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The full title is "20231106 The way of processing unacceptable cognitive destruction is disparagingly named as crying(preview)".

I don't know why I'm still existing and writing this description hurriedly now but this is the second time of having to render and submit an actually unfinished fractal image. During weekdays,I tried to make this image on my laptop and finding that I was able to depict the scene of finding my instinct gets dying in this fractal image by these colors and shapes resembling glass shards. However,these settings of coloring algorithms of these layers constructing glass shards effects were a bit complicated and they've made the speed my laptop responding to my adjustments too slow.

During this weekend,I tried to proceed with finishing this image and I made a lot of more layers ready to form more glass shards effects and even that needs more time than I had. I'm sorry for being so alert of weird interactions from other normal people and I've recalled these two times when my common sense was changed. So many years ago,after these two shifts of common sense did I realized how lucky and healthy I am. So I really don't want these cognition to be destroyed the third time.

As an absolutely lucky and healthy being,I will never suffer from any form of real violence. However, I knew that everytime other people made any interaction related to my special situation, other people would always naturally show misunderstanding in any ways,dealing damage to both that person and me. These reactions were really close to anything violent and they were able to push me to the limit.

Living with minimal dignity had already been requiring other people's extra kindness during most time of my life after these healthiness started. And after receiving more weird interactions,the third time of cognitive destruction will be done and I would eventually be totally mad at that undesirable time. All I want to pray is just delay that moment as more as possible. I'm just wishing that this image will be finished at last and the point of my existence will never be to turn insane or dead.

Description
The full title is "20231106 The way of processing unacceptable cognitive destruction is disparagingly named as crying(preview)".

I don't know why I'm still existing and writing this description hurriedly now but this is the second time of having to render and submit an actually unfinished fractal image. During weekdays,I tried to make this image on my laptop and finding that I was able to depict the scene of finding my instinct gets dying in this fractal image by these colors and shapes resembling glass shards. However,these settings of coloring algorithms of these layers constructing glass shards effects were a bit complicated and they've made the speed my laptop responding to my adjustments too slow.

During this weekend,I tried to proceed with finishing this image and I made a lot of more layers ready to form more glass shards effects and even that needs more time than I had. I'm sorry for being so alert of weird interactions from other normal people and I've recalled these two times when my common sense was changed. So many years ago,after these two shifts of common sense did I realized how lucky and healthy I am. So I really don't want these cognition to be destroyed the third time.

As an absolutely lucky and healthy being,I will never suffer from any form of real violence. However, I knew that everytime other people made any interaction related to my special situation, other people would always naturally show misunderstanding in any ways,dealing damage to both that person and me. These reactions were really close to anything violent and they were able to push me to the limit.

Living with minimal dignity had already been requiring other people's extra kindness during most time of my life after these healthiness started. And after receiving more weird interactions,the third time of cognitive destruction will be done and I would eventually be totally mad at that undesirable time. All I want to pray is just delay that moment as more as possible. I'm just wishing that this image will be finished at last and the point of my existence will never be to turn insane or dead.