twigirl2 In reply to UrsulaDecay [2015-09-08 17:06:09 +0000 UTC]

but i am your biggest fan now! your art is amazing <3

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UrsulaDecay In reply to twigirl2 [2015-09-08 22:22:53 +0000 UTC]

awwwww ; u ; <3!

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twigirl2 In reply to nnylear [2013-10-25 16:40:16 +0000 UTC]

you're welcome i love your story and your sister's drawings <3

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nnylear In reply to twigirl2 [2013-10-29 13:41:52 +0000 UTC]

You've read my story? Cool! I'm so pleased that you like it! Thanks for everything!

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twigirl2 In reply to nnylear [2013-10-30 13:31:48 +0000 UTC]

How can i not!! The way you write is amazing and you inspire me!

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nnylear In reply to twigirl2 [2013-10-31 12:54:43 +0000 UTC]

Your words mean a lot to me! I'm currently trying to get back into writing after this break I've been on! What a vacation it's been! Time to buckle down now!

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twigirl2 In reply to nnylear [2013-10-31 17:19:11 +0000 UTC]

Yey! you made studying for my exams a lot easier last year and i could go on and say many more beatiful things about your writing but i guess you had enough). Do you have facebook? I would like to know you better

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nnylear In reply to twigirl2 [2013-11-01 01:07:14 +0000 UTC]

Haha, sorry no I don't! I always have trouble signing into sites, save for fanfiction, but that's because I actually go on there on a daily basis! I've really been thinking of getting more into the social network places! Do you have an account on fanfiction? I could never have enough praise! Lol! It makes me happy! I always wanted to create something, like a story, that would make the day just that much better like chocolate or something, so I'm glad it helped with your exams. Exams can be very icky, I know! If you have questions, you can ask away! Currently, I'm working with my beta on several different things. We've been busy this week now that I'm trying update. I hope I can have an update this week, but I don't want to make promises. I'm trying!

By the way, I love your photos! As you can tell in my story, I use a lot of nature scenes!!!

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twigirl2 In reply to nnylear [2013-11-07 19:59:06 +0000 UTC]

I just saw that you posted a new chapter!!! Im sooo excited!!
I used to love photography a few years ago but now i really enjoy drawing. I do have an account but i dont think i will ever post a story, i had some ideas in the past though. I admire that you had the patience to continue writing after many years. I also love writing, you reminded me that.
I live in a small country from Europe, i hope you are proud of yourself for connecting so many different people with your story.
I have a few questions! What job do you have? How old are you? Do you still watch anime?
I will think of a few more but i have to read something very important now!

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nnylear In reply to twigirl2 [2013-11-08 00:24:51 +0000 UTC]

It really is mind blowing about all the different people that have read my story. I'm from the states. I live in the central part out in the country surrounded by farms and ranches (except I don't live on one). I've never been out of the US. When I first started writing, I didn't know what to expect. I was a kid. Barely fourteen. So, over the years, after getting to know more and more people from fanfiction, I was introduce to some many people from different places in the world. It's amazing!!!

I just turned 24 on Oct. 27th. I feel old, but I'm not yet in my mid-twenties! Haha! As for my job, well I had a lot. I worked in a chicken restaurant after high school. I worked at a factory and as a cashier to help pay for college. Then, I realized I was unhappy with school because I wanted to be a write. So I quit. A lot of people were mad, because I lost my scolars, but I was happy for the first time. Then, I worked with people with special needs for about a year before eventually becoming a stay-at-home caregiver for my mom. I'm kind of like a nurse but I don't have the credentials.

The only anime I've ever saw from beginning to end was Yu Yu Hakusho. I have the set, but when I first started Yu Yu, I watched all kinds from DBZ to Inuyasha. I am a fan of Miyazaki's works like Totoro and Howl's Moving Castle. A big fan. I love the animation of his works. I haven't seen anything new lately, but I have a friend who sends me a few animes from time to time.

How about you? To all of the questions! What were your ideas for stories?

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twigirl2 In reply to nnylear [2013-11-11 20:50:21 +0000 UTC]

How is it posible that you make me feel so many emotions at the same timeeee! I havent finished the chapter yet because of school but i am reading it now. I love how you can concentrate to write from so many perspectives.
I am now in the same situations as you were! I study economics but i do it so i can have a well paid job to support my mother and sister. But i wish i could quit so i can do what i love and that is drawing. I know i cant and i will try and do them both.
I hope i dont mess up the grammer to much, i am not used to write in english so much.
I love anime, and i usually find time to watch some.
I just turned 21 and i feel old tooo, maybe because this is the time when i have to decide my future. I find it so hard.
Have you writen novels or short stories? I would buy them.
Do you read?
How is your mother feeling?

I cant believe i am actually talking to you!

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nnylear In reply to twigirl2 [2013-11-12 05:09:04 +0000 UTC]

Well, when I first joined fanfiction as a young girl of 13, I had read a few amazing stories that are, sadly, no longer apart of the site. They were so amazing. The authors could paint such pretty pictures, making me feel mad, sad, happy, and all over again. They had some kind of amazing power! I thought it must be so... awe-like to be able to make someone feel so much.

So I was inspired! I wanted to be able to do the same and I worked at it. I was really shy and didn't think I could do it, but I wanted to write something so powerful that it would pull on a reader out there to be a writer or too - like how those unknown authors did for me. I want people to know they can finish things and keep going, even with something as little as fanfiction. That's my goal!

