xTheRockShow In reply to OnHorizon [2011-07-22 08:55:02 +0000 UTC]

Vielen Dank, monsieur
Sag mal, du hast doch bestimmt facebook oder?
ich bin hier leider nur noch so selten und antworte jetzt mit einer verspätung von genau... 9 tagen... sorry D:

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OnHorizon In reply to xTheRockShow [2011-07-23 13:13:26 +0000 UTC]

ne, hab kein facebook account^^

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xTheRockShow In reply to Weballergy87 [2011-01-25 17:51:17 +0000 UTC]

Jaha, so bin ich! Voller unerwarteter Überraschungen

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xTheRockShow In reply to tetoav [2010-09-12 14:33:03 +0000 UTC]

I love to hear that! Thanks : )

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xTheRockShow In reply to padshiyangel [2010-01-19 17:57:52 +0000 UTC]

(Are you English? But I'll reply in German to improve your skills!
Haha. ;D Your German is stunning though. Wow.)

Vielen Dank, das ist sehr nett von dir.
Ich werde mir jetzt auch deine Gallery anschauen!



Take care.

/// by the way, I'm weird but I really like your ABOUT ME here.
Especially the FREE HUGS part and the 'missing a lot of things' stuff.
I didn't read everything but that's very impressive. Whatever. <:

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padshiyangel In reply to xTheRockShow [2010-01-22 16:45:11 +0000 UTC]

(Yep, I'm English I'm a first year at uni, studying German and Russian, hence why I am able to speak a bit of it )

Thank you for the compliments
And weirdness is never a bad thing.

Hope all is well
~Angel

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xTheRockShow In reply to padshiyangel [2010-01-22 19:42:57 +0000 UTC]

Wow, cool. And where do you live?
What do you want to do "later"?
Something like a translator?
German into English? Or sth like that?
Because all your German sounds... brilliant.
Honestly. You're very talented! (:

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padshiyangel In reply to xTheRockShow [2010-01-26 00:45:22 +0000 UTC]

I live in Bath, if you know it South-west of England.
Not sure of what I want to do later...probably a translator or an interpretor...who knows. What about you? Do you have ideas for the future?
Mein Deutsch ist nicht so gut wie du es preist xD

But thank you
And what are your interests aside from awesome photography?

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xTheRockShow In reply to padshiyangel [2010-02-02 08:55:25 +0000 UTC]

Wow that sounds cool.
Do you know Coventry? Probably. I've been there two weeks ago.
It's great.
Do you always want to stay in England or would you prefer living somewhere else?

I can't decide if I'd rather be a journalist or a lawyer. ;D
Pretty different, I know. But yeah... I don't know, really.

Awesome Photography. THANK YOU! (: Well, I'm a student and I'll have my graduation
in about one year so now there isn't much time left for other activities.
But I ADORE music and literature. Pretty averaged...
What about you?

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padshiyangel In reply to xTheRockShow [2010-02-07 13:01:43 +0000 UTC]

I know OF Coventry...can't say I've been there. xD Glad you enjoyed it though
And if I could, I wouldn't mind moving to another country...I'm going to Duesseldorf for a long weekend and Russia for a month this summer...and both countries for five months in 2011/2012 xD I may see you during any of that xD

Journalism is awesome And so is law, but that's a hell of a lot of work...

Music is my lifeblood I listen to almost all the time. And I read when I can, but that isn't so often anymore...What kind of music do you like?
x

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xTheRockShow In reply to padshiyangel [2010-02-09 11:08:33 +0000 UTC]

Düsseldorf is great, have you heard about Cologne?
It's MUCH nicer though. And it's quite close to Düsseldorf.
You really have to go to the "beach" there,
it's the Rhine and it's soo pretty, the river flows through the woods
and in the background there's cityscape.
And the shopping facilities are great! Haha sorry.

Yeah we visited a university a few days ago and I think journalism
is probably better. At least for me.

Music, amazing topic. I love stuff like Placebo and Skillet and
Taking Back Sunday. But Connor Oberst is great as well.
It depends on my mood, but mostly I listen to Rock. Ok so that's quite general...
What about you?

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padshiyangel In reply to xTheRockShow [2010-02-13 12:16:30 +0000 UTC]

I've heard a couple of bits about Köln, it sounds like a live place I'm jealous, wish I could go there sometime Maybe I'll be able to

At least the university helped you to decide your choice then, although it depends on what the other ones are good at too...some universities are better at other subjects, so *shrugs* just a case of deciding

Placebo are amazing, I absolutely love them. Skillet seem OK from what I've heard of them, and I used to like Taking Back Sunday but I haven't heard much from them anymore...don't know Connor Oberst, what's he like?
I listen to almost anything at all, my mood changes from metal to hip hop to blues to classical...really quite random stuff I will try any genre or style of music twice.

