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Published: 2016-12-17 18:12:44 +0000 UTC; Views: 383; Favourites: 35; Downloads: 0
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VENT ART. DON'T LIKE, DON'T READ..This place sucks with you gone...
No one inspires me or motivates me. The conversations feel forced... even though they're nice...I'm just not feeling it. I miss you.. You always left the best comments. You actually tried...It made me happy..
Now I work my ass off on pictures and I don't even feel it's worth it..
I guess you were what was keeping me here...
Your art made me happy..and I don't even get to see it.. it's just not the same. I'm bored and lonely..
I miss you..but atleast you're happy...
I don't even want to be here.. I'm on all the time and barely anyone talks to me.. they know im shy. You made me feel wanted and loved.
I never thought someone like ME would have a talented artist like YOU want to be my friend. For the first time..I felt...privileged. Like..you did art for me..and I did art for you. To have an artist with a style I love do art for me...I've never had that.. I miss your designs and characters. I miss our RPs and random bullshitting.. I had so much fun..and I fucked it up. I hate myself more than ever...
I just feel dead..
Im
so lonely.. I just want to die..
I know.. "suck it up," or "you'll get through this,"..well I'm tired of it...
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I wish twisty could see how much you miss her.
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She knows and she doesn't care. She blocked me after her journal attacking me n
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I wish I could help you feel better.
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It's ok. You don't have to do anything. I just want the drama to stop. She blocked me, before I could help her...so it should slow down now.
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But I don't like sweet people like you feeling so sad over stupid mistakes that can be fixed.
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It's ok. For whatever reason she felt like attacking me.
Hinestly, I don't think anyone was noting her or dongboi and it was just an attempt to hurt me. When people weren't feeling sorry for her she blocked me. *shrugs* can't believe I missed skmeone like her. She's changed and not for the best. She's still a good person...but life will not go well for her..if she continues like this...
Attacking people when they are 'down' does not make them cool.
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I do agree. Things won't go well if she keeps it up. I just hope you can get feeling better.
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Thank you. I still respect her. She's a wonderful person with an amazing talent. But the pointless drama needs to stop. I'm still recovering from what she did to me. That doesn't make me a bad person. I am hurting..and sometimes it takes people longer than others to heal. She basically threw me away. Who is going to recover quickly from that? Yes, I told her I thought her husband was a bad influence on her (since he instigated this whole situation by calling me a 'cunt' and accused me of ruining her life), but I also asked her permission to say it first. She has truly proven her immaturity. She has wonderful potential but it is being darkened.
Things will get better. It just takes time and a lot of pain. Thank you.
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I respect her and you. You both have talent. But you'revery different people. I think she'd be just as hurt if someone did the same to her. You two just deal with it differently too.
You're welcome. I know things can take time but it will heal eventually. And no matter how bad it hurts, you can eventually get though it.
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I don't know you that much, and wish I knew you better. I'm not going to tell you to suck it up, and keep trying you through this cuz I don't know if it's at the answer. if I knew the all answer I tell you. believe me I would, but I doubt it help. I get it you're unhappy, and you're lonely, and you're sad. nothing is ever gonna change if you don't try to change it. now I'm not saying that you're not trying, But if you're not happy with what you're doing. Then do what makes you happy. what do you want to do? don't worry about what others want you to do cuz its your life. you've only got you one life so do you want makes you happy. You'll meet someone eventually there a plenty of people out there. You just gotta look for the right people. friends will accept you for who you are. don't ever change yourself for someone's Acceptance. Cuz that ain't true friendship. I get it you're shy. try building up your confidence by to a few people every once in awhile, and as you get more comfortable talking to people. try talking to people more. you ain't all of a sudden turn into going social butterfly. It takes time and effort to build up confidence. just trying to talk to someone every, once in awhile maybe every month or so helps. don't be afraid to mess up everyone makes mistakes Your problems aren't just going to magically go away. It takes time, and effort to overcome depression to mend broken heart. Trust me I know. I used to be the same way. These are just some of the things I figured out how along my journey that help me. I thought that might help you just a little bit. I wish you the best of luck in your journey and hope you find happiness.
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the way you think is the same way I feel towards you, I dont know who you are talking about but I have some pretty solid guesses, I know you might not read this or take this serious, but im going to say it because I still havnt gave up. Im starting to lose all focus in art but because of my faith in you im going to have faith in myself (if that makes since) I will never give up on you because I know it will get better, I know you will find something that will make you happy and it will last, I know that your strong. Bec your an amazing, unique person, depression is something that will stick with you if you let it, fight it and ill be by your side to fight it with you <3
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Becky, I know we don't know each other well, And I know you are hurt...I can't tell you how you're feeling, Because I can't experience it. I consider you as a friend, A close one. I can't explain this through words so.....I'm going to..Use a common quote/phrase.
If you're alone, I'll be your shadow.
If you want to cry, I'll be your shoulder.
If you want a hug, I'll be your pillow.
If you need to be happy, I'll be your smile...
But anytime you need a friend, I'll just be me.
That is SO true, Me and all of your watchers will do just that, Be your friend, Your shadow, Your shoulder, Your pillow, Your smile. Because we LOVE you. so very much. You're our very special friend. You make us happy. We want to make you happy too.
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I don't know what to say about this except I'm sorry you're hurting. I want to help but I don't know anything about this or what to even do...
I wish I could make you smile a little like you did for me. It's not much but I can give you a virtual hug
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I know you are upset... and my words don't mean much...
Since they are my words and not somebody important..
But I really love you being around... I love how wonderful and creative you are and just how amazing you are!
You are a wonderful and beautiful person... I know you've heard it at least a thousand times but it's true..
And I just wanted to thank you..
For everything you do...
Thank you Beckitty.... thank you.
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Beckitty,please dont be sad sweetheart. I dont like see you sad 👍: 0 ⏩: 0