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Description (more of Foxbear 's and my alternate Voltron universe. Inspired by the track "Storming New Caprica" by Bear McCreary from season 3 of Battlestar Galactica )

"Altean siege cruisers are already on the surface," Commander Sendak growled, "Haxus, what kind of firepower do they have down there?"

His second in command frowned and scanned the readouts of the planet Jarre. "Two mobile fortresses armed with rotating particle barriers and ion cannons."

"Ichor!" Sendak cursed, "They'll see us coming from orbit and blow us all to pieces!"
His batlike ears swiveled backwards, listening for any commands or comments his emperor might make.

Zarkon scowled darkly. "Contact the Druidsong and the Seventh Claw. Tell them to break off the attack. We'll send the Radiance and the Galleria's Revenge around to the far side of the planet to regroup and work out a way to take out those cannons."

"Fighter pilots could bring down the shields over them," Sendak suggested, "The mobile fortresses have to lower the strength of the barrier in order to fire."

"But sir, we have no way to get pilots close enough!" Haxus protested.

"I might have a way!" a more youthful voice interjected in a ship-to-ship comm.

Commander Sendak started visibly. "You?!" he spluttered, "What are you doing on the Druidsong?!"

"Ah." Emperor Zarkon raised a brow and lifted a hand to magnify the screen showing the battleship in question. "So that's where you disappeared to."
He leaned towards the screen. "Admittedly I am pleased to see you taking further interest in the Fleet, but do try to remember that the Druidsong is Commander Prorok's vessel. He is in command there." he said pointedly.

On the bridge of the Druidsong, Shiro's eyes darted to one side, where Commander Prorok still glared at him suspiciously. Prorok tolerated the Paladins on behalf of his emperor, but he did not welcome them. He'd been bemused by the human's presence on his ship, and left flustered and irate by his request to step in for the injured pilot.

"Yes, Father," Shiro gulped and shut down the comm, then shifted his eyes away from Prorok.

"Commander," Shiro kept his eyes front, carefully reviewing the data on the screens but making sure to sound appropriately humble. "I can get us close enough to the surface to deploy the fighters, but it's your call."

Prorok examined him closely and his eyes narrowed. "I'm not going to like this, am I?" he growled. Still. The people of Jarre were their allies and they were vulnerable. Desperate times, desperate measures and all that. And so he reluctantly nodded his permission.

Shiro returned his nod respectfully, then opened a shipwide hail. "All hands," he said brusquely, "Brace for turbulence."

Prorok's eyes widened with fear and outrage as he realized what was about to happen. Shiro took hold of the controls and focused on the little flicker of Quintessence he was learning to sense in himself. He let it flow in a command from his mind, through his hands, and into the ship. A wormhole opened directly in front of the prow, and Shiro flew them through with ease, increasing speed rapidly.

"You're mad!" Prorok squawked, bracing himself against a control panel, "You'll destroy the ship and us along with it!"

Shiro ignored him. Sweat glistened on his forehead as they exited the wormhole with a sound like a thunderclap, screaming down through the upper atmosphere. The Druidsong hummed under its pilot's direction, banking sharply and dropping a few feet to avoid wild fire from the enemies. The craft shook as it passed through the mesosphere towards the stratosphere.

"Deploy the fighters!" Shiro shouted to Prorok, "I'll try to get us closer!"

"Closer?!" the rotund Galra asked in disbelief, "We're nearly in a nosedive as it is! A ship this size isn't meant to respond that quickly, boy this isn't Voltron!"

"I know what I'm doing," Shiro answered through gritted teeth. He guided the huge battleship down at high speed through the stratosphere and into the troposphere and commed the crew again.

"Battle stations, everyone!" He banked again to avoid a missile. "Get ready to fire when the surface is close. Pilots, to your fighters!"

Prorok watched in horror as the battleship tipped into a steep nosedive towards the rock and sand of Jarre's surface.

"What's going on over there?" the emperor demanded from the Radiance.
Prorok could not help himself.
"Your demon offspring is attempting to kill us all!" he all but squealed.

"No I'm not!" Shiro pitched his voice up to be heard across the comms. "Just trust me, I can do this!"

The 1400 meter ship plummeted through the atmosphere with its crew taking potshots at Altean siege cruisers. The fighters screamed past, chasing down targets. Sweating, Shiro poured all his concentration into the controls, opening a second wormhole below.
It flickered a moment, then held. Shiro was relieved: of all the Paladins, he was the worst at creating wormholes.

"Brace yourselves! Shields up!" He clutched the edges of the controls as the Druidsong tumbled through the portal seconds before lasers flew through the space it had once occupied.

The battleship popped back into realspace, guns at the ready and waiting on the flyers' word that the mobile bases were down. The shaking slowed, then stopped as the Druidsong settled into a glide, easing back into orbit. There was a stunned silence on the bridge for several minutes as the crew and captain attempted to comprehend what had just happened. Shiro caught Prorok staring at him and shrugged, embarrassed.

