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Whatever I want to be…

Myself, Man!Self, Woman!Self

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“Whatever I want to be” is a self portrait assignment I did for one of my photomedia subjects last year (yes I had blonde hair back then XD). We had to do something that reflected ourselves, hence I decided to explore the issue of my androgynous appearance and dress sense…

To those of you that don’t know me in real life, I can tell you know that I fit nothing of your stereotypical female image. I like having my hair short, I barely wear makeup, and I don’t wear a single piece of clothing that anyone would consider strictly for girls.
I prefer to dress in guy style clothes, or at least unisex types. I…pretty much look like a guy in real life 8’DD And have on many occasions (especially of late) be mistaken for a guy in public.

Whilst it is a bit awkward at times, I’ve come to laugh about it and it’s become a running joke amongst some friends to refer to me as their ‘boyfriend’ XDD ~

Though despite me being rather carefree about it all, my family and relatives unfortunately weren’t, and this issue became rather blown out of proportion during my recent family holiday back to Taiwan.

The last time I saw any of my relatives I wasn’t so…transgendered (for a lack of better word ;; ) so they were all kind of shocked at my appearance this time.
A few of them expressed their ‘concerns’ to my parents about it, and some even confronted me directly about my so called problem.
What angered me greatly was that the majority of these people have barely talked to me my whole life, and their knowledge of myself as a person extended to my name and if I’m lucky, my age and what I study. THAT’S IT.

Yet suddenly, they feel the need to judge my entire person on my appearance, also confronting myself AND my parents about it, to the point that my parents and I had a breakdown over the simple fact that I DON’T DRESS LIKE A GIRL SHOULD. Yea I know, crazy right? :///

To be honest, the majority of them had the mindset that “she dresses like a guy, therefore she must be gay or could turn gay, and that is a problem”…/FACEPALM/

My sexuality aside, I felt rather degraded over the fact that relatives would openly assume my sexual preference just by the way I looked and dressed.

Whilst it’s very frustrating, at the same time I cannot blame them because that’s what their generation has been brought up to believe. That all girls should look a certain way and all boys should look a certain way, and being homosexual was unnatural/wrong.
I even had a relative tell me directly that “you dress like a gay person”….orz;; It took all I had not to talk back in rage at them T____T (not coz I think it’s bad to be mistaken for a lesbian, but for the fact that they think it’s alright to talk to people like that)

To me it was very much like…so what if I don’t want to look like a traditional image of a girl? So what if I sometimes get mistake for a guy? So what if one day I actually was gay? Is my fashion sense really such a big issue that all of a sudden that’s everything I’m defined by?

I can safely say that I am not gender confused just because I like to wear suits instead of dresses. I know full well that I am a girl, but that doesn’t mean it’s wrong for me to hate dressing myself as one right? T___T

I personally feel really uncomfortable when I am forced to wear strictly female clothing (not out of my own will)…and I just don’t think I look any good in them.
Dressing more like a guy/unisex allows me to be myself more, and makes me more confident and outspoken. It allows me to go outside feeling that I look decent and not that everyone is looking at me weirdly.
Call it a social anxiety thing if you will, but I like to think that I dress to make myself comfortable and look nice, rather than making other people ‘not confused’ about my gender X’DD

When I returned from my trip, I looked back at this piece and felt like I relate even more to it now…

My image may be a guy, or a girl, but inside you’re still getting the same person.
I think it’s absolutely fine if a girl want to wear guys clothes or vice versa, as long as you wear it with dignity and wear it with confidence.
It’s a cliché line, but be whatever you want to be and don’t let your gender or other people’s misperception define and judge you. Wear/and look like what you want to make yourself comfortable, not to make other’s feel comfortable

Afterall, if you look fabulous, you will feel fabulous and therefore express yourself as a fabulous person and others will think you’re fabulous! *sleep deprived logix orz;;*

Sorry for the giant rant. I hope there was some sense in all that;; Thank you *MeLRizA and *Emorenji again for helping me make this image happen! <3

I am curious to know what you think of this issue too, would like to know that I am not insane in my way of thinking X’DD (or confirmation that I am if that’s the case haha ;; )

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I argued with myself for a while on whether I should upload this to dA, as I was worried that some people may take offence to the topic…Nothing I’ve written above is intentionally meant to offend anyone, it’s myself and my ramblings~