I had two stories on fanfiction, and they did okay, but very light, humorous, and fluffy compare to the story I have now. I wasn't all that known - hardly at all. Then, I started HBL, but after a few chapters, I left it and my other stories for a few years because of high school and stuff. When I came back, my two other stories were deleted for some unknown reason by the site. All I had was HBL and so I kept at it.

I write from many perspectives, because I want to grow more flawless in it. I like the challenge of trying to write out a character!

You can do both. Drawing will always be there as long as you don't push it away. I tried to do that by pushing away what I wanted and it hurt a lot. Just hang onto it, focus on what you need to, and keep your dream close to you. It'll all work out. I promise! I've been there and it's the best advice I can offer. I'm also been telling my sister the same thing. Just don't give up on it.

The future is hard, but it's supposed to be. When you get over the hurdles, you'll understand yourself more than ever. That's when you grow up.

No, I don't have any novels. I'm working on some other stories for fanfiction - probably not for Yu Yu, but other sections where I'm not known. I have some personal stories I am working on because I am going to write a book! I'm just not there yet. My beta encourages me all the time and has been working with me on several things. She's been the best help and I can't thank her enough.

Yes, I do read! I love Harry Potter, Stephen King books, Anne Rice, Twilight, and a lot of classical novels like Wuthering Heights and Pride and Prejudice. My problem is that I read too much and lose concentration on everything else around me. So I try to keep to a schedule! I also love movies! I watch at least two a day! And music is something constant for me!

My mom is great! She won't be able to walk again, maybe never, but she is working on upper body strength. My brother and I go to therapy with her everyday and my entire family has finally recovered from her accident last year. We can't wait for the holidays now.

Don't be shy to talk to me! I'm just like you, really. I'm a plain Jane, lol!

Currently stuck writing my next chapter so I took a break to talk to you! I'm ready to finish it, hopefully before Thursday, but it also depends on how fast my beta goes through it. Editing takes so long, not because of grammar, but just reading through it all over and over just to get it clean as possible.

Your grammar is fine! Trust me!!!

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twigirl2 In reply to nnylear [2013-11-12 17:57:52 +0000 UTC]

Thank you for giving me advice, i wasnt expecting that. It is a little hard because people see drawing as an imature thing, especially since i want to draw to make little kids happy.
I also have a little sister and i try to teach her everything i learned the hard way.
I read classical books too. I am obsessed actually.

I am glad your mother is great. You seem an united family. And being positive is the most important thing i guess, i always feel better whan i spend time with my mother who is the most full of positive energy woman on earth.
I find it funny, and also amazing, sometimes that we talk about serios things and it all started because of an old anime.
I also feel i say that i do many thins like you but i love movies and tv shows and i listen to music to much i think.

I think that one of the great parts of your story that attracted me from the beggining is the fact that i can relate with your main character. I forget, lose and ruin things all day, and the bad part is that i have an extremely arrogant boyfriend that reminds me of how clumsy i am and has to deal with me. I usually lose his things! Its funny but i learned to accept and be more conscious about that part of me by reading how your character deals with it.
I was thinking today that you must have been or still are in love if you write so perfect about this kind of feelings. Do you have a boyfriend?

I think this will be a looong message....

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nnylear In reply to twigirl2 [2013-11-13 03:50:59 +0000 UTC]

What classical books have you read? I'm trying to get a collection going, but I've only read a few. Wuthering Heights is by far my favorite.

We are a united family now. We've never been the loving type where we displayed our affections with kisses and hugs, but we do love each other. It was really hard after the accident and it should have broken us, but it didn't. My brother and I moved back home and now we just all stay in the same house until things become more stable. I never really thought I had such a strong family, but trying times bring out the best in us.

I am in love with acoustic music at the moment, but I enjoy all kinds. Like when I was really young, I was so into Spice Girls. Haha! Then, Cher - er, hey, she still has some great songs! I love Linkin Park, Evanescence, and such, but also Utada and Bic Runga. Now, I'm currently obsessed with Florence + the Machines, Ellie Goulding, Lana Del Rey, Ben Howard, and Mumford & Sons.

I like Karen! She's not me though - I mean, no offense for my this term, but I'm not white. I'm Native American! Karen's appearance is still a mystery to me, but that's how she appeared on my computer. She's based off of so many women - my friends, sisters, and even strangers. I find her unique. Her traits are almost entirely her own. It's weird! So many told me they can relate to her thinking or actions. And some others say they've been able to overcome some situations because of the similiar situations in my story, like it was some sort of advice column or guide. I find that cool and interesting! Never thought about that!

I do seem to write love so well, don't I?

I doubt I could have written as far with the story as when I had begun it at such a young age.

Yes, I've been in love once! I met him in College, but he didn't go to the University. I worked with him in this small store when I was working my way through my studies. He was so odd - almost like a shaggy skaterpunk that was hardly sober, but he wasn't anything like that. I kept to myself and he was just so intense. We didn't talk for the longest time even though we were stuck, just the two of us, working all the time in the evenings. Then, I don't know. One day he just made me laugh.

