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Fluttershy blinked at me, a bland expression on her face. Her eyes were dull, lacking a shine in them. "What is it, Rainbow Dash? Did you leave something here?" she asked a relatively neutral question. But to me, it wasn't neutral.

To me, it was infuriating.

Maybe it was the nonchalant tone in her voice, or maybe it was the fact that she actually thought I would actually take this sitting down and get my stuff like no big deal. Or maybe it was because she didn't even look like she felt as sick inside as I did. I slammed my hoof on her door and forced my way in.

"You think I came back here for a few measly possessions??" I snapped, tears now rolling down my cheeks. She backed away slowly and her eyes registered only a bit of fear, but she knew this was coming.

"N-no.." she murmured. I screamed and launched myself in the air a few inches above her.

"So this is it then huh?! I just grab my stuff and go and you just...just..let me fly out? Is that it?" I demanded to know, inching closer to her. I was only met with silence.

"Answer me, Fluttershy!" I yelled.

Fluttershy's expression fell and her frown slowly formed into a bigger one and she began to cry. "I'm so sorry..." she said, bringing her hooves to her face to catch her tears. "I'm so sorry, Rainbow Dash..."

Now I felt like a jerk. My anger subsided and I just wanted to hug her, when I tried to, however, she pushed me away. "Figures.." I hissed. I just watched her cry for a bit as the tears came out of me as well. "What are we doing here..?" I asked.

She wiped her eyes and began to speak, her voice shaky. "I'm sorry Rainbow Dash...I just...I don't know what happened." she looked away from me, down on the floor.

My anger may have shrank, but it didn't go away. "Well you better start talking. I'm not some random stallion, Fluttershy." I walked closer to her, my eyes meeting hers. "I'm Rainbow Dash, remember?"

She sniffled and shrugged, giving me a pitiful look. My stomach churned. "The way you were holding back for me and flying..that wasn't right. That's not how relationships work, Dash.." she said, slowly turning away from me. I wanted to follow her but she cringed when she knew I was coming closer. So I stood in that spot, shaking again.

"That didn't matter to me, Fluttershy. None of it did." I insisted. She continued to shake her head.

"Don't you get it, Rainbow?" her dull whispering voice was beginning to rise. She turned to me now, tears bubbling in her eyes down her face. "You need to join the Wonderbolts and live your dream. I have to be here..by myself. I'll be the one back to nothing. That's how it has to be."

I shook my head at her statements. "No..it's not true.."

Fluttershy sniffed hard and continued. "And...and I'm not attracted to mares.." I cringed when she said that.

"I already know..don't remind me." I growled, looking away from her.

"But that had almost nothing to do with it. Kind of..I was so scared because I was falling so hard for you, Rainbow Dash.."

I remained silent, my eyes fixated on her. I waited to hear her excuse.

"But...after a while I...I was afraid that eventually..I would fall out of love with you.." she said with a small frown. She was still crying. "Please believe me, I never intended to hurt you."

My anger was back and I bucked into the air and landed on my two front legs hard. "Then why did you let me believe we'd be together forever?! Why did you tell me you loved me and do all that stuff with me and be affectionate and..you know..." I was sure I didn't have to stress that last point. She was quiet. "Why did you do all this...?"

She shrugged. "I don't know..it was stupid. It would never have worked out, Rainbow." I groaned, rolling my eyes. "Maybe for a time I believed it would...but I was beginning to feel so..." she put her hooves to her chest. "Confused. I felt like if there was ever a day I'd fall out of love with you.." she grew silent and I looked at her, waiting for her to continue. Even though I didn't really want her to. My whole body was trembling and I just wanted to crash and burn again.

"What...?" I asked.

"Don't you see...if I end it now, I'll save both of us the heartbreak..." she said. I neighed loudly and banged my hooves on the ground again.

"Are you serious?! You spared no one heartbreak, Fluttershy! You think you're a saint because you broke up with me 'early'??" I said, quoting. She flinched each time I yelled.

"Well I've got news for you.." I continued. "You didn't spare anyone anything because now I'M heartbroken and you don't give a diamond dog's ass!" I whinnied. She gave me that sad, pathetic look. But all it did was make me angrier. "And if you expect me to stick around Ponyville and continue on as friends with everypony you're wrong on that one too! I was never worth shit to you and I don't think I ever will be!" I began to back away from her. And she watched me, not even attempting to stop me.

"So this is it, huh?! I just leave and never see you and the others again and you'll be okay with that?!"

She shook her head. "I feel awful....it's all my fault..." she said, looking down at the ground, a few stray tears escaping her eyes.