The Commander looked apoplectic, fur bristling and muscles tense. "You could have killed this entire crew, human!" he snapped.

Shiro's eyes darkened, but instead of responding to the complaint, he pointed to the screen. "One siege cruiser is down. The mobile bases are trying to repair the cannons. But it's not over yet."

"I daresay it isn't!" Prorok muttered. Shiro may have been one of the emperor's foundlings, but Prorok was not about to let some scrawny human put his ship and crew in danger.
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bbb35 [2017-01-16 19:37:53 +0000 UTC]

"What's going on over there?" the emperor demanded from the Radiance.
Prorok could not help himself.
"Your demon offspring is attempting to kill us all!" he all but squealed.

"No I'm not!" Shiro pitched his voice up to be heard across the comms. "Just trust me, I can do this!"

----

LOL

"Your son..."
"Oh, so when they do dangerous stuff, and save thousands of lives they're MY sons?" Zarkon exclaimed.

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I love this AU, I love it sooooooooo much!!

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ArdentAspen In reply to bbb35 [2017-01-16 21:37:46 +0000 UTC]

It always gives me the warm fuzzies when people enjoy stuff I've made. Your comments have absolutely made my day today

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bbb35 In reply to ArdentAspen [2017-01-17 02:42:53 +0000 UTC]

Well, thank you

I like to pretend my OC, Dark Spectre Queen of the galaxy, Vanessa. Is watching it all, invisible from some secret spot. And it helps, immerse me in it all.

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ArdentAspen In reply to bbb35 [2017-01-17 06:08:22 +0000 UTC]

Is said Dark Spectre Queen an evil Dark Spectre Queen in the reverse au? Or is dark merely describing her habitat or choice of color palette?

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bbb35 In reply to ArdentAspen [2017-01-18 03:29:34 +0000 UTC]

It's her title, Dark Spectre, the highest level of sorceress. And also, it means she can take the shape and form of anything.

fav.me/d39l9hn And she's good, very good. She's smitten with Hunk, so. ^///^

It's an ironic title, given her outfit thou, huh?

---

Vanessa: I have delved most deeply into the dark and greasy heart of the Alltaens. And what do you suppose I found there? Well, I had found a torpid, vile, malign, odious, spiteful spirit. Right, no surprises there. What did surprise me though, was what I saw when I regressed into their past lives! It turns out that in their last lives, the Altaenswere all shining beings of pure light and blissful love. They had reached the pinnacle of spiritual evolution and could go no further.

They were perfection.

Vanessa: And then, somehow they got just a tiny bit better and WHAM, they were all of a sudden totally evil. Wouldn't you know it, get too perfect and you warp right around to evil. That is why I strive to be perfect, but always do little bad and annoying things to keep from ending up like the Altaens.

Lance: So, the reason you spy on us, harass us with spell pranks, make odd remarks, startle us by appearing out of nowhere and flirt with Hunk is because you don't want to become like Allura?

Vanessa: Honestly? Hunk's a cutie, and it amuses me.

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ArdentAspen In reply to bbb35 [2017-01-18 03:57:34 +0000 UTC]

"Well, I had found a torpid, vile, malign, odious, spiteful spirit."
Oh bravo, what an excellent description of them! (Y'know, people should really start using words like torpid again regularly. They're too fun to be forgotten!)

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bbb35 In reply to ArdentAspen [2017-01-18 04:09:48 +0000 UTC]

LOL Why thank you, and glad you think so. I should use Torpid more.

----

Hunk: Dad, how set are you on marriage, for me I mean?
Zarkon: I'd very much like to see you courting a lady, is there someone you have your eye on.
Hunk: She's....sorta got her eye on me...(looks to see eyeball with wings, fluttering near him.) Not now, I'm with my father!

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ArdentAspen In reply to bbb35 [2017-01-18 04:23:41 +0000 UTC]

Eyeball with wings? Is that one of her forms, or is that something she uses for sneaky spying purposes?

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bbb35 In reply to ArdentAspen [2017-01-19 02:11:49 +0000 UTC]

Sneaky spying, normally it's invisible.

---

Keith: What's wrong?
Vanessa: (rubbing her eye) I....maaaaay have gotten shampoo in my eye.
Keith: How'd you do that?
(Shiro walks in wearing towel, and holding the eyeball.)
Shiro: She had it floating after me.

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ArdentAspen In reply to bbb35 [2017-01-19 02:57:12 +0000 UTC]

O_O boundaries, Vanessa!

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bbb35 In reply to ArdentAspen [2017-01-19 03:45:23 +0000 UTC]

Vanessa: I was looking for you, Darling! I didn't know you were in the shower, till you reacted and attacked my eye with shampoo. (she waves her hands to make the eyeball disappear)
Shiro: Uh-huh. And the fact you got to see me wet and semi-naked was a coincidence?
Vanessa: I like to think the Artist is repaying me for my life of good service. And you KNOW I like the Hunky brother.