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xTheRockShow In reply to padshiyangel [2010-02-17 18:44:20 +0000 UTC]

Yeah it's reeeeally great! So maybe you'll have the chance to go there
when you're in Germany... It's really worth it. <:

I know... This whole university/future stuff truly starts to scare me
because it kind of defines your future developments and that's so... serious.
I'm just scared to make the wrong decisions because I don't want to regret
anything. That's probably one of the worst feelings ever.

Taking Back Sunday had a new album last year, NEW AGAIN, but it's not very good
compared to TELL ALL YOUR FRIENDS which was absolutely amazing...
Connor Oberst is the singer of Bright Eyes (Listen to stuff like
Something Vague or Lua when you're in a melancholic mood. There's nothing
that great. Honestly! ;D)

I came back from Rome yesterday and it was sooo amazing. I love the weather and
the big city life-feeling and getting away from this place here. Wow.
Are you travelling a lot? I don't know... it's weird I think I'll never be able
to live at the same place for many years when I'm older. But maybe that's just
a teenage phase. Everything's so fragile at the moment. Mh.
Sleep well (:

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padshiyangel In reply to xTheRockShow [2010-02-21 18:35:56 +0000 UTC]

University and the future should not scare you. University is a fun and exciting experience, not something to be held as above you. Yes, picking your courses should be done seriously, you don't want to end up learning Underwater Basketweaving, but at the same time you should select the course that you will enjoy That's what matters in the end, because you're going to be studying it intensively for the next several years So you'd better care about it I'm sure you won't make the wrong decision though, and if you do then you can just change quickly. It's easier than you think.

I'll give some of Tell All Your Friends a try...and I'm vaguely familiar with Bright Eyes (heard a song on 8tracks), so I'll try Connor Oberst as well

Glad you enjoyed Rome, I've heard it's an awesome place (I have one or two friends who live there as well xP).
I seem to travel a fair bit around England, and I have a lot of plans travelling abroad this summer it seems x) So yes I do travel a fair bit.
But when you get older you can settle down in one place. It depends on the job arrangement you end up with, and to some extent you can be flexible with it, deciding to travel at certain times

Yes, everything is fragile at the moment, and it is a bit of a case of make-or-break....but I'm sure you'll make it You've got a lot going for you.

Take care

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xTheRockShow In reply to padshiyangel [2010-02-25 14:56:17 +0000 UTC]

Yeah... thank you.
Actually - nothing should really scare us, right?
Because we probably HAVE the power to face those circumstances,
we just don't know it (yet). That's such a optimistic attitude
and I hope it's true as well.

Okay have fun! And tell me how you like TBS and Connor, okay?
I absolutely adore especially the lyrics.
We might die from medication, but we sure killed all the pain.
You looking skinny like a model with your eyes all painted black.
And stuff : )

Your future plans sound so convincing and promising...
I wish you the best !
Are you happy? With your life? In general.
Or do you think that we're only able to be truly happy at certain moments?
Does happiness exist? I have no idea...

Take care! : >

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padshiyangel In reply to xTheRockShow [2010-03-06 00:35:13 +0000 UTC]

I'm listening to Tell All Your Friends now...it's not a bad album, but it's unfortunately not something I can listen to too regularly. Not bad though, and I recognize one of the songs that I got as a free mp3 before the band were famous (Timberwolves At New Jersey). It's amazing how much of the song I remember.
As for Connor, I will get to him in the next couple of days (I have a LOT of new music to get through at the moment xD)
There are some good lyrics that I'm picking up from the TBS songs, odd lines that stick out to me.

Happiness is...an interesting concept. I have a problem with imagining the future, so I tend to live very much in the present; Carpe Diem and all that is very much how I live. So yes, it is possible to be happy in the present. But in the long time...it would take a lot of effort for that, and a lot of stability I think. Or adventure, it depends on what you want out of life.
But happiness exists...don't give up on that thought, no matter how you feel.

What's your philosophy in life?

You take care of yourself too, and I'm sorry for taking a while to reply on these...so much work at the moment, it's ridiculous.