He was something else though. He was funny, intelligent, a huge dreamer, and extremely courageous. He had sort of a dare devil streak. He even volunteered as a fire fighter, but he was injured and suffered some burns on half of his face. I still thought he was handsome. He wasn't all that and a bag of chips to everyone else, but he was beautiful to me. I took care of him when he got hurt. But, he still had dreams to join the Air Force. It was what he wanted above all else and when he was finally recovered, he went back to pursuing that dream. I didn't stop him. How could I? I loved that quality about him.

He changed me though, made me better. He was the one that told me take hold of my own life. And I knew, in a way, that I would never love anyone else, not like him.

He got accepted into the Air Force when I was 22. It was so hard, but we both knew it would be for the best that we move on without each other. I was at a stage in my life where I still needed to figure out my own life and live my dreams. He needed to be up their living his dreams. It was perhaps the greatest and hardest decision in my life to make in letting him go, but I don't regret it. My best friend and mother didn't understand. He would have taken me with him, but if he had done that, he would have felt guilty for keeping me from my dreams and leaving me on my own too much. I knew it was the right thing to do though, but I did suffer a broken heart. I was in so much pain, but now I'm just happy, knowing he's living his dream and doing good for the world and I'm finally understanding who I am now.

He kind of reminded me of Kuwabara or something. He wasn't like Hiei at all, but I am able to understand love and I'm guessing it shows?

I'm just glad I got to experience love like that, but I know I'll find someone again! I'm still young! But I don't think it will be as powerful as it was with him.

These are long messages.... lol!

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twigirl2 In reply to nnylear [2013-11-13 11:17:16 +0000 UTC]

I wrote this message 3 times before because i accidentally deleted it or deviantart wasnt working!!
Im home now and i hope i will finish writing before 12 am...I was in school today when i read your messange and it helped me a lot, i had the most annoying course.

Wuthering Heights made me love reading. I love all the Bronte sisters but i think Emily is the powerfull one. Thomas Hardy, Emile Zola, Oscar Wilde and Jane Austen, i love them all! Although Raymond Chandler is my favorite writer. Have you read his novels?

I listen to all kinds of music, from Selena Gomez to Enigma. Except Spice Girls of course...just kiding.
I live in a defferent city than my mother because of school and i see her 2 days a week. Its so hard. I cant wait for the winter holidays!!! We also found out how much we need and love each other when we went through a hard time, when my parents divorced. but we are better then ever now.

I had to choose between somethings that i wanted and my boyfriend at some point and i chose him. That is because he helps me discover myself and i feel like i have so much to learn from him. But i am not the strong type so i think you were very brave and mature to take such a decision. Do you still talk to him?

I finished reading the chapter and i wish i could give you an helpful review but all i can think about is: awesome! perfect! mooooreeeee moooreeeee!

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nnylear In reply to twigirl2 [2013-11-13 16:43:48 +0000 UTC]

No, I've never read Raymond Chandler, but I'm just getting started into classical works. I've only read one Jane Austen book sadly ( bur I've seen the movies of a few ). I want to read more of her works. I have a friend who writes poetry and is introducing me to suck works. I've been working on interpretating the meanings of poems. I find extremely challenging, almost frustrating, but I'm starting to understand more complex metaphors with her help. I could never write a poem though.

and I struggle with Shakespeare works. I just can't stand it. I try but I lose interest for some reason. I'm sure I'll work my way into his stuff eventually.

I'm loving winter. I love the cold more so than summer. I find snow beautiful. It must be hard to not see your mother so much. Sadly, I kind of miss living on my own and especially having my own bathroom. I miss taking bubble baths but there's no time with how crowded it is. Still, there's always something going on and there's plenty of mischief from my younger siblings.

You and your boyfriend seem close! You're still just as strong picking him . No, I don't talk to him. I think it would have made it harder, but I know he's loving what he's doing and that makes me happy.

Thanks for reading and I am happy you enjoy it. I just finished writing the next chapter last night and I sent it to my beta for some advice on it cause I was wondering if I made the right choice in keeping it as is. It was supposed to cover many concepts, but I realized it needed extreme focus on just Karen and Hiei. She loved it! So now I just wait until she edits it. Then I read it again for one last check . Hopefully I get it up tomorrow night or Friday!

And I drank so much coffee...

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twigirl2 In reply to nnylear [2013-11-13 19:49:08 +0000 UTC]

I find poetry so hard to fully understand so i tried to avoid it. My boyfriend wrote a few thogh. "boyfriend" sounds so impersonal, he is the love of my life actually. We are close, we live together and we are in the same class at university. So i can relate to Karens love and her fear of losing Hiei.
The past few months i was thinking about having my own apartment, i never had my own room so i know i would love it. I allways have problems with decorating because i stay in my boyfriend's room and he likes everything as it is and i want flowers everywhere!! (we also live with his parents and little brother).

I realized i havent thanked you when you said you liked my photos. Thanks! I used to love photography, and i really thought that i would be a photographer, i guess i changed a lot since then. I use deviantart to get inspiration for my drawings now. And to talk to you of course!
You mentioned your beta a few times, she seems like a great person. But, can you explain what a beta does? I never seem to learn about the rules and ways of functioning of a site, fanfiction or deviantart, i feel like an outsider because of this!!!

Yayyy!!! More hiei and karen!!! I cant wait, i will problably be on my way to my family when i will read the new chapter.
You cant imagine how much you help me with learning how to write in english!

Coffe isnt good for your health!!!

