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I suddenly woke up. I looked on my clock.
I was going to be late.
Tiredness was pleading me to go back to sleep, but I forced myself awake.
I shoved my unfinished homework in my book bag and slipped on some clothes. I put my hair in a ponytail and then quickly zoomed out the door.
I couldn't wait until first period because I had Social Studies class with Tyler. Soon I wouldn't have to wait for a text, or a class with Tyler to be able to talk to him. Soon we would be would be inseparable.
Soon we would laugh together.
Cry together.
be together.
The question was, how long was 'soon' ?
Once I scrambled into first period, nearly late, I took out my pencil. I acted like I had been there the whole time. Then I saw Tyler sitting in the corner of the room. He was laughing with his friend Evan. His glorious smile shined even in this gloomy classroom. Every time I would look him it was like I was in a trance, or a wonderful curse. I froze in panic as I saw him glance at me. I whipped my head around looking at the homework, making believe I was never looking at him. When I dared to look back at him he was talking to Evan again. I let out a sigh of relief and waited until the teacher started class.
"Welcome class. Today will be learning about the states and where they are placed on the map. I assume you guys already know the states considering you're in high school but practicing them won't hurt." The teacher Announced. The teacher's name was Mr.Walton. He was comfortably dressed in a plane white t-shirt and a tie.
After a lecture on all the states, my brain felt as if it was about to burst.
"Ok before we leave I have an activity for you all to do. Please form a circle in the middle of the classroom." He commanded.
I slowly got up and walked towards Tyler shyly. We stood next to each other in the circle.
"Now hold each others hands so the circle is connected. Then I will pass a ball to one of you and before it reaches you, you have to quickly let go of your partner's hands and clap. Once you clap name one of the states and pass it on to someone else." He explained.
My heart felt as if it was choked in my throat.
I am going to hold Tyler's hand.
Tyler looked at me smiling, extending his hand so I could hold it.
I couldn't breath.
I was drowning in his ocean blue eyes again.
Sinking deeper.. deeper...
"Uh Lucy, I don't have any contagious diseases I think it's safe to hold my hand." He laughed jokingly.
I smiled and grasped his hand.
Tingles shot up my spine.
His hand was so firm, yet it was gently cradling mine.
I loved the feeling of him next to me.
Holding my hand.
I was snapped out of my thoughts when the ball came strait at me. I quickly let go of Tyler's hand and clapped. Then I caught the ball and shouted, "Alabama!" And tossed it to a girl with short brown hair.
The game finished when the bell finally rung.
"I can't wait until tomorrow." I heard Tyler say.
Tomorrow was friday.
I was going to see him on friday at the movies.
That means he can't wait to see me.
"Me neither." I agreed. My heart was leaping in my chest with excitement.
Once we got out of Social Studies I ran towards Jack's class. He walked out of his classroom and I greeted him.
"Hey sorry I didn't call you last night. I totally passed out after doing homework." I apologized.
"Hey that's what school does to you. And its ok." He chuckled.
"I held Tyler's hand in class! Well it was part of a game we were doing." I blurted out in happiness.
"Did he ask you out yet?" Jack asked.
"He's not going to ask me out Jack. I told you that a billion times." I mumbled in annoyance.
I didn't know whether he was going to actually ask me out though.
I didn't know if he liked me or not.
I chose to keep reminding myself that he had no feelings for me so I wouldn't get my hopes up.
I may be falling for someone but that doesn't mean I have to hit the ground.
"Maybe I can talk to Tyler for you and try to get you guys together?" He suggested.
"You would really do that for me?" I asked in surprise looking at him as we walked threw the halls.
I haven't completely noticed how thoughtful Jack has been to me.
I never offered to help him with his problems.
Yet he always helped me.
I looked him deep in the eyes with gratitude. And for some reason I had the strange urge to hug him.
To just burry myself in his arms in the middle of the hallway.
To let him take away my stress and worries.
I wanted to be with him.
And the worst thing was I didn't know why.
I shook the thought away before I could think anymore about it.
"That's what friends are for." He responded grinning.
Yea... Friends..
Jack is just a friend.
