entire last post is basically an apology followed by a rationalization. Looks it's clear you have issues that you need to talk though, and obviously don't have anyone to talk to about them. And you want to pretend like you're this devil may care person publicly, but you can't even keep up that facade because this person screaming for help keeps bursting through.

Look if you want to talk about your issues without having to play the part you are trying to play, you can note me.

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Volancian In reply to siantjudas [2017-01-02 10:17:29 +0000 UTC]

None of it, the fuel to all of this was you putting a smart ass comment on my forum, so I returned the gift. The season of giving may be over but not for me. None, if I can't improve my life then I don't deserve to live it. Mother nature has her ways of picking off the weakest, so I don't mind. Arguing builds reliance and strength.

Trust me, I'm no 11-year old kid sitting with MS pain and a box of orange juice trolling. Excuse me, in you assuming that I have 'no idea what i am doing' you are wrong. I don't usually just sit on deviantart and have long talks with people, because usually it is just a bunch of emotes and all that, which really gets boring after a while. Oh really? Care to go deeper into that? Do you have a degree in psychology? Are you perhaps a medical professional, psychiatrist or something similar? I have no issues I have to talk about, my personal life is a personal thing, and last time I spoke with someone about how I felt, I regretted it for the rest of my life. So I do actually know, from personal experiences that talking with others isn't all that great. Oh look you caught me out. You really are a genius in a mask, congrats. Though I'm not somebody clinging desperately for hope, trust me. I'm happy as I am and don't need any support,  I can move out of home soon and live a life without anybody else. So I'm fine.

By 'play the part' I'm assuming you mean what you said above? I'll pass thanks, I don't really want advice from a total stranger who I've been debating with. I don't care if people see me for who I am. And it's not like people could find this thread easily.

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siantjudas In reply to Volancian [2017-01-02 10:21:40 +0000 UTC]

That was quite the essay for someone who doesn't like wasting their time.
I'm sorry I didn't read most of that. Since you don't need help I stopped reading.

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Volancian In reply to siantjudas [2017-01-02 10:22:56 +0000 UTC]

It's 9pm and nobody is home, it's up to me how I spend my time on my phone.
Great, thanks for stopping! Well I shall block you and forget about you also, have a great day random person.

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siantjudas In reply to Happyjoy [2016-12-04 11:46:10 +0000 UTC]

That doesn't include people who have been to prison, I have only been to jail overnight, that doesn't count like you. I'm sure you can attempt to put me to shame, and fail, but you can at least try. Are the demons in your gallery inspired by real demons, and not metaphorical ones? 

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Happyjoy In reply to siantjudas [2016-12-04 11:51:19 +0000 UTC]

i wasn't trying to put you to shame.

and yes, as real as they can get.

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siantjudas In reply to Happyjoy [2016-12-04 11:58:19 +0000 UTC]

I want to know about them. I have spent most my modern life seeking out people who can see them. I want to know what you know.

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Happyjoy In reply to siantjudas [2016-12-04 12:39:19 +0000 UTC]

well i guess you could say i was textbook possessed when i was a kid, docs couldn't figure out what was wrong. and in later years i found out that like a day before my mom committed me to the mental ward, i had my first good night sleep in like 4-3 years. if that ain't some demonic spirit bullshit playing tricks i dunno what is.

anyway by what family tells me, i was screaming weird shit in my sleep with eyes wide open, kicking and punching everything. something about 'let me go' and 'leave me alone' i dunno, i never talked to anyone about just what exactly i was saying, prolly some profanities too, mom never really explained in detail, i guess she's still kinda freaked out. i can imagine why, holding your child while you're in tears and trying to calm him down with no avail from this totally insane state he's in, completely disregarding you and shouting at things that aren't there, must kinda traumatize you up a bit.

i do remember a few select scenes from my dreams, a few notable ones would be this classic wall of torment, with misshapen hands trying to grasp you, random limbs all over, teeth, raging and crying eyes, you know text book hell.
the other one is these cosmic horror things that were so large i could not grasp their shape, only these two or three planet sized shadows in complete darkness, moving towards me through the blackest void and utter dread muffling my every sense.

this shit was before the internet so i didn't even know these things were common demonic tropes. maybe there's some truth to it.
i dunno, even after all that was over, i never felt they were evil things, i just felt like they were there, maybe they were curious as to how a small child found his way through multiple plains of existence to them.
data.iwastesomuchtime.com/Dece…

anyway it's the reason i draw all these demons, the shit iv'e seen still inspires me.
then again, it could all just be really active imagination. but i like to think otherwise.