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nnylear In reply to twigirl2 [2013-11-14 10:37:22 +0000 UTC]

I like to decorate my room with books. I have so much right now, but no shelf. I should be getting some supplies soon for some quick shelves to fix up on to my walls because my books are over running my desk and room. I have them everywhere. I gess I'm still getting used to be back home and even though it's been nearly two years since I moved back home, I have yet to really get my stuff situated. Plus, when I get into writing I kind of put a lot of things on the back burner. I'm going through a creative stage right now where I keep writing odd things, some for my story, and some that are pieces all on their own. My beta believes its a good thing and a few great stories may come for it so she reminds me to save all the balls of paper I have littering my room from where I throw them in frustration. So I've kept them!

Yes, I loved your photos. I use so much imagery of nature in my story because I live out in the country and I see a lot of things out here that I'm able to describe them in great detail. Are you going to post drawings up? I don't think I've seen any in your gallery.

I don't know too many terms on fanfiction either because I disappear a lot from it, but I just learned about betas this year. I was coming back into writing and I had rewritten my entire store before posting a new chapter early January, I think, when I realized that it would be great if I had a second pair of eyes to read through my stuff - but I didn't how to go about doing that. Ali was a fan of my story and she always kindly pointed out small grammar mistakes I had missed. Then, we got to talking and she excitedly asked if I was interested in having a beta or really what it is, is an editor. I was wary cause I have done things on my own for so long, but I knew it would be helpful. We tried it out and its been great. Everyone makes mistakes with grammar because writing styles vary, but now that I have Ali, my chapters have less mistakes. I don't do too bad. She only corrects things I always seemed to miss, but she also gives me advice, helps me when I'm stuck by going through ideas I have, gives well rounded opinions, and even has added some plots which I've credited her for. Like when I was approaching the more rated scenes (lemons), she was a great help. I was kind of nervous, but I did great with it all. I always get nervous when I upload a chapter though for some reason. For some reason, I feel like no one will like or something. It's odd! She soothes my nerves though because she's also a fan of the story. She's excitedly told me that she would follow me in whatever other fandom I decided to start in because I'm thinking of leaving the anime section for a bit - spreading my wings. We're staying busy!

She's also become such a close friend! She lives all the way in Canada, but we talk all the time. Sometimes, especially with this recent break we've had from fanfiction for a few months, we just talked about random things. I really can't thank her enough for all that she does.

I know coffee isn't good, but for some reason I only drink it in winter. I need to get some green tea! I just have such early mornings and I am never fully awake when meeting my mother's doctors. It feels so odd being a caregiver because I have to present for any change in doctors or medications. I handle it all.

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twigirl2 In reply to nnylear [2013-11-14 11:51:32 +0000 UTC]

I dont think i will post any drawings soon. I havent found my own style yet and i am just copying other drawings. I feel like i am so far from finding my own way but i cant wait for it to happen. I want to express myself through drawing as much as possible. I have so many images in my head that i want to see in reality.

That is what i want to do with my room too! When i will have one. I want books everywhere!!

I love nature! I have grandparents who live in the country but i visit them rarely. But every time i come back from them i almost feel depressed! I love the stars and just the freedom you have there.
Im lucky i have my boyfriend, otherwise i wouldnt wake up in the mornings. He sometimes has to literally drag me out of bed, its funny.

I am at an international workshop now and everyone speaks english!!! I love it!!
Do you speak other languages?

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nnylear In reply to twigirl2 [2013-11-16 02:47:26 +0000 UTC]

My sister copies drawings! She says it helps keep her in the mood and gives her ideas for her own drawings. There are ton of things she's drawn that she has not yet placed on deviant, but she keeps them in her books. I'm not sure about her art process. I just know that sometimes she draws in the middle of the night or when she's in some sort of mood. She's real into her art, like if she gets a new sketch book, she won't let me touch it after she has done something and needs for it to be scanned. She tells me to wash my hands. Hahah!

One day, I'm gonna get a big house and one room is going to be a library with floor to ceiling shelves of books, like in the movie Beauty and The Beast. Have you seen that? I want a huge private library like that!

No, I don't speak other languages. I mean, I know a bit of words from a few, but not enough to just speak it. Like, I know your typical Japanese words like those for cute and hello. I know some spanish because my friend is Mexican and I spent a lot of my childhood with her family and she mine. They would speak constantly in Spanish sometimes and when we went out to eat, they always went to places that were strictly spoken in spanish. I learned to order my food in Spanish. My bestie would help me of course, but I usually always get the same meal anyway! I know some words from my heritage, but I'm apart of four different Native American tribes. Out of them, only two I'm really familiar with. I can say a few words to get me away with a graceful nod to an elder or something. The languages are dying out though, so not many speak it.

How about you? What are your languages? How was the international workshop? I've never been to one of those!

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twigirl2 In reply to nnylear [2013-11-16 12:12:21 +0000 UTC]

Yes yes! I want that kind of library too. But mine will also have a big desk were i will draw and big windows!
I would love to see more of her drawings! I like my sketch book to look messy and used and old, that is the same with my books. I want them to feel lile thay i only mine i guess.
I only know english beside my own language and i am trying to learn french. With english it was easy because i have grown with it and i love it!
I used to hate french but i know i have to learn another language to raise my chances of getting hired.
The international workshop was mainly about promoting the culture from the city i study in. There were presentations in french, english and german. I didnt understand them all but i learned a lot.
Its so interesting to read about your heritage! Tell me more!! Do you keep old customs?

