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BbarbyY In reply to ??? [2013-11-16 18:36:37 +0000 UTC]

Danke

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Elisabeta999Rezac In reply to BbarbyY [2013-11-16 18:56:50 +0000 UTC]

Bitte 

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BbarbyY In reply to H4MST3rR [2013-08-19 10:43:19 +0000 UTC]

You too?

Ohh..thank you^^

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H4MST3rR In reply to BbarbyY [2013-08-19 11:42:27 +0000 UTC]

Yeah... I felt like "Do I need theraphy or just a hug?"...

It's over for now... however, it always comes back, maybe I need to try new experiences >.<

Oh, and NP ^-^

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BbarbyY In reply to H4MST3rR [2013-08-19 17:57:59 +0000 UTC]

I  just need theraphy...

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H4MST3rR In reply to BbarbyY [2013-08-19 18:12:55 +0000 UTC]

Oh...

Just wondering... where's your depression coming from? Mine comes because my family are too overprotective and they hate me at the same time... hard to explain... >.<

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BbarbyY In reply to H4MST3rR [2013-08-19 18:18:20 +0000 UTC]

thanks 

Mine comes from my past..I've losted ALL of my friend and my best friend had only use me and broked my heart..it was a very hard hard time....I've tried to suicide...Now I have only friends here..not in real ;-;

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H4MST3rR In reply to BbarbyY [2013-08-19 18:32:00 +0000 UTC]

DDDDDDDDDDDDD=

OH-MY-GOD

Well... I never had much "closed friends"... everybody laught at me because I was... you know... the weird guy... 95% of my friends were "toxic friends" or just felt sad for me... and, about my real friends... my toxic friends destroyed them uwu

I don't have any real friend at the moment, just like you... oh... I also tried to suicide, but I just couldn't do it... I don't know why, I really don't have nothing to lose  >.<

I feel like a guy called Simon Henrikkson. Once, he said the following:

"I've always felt alone my whole life,

for as long as I can remember,

I don't know if I like it... or if I'm just

used to it, but I do know this:

Being lonely does things to you, and feeling shit and bitter

and angry all the time just...eats away at you."

I'm hopping the best for you... good luck ;A;

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BbarbyY In reply to H4MST3rR [2013-08-19 20:28:05 +0000 UTC]

I'm always the outsider..The girl,who is different... They laugh at me too....One time ago , a guy had threw an OPEN icetea on me..I was wet..and the guy and his friends just laughed....the girls don't like me....I would be alone if I haven't my friends here and you

Thank you so much and I hope you getting better too^^

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H4MST3rR In reply to BbarbyY [2013-08-19 20:58:55 +0000 UTC]

Feeling so bad for you... it's like we were the same person... when something bad happens to me, the people just... laugh... like in your situation...

I think I'm getting mad (if I'm not like it yet). I'm starting to like gore, how-to suicide websites and so on... what's wrong with me? I can't stop repeating the word "suicide" to myself. I just can't avoid it... when I'm alone, I'm always repeating thinks like "Bro, suicide", "Kill me"... >.<

Well... I learnt to hide all those problems behind a smile... smiling is becoming something bad for me uwu

I know, I'm a spycho... everybody says that... but... who says the word "solution"? No one! It's like they want me to keep in my mind I'm crazy... all the time... and that's not healing.

Yeah, I got my dA friends... but... it's not enought for me... they can't give me a hug or even hear my cry, that's a shame uwu

Well... at least, I'm trying to keep in mind that suicide's not an option... but... >.<

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BbarbyY In reply to H4MST3rR [2013-08-20 10:58:55 +0000 UTC]

Ohh poor you Q-Q          

I'm a psycho too. But a bad one....Sometimes I smile when somebody gets hurt......

I feel better when I have a argue with someone...I know it's sick...so sick... ;-;

I cant trust peoples anymore and I always think the peoples don't like me.

I always search the badness in me.....

Sometimes I have really bad suicide toughts that I can't hide my pain  behind a smile anymore....I just wanna kill myself....

I'm very weak and I cry very often,because my life is very hard

Ohh you're right!!!! Yes,it's a big shame..Sometimes I imagine a life with my dAfriends in real life....

I hope you won't think about suicide more and I have to keep that in my mind too

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H4MST3rR In reply to BbarbyY [2013-08-20 11:54:00 +0000 UTC]

Well... smiling in that situation is a natural feeling for a human... don't worry about that, nothing related to be mad ^-^

Yeah, same here... I think that's because we are taking our rights when arguing... v(º-º)v

And once again, I'm feeling like you. Well... it's not a feeling at all! They DO hate us.

Why are they hating? Because everyone does, since most of the people hates us, the rest will do it too, just to copy the standars.