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ArdentAspen In reply to bbb35 [2017-01-19 11:26:22 +0000 UTC]

It escapes no one's notice that Shiro's quarters have much higher security on them the next day. (Especially, I imagine, since random intrusions into his privacy may remind him unpleasantly of Altaens)

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bbb35 In reply to ArdentAspen [2017-01-19 20:57:28 +0000 UTC]

Oh true, true dat.

But there's not that high of security with Hunks room.

----
(Shiro is passing by and hears suspicious noises from Hunk's bedroom)
Hunk: Vanessa, my father could come by any minute!
Vanessa: Well, we'll just have to be quick, won't we?
(Shiro does a space dad, and bursts through the door)
Shiro: WHAT'S GOING ON IN HERE!?
(He stops and sees that Vanessa and Hunk are giving a bath to a snarf.)
Hunk: Please don't tell dad!
Vanessa: Oh, so your ashamed to be caught with me in the bedroom, huh?
Hunk: Don't say it like that, I'm not ashamed, and that makes it sound dirty.

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ArdentAspen In reply to bbb35 [2017-01-19 21:43:23 +0000 UTC]

Haha did Hunk steal a snarf?!
(He probably is the "it followed me home, can I keep it" kid tho...)

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bbb35 In reply to ArdentAspen [2017-01-20 23:31:07 +0000 UTC]

Hunk: I didn't STEAL a snarf, I just..found it abandoned in a alley, and too it home!
Vanessa: Yes, the largest theft Hunk has ever done is steal cookies from the cookie jar, and he then baked 30 to replace the one he took.

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ArdentAspen In reply to bbb35 [2017-01-20 23:35:18 +0000 UTC]

Man, he so would do that

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bbb35 In reply to ArdentAspen [2017-01-20 23:41:27 +0000 UTC]

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ArdentAspen In reply to bbb35 [2017-01-21 00:01:55 +0000 UTC]

O_O
(Er, let's keep it family friendly please, if you don't mind)

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bbb35 In reply to ArdentAspen [2017-01-21 01:07:52 +0000 UTC]

Yes, yes, sorry. Now I know.

-----

Vanessa: I hope to be married to him, how family friendly does it need to be? (Pidge whispers into her ear) Ohhhh!

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ArdentAspen In reply to bbb35 [2017-01-21 02:19:58 +0000 UTC]

I JUST WATCHED THE ENTIRE SEASON 2 IN ONE AFTERNOON.
(Which wasn't a spectacular life choice because I got such a screen headache, but still)

Hunk got some hilarious scenes! Have you seen it yet?

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bbb35 In reply to ArdentAspen [2017-01-21 16:56:03 +0000 UTC]

Yes, and lll note the response.

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Foxbear [2016-06-26 01:56:26 +0000 UTC]

"Pulling a Shrio" becomes a common phrase in the Galra fleet after this. Usually preceded by Don't, Never, or that quizzing idiot.

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ArdentAspen In reply to Foxbear [2016-06-26 02:47:49 +0000 UTC]

Shiro gets back to the Radiance (okay, actually Sendak flew over, frog-marched him into a pod, and dragged him all the way to the throne room on the Radiance, scolding and hollering the whole way) and finds the rest of the Paladins. Hunk is freaking out, like "Are you okay? How much concentration did that take? Man you calculated your timing well!" 
Keith is geeking out like "You pulled a Ramius Maneuver! Oh my gosh you actually pulled off a successful Ramius Maneuver! I didn't think you could do that with a ship that size!"
And Shiro is like "Well I didn't either, but let's keep that between us."
but TOO LATE because Lance and Pidge are also there and one of them is bound to tell Haggar eventually. And what Haggar knows, Lotor knows. And what Lotor knows, Zarkon definitely knows. 
Sendak gives Shiro a good old telling-off about risk and warnings and you're-not-even-a-vetted-Galra-pilot and hyperspace-doesn't-work-like-that and you-can't-just-commandeer-an-entire-battleship-like-that-boy-you're-not-a-commander and so on and so forth. Keith is jumping in every three or four sentences, challenging him with "You confiscated the Lions, what was he supposed to do? Sit and watch?" and "We're pilots, Sendak, I think we know how to fly a ship!"
(Pidge is the one who notices that Shiro's prosthetic arm got a little strained during the incident, and is quietly tweaking it back into shape, being one of the few Shiro lets touch the arm. Lance is off to the side with a couple soldiers, taking bets on who will lose their voice first: Sendak or Keith)

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Foxbear In reply to ArdentAspen [2016-06-26 03:58:24 +0000 UTC]