Description
Whatever I want to be…

Myself, Man!Self, Woman!Self

Photography:

Helper

Post editing:

“Whatever I want to be” is a self portrait assignment I did for one of my photomedia subjects last year (yes I had blonde hair back then XD). We had to do something that reflected ourselves, hence I decided to explore the issue of my androgynous appearance and dress sense…

To those of you that don’t know me in real life, I can tell you know that I fit nothing of your stereotypical female image. I like having my hair short, I barely wear makeup, and I don’t wear a single piece of clothing that anyone would consider strictly for girls.
I prefer to dress in guy style clothes, or at least unisex types. I…pretty much look like a guy in real life 8’DD And have on many occasions (especially of late) be mistaken for a guy in public.

Whilst it is a bit awkward at times, I’ve come to laugh about it and it’s become a running joke amongst some friends to refer to me as their ‘boyfriend’ XDD ~

Though despite me being rather carefree about it all, my family and relatives unfortunately weren’t, and this issue became rather blown out of proportion during my recent family holiday back to Taiwan.

The last time I saw any of my relatives I wasn’t so…transgendered (for a lack of better word ;; ) so they were all kind of shocked at my appearance this time.
A few of them expressed their ‘concerns’ to my parents about it, and some even confronted me directly about my so called problem.
What angered me greatly was that the majority of these people have barely talked to me my whole life, and their knowledge of myself as a person extended to my name and if I’m lucky, my age and what I study. THAT’S IT.

Yet suddenly, they feel the need to judge my entire person on my appearance, also confronting myself AND my parents about it, to the point that my parents and I had a breakdown over the simple fact that I DON’T DRESS LIKE A GIRL SHOULD. Yea I know, crazy right? :///

To be honest, the majority of them had the mindset that “she dresses like a guy, therefore she must be gay or could turn gay, and that is a problem”…/FACEPALM/

My sexuality aside, I felt rather degraded over the fact that relatives would openly assume my sexual preference just by the way I looked and dressed.

Whilst it’s very frustrating, at the same time I cannot blame them because that’s what their generation has been brought up to believe. That all girls should look a certain way and all boys should look a certain way, and being homosexual was unnatural/wrong.
I even had a relative tell me directly that “you dress like a gay person”….orz;; It took all I had not to talk back in rage at them T____T (not coz I think it’s bad to be mistaken for a lesbian, but for the fact that they think it’s alright to talk to people like that)

To me it was very much like…so what if I don’t want to look like a traditional image of a girl? So what if I sometimes get mistake for a guy? So what if one day I actually was gay? Is my fashion sense really such a big issue that all of a sudden that’s everything I’m defined by?

I can safely say that I am not gender confused just because I like to wear suits instead of dresses. I know full well that I am a girl, but that doesn’t mean it’s wrong for me to hate dressing myself as one right? T___T

I personally feel really uncomfortable when I am forced to wear strictly female clothing (not out of my own will)…and I just don’t think I look any good in them.
Dressing more like a guy/unisex allows me to be myself more, and makes me more confident and outspoken. It allows me to go outside feeling that I look decent and not that everyone is looking at me weirdly.
Call it a social anxiety thing if you will, but I like to think that I dress to make myself comfortable and look nice, rather than making other people ‘not confused’ about my gender X’DD

When I returned from my trip, I looked back at this piece and felt like I relate even more to it now…

My image may be a guy, or a girl, but inside you’re still getting the same person.
I think it’s absolutely fine if a girl want to wear guys clothes or vice versa, as long as you wear it with dignity and wear it with confidence.
It’s a cliché line, but be whatever you want to be and don’t let your gender or other people’s misperception define and judge you. Wear/and look like what you want to make yourself comfortable, not to make other’s feel comfortable

Afterall, if you look fabulous, you will feel fabulous and therefore express yourself as a fabulous person and others will think you’re fabulous! *sleep deprived logix orz;;*

Sorry for the giant rant. I hope there was some sense in all that;; Thank you *MeLRizA and *Emorenji again for helping me make this image happen! <3

I am curious to know what you think of this issue too, would like to know that I am not insane in my way of thinking X’DD (or confirmation that I am if that’s the case haha ;; )

Tumblr upload link ----> [link]

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I argued with myself for a while on whether I should upload this to dA, as I was worried that some people may take offence to the topic…Nothing I’ve written above is intentionally meant to offend anyone, it’s myself and my ramblings~