I have read the new chapter! I swear im gonna read it again! It was so beautiful. Again made me see things i missed in my relationship.
I read one a review you got from a girl and she said she was worried that the main characters wont remain together at the end of the story and that made me realise that you can do that! You can make them go separate roads!! That scares me.
I find this interesting. Are you influenced in writing the story by what the readers say?

I am writing from my phone and it is kinda hard to check for any spelling mistakes. I also have a problem with the words that have dubble letters or not. I think i confuse those a lot lol.

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nnylear In reply to twigirl2 [2013-11-18 00:53:06 +0000 UTC]

What is your own language? I want to speak Japanese and latin, but latin is something that would take a lifetime alone I heard because its a very ancient language, but it would be interesting to speak it!

Well, I'm apart of four tribes: Seminole, Kiowa, Hopi and Navajo. So I'm pretty spread out in that diversity. I only know Seminole and Hopi, but not well enough just the dances they celebrate and some old customs like spirits in everything like trees or earth. They can go by animals too - like my mom is affliated with coyotes while my dad is alligator. Children naturally take after the mother, but since I'm not registered with her tribe and her tribe lives far away from us, I'm an alligator like Dad. The customs confuse me some, but most of the traditions have died out. I wish I knew what the Kiowas were like but my Dad constantly says that my sisters and I get our long, thick black hair from them. I guess they had pretty hair? Haha! Too bad I cut mine a year ago, but it's still thick!

Am I influenced by the readers? No, well, somewhat, but not too much. For instance, the lemon or sex scene I did that was more for the readers, because little young me years ago had never saw that coming, but older me wanted to expand on my writing skills and try it. It worked well. It's just that as I've grown, so has the story and readers. We're not little teens anymore but older and more mature. So I did introduce that into my story. I do take suggestions and requests into consideration, but more of to help with my own plotting. I did watch carefully and see how everyone feels about a certain scene. Lately, there have been many requests and suggestions, so my beta and I are going over some things that we had planned. Nothing's changing from the way the story will turn out, but heeding suggestions along the ride is something I wouldn't mind doing - it would make me feel closer to the readers and let them know I'm listening to them, which of course I do.

I write from my phone sometimes, too, and get lazy with correcting myself. I just have to hope the person I'm writing to understands! Lol. Today, I'm writing from my laptop though and that makes everything easier.

I was wondering if you celebrate Thanksgiving or something similiar. Over here in the states, it is almost Thanksgiving and my family has been talking about the feast we're going to be having just for our little family. I can't wait! I'm gonna make a pie, not sure what kind, but some kind of pie.

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twigirl2 In reply to nnylear [2013-11-21 18:28:12 +0000 UTC]

Hey! Sorry for not responding for so long, i was busy with school. i hope you still remember me!

Have you heard of Roumania?My language is romanian, it i based on latin so i understand a little latin and other languages related to it like spanish.

I cant believe a week has passed again. But i am happy i will read a new chapter just in time! Because i can relax now since i finished my school projects.
We dont have thanksgiving but i wish we would, it sounds interesting and my family needs to gather in one place more often.
When is thanksgiving?
Do you like to cook? I used to hate but i konw that at some point i will have to do it. I hope i will make something acceptable at least. I dont want to scare my boyfriend away.
How has your week?

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nnylear In reply to twigirl2 [2013-11-24 11:38:26 +0000 UTC]

Of course I still remember you!!! Why wouldn't I?  

How was school? Hope it wasn't giving you too much trouble!

I've never heard anyone speak Romanian. I wonder what it sounds like!

Thanksgiving is this upcoming Thursday and then after that, well for here, it's Black Friday. It's not an official holiday, but it's when all these stores open up early in the morning and the have all sorts of deals like half off and other outrageous prices for holiday shopping. People go crazy and lines are chaotic. We don't usually go, but sometimes we will just to see how crazy it is. Maybe my sister and I will do that this Friday. They also have lottery drawings and everything. Very busy day of the year for the States.

Um, I'm not all that great of a cook. I mean, my cooking isn't horrendous. I've never burnt anything. People will eat it and it'll satisfy their hunger, but I'm not talented with cooking. My brother is a pro at cooking though. He's always cooking something delicious. I think I bake better than I cook. Still, I'm not the best. Like with pancakes, I can never get them to come out all nice, smooth, and round. They just break and the batter splatters everywhere.

You won't scare him away with your food!

It's getting cold here and snowing! Except the snow melted before it could hit the ground and turned into rain. So, the rain made everything slick and their were some power outages. People always seem to panick whenever their is bad weather. I went out today despite my mom telling me that it might be too dangerous. It wasn't. It was cold, but not dangerous. I took my brother's truck and drove out to do some early Christmas shopping. I am now finished with it all and I feel accomplished! Yay!

Do you celebrate Christmas? Is it snowing there? Do you get a lot of snow? We get a few inches now and then, but not a lot. I like snow, so maybe we'll get some by Christmas!

How are you?

Sorry for all the questions!

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twigirl2 In reply to nnylear [2013-11-25 15:55:06 +0000 UTC]

Its busy at school again. I have to participate in different prijects and workshops if i even want an employer to look at my CV so thats why it is a little hard.
I recently went to show organised for some poor little kids to brighten their day and they were so happy and they were participating, i didnt espected that! That show gave me so much positive energy! I will try and find other ways to help them. I love little kids. If it wont work with economy i will be a teacher in kindergarten.