The Imperial Galarian Science Department in particular was upset with Shiro. "Hyperspace doesn't work like that!" could be heard yelled or muttered down the halls of the Radiance at all hours. They would cast piercing glares at the human and snarl about primitive cultures that didn't know from up. Shiro took this in meek stride.  He certainly wasn't going to correct the most learned minds in the universe. That didn't change the fact that it had happened. What was most harrowing was his conversation with Zarkon. His father had been eerily calm. Sendak had finally gotten tired of the betting pool and had dragged Shiro to the command deck, then cleared it of all personnel.
"Tell me what you did my son," Zarkon ordered softly.
Shiro squirmed, tugging at the corner of his cape with one hand. He took a deep breath and began at the beginning. Zarkon stood thoughtfully listening throughout the entire speech without interrupting.  When Shiro wound down Zarkon nodded slowly.
"I see," he murmured. "And in retrospect is there anything you would have done differently?"
Shiro thought long and hard about that. Then he stiffened and shook his head.
"No," he said. "I chose the best course of action that I could at the time. I am sure of that."
Zarkon smiled and picked up a data pad. He held it out to Shiro who accepted it curiously. 
"I believe you." Zarkon said mildly. "And it is not my way to question the orders of an on sight commander in the heat of battle."
"So what it this?" Shiro asked holding up the device.
Zarkons face hardened a bit. "It is the names and family details of every life you endangered on the Druidssong," Zarkon informed him. "You may very well have made the best command decision at the time, but when you helm a ship it is not the same as when yo pilot your lion my son." Zarkon leaned in intently and his face creased with conviction. "It is one thing when it is just you and your vessel Shiro, when it is only your life on the line, but no matter how justified your decision when you take the helm of a Galra Battleship you carry the lives of all of the crew with you. Were you thinking of that when you put the Druidssong into that dive?"
Shiro paled and opened his mouth but no words came. Zarkon leaned back, content he had made his point.
"Take that and memorize it," he said crutly.
"There must be thousands of names alone on here," Shiro protested.
Zarkon arched one eyebrow and Shrio swallowed and nodded. "Aye Father." He whispered.
"Dismissed my Son," Zarkon said with a fond smile. "Your old father had duties to attend to as do you." 
Shiro bowed and left the deck. 

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bbb35 In reply to Foxbear [2017-01-16 19:39:58 +0000 UTC]

"I believe you." Zarkon said mildly. "And it is not my way to question the orders of an on sight commander in the heat of battle."
"So what it this?" Shiro asked holding up the device.
Zarkons face hardened a bit. "It is the names and family details of every life you endangered on the Druidssong," Zarkon informed him. "You may very well have made the best command decision at the time, but when you helm a ship it is not the same as when yo pilot your lion my son." Zarkon leaned in intently and his face creased with conviction. "It is one thing when it is just you and your vessel Shiro, when it is only your life on the line, but no matter how justified your decision when you take the helm of a Galra Battleship you carry the lives of all of the crew with you. Were you thinking of that when you put the Druidssong into that dive?"
Shiro paled and opened his mouth but no words came. Zarkon leaned back, content he had made his point.
"Take that and memorize it," he said crutly.
"There must be thousands of names alone on here," Shiro protested.
Zarkon arched one eyebrow and Shrio swallowed and nodded. "Aye Father." He whispered.
"Dismissed my Son," Zarkon said with a fond smile. "Your old father had duties to attend to as do you." 
Shiro bowed and left the deck. 

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Brilliant punishment bit. Very expertly done.

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Zarkon: YOu don't get to be Emperor, without a sense of proving people how wrong they were, and not to repeat mistakes.

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ArdentAspen In reply to Foxbear [2016-06-26 05:26:38 +0000 UTC]

Zarkon kept his gaze locked on the door that had just closed behind the human, as though he didn't see the disgruntled figure standing to the far left of the deck.
"You think I was not hard enough on him." It was an observation, rather than a statement.
Sendak raised his hands in a gesture of surrender. "He's your demon-spawn, not mine," his old friend snorted. "I would not presume to question your methods of reprimanding."
"No," Zarkon agreed, "You would not." Something the shorter Galra had said struck him and he turned to look at the commander with a slightly irritated amusement radiating from his eyes. "That's the second time today someone has referred to Shiro as my "demon" child. I hope that doesn't catch on."
Sendak shifted and nodded his head in the direction Shiro had left. "You think he's learned?" he asked gruffly.
"You saw his eyes. He will not make that kind of decision lightly again."
Sendak shook his head in wonder. "Humans. Just when you think you've figured them out, they do something to surprise you. There is no way in the seven circles that they should have survived that, let alone been so successful. But he was so confident that it'd work. What do the humans know that we don't?"
Zarkon shook his head. "I do not know. It may have been as simple as projecting data from situations on Earth to a mildly similar occurrence in space." A shiver ran down his spine and he hoped that wasn't the case. There was a much greater margin for error there. "Or perhaps humans simply see things where we do not."
"Strange creatures, your children," Sendak muttered. He bowed to the emperor and was dismissed to return to overseeing the attacks on the Altean siege forces.