•
At lunch I walked over to a empty table and sat at the end of it. I knew no one wanted to be around me. I wasn't popular like Tyler, or outgoing like Jack, I was just me.
I always was and no matter how much I wanted to change, I always will be.
Just plain old Lucy.
I let myself day dream.
Because I knew that when your life was tragic, at least you could dream a life of magic.
I was surprised to feel a presence near me. When I turned I saw Tyler sitting next to me.
I was convinced I was still day dreaming.
"Hey Lucy. Why are you all alone?" He asked curiously.
Because no one else likes me I thought to myself sadly.
"Well I'm not sitting alone anymore aren't I? After all your here." I pointed out, moving my tray over so he could sit more comfortably.
I tensed when I noticed he was looking at me, as if he wanted to say something but didn't know whether he should.
"What?" I asked.
"Jack talked to me in fourth period." He explained.
I froze in fear. Frozen in his gaze. Frozen in the moment.
Did he find out I like him? Did Jack convince him to ask me out? Does he feel awkward being my friend now?
Even my mind was frozen.
"Oh cool." I spoke nervously.
"Yea. You know he tried to get me to ask you out right?" He said flipping his short hair out of the way of his eyes.
"Oh.. He did?" I tried to act like I never knew the situation happened. I avoided eye contact, scared he would see my panic.
"Yea, it was weird. I mean who would think we would ever go out?" He laughed.
My heart shattered. The pieces stabbing me deep inside.
I understood now.
Tyler never liked me, he thought it was silly to even think about us together.
I understood everything.
I understood that I officially had no one to love.
And I understood that I officially had no one to be loved by.
But truth is I didn't understand at all.
Why didn't he like me? Why didn't he see me as his girlfriend? why, why, why, why!
"I know right." I fake laughed along with him, trying to keep my voice from shaking.
"Got to go! Bye!" I quickly blurted, walking away from the table.
I ran into the hallway trying my hardest not to keep my eyes from watering.
All my dreams, hopes, wishes crushed in a single sentence Tyler spat out so effortlessly.
I saw Jack walking to me.
"Lucy? Lucy are you ok?" He asked.
I tried to turn away from him so I could hide my watery eyes but he turned me back around so I was facing him.
"Lucy! Your crying! What happened?" He asked in shock.
I wanted to hide my feelings from him. I didn't want him to be in my business because I knew no one actually cared about if I was crying or not.
Certainly Tyler wouldn't.
But I couldn't help myself spill out everything.
"Tyler doesn't like me! He told me in lunch, and it seemed like he didn't even care! I thought he liked me." I finally bursted out crying. I tried to wipe away my tears with my sleeves but they kept pouring down harder every time I thought about Tyler.
"Oh Lucy." Jack soothed hugging me tight.
And finally I didn't have to imagine it any longer. Because I actually was hugging Jack in the middle of the hall.
I was burring myself in his arms.
I was letting him take away my stress and worries.
But this time I didn't push away the thought, I only hugged him tighter.
"There are so many other guys that would love to be your boyfriend Lucy. Don't put yourself down just because a jerk like Tyler doesn't realize how amazing you are." He comforted me.
I let go of Jack once my tears subsided.
"I wanted Tyler though." I explained.
He didn't know what to say. He just stood there, his eyes reflecting my sadness.
"I got to go." I explained walking away. I ran to the nurses office not even bothering to knock on the door. I barged in, containing my tears.
"I need to rest." I explained to the nurse. The nurse's office had two small beds used for people who needed to rest when they were sick.
"Ok, but please don't disturb the other patients." She replied.
I walked over to the bed and then lay down. The bed was horribly uncomfortable and felt like I was laying on cardboard. But it was better then nothing.
I gazed at the ceiling blankly.
Wishing.
Hoping.
Dreaming.
I thought about how tomorrow was friday, and I would be forced to go with Tyler to the movies knowing he had no feelings for me.
I tried to comfort myself again.
Soon I will find someone who cares about me.
Soon I will find my perfect soul mate.
Soon someone will show me love I have always craved to have.
But I understood the truth.
'Soon' mean't 'never.'