I think they started to hate me because I have no social skills...

I don't worry about their opinion... however, I'm the idiot that never finds a group on school projects, and that hurts >.<

Well... in my situation, badness search me uwu

I haven't reached that status yet... smiling works, I think...

Wanna die? I think that I won't... the people that hates you want YOU to die... I won't make them happy... not today ùwú

Having a hard life?

(...)

So... have you ever heard about Cry of Fear? It's an horror game, but I enjoyed it too much since the main character thinks about suicide all the time... we are like soul twins. He also has the same problems than me... it's like I just got in a videogame.

If not enought, my RL face's like his, my hair does too... we are definitively the same person.

You like videogames? You'll enjoy it... I promise... and it has the best ending I'm ever seen... I cried ^-^ xD

Sometimes? I'm doing it always... but I think they would start to hate me too before a short period of time >.<

Yeah... I think I'm thinking about suicide 60% of my time... now it's fixing time I guess...

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BbarbyY In reply to H4MST3rR [2013-08-20 18:50:23 +0000 UTC]

I think I'm too different as the other....I'm 15,I should talk about fashion,boys or make up...But I hate taking about it! I have other interest like playing videogames or

drawing! I can't talk to the girls in my class,because they talk about girl things and thats the reason why I have always work alone in school....

I haven't social skills too,but mine are worser....I'm afraid of peoples....It's the truth altought it heard impossible. When I have to talk to a foreign peoples who I don't know I get panic and want to go away!!!

Yes,I know Cry of Fear,but I never played it ;-;

I think of suicide when I feel very horrible...But it's not that often....

Maybe 40%?

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H4MST3rR In reply to BbarbyY [2013-08-21 07:29:21 +0000 UTC]

I'm 15 too and I hate talking about teenagers' common threads... for example: I hate football. I think there's no place for a geek at high school uwu

Well... being scared of people is called "social phobia". The cause is a low self-respect, and I think I have it too uwu

Do it, just do it. You can download it for free by Steam. It will help you with suicide, just try to avoid the spoilers until you complete it, and try to make theories as the story evolves. The game looks common, but it's not.

Well... I'm feeling horrible most of my time, but right now, I'm fine. Yeah, suicidal throughs are totally gone, and the best part is that all I did was to try new experiences with friends... go play Minecraft online or even Cry of Fear Co-op or something, it helps a lot =3

I know I'll feel miserable again, so I'm enjoying my depression-free time

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BbarbyY In reply to H4MST3rR [2013-08-21 10:57:57 +0000 UTC]

I know that I have social phobia,it's one of the reason why I have to go to a theraphy!

I will download it!

Yes,I have to try something new like you..But I don't know what ;-; Maybe writing a book? XD

I feel only bad when I have school. Now I have holidays and I'm all the time in my house. That means I'm alone.And when I'm alone,I feel better :3

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H4MST3rR In reply to BbarbyY [2013-08-21 11:14:14 +0000 UTC]

No, going to theraphy's a really big mistake, it makes you realice you are really crazy... the best way is to tell your bff about it, since they can't heal an unknow problem ^-^

Good luck... oh, and be carefull with the face screamer at the beggining, it's the worst of all the game. It comes when you are on a dark passage, you should need to know it before playing >¬<

Writing seems nice, but only if you like what you are writing... for example: I would hate to write a story about sex, but taking my time for a sci-fi book would be awesome \(º¬º)/

Also, I think you should find someone special... not necessary a boyfriend, just a person that understands your pain and makes you smile, that would be awesome ^-^

OMG... yeah, school's really depressing, and the worst part is that it is supposed to be like it (too long to explain...). I'm not feeling alone on my house since my parents are coming into my room without any advice, so I'm always a bit annoyed because I can't be alonewhen I want to... school had something good for me since I could escape of my parents Dx

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BbarbyY In reply to H4MST3rR [2013-08-21 11:37:14 +0000 UTC]

That's impossible. She hates me..and I don't want to talk to her again..she was the worst person in my life...I regret that I have  met here and beeing her friend....

Without she,I would be a happy person.

Okay,if you think so? But I've heard they help peolpes to being normal?

Oh,thank you for the hint.It will help me!!^^

No,I would never write about sex!! I love fantasy,horror and siecence fiction books!

I have so many fantasy in my head,and from my dreams XD

I would write a mixture of all three genres :3

My grades are not the problem..they're good, but the peolppes are the proplems...

I found somebody who is like me.....and I think you too? maybe a bit XD

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H4MST3rR In reply to BbarbyY [2013-08-21 12:12:45 +0000 UTC]

LOL... she's not your bff, she's just a traitor... I mean your deviantART friends, I don't think they'll hurt you ^-^

She made your life miserable? God... what happened? >.<

Theraphy on itself won't have a really effective effect because the problem is real, and it is not on your mind... you should face your problems, it's the best option being on your situation...