 ***

"Orpah, has Shiro been in here?" Keith poked his head into the Druid's Wing. "Nobody's seen him since Sendak brought him back from the Druidsong."
The healer-in-training, a matronly young Galra pregnant with her first child, straightened and frowned. "No, Keith, I have not seen him in the Druid's Wing since his arm healed."
A muscle in Keith's cheek twitched at the reminder of the amputation, but he ignored it. "Thanks anyway," he sighed. Then, as an afterthought, "You shouldn't be on your feet so much, Orpah. Take a break or something."
The Druid beamed at him and shooed him away playfully. Keith wandered the halls, sporadically contacting his fellow Paladins, none of whom were having any luck in locating their missing leader.
"I don't know what Dad said to him," Hunk said thoughtfully from several decks down, "But it must've been bad for Shiro to disappear for this long."
Lance had a slightly more optimistic view of the situation. "Come on, you don't know that he's hiding! This ship is huge, guys. He's probably just on another deck."
"He skipped dinner and didn't check in on my dad in the garden or go to Za- Father's debriefing," Pidge interjected flatly, "Something's definitely bothering him."
Keith knew that Hunk and Pidge were right. He also had an idea of where to look, if only he could figure out what deck his brother was on. "Hey Pidge, you can't track Shiro's arm, can you?" he asked.
"I can," the girl sounded guilty, "But he made me swear I wouldn't. Something about the idea really freaked him out for some reason."
"Oh." Keith said eloquently. 
"But," Pidge said hurriedly, "He used a data kiosk an hour ago, one deck above you, Keith. He might still be up there."
The deck above the Druid's Wing was the very top of the ship, mostly maintenance hatches and tunnels and the internal workings of the ion cannons. There wasn't space to walk or run up there, but Keith guessed that Shiro was in the mood to do neither. Small and slight as he was, it was not overly difficult for the young man to slip through a maintenance hatch and scramble over thick bundles of cables and metal framework, looking for small, enclosed spaces that might appeal to Shiro.
None of the Galra seemed to know -- not even the Emperor -- and none of the Paladins felt like telling without their leader's go-ahead, but Shiro rarely slept in his quarters. The large, open space of the room that had been his before his disappearance no longer made him feel safe and secure. He could never explain why he felt the need to sleep in small, secluded places, but Keith guessed it was a result of something that had happened in the missing year. Small places comforted Shiro, made him feel protected.
"Keith!" Shiro sounded surprised. Keith turned quickly to find the older boy staring at him in surprise and hurriedly wiping at his eyes. "What are you doing up here?"
"Looking for you," Keith said. He stopped to stare at Shiro. The Black Paladin stood barefoot in a pair of dark trousers. His tunic and cape lay neatly folded in the little alcove where he'd been crouched, along with a dimly lit datapad and an old inkwell. Scars covered Shiro's torso, almost more than Zarkon's -- though of a different nature than his quintessence-scars -- and black lines of ink marched in uneven lines over the scar tissue to fill the rare patches of unblemished skin with neat Japanese characters.
"Whaaaat are you doing?" Keith squinted at him. "Why are you writing on your scars? That's probably bad for them."
"Names. So I won't forget again." Shiro said coldly. Seeing the younger Paladin's confusion, he sighed and his shoulders slumped. "I've been ordered to memorize the crew manifest of the Druidsong," he mumbled, "That's to be my penance for taking the helm without clearance and risking a Ramius Maneuver without permission, evidently."
He turned and shuffled back into his alcove, picking up the pen again and leaning over the datapad. 
"Okay, this may be the pot calling the kettle black here," Keith followed close behind, frowning, "But this does not seem healthy. I don't know if Zarkon meant it literally-"
"He did," Shiro said shortly.
"-but even he probably didn't mean you should be using an old fountain pen to scratch names into your skin. Look, you press too hard and you'll cut yourself, then there's ink in your blood and I'm not going to be the one to explain why to Haggar." Keith continued as if Shiro had not spoken.
Part of Shiro wanted to gently correct Keith for assuming the worst of Zarkon again. Part of him wanted to defend their adoptive father to his oft-embittered little brother. But at the moment he was still numb, and reeling from the revelation of all the lives that could have been lost under his command. More blood on his hands, but this time it wouldn't have come while he was part of Voltron. The pen felt as heavy as lead in his hand, and slowly, Shiro set it back in the old inkwell. The Lions were locked away. Sealed up on another ship entirely, and moved between vessels every three weeks so that the Paladins could never be entirely certain where they were. Nevertheless, he could almost feel the ugly, gleeful indignation of the Black Lion. It felt both like a roar of indignation that his efforts were not being praised for the success they had yielded, and also like a triumphant laugh that declared that Shiro would never be free of Voltron's influence. How could he call himself a defender, a protector -- much less a son of Zarkon -- when he was still so willing to put the lives of the innocent at risk for the sake of doing battle? Shiro flexed his metal hand and pulled his knees to his bare chest, staring unseeing at the datapad.
"Talk to me, Shiro," Keith nudged him roughly. "What's going on in there?"
Shiro blinked and cleared his throat. "Hm? What? No, sorry. I'm...I'm fine."
"Like Mumm-ra you are," Keith spat. Shiro raised an eyebrow.
"Y'know, I really don't think you're using that curse correctly," he offered.
"I know," Keith admitted, "But Lotor gets twitchy when I ask about it and Haggar smacked me with a ladle for saying it in the Druid's Wing. And I can never get Sendak alone to ask him."
A brief smile tugged at Shiro's lips, then he rested his forehead against his knees. "This shouldn't be hitting me as hard as knowing I was responsible for the destruction of the Calyx or the Galleria," he muttered. "The crew of the Druidsong survived. But I made a call that could've gotten them all killed, and I wasn't in the Black Lion when I did. That scares me, Keith."
"You should talk to Lotor," the Red Paladin settled next to him and leaned against him in a rough form of wordless comfort. "He's probably made a bad call or two in his day. You and me, we're way younger than most of these guys," he said with more confidence than he felt. "I bet most of them have done something stupid and risky before that they got yelled at for."
Just as Shiro appeared to be considering the idea, Keith frowned. "On second thought, don't talk to Lotor. He'll tell Zarkon." His frown deepened into an uncomfortable look. "I think he was worried, by the way."
"Lotor?"
"No, Zarkon. When nobody saw you in the mess hall, he didn't look surprised, but he seemed a little worried when you skipped the briefing."
"They already had the briefing?" Shiro's head shot up. "What time is it?"
"You ask that like they keep Earth hours on this ship," his brother said dryly. "It's probably three hours since dinner. Whatever o'clock that is."
Shiro groaned and dropped his head again. "How much trouble am I in?" he asked gingerly, "And is it worth it to just avoid Father until this all blows over?"
Keith dug his elbow into the older boy's ribs playfully and immediately regretted it as the nudge against a long, puckered scar made Shiro wince. "C'mon, Shiro, you already know what my answer to that is going to be."
"Father probably doesn't need two Paladins barely on speaking terms with him," Shiro snorted. "And I'm the one at fault anyway." Somber now, he picked up the pen and began transcribing another name, this time on his bicep as there was no skin left whole on his chest. To Keith, he just looked...lost. It was an unnerving thing to see in the eyes of one who'd always styled himself as his protector and mentor.
"Hey Shiro?" Keith asked, softer now, "For what it's worth, I don't think Voltron had anything to do with your decision today. I don't know how you knew what to do, since I wasn't there, but I can't help thinking it was the only outcome where everyone made it out in one piece. You're not tainted."
"But what if I am?" Shiro whispered, and haunted eyes found Keith's in the gloom.
He had no reckoning for this. Keith shifted his weight a little uneasily. "..maybe you should talk to Zarkon," said the Red Paladin, though it was clear that he was reluctant to say so. "If he was the Black Paladin once, he should know if it's possible or not."
Shiro looked back down at datapad and his face hardened. "No, I won't disturb him," he said flatly, and began to write the next name. A flicker of concern ran through Keith, but he did not leave. Someone needed to sit with Shiro, clearly. It might as well be him.