Description
I suddenly woke up. I looked on my clock.
I was going to be late.
Tiredness was pleading me to go back to sleep, but I forced myself awake.
I shoved my unfinished homework in my book bag and slipped on some clothes. I put my hair in a ponytail and then quickly zoomed out the door.
I couldn't wait until first period because I had Social Studies class with Tyler. Soon I wouldn't have to wait for a text, or a class with Tyler to be able to talk to him. Soon we would be would be inseparable.
Soon we would laugh together.
Cry together.
be together.
The question was, how long was 'soon' ?
Once I scrambled into first period, nearly late, I took out my pencil. I acted like I had been there the whole time. Then I saw Tyler sitting in the corner of the room. He was laughing with his friend Evan. His glorious smile shined even in this gloomy classroom. Every time I would look him it was like I was in a trance, or a wonderful curse. I froze in panic as I saw him glance at me. I whipped my head around looking at the homework, making believe I was never looking at him. When I dared to look back at him he was talking to Evan again. I let out a sigh of relief and waited until the teacher started class.
"Welcome class. Today will be learning about the states and where they are placed on the map. I assume you guys already know the states considering you're in high school but practicing them won't hurt." The teacher Announced. The teacher's name was Mr.Walton. He was comfortably dressed in a plane white t-shirt and a tie.
After a lecture on all the states, my brain felt as if it was about to burst.
"Ok before we leave I have an activity for you all to do. Please form a circle in the middle of the classroom." He commanded.
I slowly got up and walked towards Tyler shyly. We stood next to each other in the circle.
"Now hold each others hands so the circle is connected. Then I will pass a ball to one of you and before it reaches you, you have to quickly let go of your partner's hands and clap. Once you clap name one of the states and pass it on to someone else." He explained.
My heart felt as if it was choked in my throat.
I am going to hold Tyler's hand.
Tyler looked at me smiling, extending his hand so I could hold it.
I couldn't breath.
I was drowning in his ocean blue eyes again.
Sinking deeper.. deeper...
"Uh Lucy, I don't have any contagious diseases I think it's safe to hold my hand." He laughed jokingly.
I smiled and grasped his hand.
Tingles shot up my spine.
His hand was so firm, yet it was gently cradling mine.
I loved the feeling of him next to me.
Holding my hand.
I was snapped out of my thoughts when the ball came strait at me. I quickly let go of Tyler's hand and clapped. Then I caught the ball and shouted, "Alabama!" And tossed it to a girl with short brown hair.
The game finished when the bell finally rung.
"I can't wait until tomorrow." I heard Tyler say.
Tomorrow was friday.
I was going to see him on friday at the movies.
That means he can't wait to see me.
"Me neither." I agreed. My heart was leaping in my chest with excitement.
Once we got out of Social Studies I ran towards Jack's class. He walked out of his classroom and I greeted him.
"Hey sorry I didn't call you last night. I totally passed out after doing homework." I apologized.
"Hey that's what school does to you. And its ok." He chuckled.
"I held Tyler's hand in class! Well it was part of a game we were doing." I blurted out in happiness.
"Did he ask you out yet?" Jack asked.
"He's not going to ask me out Jack. I told you that a billion times." I mumbled in annoyance.
I didn't know whether he was going to actually ask me out though.
I didn't know if he liked me or not.
I chose to keep reminding myself that he had no feelings for me so I wouldn't get my hopes up.
I may be falling for someone but that doesn't mean I have to hit the ground.
"Maybe I can talk to Tyler for you and try to get you guys together?" He suggested.
"You would really do that for me?" I asked in surprise looking at him as we walked threw the halls.
I haven't completely noticed how thoughtful Jack has been to me.
I never offered to help him with his problems.
Yet he always helped me.
I looked him deep in the eyes with gratitude. And for some reason I had the strange urge to hug him.
To just burry myself in his arms in the middle of the hallway.
To let him take away my stress and worries.
I wanted to be with him.
And the worst thing was I didn't know why.
I shook the thought away before I could think anymore about it.
"That's what friends are for." He responded grinning.
Yea... Friends..
Jack is just a friend.