It is something new but we also have black friday. I hope i will go shopping with my mother and sister especially because its my mothers birthday on friday!

It started raining and snowing here today!! In a few days we will have snow. I love cold weather, i like being worm and cozy and also love the smell of sonw! We get a lot of snow all the month of december! Sometimes its bad because its to cold and traffic is slowed down and i know its wierd but my mother slips on ice EVERY year, my and my sister always tell her to be carefull.
We celebrate Christmas but i feel that every year the traditions die a little bit. They are so different from the ones you have.
Are you a religious person?

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nnylear In reply to twigirl2 [2013-11-27 04:10:37 +0000 UTC]

I know what you mean about Christmas losing its traditions every year. When I was a little girl, I used to love when Christmas came around because it felt magical or something. I guess it ends when you find out Santa and such aren't real or something? Now, Christmas just seems to be all about the gifts, like everyone focuses too much on presents and expecting to received something back because of it. I miss the generosity and magic that came with Christmas. It's such a stressful time and whenever I go out around Christmas time I can see all this scary anger on people's face when they shop. I once saw two women fighting over some sort of pillow pet last year. It was sad.

Have you seen The Grinch? There's a little girl on there that sings Where Are You Christmas by Faith Hill and I always thought that summed up how I felt about Christmas.

Maybe that's why I like Thanksgiving. It's just family and food. Nothing else so it's not tainted.

And maybe my musing are silly, too.

I'm not a religious person, no. My family isn't either, but we have tried a few times, not together, but each attempting to hold onto some sort of faith. I went to church a few times with friends, but church seemed so wrong to me. All I could remember were gossiping women and men looking at women. Most church goers I have met or people of the faith were never as I imaginged them to be. They were kind of like... liars to their religion. I think the most good natured people I have ever met where those that didn't practice a religion, but I have met some good religious followers, too. It gives me hope.

With mom's accident, I searched high and low for a religion. I read the Bible from front to back, over and over. I guess I thought stupidly if I tried, then God could give back my mother's legs and make things back to how they were, but nothing happened. It was foolish. For a long time, I thought we had done something so bad to warrant such punishment because last year was a really hard time for us all. Then, I just decided to be faithful in myself. I'm strong enough to make it in the world and so is my family.

Maybe when I'm older and ready to be want to pick up religion, study it and be faithful, I'll do so, but I would hate to take on any religion knowing that I can't do that yet. I don't want to just take it up because it'll give me a place in heaven or keep me from hell, as some religious people have told me. This one person told me I would go to hell if I didn't ask God for forgiveness and follow his faith, but she was kind of... arrogant. I think I'll just take my chances. I'm not afraid and if there is a God, I think he knows I'm good. I try to be anyways!

So there's my rants!!!

Even if you don't celebrate Thanksgiving and if I don't get to you by Thursday, then Happy Thanksgiving from America!

Loves!

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twigirl2 In reply to nnylear [2013-11-30 21:36:07 +0000 UTC]

hey, i hope you had a beautiful thanksgiving!

i spent it with those kids i told you about. there was a talent show organised for them and it went great. one little girl just came to me and hugged me. i wanted to cryy.

i know Christmas has changed but i still feel something magical every year on december. this year i want to be in the Christmas spirit as long as i can. i even made a list of themed movies i will watch. it includes The Grinch. i love that movie. do you have any recommendations?

i was so disappointed of this year's black friday. there werent any good sales. have you bought something?

i understand how you feel. i also lost my faith. i think it was because i got tired of blaming myself for what my parents did and also because there were no answers for my prayers. i feel better now because i understand that not everything thats happening is because of me and i can accept the bad things easier. also when you see so much hate and saddens around how can you believe there is someone that takes care of us. i think the Bible had a part too, i tried to read it but everything seemed so cold and cruel.

im glad i can talk to you about these things, i cant really admit that i dont believe in god here. i almost lost a friend when i told her and my sister was mad when she found out. my mother dosent know yet.

its so weird that we are so many kilometers apart but our cultures have things in common. its a normal thing at our churches to see gossiping women. my grandmother used to take us to church when we were young and she would always say things like "dont wear that because people will look at you" or "sit this way and act that way" it actually made me despise those people. 

i think i change the subjects to directly, but do your friends and family know about your story? have they read it?

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nnylear In reply to twigirl2 [2013-12-02 05:17:16 +0000 UTC]

I never did get why clothes were such important part in going to church. I mean, it's not a fashion show. I'm glad I can talk to you about religious beliefs, too, as there are few people you can discuss such things with without having them criticize you or try to get you to just suddenly accept a certain faith. Everyone is free to believe in their own faiths and it takes time, too, I think.

Besides The Grinch, let's see what other christmas movies... I'm not sure! I know that we have the classic cartoon Christmas movies like Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer and Frosty The Snowman that we watched around this time, especially my baby sister. She's been watching them non-stop and we just let it play over and over until someone decides to change it and watch something else. Oh, there's Jack Frost where this boys dad was a musician but he died in a car accident. Well, the boy wishes for Christmas for his dad to come back to him. So his dad comes back at a snowman. That's always fun and magical. I like it. I always watch a lot of Scrooge movies because there's so many. I haven't watched the animated Jim Carrey Mr. Scrooge one yet though. What about Narnia?