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xTheRockShow In reply to padshiyangel [2010-03-24 22:05:59 +0000 UTC]

I'm so sorry I didn't reply earlier, but there's
just so much work to do. :/
YAY Timberwolves at New Jersey is one of their best songs! Definitely.
Have you listened to Connor? ; )

Yeah I know what you mean... Carpe diem, that's pretty much my motto too,
but sometimes I get weak and scared and can't help myself,
like, when I'm alone at night and the happy hours of the day seem
to develop into way less relevant than this future stuff.
Stability. Yeah and security. That's weird...
Do you think you need to "get" or receive it from "yourself"?
If you know what I mean. Or are other people kind of destined to do this job?
Because sometimes they leave and everything seems to fall into pieces,
so maybe we shouldn't put much effort in creating security?
But actually taking the risk feels great anyway, most of the time.

So what work are you currently busy with?

(Do you think people should fight for love? Even if they aren't sure if it is love?
Just to find out? )

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padshiyangel In reply to xTheRockShow [2010-04-05 19:37:47 +0000 UTC]

Sorry for my equally late reply, I was working at uni until the end of the month, and then away in Germany, so yeah, bad timing xD

I tried listening to Conor, but his voice isn't something I can really get into. I kinda like it, but I won't listen to it regularly...thanks for the recommendation though

I understand that everyday life nowadays doesn't seem that relevant, but believe me when I say that how you spend your days now has an effect on later life. There are many things I regret doing or not doing as part of high school, but I have to try and make up for them now (when I have time xD)
I think that stability is something that can be received or you can get it, it depends on the kind of stability. Sometimes you get a helping hand for short-term stability, but long-term is one you have to work hard to maintain (and be prepared for change to accommodate it).
Job security is not the only kind out there. You can be just as happy changing jobs frequently as someone who does the same thing all their life. Whatever floats your boat, in the end.

The work I'm currently doing is just degree stuff...attempting to pass first year at the moment, which is creating a fair bit of stress But it's kind of interesting stuff. I have 7 modules basically: German and Russian are split into Language, Culture and Politics, and then one module in European Studies, which is history and society of the whole continent...so it all ties in together in a way. It's just one whole lot of work trying to remember stuff, get notes done etc. So yeah...Fun times

And YES, I think people should fight for love. I find it very sad when some of my friends say they've given up on love and romance, it's one of the few things that has some pure roots in this world. If you find someone with whom it works, then...surely that's something worth maintaining, right? You don't get that every day.
If it's just trying it out then...well, I guess you set your own boundaries in that, with how far you will stretch for the person you like. Find out more about them, then you can make an informed decision and not waste your time

Hope that helps x

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xTheRockShow In reply to padshiyangel [2010-07-01 19:04:35 +0000 UTC]

Aaahhhh I just wrote a really long mail but then my Internet went off and now everything's gone and I'll have to start again :/ But whatever, first of all I'm SO SO SO sorry that it took me about three months to reply. :/ That's horrible and it won't happen again. There was just so much going on in the last week; I had hardly a chance to figure myself out. But maybe I won't ever succeed in this so yeah... Whatever.
I just returned from a trip to Prague with my class and it was really amazing - in 9 months we'll have our graduation and everything is moving so fucking fast.
Tomorrow I'll go on a family trip to Corsica for two weeks and life is so busy, sometimes I can't believe it.
Three weeks ago I had an accident with my brother's motorcycle and broke my left collarbone - which is the side I'm actually writing with - and I had to go to the surgery and to stay in the hospital for one week which was painful and boring and blahblah but at least I'm not medicated anymore and the pain is bearbale. GOD sometimes I can't believe how fragile human beings actually are and how fast a life or an existence can be over. A moment of missing attention and then... over. Game over. That's so damn scary. But it's a tragedy that sometimes like this has to happen to make us reflect about the value of life i guess.

So you think that real stability and security can only come from ourselves? Which is probably right because we cannot always depend on our people. They'll hurt us anyway and so do we, it's a circle of life? Do people always leave? Sometimes it seems to me that they do. Sometimes they leave for a few months or years and return later and some never do. Maybe that's how it should be?!

Thank you so much for your answers, they helped a lot - honestly. I'm currently in a very confusing situatin and I really don't know if he's worth fighting for because he doesn't show me any of his feelings but I have the impression that there's something more. But he did hurt me a lot in the last years and probably won't make the first step. I'm always kind of hoping that one day it all just fits and I'll know that this cute someone is the one I'll be waking up next to in like 30 years. But it's always a risk and maybe I fought too hard - maybe I should just let it go. But i won't stop thinking about it anyway so maybe I'm really wasting my time.

I'M SO SORRY I'M ONLY TALKING ABOUT MYSELF : D That's horrible.
What about your degree stuff? Do you have a summer break atm? And you said before that you're planning to travel right? Wherever you are now - I appreciate your lines a lot, thank you. take care.

