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Description Dear Diary,
He called me today. Remember how I waited months by the phone just hoping he’d call? Remember how I use to hold my breath whenever the phone rang, secretly praying it would be his voice to greet me? And how when it wasn’t, it would break my heart? He called today. I hung up.

He rang my doorbell today. He was standing outside my door with a bouquet of roses. Remember how I use to spend all those lonely days sitting by my window ceil, staring out the window because some insane part of me thought maybe; just maybe he might drop by? Even when it rained? He rang my doorbell today. He was standing outside my door with a bouquet of roses. I didn’t let him in. Instead I watched him stand outside my door with a sad, lonely expression on his face as the cold rain began to pour.

He smiled at me today. Remember how whenever I would walk by him, he never once glanced in my direction? Remember how I use to call his name but he never answered, as if it was no more then the whistling wind that he’d heard? Remember how I fell in love with his smile? How he use to look right through me like I was a ghost? He smiled at me today and I looked away, as if I hadn’t noticed him at all.

He hugged me today. Remember how it felt like a knife being jabbed through my heart every time I saw them walk by? Remember how I use to cry myself to sleep every night because it just wasn’t fair that she got to hold my entire world? How I felt worthless because I meant nothing to the one person who meant everything to me? He hugged me today and I just simply moved out of the way, like he was invisible.

He told me he loved me today.  And those words that I’d once scribbled all over my notebook, the same word’s I spent every night dreaming he’d say to me, he now whispered into my ear and I felt absolutely nothing. Remember how I’d have died to hear those words? Remember how he was my life? He told me he loved me today and I did not whisper it back because for the first time, I wouldn’t have meant it. Remember how I was never good enough? Remember how he laughed in my face when I told him how I felt? He told me he loved me today and I just simply walked away because today was a year too late.
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Comments: 64

ACE997x13 [2011-07-09 02:59:47 +0000 UTC]

wow, that makes me sad, only because i have felt like that. it feels...empty to know that what you wanted so badly didn't care and now that they do...it's too late. i love it, it is beautiful.

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amberlee07 In reply to ACE997x13 [2011-08-02 03:34:08 +0000 UTC]

Thanks

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BlueEyedKitty [2011-06-23 15:33:44 +0000 UTC]

This reminds me of alot of my friends, it happens so much.
Anyway, Great poem! ~

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amberlee07 In reply to BlueEyedKitty [2011-06-25 14:22:56 +0000 UTC]

thanks

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DeeGrc [2011-05-08 17:04:16 +0000 UTC]

awww
he's such a big jerk >
nice story

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amberlee07 In reply to DeeGrc [2011-05-12 00:38:19 +0000 UTC]

aww thank you

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outrageouslyweird-me [2010-05-08 18:25:19 +0000 UTC]

Beautifully written! I love the last few words "today was a year too late". Also, asking what your readers would do if they were in the same position made it very interesting to read their comments (and yours) as well :]

I wonder what good it would do to turn him down and break his heart for breaking yours... If I was really in love with this guy I wouldn't want him to suffer the way I did. I'm kind of in the "I cry myself to sleep every night because it wasn’t fair that she got to hold my entire world"-fase myself... But I dream about him coming back all the time and in my dreams I never send him away so I don't see why I ever should.

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watshouldinamemyself [2009-12-06 01:20:51 +0000 UTC]

this makes me think of english class its a good piece..but now its making me wonder..nvm......

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amberlee07 In reply to watshouldinamemyself [2009-12-06 01:24:44 +0000 UTC]

thanks
n um..lol how?
makes u wonder what?
what inspired it?

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watshouldinamemyself In reply to amberlee07 [2009-12-06 01:28:17 +0000 UTC]

i think english cuz of speak..its written like a journal and....this kinda made me wonder if anyone ever liked me probably not but still..