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siantjudas In reply to PingasSenpai [2016-11-06 08:51:12 +0000 UTC]

I hope you stop drawing on lined paper.

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siantjudas In reply to NightEsprit [2016-10-02 13:17:50 +0000 UTC]

You seem to like horses and nutella, I'm half and half on that, but find your interest in me being depressing interesting. Why do you think I am depressing, and more interestingly why is that something you like?

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Hi7lerzTacoB3llFar7s In reply to revupthosefryers666 [2016-10-03 00:56:33 +0000 UTC]

Flagged as Spam

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revupthosefryers666 In reply to Hi7lerzTacoB3llFar7s [2016-10-03 04:19:36 +0000 UTC]

mkay

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siantjudas In reply to revupthosefryers666 [2016-09-28 10:40:48 +0000 UTC]

I'm always drunk, where have you been?

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revupthosefryers666 In reply to siantjudas [2016-09-28 19:58:38 +0000 UTC]

hell

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siantjudas In reply to revupthosefryers666 [2016-09-30 10:34:52 +0000 UTC]

sounds like fun

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revupthosefryers666 In reply to siantjudas [2016-09-30 20:34:36 +0000 UTC]

I'm the hall monitor there

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siantjudas In reply to revupthosefryers666 [2016-10-02 10:51:50 +0000 UTC]

No one likes a snitch.

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revupthosefryers666 In reply to siantjudas [2016-10-02 18:28:41 +0000 UTC]

I mostly shit on everyone who enters

I got fired in two days

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siantjudas In reply to AwesomeKaishi [2016-09-21 12:18:44 +0000 UTC]

Well that was a waste of time then? Don't you think?

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siantjudas In reply to amazon211 [2016-09-02 09:35:35 +0000 UTC]

I'm sure I deserve that, but please tell me why.

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siantjudas In reply to Luckyducky12 [2016-08-29 10:08:12 +0000 UTC]

I'm working on it, I have volumes of written backstory in prep for it.

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siantjudas In reply to Drunkenstien [2016-07-03 10:48:07 +0000 UTC]

the saint or the judas?

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Drunkenstien In reply to siantjudas [2016-07-03 10:54:19 +0000 UTC]

For some reason, I actually have a family member named Robert who has a DeviantArt account on here. And this may sound crazy, but I thought you actually him for a second since he tried describing his old username to me, and since it started with an S or something, I was scared to think I was talking to him but in reality I figured out that he never really went to college for all I know...

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siantjudas In reply to Drunkenstien [2016-07-03 10:56:19 +0000 UTC]

Wow your thought processes are worse than mine, and I drink perpetually and have a brain riddled with holes from drugs. Why would you even think that?

Robert is a really common name dude, and 1 letter out of 24? Unless of course you're obviously stoned.

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Drunkenstien In reply to siantjudas [2016-07-03 11:03:15 +0000 UTC]

Dude, look I'm dead ser- forget it, you're not gonna believe me.

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siantjudas In reply to Drunkenstien [2016-07-03 11:08:25 +0000 UTC]

Because your 15 and have been through oh so much shit right? And things people couldn't believe right?
Been there done that. And honestly a lot more since then.

Considering that I have and arm covered in scars, including 7 cigarette burns, that I watched my son die from something most people don't think exists. The difference is that you still think your 15 year old shit is the end all of existence, and is "too horrible to speak". Or rather, you still think that pretending that it's too dark to speak makes it deeper than it is, gives you that air of mystery you so desperately crave.

But the first stage in progress is talking about your shit, and stop shoving it into the shadows.

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