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Foxbear In reply to ArdentAspen [2016-06-27 13:42:48 +0000 UTC]

Zarkon was slowly removing his armor at the end of a long day of preparation and negotiation. He was alone in his personal quarters, a rare luxury for the leader of the Empire, and enjoying the silence when his door pinged with an entrance request. Zarkon fought back as curse as his mind began attempting to figure out what department had a sudden and desperate need for him. He considered putting his armor back on before answering but sighed and turned towards the door. It wasn't like all of his commanders hadn't seen him in his trousers at some point or another.
"Open," he ordered the door curtly. It obeyed and Zarkon blinked in surprise. Keith of all people stood on the other side looking like he wanted nothing more than to bolt in terror. 
"Keith," Zarkon nodded and tried to project welcome without scaring the boy off. "Come in please." 
Keith seemed to think better of it, for a moment he looked like he would bolt, but gathered himself with a visible effort and stepped into the room. He went a little white when the door closed behind him but stood his ground. Zarkon was suddenly acutely aware of how small his son was, hardly bigger than Pidge really. The old Galra eased back and sat down on the edge of his bed hoping to make him self appear smaller and less threatening. From the slight widening in Keith's eyes this served to put Zarkon's many scars right at eye level for the boy and Zarkon suppressed a sigh.
"What can I do for you?" He asked after a moment.
Keith stiffened and began to fiddle with the hem of his shirt, as if debating what, if anything, to say. Finally he made a decision, squared his shoulders and looked Zarkon, not quite defiantly in the eye.
"Shiro needs you," Keith said bluntly. 
That was very much not what Zarkon and expected and the surprise that showed in his face seemed to give Keith courage.
"I just spent the past hours sitting with him," Keith explained. "He was...he was memorizing those names you told him to," there was a hint of accusation in the tone. "It really hit him hard and he's asking questions; questions no one would have answers to but you."
The rush of words stopped suddenly and Zarkon stared at his son a moment, fighting down a wash of complex emotions. Foremost was joy that his most reluctant child was trusting him with this.
"I see," Zarkon nodded. "Where is Shiro?"
"Sleeping," Keith said a little to defensively. "But he'll be up and I made him promise to come by the commissary for breakfast as soon as he is awake." 
Zarkon smiled and nodded. "I will meet him there then."
"Great," Keith spun and headed for the door quickly but Zarkon called out to stop him.
"My son," he said softly. "What makes you think that I am the one to aid Shiro in this."
Keith's gaze fell to Zarkon's broad chest and his eyes seemed to track the scars. "Just a hunch," he muttered before darting out of the room. 