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padshiyangel In reply to xTheRockShow [2010-07-28 15:58:51 +0000 UTC]

Aaaaand it's taken me a month to reply to this. We're doing SO well here xD

Glad you enjoyed the trip to Prague, sounds like it was a blast

Hope you're OK from the accident O___o Now I totally understand why you've not been able to respond for so long, given you have so much going on in your life xD

Well I think that you can only really count on yourself to stick around...People sometimes leave, sometimes they don't. Depends on if you want them around as well. It's mostly your call and theirs.

I'm glad that my answers help somewhat, if you have any other questions just fire away
I think you may be wasting your time with him, if he's hurt you over the past few years. You may have created some vision of him which doesn't match up to the real person, and you're seeing him as that vision...which isn't going to help. So try and see him for who he is. If that's still someone worth it, then go for it. If not, then find someone who is worthy of your attention.

As for me, first year ended on a bit of an anti-climax, but that may be because I had to run off to Russia for a month straight afterwards...which was totally insane. Absolutely. Good fun though.
I am still on some kind of a summer break, alone in the house at the moment because the rest of my family are off in America. But I'm slowly finding things to occupy myself with xD

I'm glad that you were doing well, I wondered where you got to Continue to take care of yourself, and hope to hear from you in the near future.

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xTheRockShow In reply to padshiyangel [2010-08-23 14:39:39 +0000 UTC]

Hi there :3
It took me about a month, too. So it's kind of ok I guess.

Yeah, that's so true. I think people tend to be either incredibly egoistic or too weak to develop some really important self-conscience. But you can't be truly happy without other people right? So maybe it's about figuring out which persons deserve suffering for from time to time. Anyway, we hurt others as well and want to be forgiven, aren't we?
I've been thinking a lot about this stuff recently and I don't think that there's a regular pattern you can just follow. Life isn't that easy. Oh well.

This guy... it's really damn fucking bloody complicated. Because we're probably both not tell the other person the whole truth. We are kind of playing. But I'm hurting a lot, he just doesn't notice and thinks I find it funny. It's always messed up if there's one person in a friend- or relationship who loves/likes more, right? But isn't this always the case?
How do you manage to be happy? Considering all these boundaries. Boundary is just a stupid word. But I can't think of another word so never mind. xD

So -- now you're back in England? And what will you do after the summer break? Continuing to study German? Rawr <;

School started again last week for me so I'm really busy now, especially since my graduation will be next March. In January there will be the test of highest significance (whohooo, listen ! ) and we are starting to get truly nervous. Next Saturday I'll celebrate my 18th birthday and we'll hopefully have bunch of fun : ) and then my life will probably consist of ... SCHOOL and WORK. Because I have to earn a lot of money for my year in the States...

So, now it's your turn! <: Tell me everything. Morals, adventures, romances, haha ;D

Take care!

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padshiyangel In reply to xTheRockShow [2010-09-02 13:52:55 +0000 UTC]

Ohaithar :3
Now my excuse is that my internet's been playing up, and deviantart takes up a lot of internet usage (loading all of your awesome photographs ) that I haven't managed to reply to messages on here too often. Hopefully it will be sorted soon though.

Ich weiss, dass ich diesen Brief auf Deutsch schreiben sollte, aber ich hab mal keine Energie dafür, also 'tschuldigung, dass fast alles auf Englisch ist

I'm not sure I agree with that...you can be happy without other people, but it takes a very special kind of person to be able to survive like that. Most people need human contact of some sort or another. So yes, you do need to figure out the ones worth suffering for, and in turn they decide whether you are worth suffering for. That's how friendships form, I believe.
Oh no, there is no regular "life pattern", you just make up your own as you go along. Blaze your own trail I say, otherwise you become a sheep and follow everyone else.

You need to tell him the whole truth and get him to tell you the whole truth. Because suffering for someone who doesn't care back is just wrong. I wouldn't say it's messed up in ALL situations where one person cares more than the other, but when it comes to the one person hurting from it...then yes it's messed up.
You manage to be happy by taking joy in the happy things that happen to you, and taking comfort in your friends, and enjoying the things you do as activities. But I agree that there are a lot of obstacles to happiness, although some seem to get more obstacles than others.

Yes, I'm now back in England and about to go back to my second year of university, um noch deutsch und russisch zu studieren Rawr to you too

Ahhh, good luck with the graduation! Which test do you have in January, is it the Abi? I feel silly for not remembering now.
Also, given I'm not online on Saturday, I will say have a wonderful day on your birthday.
Where are you working at the moment?