I nodded. "You're damn right it is, Fluttershy! You shouldn't have lead me on in the first place! You should have never've made me love you!" and with that, I began to make my leave. I was a few feet away from the door when she spoke up.

"I've come to terms with this already..." she mumbled. I stopped where I was walking but continued to face the door, my expression contorting from anger to sadness. No. She wouldn't see me cry. Not again.

"I was never as happy with anyone as I was with you. This year was the best year of my life.." she went on. I silently sobbed, trying my best to hold back any noise. I'm sure a few whimpers were heard but I was almost proud of how well I held in any noise.

"I'm so sorry, Rainbow Dash...I'll always remember what we had..."

I let out a long, heavy sob and ran over to the door. "Never talk to me again!" and with that I dashed away from her house, leaving her with her sadness. The storm had almost blew away but there was still an icky overcast over the sky. I was sobbing uncontrollably now and made sure I flew high up in the sky so that nopony would see me or hear me. This was it.

It was really over, wasn't it?

I found a cloud I could rest on and curled up into a ball and continued to cry and sob. "Oh Fluttershy..." I cried. I covered my eyes with my hooves and allowed myself to cry. However, I felt my cloud shift in weight as I felt someone land on it. I flinched and sat up, covering up the fact I was crying. "H-hey! Can't you see I-I'm busy here??" I asked in a semi stable voice, wiping my eyes. I gasped when I saw it was Gilda.

"G-Gilda...?"

Her tired and bitter frown went to another semi wicked smile as she walked over to me. Only this time, I didn't try to back away, I sat on the cloud and lowered my head, allowing more tears to fall. She placed a large, brown wing around me to shelter me from the wind and leaned down to face me. "Make up your mind, Dash?" she asked.

I remained silent. Fluttershy was so dead set on me leaving her. And after the horrible things I said..there was no way she'd want to get back with me now. I ruined everything. I lowered my head more in shame, more tears falling from my eyes. Gilda leaned close and began to wipe my ears with her talons. As much as this repulsed me right now, I continued to let her. I was too tired to do much about it at the moment.

"I've..." I looked up at her, my magenta eyes narrowing into her golden ones. "I've made up my mind, Gilda..." I said. Her smile grew and it was almost frightening. Like a jack-o-lantern's evil grin on halloween it stared right at me.

"I'm going to join the Wonderbolts."

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Fluttershy blinked at me, a bland expression on her face. Her eyes were dull, lacking a shine in them. "What is it, Rainbow Dash? Did you leave something here?" she asked a relatively neutral question. But to me, it wasn't neutral.

To me, it was infuriating.

Maybe it was the nonchalant tone in her voice, or maybe it was the fact that she actually thought I would actually take this sitting down and get my stuff like no big deal. Or maybe it was because she didn't even look like she felt as sick inside as I did. I slammed my hoof on her door and forced my way in.

"You think I came back here for a few measly possessions??" I snapped, tears now rolling down my cheeks. She backed away slowly and her eyes registered only a bit of fear, but she knew this was coming.

"N-no.." she murmured. I screamed and launched myself in the air a few inches above her.

"So this is it then huh?! I just grab my stuff and go and you just...just..let me fly out? Is that it?" I demanded to know, inching closer to her. I was only met with silence.

"Answer me, Fluttershy!" I yelled.

Fluttershy's expression fell and her frown slowly formed into a bigger one and she began to cry. "I'm so sorry..." she said, bringing her hooves to her face to catch her tears. "I'm so sorry, Rainbow Dash..."

Now I felt like a jerk. My anger subsided and I just wanted to hug her, when I tried to, however, she pushed me away. "Figures.." I hissed. I just watched her cry for a bit as the tears came out of me as well. "What are we doing here..?" I asked.

She wiped her eyes and began to speak, her voice shaky. "I'm sorry Rainbow Dash...I just...I don't know what happened." she looked away from me, down on the floor.

My anger may have shrank, but it didn't go away. "Well you better start talking. I'm not some random stallion, Fluttershy." I walked closer to her, my eyes meeting hers. "I'm Rainbow Dash, remember?"

She sniffled and shrugged, giving me a pitiful look. My stomach churned. "The way you were holding back for me and flying..that wasn't right. That's not how relationships work, Dash.." she said, slowly turning away from me. I wanted to follow her but she cringed when she knew I was coming closer. So I stood in that spot, shaking again.

"That didn't matter to me, Fluttershy. None of it did." I insisted. She continued to shake her head.

"Don't you get it, Rainbow?" her dull whispering voice was beginning to rise. She turned to me now, tears bubbling in her eyes down her face. "You need to join the Wonderbolts and live your dream. I have to be here..by myself. I'll be the one back to nothing. That's how it has to be."