•
At lunch I walked over to a empty table and sat at the end of it. I knew no one wanted to be around me. I wasn't popular like Tyler, or outgoing like Jack, I was just me.
I always was and no matter how much I wanted to change, I always will be.
Just plain old Lucy.
I let myself day dream.
Because I knew that when your life was tragic, at least you could dream a life of magic.
I was surprised to feel a presence near me. When I turned I saw Tyler sitting next to me.
I was convinced I was still day dreaming.
"Hey Lucy. Why are you all alone?" He asked curiously.
Because no one else likes me I thought to myself sadly.
"Well I'm not sitting alone anymore aren't I? After all your here." I pointed out, moving my tray over so he could sit more comfortably.
I tensed when I noticed he was looking at me, as if he wanted to say something but didn't know whether he should.
"What?" I asked.
"Jack talked to me in fourth period." He explained.
I froze in fear. Frozen in his gaze. Frozen in the moment.
Did he find out I like him? Did Jack convince him to ask me out? Does he feel awkward being my friend now?
Even my mind was frozen.
"Oh cool." I spoke nervously.
"Yea. You know he tried to get me to ask you out right?" He said flipping his short hair out of the way of his eyes.
"Oh.. He did?" I tried to act like I never knew the situation happened. I avoided eye contact, scared he would see my panic.
"Yea, it was weird. I mean who would think we would ever go out?" He laughed.
My heart shattered. The pieces stabbing me deep inside.
I understood now.
Tyler never liked me, he thought it was silly to even think about us together.
I understood everything.
I understood that I officially had no one to love.
And I understood that I officially had no one to be loved by.
But truth is I didn't understand at all.
Why didn't he like me? Why didn't he see me as his girlfriend? why, why, why, why!
"I know right." I fake laughed along with him, trying to keep my voice from shaking.
"Got to go! Bye!" I quickly blurted, walking away from the table.
I ran into the hallway trying my hardest not to keep my eyes from watering.
All my dreams, hopes, wishes crushed in a single sentence Tyler spat out so effortlessly.
I saw Jack walking to me.
"Lucy? Lucy are you ok?" He asked.
I tried to turn away from him so I could hide my watery eyes but he turned me back around so I was facing him.
"Lucy! Your crying! What happened?" He asked in shock.
I wanted to hide my feelings from him. I didn't want him to be in my business because I knew no one actually cared about if I was crying or not.
Certainly Tyler wouldn't.
But I couldn't help myself spill out everything.
"Tyler doesn't like me! He told me in lunch, and it seemed like he didn't even care! I thought he liked me." I finally bursted out crying. I tried to wipe away my tears with my sleeves but they kept pouring down harder every time I thought about Tyler.
"Oh Lucy." Jack soothed hugging me tight.
And finally I didn't have to imagine it any longer. Because I actually was hugging Jack in the middle of the hall.
I was burring myself in his arms.
I was letting him take away my stress and worries.
But this time I didn't push away the thought, I only hugged him tighter.
"There are so many other guys that would love to be your boyfriend Lucy. Don't put yourself down just because a jerk like Tyler doesn't realize how amazing you are." He comforted me.
I let go of Jack once my tears subsided.
"I wanted Tyler though." I explained.
He didn't know what to say. He just stood there, his eyes reflecting my sadness.
"I got to go." I explained walking away. I ran to the nurses office not even bothering to knock on the door. I barged in, containing my tears.
"I need to rest." I explained to the nurse. The nurse's office had two small beds used for people who needed to rest when they were sick.
"Ok, but please don't disturb the other patients." She replied.
I walked over to the bed and then lay down. The bed was horribly uncomfortable and felt like I was laying on cardboard. But it was better then nothing.
I gazed at the ceiling blankly.
Wishing.
Hoping.
Dreaming.
I thought about how tomorrow was friday, and I would be forced to go with Tyler to the movies knowing he had no feelings for me.
I tried to comfort myself again.
Soon I will find someone who cares about me.
Soon I will find my perfect soul mate.
Soon someone will show me love I have always craved to have.
But I understood the truth.
'Soon' mean't 'never.'