Oh heck, I've had a lot of adventures if you count Russia as well. If I were to tell them all, deviantart might break under the weight
I can tell you a few stories though, if you like.

I've found out that over the summer, you really should keep in touch with your friends. As many of them as possible. Because I get the feeling that as I go back to uni, I will have lost a lot of contact with people because I didn't...so yeah, that's the moral part.
Adventure can be expressed in one word: Russia. Probably the most surreal moment was walking home alone at 3am, during a time called the White Nights. Basically, the sky at night is almost constantly gray, but as I looked to the east, there was a beautiful sunset amongst the gray. I wish I could have got a better photo of it, my hands were too shaky (I'm no photographer).
Romances...well, I'd rather not go into those, otherwise it would turn this into a sad message.

You take care of yourself too, and keep smiling x

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xTheRockShow In reply to padshiyangel [2010-10-05 14:15:05 +0000 UTC]

Ich bin immer wieder sehr überrascht darüber, wie gut dein Deutsch ist. Ehrlich. Soll ich dir auf Deutsch antworten? Ich werds versuchen. Bei einer englischen Freundin versuche ich es auch öfter, aber weil sie Englisch spricht, tue ich es dann auch automatisch. Das ist sehr bitter! : D

Es ist so viel leichter, durch andere Menschen glücklich zu werden aber andererseits macht man sich auch unglaublich verletzlich, oder? Aber lieber verletzt sein als einsam. :/ Vielleicht bringt es auch nicht so viel, ständig darüber nachzudenken, wie egoistisch man ist oder wen man alles vergessen sollte - das Leben geht ja doch irgendwie immer weiter. Und ist auch meistens schnell als wir das planen oder uns vorstellen können.
Spannende Sache, trotzdem!

Es wird leichter mit diesem Jungen irgendwie. Ich verstehe immer mehr und lerne zu erkennen, dass ich ihm vielleicht nicht egal bin, aber dass es ungesund ist, mein Herz zu sehr an ihn zu hängen, weil er mich früher oder später wieder enttäuschen und verletzen wird.
Das macht mich irgendwie stabiler... Ich bin nicht mehr so verletzlich, weil ich fast schon erwarte, dass er was blödes sagt.

Weißt du was? ich wollte ja eigentlich in Amerika studieren, aber das ist echt heftig teuer und jetzt sieht es so aus, dass es zuerst 6 Monate in den USA bin, Urlaub mache usw und dann in London den Bachelor studiere. YAY FOR JOURNALISM!!

Fuck I hope you get the main points of my horrible German. It's not very "official" but I try my best to sound sincere.

Jaaaa es ist das Abitur im Januar! UURAAAAH ICH HABE ANGST! Aber ich werde so unglaublich froh sein, wenn es endlich vorbei ist und dann hab ichs endlich und bin FREI! JA JAAAAA JA : D

AND YEAH tell me the stories about Russia. I love stories.
Look, I just switched into English.

Romances are often ... sad stories I guess. Due to not-so-happy-endings. But a German author, Bernhard Schlink, know him? He wrote (in "The Reader", amazing book about dealing with the consequences, mainly morals, of World War II) that ... FUCK GERMAN!!! Well, no.
Er sagte, dass nicht nur das gut ist, was gut endet. Und dass eine schöne Zeit nicht dadurch definiert wird, dass der Schluss schön war. Dass sich die Menschen viel zu sehr auf die traurigen Momente konzentrieren als auf die Zeit dazwischen, als alles schön war...

Ich hoffe, dir gehts wieder ein bisschen besser und du schöpfst Hoffnung?! Weil das Leben schön ist. Auch im Oktober, wenn der Himmel grau ist. :/ Aber das ist schon okay.
Wie geht es dir?

xxx

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xTheRockShow In reply to reborn1024 [2010-01-17 19:21:29 +0000 UTC]

Wow, dankeschön!
Und jaa, Koblenz is schon toll!
Ich guck mir jetzt mal deine Sachen an <:

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reborn1024 In reply to xTheRockShow [2010-01-17 22:00:37 +0000 UTC]

Bitte ^.^
und danke
sind auch ein paar drin die in Koblenz entstanden sind
z.b. im SK2 oder bei der Kirche hinterm SK2

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xTheRockShow In reply to reborn1024 [2010-01-18 16:55:54 +0000 UTC]

Oohhhh die Emobar schlechtin! xP
Biste öfter da?

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reborn1024 In reply to xTheRockShow [2010-01-19 17:34:27 +0000 UTC]

hin und wieder
um die bier/kurzen-happy hour auszunutzen
oder um longing for tomorrow zu sehn

und emobar schlechthin? wäre das nich das dreams

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