Well, I've never told them directly. I always wrote late at night and kept it as a secret hobby because I was pushed to study all the time or practice sports year round (my family is big on sports like softball and basketball - we have all-stars in my family). Then, when I told my parents I was quitting school to pursue a writing a book they were kind of... not angry, but unsure of what to do because I always did what was expected of me. They supported me though and knew I needed the break from school. I always knew I could go back to school, but I needed to figure out what I wanted in my life. So I worked a lot, moved back with them until I got back on my feet, and decided there was no better place to pick writing back up than my own fan fic story. Of course, mom's accident happened and I ended up having to quit my job to take care of her. Things have worked out though.

My sister found my story by chance. I never knew she read fan fics. I knew she liked anime and she reads manga, but I didn't think she read fan fics. When I started posting my chapters this year around March, she found my story and began reading it. She would always see me up late at night typing or reading my notes. Plus, she said my pen name was like others in that I didn't have like 'kuramas fangirl', 'iluvanime', or some type of japanese name. Anyways, she asked if I wrote HBL and I was going to lie, but I didn't. So she reads it and always tries to find out what's going to happen next, but not even I let my sister know what is going on. It does help that she knows though because I can discuss things with her, too.

Well naturally since my sister knows so does the rest of my family. No one has read it besides my sister, but they do know I write something on the internet. Mom wants to read it, but I told her she couldn't because she wouldn't know what was going on unless she watched the anime. That's just me keeping her from reading it, hahah! Not ashamed, just unsure of how they would think of me given how... adventurous and romantic my story is.

I am working on my own book, but it may be awhile before I am finished. It may be even longer for me to gather up the courage to try and publish, but it'll happen on its own time. I am in no rush. I know it'll happen because if anything I am not a quitter. I do give my all and try before I ever decided to drop something like school. I did my best there, it just wasn't making me happy. For now, I'm experimenting with my story by writing things I'm not comfortable with (like lemons!), new genres and scenes (because I do so many like action, suspence, and romance, maybe even horror if I think about it), and different character POVs - just working out my flaws and hardening my writing skills. It's helping greatly! Plus, my beta encourages me a lot.

Does your family know you can draw? Did they know of your photographs? I think I saw a photo of yours where your sister was a model for one of them so she knows, yeah?

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twigirl2 In reply to nnylear [2013-12-06 17:17:52 +0000 UTC]

i will watch all them, i hope! i love Jim Carrey! i started reading  A Christmas Carol and i love it so far.

My family knows  i can draw but they don't know that i want to make a career out of it. and i dont think that they would understand anyway. like i said before, i feel that drawing isn't taken so serious here. but i am going to do it anyway. its also hard because i dont know exactly what i want to do. i have a few ideas but i am the type of person that cant decide over anything! and i am a little afraid since i feel alone in this.

i will have to tell my sister though, she can give me advice, she is more talented then me at drawing but i feel a little intimidated. she wants to be a fashion designer.

im sorry for responding so late, i hope you don't think im rude. the exams are coming so we have tests and projects to do.  i am so afraid i have 7 exams to take and only a month to study. i am a little lazy when it comes to studying so i need to always be motivated and i don't feel like that at all!!

i havent read the last two chapters of your story. i cant believe it! i will soon.

how have you been? 

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nnylear In reply to twigirl2 [2013-12-14 10:27:14 +0000 UTC]

 I'm sorry, I've been so sick as of late with a nasty case of the flu. I was practically in a daze for the last week or so and couldn't do much of anything except sleep and sleep. I blame a majority of my drowsiness on the multitude of medicines I had to take. I drank so much orange juice and tea, lots of tea - hot tea helped clear my head for a few hours at a time. I hate being sick because I always get so ill and it takes awhile for me to recover. I haven't been sick for a few years so I should have expected this to hit me.

Bad thing was that I had to recover on my own with only what over the counter medicine my dad could bring me. It snowed here, not much, but it got extremely cold and made everything for icy so the roads were bad and lots of stores were attacked by people stocking up (people always panic when the weather is extremely bad, like scurrying ants or something). I was going to go to the clinic, but then I started to get better. I'm doing much better now and just relaxing until I'm 100% again!

I hope you do well on your exams! You'll do fine, don't worry. I always procrastinated with studying when I was in school. One time, a professor told us we had to write this 20 page essay and my eyes nearly bugged out of my skull, but he gave us the assignment at the beginning of the semester so I had months. What did I do - silly me waited until only a couple of weeks before it was due to actually do it. Haha! I definitely learned my lesson after that!

I was watching the Santa Clause movie - it's an old one. I love it, it made me laugh and feel joyous.

I hope you are well and I wish you the best of luck with your studies! Remember to take breaks and breathe!

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twigirl2 In reply to nnylear [2013-12-27 00:26:47 +0000 UTC]

Hi! did you had a nice Christmas? i hope you feel better now. 

I stayed up all night and read all the last 3 chapters. i want more! are you taking a break from writing? 

We havent talked in so long and i hope we will start talking again as often as before.

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nnylear In reply to twigirl2 [2013-12-30 15:07:26 +0000 UTC]

Hey!