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ArdentAspen In reply to Foxbear [2016-06-27 15:48:18 +0000 UTC]

Shiro had considered skipping breakfast altogether. He only had one hundred and fifty more names to write down, surely food could wait? But he had promised Keith, and he had never broken a promise to the younger boy.
That's not true, the unwelcome voice of reality reminded him, When you left for Kerberos, you promised that you'd be back in a month.
Shiro shut his tired eyes and mumbled a half enunciated curse under his breath. Kerberos. He'd come to hate that word. For Shiro it represented chaos and fear and loss. Loss of friends, loss of safety, loss of memory. Not even Commander Holt had any idea what had become of Shiro between the capture and Holt's rescue, and Shiro worried that it would one day drive him mad. Checking to see if the ink was dry, and that none of it had smeared, Shiro threw on one of the loose-fitting shirts he kept in the little crawlspace -- along with food, water, a few books and a knife -- picked up his boots and squeezed out of the maintenance hatch. Hopefully none of the security drones would see him. Only Keith knew about this particular hiding place, and Shiro preferred to keep it that way.
He was beginning to become accustomed to the stares of the Galra, but given the events of the previous day, the gazes seemed to hold more weight when Shiro entered the commissary. A flush of shame colored his features and he kept his shoulders squared and his head down as he wove among them, studiously ignoring any whispers. Shiro didn't have much of an appetite, but a promise was a promise so he snagged a few pieces of fruit and made for the most isolated corner of the commissary, to a table half hidden behind a pillar that he and his fellow Paladins frequented.
The corner was not as isolated as he'd hoped.
No sooner had he taken a seat on one of the cold benches then a darker patch of shadow detached from the wall and moved to stand next to him. Shiro froze for an instant, identifying the unmistakable white armor even from the corner of his eye. Hastily, he stood, nearly falling backward over the bench in an effort to disentangle himself from the table, and made a short, silent bow. He could not afford to be casual today, not after what he'd done. Shiro dreaded seeing that hard, disappointed look in Zarkon's eyes again, and he had vowed in the privacy of his own mind that it would never happen again. He needed to be a better son. He would be a better son. Even if he wasn't Galra.
The emperor watched him impassively, then inclined his head a fraction. "I would have a word with you, Shiro," he said calmly.
Shiro was able to stop the cringe he felt from showing, but something in his eyes must have given him away. The emperor quirked a brow and frowned at him, then reached down to the table and collected the forgotten pieces of fruit, handing them back to the boy.
"Don't look like you've been handed a sentence of execution!" he spoke gruffly, with a tinge of sarcastic humor, but there was concern in his eyes. "Come."
Shiro followed obediently and tried not to wonder what this conversation would entail. Would he be forced to watch the footage of the Ramius Maneuver, told all the ways it could have gone horribly wrong? Would he be scolded for having missed the briefing? Or perhaps, a cold and slightly frightened voice that reminded him just a little of the Black Lion hissed, Someone's finally decided this is the last straw and you must be held accountable for all the lives you've taken.
No, Shiro reminded himself sternly, Breathe. Control. Show no fear, show no emotion, the way you did in the Castle of Lions. You'll be alright. Easier said than done.
A door hissed shut behind him and he realized Zarkon had stopped. Shiro didn't recognize the room. It looked almost...normal, almost like something he would have seen on Earth. Books and datapads stood neatly on shelves anchored to the wall over a spartan bed, and a large chair sat beside it. Shiro stifled his curiosity as best he could -- but had that been one of Commander Holt's Jules Verne books on the table? -- and stood rigidly in place, eyes front.
"I apologize for missing the briefing, sir," he said carefully. "It will not happen again." The emperor's frown deepened and Shiro guessed that wasn't the answer he'd been looking for.
"Shiro, come here." Zarkon beckoned him closer and gestured to the edge of the bed. "Sit down."
The bed had been designed for a Galra adult, not a human, and Shiro felt a little like Pidge as he awkwardly obeyed, hoisting himself up to the edge and watching his feet dangle several inches above the floor. He didn't see Zarkon's smile, but somehow he felt it in the instant it was there. Then it was gone and the emperor was crouching to look up into his face.
"Keith came to me," he said. Shiro's eyes widened in shocked surprise. Keith? The boy who could count the authority figures he trusted on one hand had actually gone to Zarkon? "He is concerned about you."
Shiro winced, and wondered what exactly Keith had said. Unconsciously, he traced one of the names -- Thrace -- through his sleeve. Zarkon's eyes tracked his movements curiously, but as he could not read Japanese, it was unlikely that he recognized the gesture as anything more than nervous fidgeting.
"Shiro, why were you hiding from me?" Zarkon asked bluntly. He had a vague suspicion that this was part of the reason behind the boy's absence at dinner and at the briefing.
Barely audible, the Black Paladin answered in an expression of startling honesty. "Because I was ashamed."