NP =3 xD

LOL, I wrote a small book about fantasy, horror and sci-fi once... and, at the moment, I'm making a manga with a friend mixing those genders and also comedy

It's nice to have those dreams and that level of fantasy on your heas, I'm pretty sure that will help you with the book ^-^

Do is, as I did some time ago >¬<

Well... my grades are good too, I don't really need to study too much ^-^

But... yeah, people are too cruel most of the time... I don't care about their opinion as they don't care about mine, being at the same class doesn't mean being buddies v(º-º)v

Well... I'll say I haven't met much people like me, and that you are the most similar xD

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BbarbyY In reply to H4MST3rR [2013-08-21 12:32:32 +0000 UTC]

Ohhhh,I'm stupid X3

I've already told you!

Your manga will be very good^^

You're right^^

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H4MST3rR In reply to BbarbyY [2013-08-21 18:03:37 +0000 UTC]

No, you aren't xD

You mean the iced tea thing? Yeah, now I remember... 

Thanks

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BbarbyY In reply to H4MST3rR [2013-08-21 18:11:48 +0000 UTC]

okay

np^^

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H4MST3rR In reply to BbarbyY [2013-08-21 18:39:55 +0000 UTC]

Well... thanks for this conversation, I just realized I'm not alone at my dark world at all ^-^

See you xD

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BbarbyY In reply to H4MST3rR [2013-08-21 18:43:39 +0000 UTC]

Thanks ya tooo!!!!

Let's be happy again

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H4MST3rR In reply to BbarbyY [2013-08-21 19:55:18 +0000 UTC]

Yeah, I'm happier now, I haven't though on suicide yet since I stopped thinking about it some days ago, that's being a long suicidal-throughsless break xD

Thanks again, that helped me so much ='D

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BbarbyY In reply to H4MST3rR [2013-08-21 20:01:51 +0000 UTC]

That sounds good!

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H4MST3rR In reply to BbarbyY [2013-08-21 20:10:02 +0000 UTC]

Yeah, it is x3

You are better too I guess ^-^

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BbarbyY In reply to H4MST3rR [2013-08-21 20:15:59 +0000 UTC]

Thank you^^

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ANTElKU In reply to H4MST3rR [2013-08-20 14:55:02 +0000 UTC]

Suicidarse es una tonteria, ok ahora no tendrás amigos, pero te quedan muchos años de vida para conocer gente, e incluso podremos conocernos en la vida real.. algun dia.. u.u

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H4MST3rR In reply to ANTElKU [2013-08-20 16:09:24 +0000 UTC]

Suki... ya sé que suicidarse es una tontería... precisamente por eso me asusta: siendo una tontería... ¿cómo es que quiero hacerlo?

La verdad es que mi situación es más complicada de lo que he explicado... no quiero entrar en detalles... >.<

Dudo que tu y yo podamos conocernos IRL... ¿Tienes webcam? Temo que sea lo más cerca que podamos estar v(u-u)v

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ANTElKU In reply to H4MST3rR [2013-08-20 16:13:35 +0000 UTC]

No, no quieres.. >:c

Vale :s

No tengo.. 

Tampoco vivimos tan lejos.. Mira a pewdiepie y a marzia, ella es italiana y el es sueco, y se conocen >:U

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H4MST3rR In reply to ANTElKU [2013-08-20 16:17:11 +0000 UTC]

La verdad... es que ya no estoy seguro... pero si, mejor no querer, supongo >¬<"

Suki, ellos son adultos y adinerados... hay una gran diferencia entre ellos y dos adolescentes sin recursos xD

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ANTElKU In reply to H4MST3rR [2013-08-20 16:19:46 +0000 UTC]

 No quieres y punto uwu

Yo no digo que sea ahora xD

Dentro de unos años .3.

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H4MST3rR In reply to ANTElKU [2013-08-20 16:26:34 +0000 UTC]

Cierto... no quiero... de hecho, el suicidio no es idea mía, es solo una magulladura que sale cuando sufres demasiados golpes... eso es algo que intento meterme en la cabeza >.<

Me retracto a lo susodicho: adultos ADINERADOS. Viendo mi situación, apenas tendré dinero para vivir... llevo tiempo pensando que, si consigo dinero, viviré en una caravana, viajando continuamente... si eso pasa, no veo porque no visitarte xD

(Claro... si eso pasa... uwu)

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ANTElKU In reply to H4MST3rR [2013-08-20 16:27:24 +0000 UTC]

Pero por que? Es por tus padres? :s

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H4MST3rR In reply to ANTElKU [2013-08-20 16:39:21 +0000 UTC]

¿A qué te refieres? Si hablas de que de dónde saqué esas estupideces de suicidarme, bueno... de muchas cosas (se me ocurren ahora 4 diferentes) que no quiero decir, sorry uwu

Te diré lo que me pasa: casi todos mis traumas son porque trato con personas que prefiero no ver, por eso tengo planeado salir de casa cuanto antes (mi familia no me respeta y ni siquiera me hablo con mi padre desde hace un año, huir cerraría la mayor herida de todas). Además, al librarme de los toxic friends y al empezar una nueva vida como viajero frecuente, siempre estaría en un sitio diferente y si la gente llega a odiarme solo tengo que irme.