Yes, actually I did have a great Christmas! I started feeling better two days before Christmas and got my appetite back enough to enjoy the feast for Christmas day and eat holiday cookies and such! I got quite few presents! I wasn't expecting much. Mostly, my baby sister is the one showered with gifts because my other siblings and I are grown and she's still a kid. But, we don't have to pretend there's a Santa anymore. Haven't for a few years now. When my little sister was in the first grade, her teacher told all the kids there was no such thing as Santa. It was kind of mean I thought, I mean, let the kids dream a bit. Most parents were mad, but oh well. My sister is ten now and it is kind of easier not to have to sneak in some time to wrap presents and be ninjas and shove them under the tree when she finally manages to sleep on Christmas Eve. We're all old enough that we all got something for one another. I have two brothers and two sisters, so five kids (myself included) with my parents, which makes for a lot of gifts. We just wrapped them and shoved them under the tree when we were done. I still get a stocking too. Haha! I don't eat much candy though (my parents pack them with candy and fruits and little gifts and also a toothbrush), but the stocking are fun. We also got treats for our dogs and cat.

So a nice Christmas! I think I ate too much cherry pie though...

Yeah, I took a break from writing weeks ago! What was supposed to be a little flu became a big flu. I was sick for weeks. I couldn't do much or even go outside, so I stayed in bed most of the time. I get like that every few years. Anyways, holidays were coming up too and I decided to take a break and my beta needed a break too. But the new year is coming and I have a lot of new things coming up! Kind of excited!!!

How are you??? Did your exams go okay? Tell me how your holidays were! I hope all is well with you!!!

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twigirl2 In reply to nnylear [2014-01-09 20:17:57 +0000 UTC]

hey!

i cant believe the holidays passed so fast.

i worked the whole vacantion selling fireworks. i liked it a lot because i worked for an uncle and i could do what i wanted. the lasat 2 days were crazy, we couldnt even take a break.

i have exams till mid february. i will be stressed till then so that is why i neeeeed your story! i really miss it! i read the last 3 chapters to many times allready! 

you have a cat?! i love cats! i have one too! i wish i could get more but my mom hates this one because of the furr. but i see myself as a cat lady 50 years from now.

i hope you are ok!

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nnylear In reply to twigirl2 [2014-02-14 03:52:35 +0000 UTC]

 Oh my gosh! We haven't talked in ages!

I do agree though that the holidays passed so quickly, and now it's nearly Valentine's Day (not that I really celebrate it, but anyways)!

First off, how are you? You're in the middle exams right, as you've mentioned, until mid February? Are you still sane, lol! Hope you're not stressing too much because then you can get really sick. Rest, fluids, and have something sweet to make you happy! You'll do well!

And yes I do have a cat, well my family has a cat. I'm not as fond as cats anymore. I used to have one when I was a little girl but she passed and I guess no cat could replace her. Silly, I know! Anyways, this family cat I think just follows me around because I'm up most of the time at night and am, therefore, available to feed her. She's sweet and sour. One minutes she's purring and looking up at me with her big eyes, and the next she's biting at my finger! She is amusing though and has grown on my family. We've never had a cat this long before since my last childhood cat-friend. Her name is Woodrow, by the way. She likes to run around the house, bite our fingers, and snuggling up with someone while watching a movie... or sleep.

I hope everything is going well on your end and that you are taking care!

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twigirl2 In reply to nnylear [2014-02-20 21:38:10 +0000 UTC]

Heeeyyy! I was just looking at the stories that were uploaded recently and i couldnt believe HBL was one of them!!! Today i had my last exam! I was so nervous because it was the most difficult exam. It has hard to go through all this stres but it was worth it i guess because im in the top 4 from my class. I cant believe it is finally over.

I forgot how to wrote! Thats what happenes when you dissapear!! Sorry for all the spelling mistakes i only slept 2 hours last night.

So how are you? I missed you and your story!

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nnylear In reply to twigirl2 [2014-02-23 03:20:27 +0000 UTC]

You should get an account, then you could get alerts for updated stories, so you know! I had that chapter done for awhile.

I'm so happy about your success with your exams!!! Now, you can take a breather for a bit. Do you have more schooling to do? What's next for you?

I'm fine! My life is more busy. I was invited to a wedding as a bridesmaid for my beta. I'll be travelling out of the country to Canada in a few years, so still a ways for me! I've never been to a wedding, so it'll be fun!

I'm still writing, but I'm writing more stuff, including my own story. Not sure when it'll be finished but it's something I'm excited about. I'm thinking of releasing more fics onto fanfiction, and I have a few done halfway, but I'm just waiting to see how far they'll make it and if they're interesting. They're a bit different and more for teens, but I've always liked writing for teens. I might write for another area of fanfiction, too, and leave the anime section. Kind of weird, because I have no idea how I'll fare in a new area. I'll be the new kid, even though I'm not new at all.

Other than that, I've been relaxing and just reading a lot. I'm re-reading Harry Potter. My fave books! But reading them makes me hungry because they're always eating... toast and tea... and other stuff. If I had gone to Hogwarts, I'd have been in trouble with all that food. Haha!!!

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twigirl2 In reply to nnylear [2014-03-20 09:04:55 +0000 UTC]

hello,
 i promise it wont take me so long to reply next time.
i was away for  a few weeks, i visited my father because he finally found a stabile home and i havent seen him in months. he lives in the country side and i had no internet. i havent even finished reading your last chapter.

i am very sick now and i skipped school this week .

did the wedding happen? how do you feel?
i hope you will forgive me

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twigirl2 In reply to Nonatwilight [2011-01-23 20:54:40 +0000 UTC]

you're welcome ^^

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