Zarkon made a sound of understanding and stood. Shiro kept his gaze fixed on the floor, but soon felt the mattress give beneath a considerable weight as the massive Galra lowered himself to sit beside him. "Shiro, do you understand why I asked you to memorize the names?" he asked.
"Yes sir." Shiro's eyes hardened. "So that I would never take a risk like that with the lives of your people again."
Zarkon flinched at the words "your people". Then he sighed and reached out. He gently took hold of the young human's face and turned it back towards him. "That," he said, "Is only part of the reason. Yes, I want you to be aware of the lives every captain is responsible for. One day I may place you in command of a ship, and I need to know that you understand the weight of that responsibility. I gave you that list of names so that you would learn, Shiro. Not because I was angry with you -- though I was certainly not pleased, I'll grant you that --. Because I love you."
He hadn't had a conversation like this since Lotor was a cub, and he could not help but feel the mildest twinge of humorous triumph that he still knew how to give this sort of talk. Shiro's fists clenched against his legs and his shoulders shook once before forcefully stilling. He appeared to be wrestling with his emotions, not entirely certain whether it was appropriate to express them or not.
"Keith told me the number of names greatly unsettled you," Zarkon probed after a long silence. Shiro drew a shaky breath and nodded. "What was it that so unsettled you, my son?" Zarkon asked gently, "You swore to me that you performed that maneuver because you felt there was no better alternative at the time."
Something in Shiro relaxed a fraction, unbent, at the words my son. It was more of a comfort to him than he'd previously suspected. For just an instant, a fragment of memory flashed behind his eyes: the pod, crashing into the Radiance's cargo bay, and Galra soldiers surrounding it with rifles raised.
"Lower your weapons," a commanding voice had said, "I do not think it is armed." 
He'd scrambled back, bleeding from a head injury and disoriented as a huge figure ducked through the damaged entryway and held a hand out to him. "Come on, it's alright. I won't hurt you, little one, come here. That's it, I've got you." 
Shiro blinked several times, then realized he'd never answered Zarkon's question. "I..." he hesitated, voice rough. "I remember the Calyx. And the Eclipse. And the Galleria. How many names were on board those ships?" He looked up and saw shock and sadness beginning to creep into the Galra's eyes, and a little nervously, tacked "Father?" onto the end of his question.
"Shiro, what happened to those crews - what you did, I - " he shook his head. "Do not blame yourself for those deaths, my son. You had not yet learned what Voltron was capable of."
"But this I did outside of Voltron! Outside of the Black Lion!" Shiro insisted, and tugged at the lock of white hair in frustration. "It wasn't even connected! ....w-was it?"
Zarkon sucked in a breath and pulled the human close. For a long time he just sat, holding the unresisting boy against his chest. Then he released him and brushed the hair from his face. 
"You listened to the voice telling you that your behavior on the Druidsong was no different from your actions against the Calyx," he said heavily, hardly having to guess at all. "It's the voice telling you that you'll never be free of Voltron's stain, making you re-examine every word you say and every action you take for signs of bloodwrath." 
Shiro shut his eyes, but before he could stop them, tears spilled out and down his cheeks as he nodded.
"It takes time to learn to shut that voice out," Zarkon bowed his head, shoulders weighed down as if by some heavy burden. There were memories in his voice, old and painful but all too familiar to Shiro. "And you have only been free of the Lion for a short while. You will learn."
"How?" Shiro whispered. He did not trust his voice to remain steady at any higher volume.
"For a start, you might trust your father, rather than hide from him when you are afraid Voltron has influenced you," the emperor said with a sad smile.
Shiro stiffened, then bowed his head. Zarkon's arm wound around his shoulders again, and his voice rumbled through his chest next to Shiro's ear, speaking in time with his memory.
"It's alright, little one. Come here, that's it. I've got you."

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NoraElric [2016-06-25 15:39:19 +0000 UTC]

Yes! Love voltron

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ArdentAspen In reply to NoraElric [2016-06-25 15:47:37 +0000 UTC]

Me too!

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NoraElric In reply to ArdentAspen [2016-06-25 17:37:40 +0000 UTC]

Woohoo!

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Fanatic97 [2016-06-25 12:02:58 +0000 UTC]

Even without Ultron, SHiro kicks butt! '
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ArdentAspen In reply to Fanatic97 [2016-06-25 13:20:25 +0000 UTC]

Yeah...though he's probably going to get in trouble for not warning anyone he was about to do that

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Fanatic97 In reply to ArdentAspen [2016-06-25 13:26:49 +0000 UTC]

I see, so baseiclly..Shiro pulled a LEROY JENKINS! 

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ArdentAspen In reply to Fanatic97 [2016-06-25 13:48:47 +0000 UTC]

I based it off a scene that apparently happens in Battlestar Galactica where someone named Adama does the same thing.

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Fanatic97 In reply to ArdentAspen [2016-06-25 13:50:48 +0000 UTC]

I see  

Still sounds like a Lery Jenkins case X) 

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