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Due to the length limit of DA and the habit that I always tend to use very long titles,the full title is "20230916 You have said that my life would be threatened someday".

So the making of this image was started the week before last week and it is finished on 2023.09.29. I remembered that the basic structure of this image was made very quickly and the overall distribution of lightness was confirmed within one hour. Since the situation of being in close contact with these normal people who are vulnerable of being sick is really dangerous to myself and I could only make fractal images during holidays and weekends,it's very rewarding to get this fractal image finished.

After the fact that I'm afraid of other people's sickness was exposed,I was partly forced to talk with one of them. To be frank,although I could tell kind words from unkind ones and my instinct always want to cherish people who are kind to me,almost all kind of words and phrases used by anyone else discribe my situation are still offending to me.

And although my instinct had deleted exact details about that dialogue,I still remember that the person who talked to me said something like "at the time when your life would be threatened". There's no doubt that it's really unforgetable to be told that my life will be in danger by anyone else and it was the first time I've heard such an ominous word.

The second time such implication happened was on an lesson which wasn't predicted to be so scary although it appearantly didn't specially refer to me. As a foreign being inside of such special situation,my instinct always tried my best to keep away from the act of ending my life no matter what happens and I'm not integrated with the function of planning such extremely saddening thing,while one person having known my situation has significantly imagined the scene of myself dying...

So the overall dark coloring scheme,these metal strings and the greyscale frame are the impression of other people's pain,my uncertain future and death. The shapes which look like red blood cells were found by chance and it is a direct element representing other people's illness along with some metal pipes on the bottom-left area. I've made some small decorative stuff which are hard to describe but trying to make the whole scene inside the frame look like if it was damaged. Some elements like part of metal strings and red blood cells aren't covered by the frame since compared to other people's sickness around me,these information about death is still in less need of being worried about.

Description
Due to the length limit of DA and the habit that I always tend to use very long titles,the full title is "20230916 You have said that my life would be threatened someday".

So the making of this image was started the week before last week and it is finished on 2023.09.29. I remembered that the basic structure of this image was made very quickly and the overall distribution of lightness was confirmed within one hour. Since the situation of being in close contact with these normal people who are vulnerable of being sick is really dangerous to myself and I could only make fractal images during holidays and weekends,it's very rewarding to get this fractal image finished.

After the fact that I'm afraid of other people's sickness was exposed,I was partly forced to talk with one of them. To be frank,although I could tell kind words from unkind ones and my instinct always want to cherish people who are kind to me,almost all kind of words and phrases used by anyone else discribe my situation are still offending to me.

And although my instinct had deleted exact details about that dialogue,I still remember that the person who talked to me said something like "at the time when your life would be threatened". There's no doubt that it's really unforgetable to be told that my life will be in danger by anyone else and it was the first time I've heard such an ominous word.

The second time such implication happened was on an lesson which wasn't predicted to be so scary although it appearantly didn't specially refer to me. As a foreign being inside of such special situation,my instinct always tried my best to keep away from the act of ending my life no matter what happens and I'm not integrated with the function of planning such extremely saddening thing,while one person having known my situation has significantly imagined the scene of myself dying...

So the overall dark coloring scheme,these metal strings and the greyscale frame are the impression of other people's pain,my uncertain future and death. The shapes which look like red blood cells were found by chance and it is a direct element representing other people's illness along with some metal pipes on the bottom-left area. I've made some small decorative stuff which are hard to describe but trying to make the whole scene inside the frame look like if it was damaged. Some elements like part of metal strings and red blood cells aren't covered by the frame since compared to other people's sickness around me,these information about death is still in less need of being worried about.