Una pregunta... ¿de dónde saldrá el dinero para mantenerme? =/

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ANTElKU In reply to H4MST3rR [2013-08-20 16:51:29 +0000 UTC]

:s

Que no te respeta..? 

Tu sabrás..

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H4MST3rR In reply to ANTElKU [2013-08-20 16:56:32 +0000 UTC]

Pues no... entran continuamente a mi cuarto sin llamar, dejan la puerta abierta, toman decisiones que me incumben sin ni siquiera decirme nada... en resumen: yo no existo para ellos, solo está mi hermana >.<

Ñeee... ¿donar órganos? Ni idea v(º-º)v

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ANTElKU In reply to H4MST3rR [2013-08-20 17:00:00 +0000 UTC]

Claro, entrat a tu cuarto para ver como estas por que les importas, hazme caso todos los padres son iguales, parece que quieren mas a los hermanos pequeños, pero no pienses eso pq solo lo pasarás mal, piensa que te quieren, aunque no piensan igual que tu

:I No..

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H4MST3rR In reply to ANTElKU [2013-08-20 17:01:47 +0000 UTC]

No... lo hacen para coger la ropa... siempre me están sacando de mi "mundo" >.<

¿Entonces? Esto no es Los Sims, no puedo pillar un árbol del dinero xD

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ANTElKU In reply to H4MST3rR [2013-08-20 17:05:14 +0000 UTC]

Tampoco te puedes enfadar con ellos por eso ._.U

Por desgracia no u.u  xDDD

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H4MST3rR In reply to ANTElKU [2013-08-20 17:09:40 +0000 UTC]

Bah, al menos podrían haber puesto el armario de toda la familia fuera de mi cuarto, que además ocupa cierto espacio >.<

Bueno, en ese caso solo se me ocurre ganar dinero con Youtube, pero tengo que esforzarme... en fin v(º-º)v

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ANTElKU In reply to H4MST3rR [2013-08-20 17:11:22 +0000 UTC]

LoL el armario de toda la familia tb está en el cuarto de mis hermanos haha xDD

Pero sigo sin entender pq ''no te repetan'' :I

Pus buena suerte c:

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H4MST3rR In reply to ANTElKU [2013-08-20 17:15:13 +0000 UTC]

LOL... ¿he puesto "no me repetan"?

(...)

Mentirosa xD

Y lo de que no me respeten no se limita solo a eso... tu leiste mis mensajes, creo que ya te comenté todas las cosas que hacen y que me desagradan =d

Si, gracias... (jo, estoy perdido >.< xD)

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ANTElKU In reply to H4MST3rR [2013-08-20 17:16:52 +0000 UTC]

No, es que me equivoqué xDD

Una cosa es solo tu padre y otra TODA tu familia

No quieres ser nada de mayor? :s

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H4MST3rR In reply to ANTElKU [2013-08-20 17:27:08 +0000 UTC]

Am xD

Dios... así que no te lo conté... OK, creo que mejor así uwu

Pues claro que si que quiero, pero dudo que pueda encontrar empleo =/

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ANTElKU In reply to H4MST3rR [2013-08-20 17:29:54 +0000 UTC]

Hmm que tal si cambiamos de tema??

De que hiciste el gameplay? c:

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H4MST3rR In reply to ANTElKU [2013-08-20 17:33:36 +0000 UTC]

Si, mejor... gracias

Era un gameplay de Minecraft que no quería hacer pero que hice para quitármelo de encima xD

En ese gameplay, solo camino por un extraplano, hago una barricada en una aldea y creo unos túneles que conectan las diferentes casas, pero nada más que se considere importante xD

A propósito... ¿tu alguna vez harás un gameplay? ewe

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ANTElKU In reply to H4MST3rR [2013-08-20 17:36:05 +0000 UTC]

Interesante..

No, no creo xDD

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H4MST3rR In reply to ANTElKU [2013-08-20 17:41:46 +0000 UTC]

Nah... los gameplays de Mine ya están tan sobreexplotados que la única parte interesante es cuando se acaban xD

Jooo... porfi, y te doy un taco feísimo:

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