I shook my head at her statements. "No..it's not true.."

Fluttershy sniffed hard and continued. "And...and I'm not attracted to mares.." I cringed when she said that.

"I already know..don't remind me." I growled, looking away from her.

"But that had almost nothing to do with it. Kind of..I was so scared because I was falling so hard for you, Rainbow Dash.."

I remained silent, my eyes fixated on her. I waited to hear her excuse.

"But...after a while I...I was afraid that eventually..I would fall out of love with you.." she said with a small frown. She was still crying. "Please believe me, I never intended to hurt you."

My anger was back and I bucked into the air and landed on my two front legs hard. "Then why did you let me believe we'd be together forever?! Why did you tell me you loved me and do all that stuff with me and be affectionate and..you know..." I was sure I didn't have to stress that last point. She was quiet. "Why did you do all this...?"

She shrugged. "I don't know..it was stupid. It would never have worked out, Rainbow." I groaned, rolling my eyes. "Maybe for a time I believed it would...but I was beginning to feel so..." she put her hooves to her chest. "Confused. I felt like if there was ever a day I'd fall out of love with you.." she grew silent and I looked at her, waiting for her to continue. Even though I didn't really want her to. My whole body was trembling and I just wanted to crash and burn again.

"What...?" I asked.

"Don't you see...if I end it now, I'll save both of us the heartbreak..." she said. I neighed loudly and banged my hooves on the ground again.

"Are you serious?! You spared no one heartbreak, Fluttershy! You think you're a saint because you broke up with me 'early'??" I said, quoting. She flinched each time I yelled.

"Well I've got news for you.." I continued. "You didn't spare anyone anything because now I'M heartbroken and you don't give a diamond dog's ass!" I whinnied. She gave me that sad, pathetic look. But all it did was make me angrier. "And if you expect me to stick around Ponyville and continue on as friends with everypony you're wrong on that one too! I was never worth shit to you and I don't think I ever will be!" I began to back away from her. And she watched me, not even attempting to stop me.

"So this is it, huh?! I just leave and never see you and the others again and you'll be okay with that?!"

She shook her head. "I feel awful....it's all my fault..." she said, looking down at the ground, a few stray tears escaping her eyes.

I nodded. "You're damn right it is, Fluttershy! You shouldn't have lead me on in the first place! You should have never've made me love you!" and with that, I began to make my leave. I was a few feet away from the door when she spoke up.

"I've come to terms with this already..." she mumbled. I stopped where I was walking but continued to face the door, my expression contorting from anger to sadness. No. She wouldn't see me cry. Not again.

"I was never as happy with anyone as I was with you. This year was the best year of my life.." she went on. I silently sobbed, trying my best to hold back any noise. I'm sure a few whimpers were heard but I was almost proud of how well I held in any noise.

"I'm so sorry, Rainbow Dash...I'll always remember what we had..."

I let out a long, heavy sob and ran over to the door. "Never talk to me again!" and with that I dashed away from her house, leaving her with her sadness. The storm had almost blew away but there was still an icky overcast over the sky. I was sobbing uncontrollably now and made sure I flew high up in the sky so that nopony would see me or hear me. This was it.

It was really over, wasn't it?

I found a cloud I could rest on and curled up into a ball and continued to cry and sob. "Oh Fluttershy..." I cried. I covered my eyes with my hooves and allowed myself to cry. However, I felt my cloud shift in weight as I felt someone land on it. I flinched and sat up, covering up the fact I was crying. "H-hey! Can't you see I-I'm busy here??" I asked in a semi stable voice, wiping my eyes. I gasped when I saw it was Gilda.

"G-Gilda...?"

Her tired and bitter frown went to another semi wicked smile as she walked over to me. Only this time, I didn't try to back away, I sat on the cloud and lowered my head, allowing more tears to fall. She placed a large, brown wing around me to shelter me from the wind and leaned down to face me. "Make up your mind, Dash?" she asked.

I remained silent. Fluttershy was so dead set on me leaving her. And after the horrible things I said..there was no way she'd want to get back with me now. I ruined everything. I lowered my head more in shame, more tears falling from my eyes. Gilda leaned close and began to wipe my ears with her talons. As much as this repulsed me right now, I continued to let her. I was too tired to do much about it at the moment.

"I've..." I looked up at her, my magenta eyes narrowing into her golden ones. "I've made up my mind, Gilda..." I said. Her smile grew and it was almost frightening. Like a jack-o-lantern's evil grin on halloween it stared right at me.

"I'm going to join the Wonderbolts."