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Published: 2012-01-14 00:24:03 +0000 UTC; Views: 2007; Favourites: 83; Downloads: 14
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Description Depression really sucks... it makes it all the more harder to get through the day.

Found the background off the internet.
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Vaas18 In reply to ??? [2019-05-25 17:46:43 +0000 UTC]

Don't

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Skyleaf12 [2017-05-31 21:00:16 +0000 UTC]

Nailed it

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LordFrankeh [2012-01-15 21:47:20 +0000 UTC]

This is melancholic and beautiful at the same time. I love the dark blue that shrouds you in the background. I can relate in so many ways... I just hope that depression gives you a break once in a while... <3

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to LordFrankeh [2012-01-15 23:43:46 +0000 UTC]

its seemed to be hitting me real hard lately.

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LordFrankeh In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-16 00:23:02 +0000 UTC]

Any particular reason why?

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to LordFrankeh [2012-01-16 00:26:51 +0000 UTC]

relationship problems.

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LordFrankeh In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-16 02:49:12 +0000 UTC]

I see.... then I won't pry. It's really hard to find a stable relationship with somebody you can feel so comfortable with and trust them without messing things up.. unless I've got it wrong >_> Just assuming.

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to LordFrankeh [2012-01-16 02:51:28 +0000 UTC]

ikr. I just submitted a photo of me modeling >.<

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LordFrankeh In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-16 02:57:02 +0000 UTC]

So, I see! =] Ya cutie.

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Foreststone [2012-01-14 23:45:28 +0000 UTC]

So true...I've been depressed for almost three years now and I'm not sure if I know what happiness feels like anymore.

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to Foreststone [2012-01-14 23:50:44 +0000 UTC]

I've been depressed for 5

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Foreststone In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-14 23:58:38 +0000 UTC]

I'm sorry I know how it feels...well I shouldn't say that because everyone's depression is different.  I hope things get better  

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to Foreststone [2012-01-15 00:00:47 +0000 UTC]

I don't think it ever will when my childhood was taken away from me

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Foreststone In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-15 00:09:09 +0000 UTC]

I'm sorry I can relate to that feeling in a way. But I can't talk about it online check out my gallery and you may understand some more.

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to Foreststone [2012-01-15 00:12:21 +0000 UTC]

Watch me?

And also if u need to talk just send me a note because I've been through a lot to the point where I tried to commit suicide plenty of times

I'm also open for admissions

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Foreststone In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-15 00:15:42 +0000 UTC]

I am watching you I love your work, your poems are so relatable for me.

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to Foreststone [2012-01-15 00:17:07 +0000 UTC]

It's good to relate to others. So were u..... you know....?

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Foreststone In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-15 00:23:18 +0000 UTC]

Ya I was. But I can't talk about it on here for many reasons. Its a long complicated story. But one thing I can say is that I let the person have will...you know with me. I thought he loved me. 

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to Foreststone [2012-01-15 00:26:17 +0000 UTC]

I..... I understand. The same thing happened to me when I was 13..... except he was much closer to home.

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Foreststone In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-15 00:31:34 +0000 UTC]

I was 15 going on 16. I'm 17 now.

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MouseDenton [2012-01-14 21:01:02 +0000 UTC]

................................... Fuck it, I'll say what I'm thinking

I'm always cautiously skeptical when I find yet another piece of artwork concerning the topic of depression, or any mental condition for that matter. Most people aren't really that hard hit by them, and seem to create their own problems out of some sick, massochistic drama syndrome. But there's a fairly large poriton out there that are by people who really do suffer from these things. I suppose myself included (still arguing with me and... well everyone on that part).
My first response is the "suck it up", "tough it out", "deal with it", "power through" mentality, but I have to remind myself that the brain is scientific, and not some mystical realm of fanatasy as culture has led us to believe. It's electrical signals and chemical imbalances. And sometimes the chemistry is way too far off.
But my very opinion on this could be bull, since I can't jump into the mind of someone who is sick, or healthy, or different from me at all to find out how we compare. And I'm left going off of what people with degrees tell me. For a pretty penny, that is.

In summary: I don't know. I just don't know.

Other then my sudden brainstorm, I have nothing to say about this piece of work. Thanks, I guess.

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to MouseDenton [2012-01-14 21:03:23 +0000 UTC]

I agree that some people purposefully put themselves in the state of depression for no reason what so ever. It angers me when its over something so petty because I've

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pingelot [2012-01-14 20:54:49 +0000 UTC]

yeah, depresion sucks..

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to pingelot [2012-01-14 20:58:41 +0000 UTC]

But cymbalta can help

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Marija343 [2012-01-14 20:41:01 +0000 UTC]

Reminds me of my 'Suicide' very much

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AriannaTheKeybearer [2012-01-14 17:35:55 +0000 UTC]

I sympathize, I was in a depression like this a bit ago and I'm still trying to combat the nit-picky pieces of it today. When I was depressed I felt like sitting alone with my thoughts and let my mind be my only friend, I didn't want to deal with the unpredictability of the world and when people would be negative towards me, making it worse. I conjured a image of someone who loved me unconditionally but the price of that was I was never to leave my void. I finally became strong enough to leave when I said 'No, I'm tired of feeling like this, its my decision to be this way, I'm pulling myself out.'