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amberlee07 In reply to watshouldinamemyself [2009-12-06 01:31:27 +0000 UTC]

aw dont say that
n ohhh.
by the way i love your gallery!
your pics of nature and your
drawings are beautiful
I especially love your pics
of flowers ^^

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watshouldinamemyself In reply to amberlee07 [2009-12-06 01:39:57 +0000 UTC]

thanks

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StereotypicalPunk [2009-12-05 18:41:17 +0000 UTC]

It's beautifully written and I know I'd do the same if the guy I crushed over for 4 years of high school ever came around,

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amberlee07 In reply to StereotypicalPunk [2009-12-06 00:16:44 +0000 UTC]

thanks

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StereotypicalPunk In reply to amberlee07 [2009-12-08 14:09:20 +0000 UTC]

your welcome

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dyserae [2009-05-10 04:32:45 +0000 UTC]

I love it. It's so sad but I would probably do the same thing.

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amberlee07 In reply to dyserae [2009-05-10 16:54:58 +0000 UTC]

thanks ^__^

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ohsostarryeyed [2009-04-19 19:08:45 +0000 UTC]

this is a big, fat YES.

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amberlee07 In reply to ohsostarryeyed [2009-04-19 21:25:12 +0000 UTC]

thanks ^__^
and thank you for the fav

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MiserableFish [2009-04-14 11:52:27 +0000 UTC]

She did the right thing.
Nobody is worthless to wait for eternity for Him to return and then be there with a happy heart and a smile to greet him.

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BlackCat-IIIX [2009-03-23 09:20:27 +0000 UTC]

This is great! I love it! It's really a great piece of writing!

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amberlee07 In reply to BlackCat-IIIX [2009-03-24 03:47:03 +0000 UTC]

thanks

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potatie [2009-02-12 23:52:16 +0000 UTC]

I really enjoyed it. . . I liked the format, but it was still poetic.
I wouldn't be able to do what she did, at least not for long. I'm weak. D:

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amberlee07 In reply to potatie [2009-02-13 02:15:04 +0000 UTC]

thanks ^_^
and i think id be able to do what she did id deffantly have my weak moments :/

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clonqui [2009-02-10 20:48:10 +0000 UTC]

I love this and I would have done the same thing that she did

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amberlee07 In reply to clonqui [2009-02-10 21:54:18 +0000 UTC]

thanks ^^
and i hope so

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clonqui In reply to amberlee07 [2009-02-11 19:46:23 +0000 UTC]

no problem

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LelaBelle [2009-02-10 03:52:37 +0000 UTC]

I like this one very much. And if I was that girl. I would be torn, because, if it was true love, a part of you would always love him, but the part he broke, would keep you from reaching to him, whispering back those words that you so wanted him to say oh so long ago. And now that your heart has begun to heal, he wants back into your life. I know me, I would give him one last chance, and take what it gave me. Preparing myself for the worse, and hoping with all my heart for the better.

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amberlee07 In reply to LelaBelle [2009-02-10 13:06:54 +0000 UTC]

wow.
that was...quite a comment
well i think i'd give him another chance too.
but a guy like him, im pretty sure hed just mess it up.
id shed never really be able to forgive him completly for breaking her heart

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LelaBelle In reply to amberlee07 [2009-02-14 02:57:02 +0000 UTC]


If he wanted her badly enough he would do his best, and that is all anyone can do. And that would not be his fault that she cannot forget the past, it would be much more wise to get over it and learn from it. What doesn't kill us makes us stronger right?

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amberlee07 In reply to LelaBelle [2009-02-14 21:56:04 +0000 UTC]

are you saying she should forgive him?
cuz if so i cant agree
he decided she wasnt good enough for him
she decided she deserved someone who thought she was worthy of them
and moved on.
its his fault for not seeing how amazing she was
when she was standing there right infront of him
telling him how she felt.

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LelaBelle In reply to amberlee07 [2009-02-21 07:08:05 +0000 UTC]

Good point. But I wasn't saying that lol. I would because I'm just like that. In reality, she should do exactly as you have said lol.