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to AriannaTheKeybearer [2012-01-14 17:40:51 +0000 UTC]

I'm tired ig fighting....

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Daqiq [2012-01-14 08:45:59 +0000 UTC]

When you're down you feel like you never were/will be happy. But on the flip side when you do have that good day and when the sun breaks through those storm clouds you proudly realise how awesome and rewarding it was to work through that difficult patch of your life and find happiness.

Never forget: even on the gloomiest of days the sun still shines it's all its beautiful glory - you just have to realise that temporary darkness will go just as it came, and the end result of basking in the warmth of the sn makes enduring those tough days worth it.

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to Daqiq [2012-01-14 08:49:45 +0000 UTC]

I've been depressed for five years. I don't remember happiness.

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Daqiq In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-14 11:10:46 +0000 UTC]

That's depression for you. It does that. It sucks.

But thankfully getting proper help and addressing the issue head-on is a sure way to be on the road to recovery.

Using the strom cloud analogy: when you're experiencing depression it feels like the sun is not there, it doesn't exist and you begin to question if it ever did or ever will. But the truth lies behind the clouds, it is only our depression that blocks out it's warmth. When you realise this and always keep that in mind - it starts to help. Well it helped me at least.

Professional help works wonders too. Good luck friend and may you find that happiness sooner rather than later

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to Daqiq [2012-01-14 15:02:35 +0000 UTC]

my therapist seems to think that meds will fix everything

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Daqiq In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-15 00:59:06 +0000 UTC]

perhaps they might, but meds are a bit full on. If you don't feel comfortable with your therapist you could try another

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to Daqiq [2012-01-15 01:00:14 +0000 UTC]

I've already tried so many. It's pointless really. The depression is worse than ever.

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Daqiq In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-15 01:04:40 +0000 UTC]

It's never pointless my friend. The fact that others have made it through succcessfully in the past just goes to show that it does and will get better - even if it doesn't feel like it. You just have to take one day at a time

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41Frostbite [2012-01-14 05:24:33 +0000 UTC]

I like how the poem told a story in a way. Depression is hard and painful. That's when i talk to my best friends she helps me out so much. Also poetry seems to help me too.

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to 41Frostbite [2012-01-14 05:25:48 +0000 UTC]

I've been depressed for 5 years. I've pretty much forgotten what happiness is.

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41Frostbite In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-14 05:30:03 +0000 UTC]

That's so sad.
Have you thought about going to a psychiatrist?
I'd love to help if you wan to talk.

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to 41Frostbite [2012-01-14 05:33:44 +0000 UTC]

I do go to a psychiatrist, but all she wants to do is give me meds and tell me it'll make it all better.

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41Frostbite In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-14 05:39:35 +0000 UTC]

I think you need to talk it out to someone you trust.
And (not to be pushy or forceful. I'm trying to help) read the Bible.
Reading about Jesus and his love makes me feel better.
It helps me know I'm never alone, and he always loves me.

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to 41Frostbite [2012-01-14 05:41:34 +0000 UTC]

I'm an atheist.

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41Frostbite In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-14 05:51:19 +0000 UTC]

I hope you change your mind, but i respect what you believe.
I think the world would be so much better if everyone just respected each other.
I mean you don't have to agree with them, but don't be hateful.

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to 41Frostbite [2012-01-14 05:57:02 +0000 UTC]

ikr. Well I believed in god at one point in time, but then all these horrible things started happening and never once did he save me so I began to hate him for making me suffer so much.

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41Frostbite In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-14 06:07:52 +0000 UTC]

Pain is hard to deal with, and hard to get over.
But then i hear about the titsu tribe massacre that happened in Africa. This woman's neighbor killed her I think it was husband could of been father, and he was realized from prison. He was sorry and felt horrible, and she forgave him. For a person to forgive someone like that and move on took so much faith. I honestly don't know if even i could do it, but just knowing that it can be done gives me encouragement

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to 41Frostbite [2012-01-14 06:10:38 +0000 UTC]

I will NEVER forgive him. I hope he dies in the worst way possible.

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41Frostbite In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-14 06:13:07 +0000 UTC]

I don't know what this guy did to you, but I'm guessing I'd probably feel the same way for many years.
Healing is long and hard.

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to 41Frostbite [2012-01-14 06:18:02 +0000 UTC]

I will feel this way for the rest of my life. He didn't even get punished! He got away with it! I hope someone tortures him, kills all those he cares about and then kills him very slowly and painfully!

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41Frostbite In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-14 06:20:21 +0000 UTC]

All I can say is

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to 41Frostbite [2012-01-14 06:27:21 +0000 UTC]

sorry... i got a little too visual. Thanks for all the lub

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41Frostbite In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-14 06:30:43 +0000 UTC]

Your Welcome

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jesd2 [2012-01-14 01:04:54 +0000 UTC]

Deep poem. I can relate somewhat. I don't want to kill myself necessarily, but I do feel like an outsider and like I' in a void sometimes. If you need someone to talk to I'm here for you. Beautiful poem. Also I know this is strange but I love you! I just wanted to say that, because sometimes just hearing(well in this case reading) it can make someone feel better. Keep writing.

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