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amberlee07 In reply to LelaBelle [2009-02-21 21:35:09 +0000 UTC]

ya often the right thing to do is the hardest thing to do

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LelaBelle In reply to amberlee07 [2009-02-26 00:21:48 +0000 UTC]

Mhm.

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crashcoursewomb [2009-02-09 07:26:34 +0000 UTC]

I really like this. (:

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amberlee07 In reply to crashcoursewomb [2009-02-09 13:19:08 +0000 UTC]

thanks ^_^

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juvampire [2009-02-09 01:57:03 +0000 UTC]

i loove it, it's beautiful.
you really made a point and made my feel like i was that girl.
in my case, i think i would be mad then, give up and love him...but your p.o.v it's a good option too.

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amberlee07 In reply to juvampire [2009-02-09 02:05:08 +0000 UTC]

thanks ^^
this was based off a few quotes i read on a website and something that /sorta/ happened to me. where ive waited a LONG time for someone to do something...and then when they finally DID i just walked away (lol people i know check my diviations so i cant really talk about it but ya)

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juvampire In reply to amberlee07 [2009-02-09 15:09:57 +0000 UTC]

i see...i too had to wait for someone, but nothing ever happened so i gave up...
but i don't care anymore!

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amberlee07 In reply to juvampire [2009-02-09 22:14:21 +0000 UTC]

i love your icon ^^
which do you think is harder to do?
letting go of someone you think MIGHT like 1/100 like you back
or holding on to someone you know will never feel the same?

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juvampire In reply to amberlee07 [2009-02-10 01:31:45 +0000 UTC]

well... it's a hard question...
letting go someone it's always
hard, especially if we could have something, and holding on to someone knowing he'll never feel the same it's almost impossible.. so i think it's harder to love someone that doesn't love me, i just couldn't live with myself... but that might thing.. i don't like it...
what do you choose?

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amberlee07 In reply to juvampire [2009-02-10 01:57:51 +0000 UTC]

i think it would be harder for me to try and stop caring for someone who has a 1/100 chance of liking me back. because at least if i liked a guy and i knew he didnt like me back, i'd know where i stand and what to expect. if i was letting go of someone who has a 1/100 chance of liking me id always worry that if i hung in there a little longer he mightve ended up liking me

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juvampire In reply to amberlee07 [2009-02-10 15:19:10 +0000 UTC]

yes,that's what i think too!
so...if you submit something like this don't forget to tell me because i liked your story very much,ok?

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amberlee07 In reply to juvampire [2009-02-10 21:53:17 +0000 UTC]

okay. i think ill watch you though so i dont forget ^^

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juvampire In reply to amberlee07 [2009-02-11 22:47:50 +0000 UTC]

i'll watch you too

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amberlee07 In reply to juvampire [2009-02-12 03:23:29 +0000 UTC]

cool

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LadyOdd [2009-02-08 22:54:17 +0000 UTC]

This is a very good poem. Beautifully written. And the girl did the right thing. All girls should know don't let a man come and go as he pleases, any girl deserves better.

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amberlee07 In reply to LadyOdd [2009-02-08 23:13:57 +0000 UTC]

i agree ^^ (about the girl)
anyone who thinks you arent worthy of their love doesnt deserve yours.
and thanks ^^

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ragdolljazz [2009-02-08 19:50:31 +0000 UTC]

This is really amazing!
It is a dilemma, it's very poetic prose... Or a very prose-y poem
But it's a beautiful piece of literature
And if I were the girl, I would do what she did. I wouldn't let a guy just come to me whenever he felt like it and appreciate it.
And you're 14 now? Happy belated Birthday!!

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amberlee07 In reply to ragdolljazz [2009-02-08 22:30:30 +0000 UTC]

i was gonna put it under prose but it wouldnt work. i think its more of a poetric prose
and thanks ^^
same here though it would hurt like crazy.
anyone who ONCE decided that you werent enough, anyone that took a look at all your awesomeness and just turned it down... is not worth it.
and yepp ^^ thanks!

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